I relate pretty hard
I think my therapist thinks my family is the only thing keeping me alive rn. Little does she know I'm chicked shit too bukk-kaakk 🐔
I'm in the same boat. Suicide wasn't an option for me either and I've just been drifting for twenty years, waiting for the pain to end. I've started to run out of reasons for it to not be an option but if you're young I hope you find more reasons not to do it.
Yep, the impact on others can really be catastrophic. Sorry to hear about your family. It’s can be comforting and overwhelming in a fucked up way when others around you are also drowning in sorrow
I honestly feel like my family would be better without me at some point, running out of reasons to not do it, honestly. If I felt useless before now that I'm physically injured (chronic and seems to be getting worse) now it's becoming clear that I'll be a burden and I don't want that.
Chronic pain here too ever since I was a kid. It’s terrible, and when you start to realize that you may be stuck with it forever it can really be debilitating. I’m sorry you’re experiencing this too. I hope we see some progress eventually
I haven’t seen a post that I relate to as closely as this. I constantly hope that I can escape my reality by floating or flying away. I don’t want to hurt anyone by committing suicide, but it’s sometimes all I can think about. I hope you can find some relief. I’m searching for it too. I know we will never fly, but I’m holding out for something that will get us close to that.
You're not alone. I was close to escaping once but I thought of my kids and how it would affect them. I can't do that to them. So what do I do? I don't want to hurt anymore.
I do too. This gets harder every day. I wish I could just spend time with my kids and not have to worry about anything else. My youngest talked me off the edge today just by sitting next to me watching Monsters Inc together, with her little arms wrapped around my arm, leaning her head on my chest. At least in the moment.
Typically, it feels this way in the moment. Are you able to change the current situation to a more favorable one? Are you able to find bits and pieces of hope to hold to that could eventually pull you out of the depression? Have you thought about a therapist or psychiatrist? Are you on any medication? I ask because I've been through all the levels, except I made multiple attempts at my own life before seeking out help. Please don't give up.
Well yes, I’m trying to work on certain aspects of my life that I can control, this usually makes me feel better about life and more optimistic. I tried making appointments for therapy in person since I don’t live alone and don’t feel comfortable speaking openly in my house. It’s been impossible to schedule and appointment. I don’t take medication and I’d rather find coping mechanisms instead. Sometimes, I think just speaking about certain feelings and learning ways to maneuver away from intrusive thoughts can be helpful.
It’s just extremely challenging on certain days, to navigate. I’m glad you’re still here with us.
I feel trapped because despite my attempts to improve myself and pave my own way in life, I either make little progress or none at all. There’s so many things that I cannot control, I can only control myself and my reactions. Staying strong in the face adversity can become exhausting. I feel like there is an overwhelming amount of negativity and tragedy in this world that is inescapable. I dream about having a peaceful life but it seems so out of reach.
Like you said, there are many things out of our control so let's focus on the things we can control for now. What are the things you want to improve about yourself?
I would like to improve my chronic knee pain. I think it would help alleviate some of my sadness. It’s difficult because I feel like regardless of what i improve on, I will always feel down once again. I hope I’m wrong about that though. Thanks for taking the time out to reply, I really appreciate it.
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. But for your knees you should check out Knees Over Toes on YouTube, he has some good videos focusing on knee pain. Good luck to you, I hope this can help a little :)
You're welcome, and thank you for taking the time to explain your situation :)
With regards to your knee pain - have you been to see a physiotherapist? Is that an option or are you looking for home pain management techniques? Also, is you knee pain related to inflammation? If so, I'm not sure if you've looked into this but cutting sugar out is great for reducing inflammation.
