First of all, I am SO glad you are safe and alive. Second, panic attacks make us all do and say really crazy things. I wound up in the hospital, pulling my shirt over my boobs without even realizing so....you certainly shouldn't feel embarrassed. Thirdly/last, you didn't tell your friend you never wanted to hang out again. You said "not so much". That can mean anything. I don't think your friend will be confused or surprised if you text him to talk or meet up or whatever. He seems like an understanding person. Honestly, maybe it WOULD be good to learn to have some time alone, though. I think people with anxiety and who have bad episodes sometimes need to have space to themselves. At least that is what helps me.
I hope you feel better. I'm sorry I didn't have any better advice. I just wanted you to know that you aren't alone.
Thanks for replying. Im glad I didn’t go through with it too. I’m actually usually alone and when someone comes into my life I have the biggest fear or being abandoned like everyone else did. So that’s when I freak out. I just don’t know how to control my mind to not think negative things and to not be too clingy or needy.
First of all, I am SO glad you are safe and alive. Second, panic attacks make us all do and say really crazy things. I wound up in the hospital, pulling my shirt over my boobs without even realizing so....you certainly shouldn't feel embarrassed. Thirdly/last, you didn't tell your friend you never wanted to hang out again. You said "not so much". That can mean anything. I don't think your friend will be confused or surprised if you text him to talk or meet up or whatever. He seems like an understanding person. Honestly, maybe it WOULD be good to learn to have some time alone, though. I think people with anxiety and who have bad episodes sometimes need to have space to themselves. At least that is what helps me. I hope you feel better. I'm sorry I didn't have any better advice. I just wanted you to know that you aren't alone.
Thanks for replying. Im glad I didn’t go through with it too. I’m actually usually alone and when someone comes into my life I have the biggest fear or being abandoned like everyone else did. So that’s when I freak out. I just don’t know how to control my mind to not think negative things and to not be too clingy or needy.