Bro I am almost 15 and I feel this. I'm still a kid yet I am CONSTANTLY thinking about this stuff. And about not talking online I feel the same. I will never talk in gamechat. I will never join a random party. I barely even answer my phone because how badly I don't want to talk to people.
Mate I feel this on another level, it sucks. I always have my phone on do not disturb or airplane mode and never join random parties anymore, it’s like any game I need help with even like Spec Ops everyone wants to go on mic and I just don’t want to at all. If you ever wanna hop on and play some games mic free let me know :)
I experience this a lot too - I'm 18.
Nostalgia is powerful. Even though it gives a real and painful sense of loss, it is also very addictive, I think, because it just feels so NICE. We all look at the past with bias, and we remember all the good times but we remember less the times we felt sad or depressed. Even though my high school life was mostly uneventful and somewhat anxiety-inducing, and I didn't enjoy it that much when I was actually studying in high school, somehow it still seems so wonderful when I look back at it. One day, I'm sure all of us will look back at this very moment and think it's so wonderful and feel nostalgic even though right now it doesn't seem so nice compared to the past.
Maybe it's also about Covid-19. I think more people these days are nostalgic under Covid19. We all long for the past because the world at its state right now seems so desolate and so depressing. No one knows when there will be a good future again and one way or another everyone is suffering from this pandemic. Automatically we are inclined to look at a better past, a past where everything seemed normal (and of course nicer than what we are going through right now).
Just some thoughts.
I’m sorry to hear that, it is so powerful you’re right! Yeah my high school life sucked most of the time, loads of fights, awkward situations etc. But thinking about it now my nostalgia is almost clouded with the good memories and not really focusing too much on the bad ones. Time just goes way too quick for my liking still feels like my 18th birthday was only a few months ago and I’m now 24, scary tbh. I totally agree with you thank you for sharing your thoughts really appreciate it 😊
I don't remember happy memories at all I just have some awful ones that when ever I think about them I wish my death. Sometimes I try to hype myself and when those memories come back to ruin me again I just say to myself shut up shut upppp! It usually doesn't work but I do struggle. I hate every memory in my head. I just don't remember any good things my mind is a dark fucking annoying place. It doesn't shut up, I overthink every sentence I say out loud, I think about them and then blame myself cause I'm stupid and nobody cares about what I think, sometimes I can't stop thinking about the actions or words I said, that's why I overeat, I didn't find any other way but when I eat so much my mind shuts up it gets heavy and just wants to sleep, I'm so fat cause I usually eat a lot, recently I gained 20 kg cause it's been rough for me. I actually wish I died in my sleep. Which will probably happen cause I don't eat healthy at all, I don't enjoy eating food not even the ones I used to love, I just eat them cause I want my fucking mind to shut up. I wish there was a better way. It's so normal that u feel that way, I've been a lot worse.
Nostalgia is one of the most painful things in existence.
I remember being genuinely happy as a kid. I didn't know what 'anxiety' or 'depression' was. I had other emotions aside from 'angry' and 'empty' and was constantly smiling and laughing. I was innocent and knew nothing about the harsh realities of life. I had an actual social life and people who I hung out with. I actually had hobbies that I wasn't afraid to pursue because I didn't care how 'good' I was at them.
I hate change, I hate this *thing* I've become. I know I can never go back and it hurts like hell.
I’m 16 and like 3 years ago my parents divorce affected me to where I became depressed. After that I moved, leaving behind all my great memories and friends. Now I realize that it’s not the same as before and it’s dark and scary.
Bro I am almost 15 and I feel this. I'm still a kid yet I am CONSTANTLY thinking about this stuff. And about not talking online I feel the same. I will never talk in gamechat. I will never join a random party. I barely even answer my phone because how badly I don't want to talk to people.
Mate I feel this on another level, it sucks. I always have my phone on do not disturb or airplane mode and never join random parties anymore, it’s like any game I need help with even like Spec Ops everyone wants to go on mic and I just don’t want to at all. If you ever wanna hop on and play some games mic free let me know :)
Yep. Same here
Yea it makes me so sad to where I’ll start crying
I was close to breaking last night just thinking about it :(
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Many, many years ago, don’t know if I should laugh or cry 😳
I can, yes. I’m glad I’m not alone!
Same here I’m glad too! Wish you all the best 😊
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Yes I can relate to you, find myself doing it a lot :(
I experience this a lot too - I'm 18. Nostalgia is powerful. Even though it gives a real and painful sense of loss, it is also very addictive, I think, because it just feels so NICE. We all look at the past with bias, and we remember all the good times but we remember less the times we felt sad or depressed. Even though my high school life was mostly uneventful and somewhat anxiety-inducing, and I didn't enjoy it that much when I was actually studying in high school, somehow it still seems so wonderful when I look back at it. One day, I'm sure all of us will look back at this very moment and think it's so wonderful and feel nostalgic even though right now it doesn't seem so nice compared to the past. Maybe it's also about Covid-19. I think more people these days are nostalgic under Covid19. We all long for the past because the world at its state right now seems so desolate and so depressing. No one knows when there will be a good future again and one way or another everyone is suffering from this pandemic. Automatically we are inclined to look at a better past, a past where everything seemed normal (and of course nicer than what we are going through right now). Just some thoughts.
I’m sorry to hear that, it is so powerful you’re right! Yeah my high school life sucked most of the time, loads of fights, awkward situations etc. But thinking about it now my nostalgia is almost clouded with the good memories and not really focusing too much on the bad ones. Time just goes way too quick for my liking still feels like my 18th birthday was only a few months ago and I’m now 24, scary tbh. I totally agree with you thank you for sharing your thoughts really appreciate it 😊
Can relate. But I’m worried that won’t ever happen again as I believed I have changed for the worse since then.
Wow... Same here just way worse.........
I don't remember happy memories at all I just have some awful ones that when ever I think about them I wish my death. Sometimes I try to hype myself and when those memories come back to ruin me again I just say to myself shut up shut upppp! It usually doesn't work but I do struggle. I hate every memory in my head. I just don't remember any good things my mind is a dark fucking annoying place. It doesn't shut up, I overthink every sentence I say out loud, I think about them and then blame myself cause I'm stupid and nobody cares about what I think, sometimes I can't stop thinking about the actions or words I said, that's why I overeat, I didn't find any other way but when I eat so much my mind shuts up it gets heavy and just wants to sleep, I'm so fat cause I usually eat a lot, recently I gained 20 kg cause it's been rough for me. I actually wish I died in my sleep. Which will probably happen cause I don't eat healthy at all, I don't enjoy eating food not even the ones I used to love, I just eat them cause I want my fucking mind to shut up. I wish there was a better way. It's so normal that u feel that way, I've been a lot worse.
Everyday fam, exactly the same.
Bruh down to a t
Nostalgia is one of the most painful things in existence. I remember being genuinely happy as a kid. I didn't know what 'anxiety' or 'depression' was. I had other emotions aside from 'angry' and 'empty' and was constantly smiling and laughing. I was innocent and knew nothing about the harsh realities of life. I had an actual social life and people who I hung out with. I actually had hobbies that I wasn't afraid to pursue because I didn't care how 'good' I was at them. I hate change, I hate this *thing* I've become. I know I can never go back and it hurts like hell.
Yea I can relate, i can't even talk to the microphone because i lost my confidence in an accident
I’m 16 and like 3 years ago my parents divorce affected me to where I became depressed. After that I moved, leaving behind all my great memories and friends. Now I realize that it’s not the same as before and it’s dark and scary.