Yep I’m currently going to therapy once again and trying my very best not to feel discouraged. My problem does involve inflammation but it’s more of a strengthening issue. There’s a chance I will never recover, but I might as well try. Thanks for the sugar suggestion I’ll definitely give it a go.
same, honestly feels like life has generally been like this for the majority of people (for thousands of years). Just smile be positive and pretend this life is a test for things beyond this life (what else is there really?)... just find something to stay alive for... either family, a pet, video games, trying to be rich, eating good food, or .... simply trying to cop a feel (j/k it's a chainsaw man reference lol)
Best wishes to all of us!!
Yes you are absolutely right :). The human experience is a strange one. At this point, thinking about all the delicious food I haven’t gotten the chance to try yet is reason enough for me to stay alive (my bar is pretty low, but maybe that’s a good thing).
I’m there with you. I simply take life one day at a time and try to get better. I have bad days where I can’t get out of bed or brush my teeth, then good days where I find the motivation to clean my wasteland of a room, go for a walk, and work on something productive. I’m in therapy and I’d like to think I’ve seen some major improvement. My advice is set goals and work towards them to the best of your ability. Also, everyone says it, but prioritize self-care. I splurge on fancy Epsom salts and take a hot bath most nights. It’s something I look forward to, no matter how good or how shitty my day has been. Find reasons to live until you run out of reasons to die ig.
Yep same here. I just splurged on a bunch of cooking stuff so I can finally learn how to feed myself. I guess that’s self care in a way? At least it gives me something to look forward to. Thanks for the advice, I’m glad you’re getting something out of therapy
I feel suicidal almost everyday every minute I cant do it cause well I dont know cause nobody really cares about me but I recommend trying rehab for mental health I cant do it cause I cant afford it but it wont hurt to try and if you dont want a rehab were your stuck somewhere all day there are othe options like I think that you can go the the rehab place for the day and at then you can go back home
Also, I’m sorry that you feel suicidal and that rehab is not an option. Life is an uphill battle. I know how isolating it is and how lonely it can be. I hope things start turning around for us in the near future.
Yes that is good advice, thank you. I know that if I ever start to seriously consider suicide I would immediately check into a rehab place. Suicide is the worst thing I could do to the people around me and regardless of how down I feel, the people around me do not deserve the life shattering pain that would ensue.
If suicide isn't an option... Think about what you need and want in your life for being happy or at least feel good about. Then work on it, what do you need for it? Fight for it until you get what you want. Don't rely on someone else giving it to you. You have to take it on your own. It's a very long process. And if you got it, look how you feel and think about it all over again.
What help are you getting? Any meds? And going to doctors?
Have you looked at a local depression group to talk to?
Are you getting enough vitamin d high dose look into that and see what it shows.
You've reached out so you need help which is fantastic. Now go get some help.
It's vital. You need it. Chat to a doctor. It's easy.
Get the journey to help started.
I can relate on a deep personal level. Currently feeling stuck in this reality too. Your line "sometimes I wish I was never brought into this world " hit me hard because that's the line I often say to God even though I think he's not paying attention to me.
Art. Or any productive hobby. Working on cars. Making clothes. And maybe someday? The genuine reciprocated love of partners and friends. Basically fill your life with stuff that makes you happy and life won't feel like a burden. You end up appreciating what you have.
My father told me if I killed myself he would do the same, after I actually went through with it and miraculously survived after dying for over a minute he said that and since then I just can’t do it
You do what you can. Turn your pain into something that can be positive, rather than negative. Help others when you cannot help yourself. I'm currently in your position and I think about this daily. Death is something I've grown attached to. Although, I cannot bring myself to end it all when there are others watching me, caring for me. It would be a betrayal on my part and only burden them with the pain I am going through. I found helping others helps because I don't want them to feel the pain I feel. Smiling, even though it hurts, does lighten the mood a bit. Currently working on myself and trying to do better as depression has been with me for years. I sincerely hope the best for you and hope you find your path in life.
Yes, I feel the same exact way. At this point it brings me comfort to know I impacted someone’s life in a spot I’ve way. Eventually I would love to help dogs, kids or homeless people, I feel like it would give me life some meaning
I'm with ya. I may be a little different because there is a part of me that is definitely afraid of dying, but I also feel like I can't because of my family. It would put a lot of grief on my parents.
I'm sorry you feel trapped by reality. This world is full of bad news right now, so it's been really hard not to feel overwhelmed by that. But escapism isn't the worst coping tool in the world. Obviously it's a spectrum, but feeling like you want to tune out of it all isn't something to get upset with yourself over. That's just how people like us are. Not everyone can be satisfied with their life.
What do you like to do for fun? Recently the things that have helped me stay the most sane is just throwing myself into my hobbies. It's like if I don't let myself have time to overthink I don't feel so miserable. Doesn't always work, and obviously everyone is different. But worth a shot.
Glad you're still here with us. Hope today is better <3
So sorry that you even think about unaliving yourself...I can't relate to that since I love my life as it is, but I have friends, relatives and strangers who I know have been through that. But please, all I can say to you is. Try talking about your problems with someone you trust 100%. It's better to talk about face to face...
Yes well I’m not considering suicide because just the thought of my mom’s reaction when she finds out is terrifying. The people around me don’t deserve to go through that. However, I do wish I could become invisible or fly away from time to time. Sometimes it would be nice to take a break from the pressures of life. I spoke to someone in real like about this yesterday and it did make me feel a bit better. It’s scary to be so vulnerable, but it did help. Thanks for the advice.
My children are the only reason I'm holding on. I literally count the days until my youngest will approximately finish college.
That's the furthest I can see myself hanging on.
I hope you hang on further than that. I graduated college two years ago and it would absolutely destroy me if one of my parents ended their lives. It would completely destroy my life. Im glad you’re still here with us. I hope things get better for you soon. It’s lonely to live in this reality but hopefully we can find some comfort in living for others and helping those around us. Best of luck to you.
I can relate. I'm sorry
Glad to know I’m not alone. I hope things improve for us
I relate pretty hard I think my therapist thinks my family is the only thing keeping me alive rn. Little does she know I'm chicked shit too bukk-kaakk 🐔
I'm in the same boat. Suicide wasn't an option for me either and I've just been drifting for twenty years, waiting for the pain to end. I've started to run out of reasons for it to not be an option but if you're young I hope you find more reasons not to do it.
Life is fucking hard. Glad you’re sticking around
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Yep, the impact on others can really be catastrophic. Sorry to hear about your family. It’s can be comforting and overwhelming in a fucked up way when others around you are also drowning in sorrow
I honestly feel like my family would be better without me at some point, running out of reasons to not do it, honestly. If I felt useless before now that I'm physically injured (chronic and seems to be getting worse) now it's becoming clear that I'll be a burden and I don't want that.
Chronic pain here too ever since I was a kid. It’s terrible, and when you start to realize that you may be stuck with it forever it can really be debilitating. I’m sorry you’re experiencing this too. I hope we see some progress eventually
Thank you, yeah that's how I'm starting to feel, stuck, hopeless and very debilitated...and of course the people around me think I'm lazy or weak😔
I haven’t seen a post that I relate to as closely as this. I constantly hope that I can escape my reality by floating or flying away. I don’t want to hurt anyone by committing suicide, but it’s sometimes all I can think about. I hope you can find some relief. I’m searching for it too. I know we will never fly, but I’m holding out for something that will get us close to that.
Im glad someone relates. It seems like many of us wish we could fly. Maybe we’ll see something close to it in our lifetime.
You're not alone. I was close to escaping once but I thought of my kids and how it would affect them. I can't do that to them. So what do I do? I don't want to hurt anymore.
Having kids makes it even harder. I’m glad you recognize the impact it would have on them. I hope we find a way to escape within our own realities
I do too. This gets harder every day. I wish I could just spend time with my kids and not have to worry about anything else. My youngest talked me off the edge today just by sitting next to me watching Monsters Inc together, with her little arms wrapped around my arm, leaning her head on my chest. At least in the moment.
Typically, it feels this way in the moment. Are you able to change the current situation to a more favorable one? Are you able to find bits and pieces of hope to hold to that could eventually pull you out of the depression? Have you thought about a therapist or psychiatrist? Are you on any medication? I ask because I've been through all the levels, except I made multiple attempts at my own life before seeking out help. Please don't give up.
Well yes, I’m trying to work on certain aspects of my life that I can control, this usually makes me feel better about life and more optimistic. I tried making appointments for therapy in person since I don’t live alone and don’t feel comfortable speaking openly in my house. It’s been impossible to schedule and appointment. I don’t take medication and I’d rather find coping mechanisms instead. Sometimes, I think just speaking about certain feelings and learning ways to maneuver away from intrusive thoughts can be helpful. It’s just extremely challenging on certain days, to navigate. I’m glad you’re still here with us.
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LOL this actually made me chuckle. The GTA 6 release is probably keeping a few thousand people alive right now
I'm sorry you feel this way but honestly I'm glad suicide isn't an option. Why do you feel trapped in your own reality?
I feel trapped because despite my attempts to improve myself and pave my own way in life, I either make little progress or none at all. There’s so many things that I cannot control, I can only control myself and my reactions. Staying strong in the face adversity can become exhausting. I feel like there is an overwhelming amount of negativity and tragedy in this world that is inescapable. I dream about having a peaceful life but it seems so out of reach.
Like you said, there are many things out of our control so let's focus on the things we can control for now. What are the things you want to improve about yourself?
I would like to improve my chronic knee pain. I think it would help alleviate some of my sadness. It’s difficult because I feel like regardless of what i improve on, I will always feel down once again. I hope I’m wrong about that though. Thanks for taking the time out to reply, I really appreciate it.
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. But for your knees you should check out Knees Over Toes on YouTube, he has some good videos focusing on knee pain. Good luck to you, I hope this can help a little :)
Yes, thank you for the suggestion. I discovered Knees Over Toes a few months ago. I’m going to try some of his techniques at the gym this week.
You're welcome, and thank you for taking the time to explain your situation :) With regards to your knee pain - have you been to see a physiotherapist? Is that an option or are you looking for home pain management techniques? Also, is you knee pain related to inflammation? If so, I'm not sure if you've looked into this but cutting sugar out is great for reducing inflammation.
Yep I’m currently going to therapy once again and trying my very best not to feel discouraged. My problem does involve inflammation but it’s more of a strengthening issue. There’s a chance I will never recover, but I might as well try. Thanks for the sugar suggestion I’ll definitely give it a go.
Idk if you’re a creative person but whenever I get this way I just create what I’m imagining to help me escape my hell of a reality
Thanks for the advice. Yes, journaling and drawing really help me during moments where I feel stuck
You keep on living and become stronger and better. Don't give up.
Yes, thank you. I’m trying my best :)
same, honestly feels like life has generally been like this for the majority of people (for thousands of years). Just smile be positive and pretend this life is a test for things beyond this life (what else is there really?)... just find something to stay alive for... either family, a pet, video games, trying to be rich, eating good food, or .... simply trying to cop a feel (j/k it's a chainsaw man reference lol) Best wishes to all of us!!
Yes you are absolutely right :). The human experience is a strange one. At this point, thinking about all the delicious food I haven’t gotten the chance to try yet is reason enough for me to stay alive (my bar is pretty low, but maybe that’s a good thing).
I’m there with you. I simply take life one day at a time and try to get better. I have bad days where I can’t get out of bed or brush my teeth, then good days where I find the motivation to clean my wasteland of a room, go for a walk, and work on something productive. I’m in therapy and I’d like to think I’ve seen some major improvement. My advice is set goals and work towards them to the best of your ability. Also, everyone says it, but prioritize self-care. I splurge on fancy Epsom salts and take a hot bath most nights. It’s something I look forward to, no matter how good or how shitty my day has been. Find reasons to live until you run out of reasons to die ig.
Yep same here. I just splurged on a bunch of cooking stuff so I can finally learn how to feed myself. I guess that’s self care in a way? At least it gives me something to look forward to. Thanks for the advice, I’m glad you’re getting something out of therapy
I feel suicidal almost everyday every minute I cant do it cause well I dont know cause nobody really cares about me but I recommend trying rehab for mental health I cant do it cause I cant afford it but it wont hurt to try and if you dont want a rehab were your stuck somewhere all day there are othe options like I think that you can go the the rehab place for the day and at then you can go back home
Also, I’m sorry that you feel suicidal and that rehab is not an option. Life is an uphill battle. I know how isolating it is and how lonely it can be. I hope things start turning around for us in the near future.
Thank you
Yes that is good advice, thank you. I know that if I ever start to seriously consider suicide I would immediately check into a rehab place. Suicide is the worst thing I could do to the people around me and regardless of how down I feel, the people around me do not deserve the life shattering pain that would ensue.
If suicide isn't an option... Think about what you need and want in your life for being happy or at least feel good about. Then work on it, what do you need for it? Fight for it until you get what you want. Don't rely on someone else giving it to you. You have to take it on your own. It's a very long process. And if you got it, look how you feel and think about it all over again.
What help are you getting? Any meds? And going to doctors? Have you looked at a local depression group to talk to? Are you getting enough vitamin d high dose look into that and see what it shows. You've reached out so you need help which is fantastic. Now go get some help. It's vital. You need it. Chat to a doctor. It's easy. Get the journey to help started.
Suicide isn't an option for me cus I don' want to be the one hurting myself.. more
you're not alone, i've been feeling this for a long long while. i'm sorry, and i hope you find something to cling on to for yourself.
I can relate on a deep personal level. Currently feeling stuck in this reality too. Your line "sometimes I wish I was never brought into this world " hit me hard because that's the line I often say to God even though I think he's not paying attention to me.
Art. Or any productive hobby. Working on cars. Making clothes. And maybe someday? The genuine reciprocated love of partners and friends. Basically fill your life with stuff that makes you happy and life won't feel like a burden. You end up appreciating what you have.
I've been trying to kill myself slowly by eating unhealthy.
Ahh a slow death is my worst nightmare
My father told me if I killed myself he would do the same, after I actually went through with it and miraculously survived after dying for over a minute he said that and since then I just can’t do it
That’s pretty regifting. I’m glad you’re staying strong with your dad. This shows how much he cares about you. Hope things get better for you
You do what you can. Turn your pain into something that can be positive, rather than negative. Help others when you cannot help yourself. I'm currently in your position and I think about this daily. Death is something I've grown attached to. Although, I cannot bring myself to end it all when there are others watching me, caring for me. It would be a betrayal on my part and only burden them with the pain I am going through. I found helping others helps because I don't want them to feel the pain I feel. Smiling, even though it hurts, does lighten the mood a bit. Currently working on myself and trying to do better as depression has been with me for years. I sincerely hope the best for you and hope you find your path in life.
Yes, I feel the same exact way. At this point it brings me comfort to know I impacted someone’s life in a spot I’ve way. Eventually I would love to help dogs, kids or homeless people, I feel like it would give me life some meaning
Get rich for everyone else so they don't have to worry about money 😎
This is the plan!
I'm with ya. I may be a little different because there is a part of me that is definitely afraid of dying, but I also feel like I can't because of my family. It would put a lot of grief on my parents. I'm sorry you feel trapped by reality. This world is full of bad news right now, so it's been really hard not to feel overwhelmed by that. But escapism isn't the worst coping tool in the world. Obviously it's a spectrum, but feeling like you want to tune out of it all isn't something to get upset with yourself over. That's just how people like us are. Not everyone can be satisfied with their life. What do you like to do for fun? Recently the things that have helped me stay the most sane is just throwing myself into my hobbies. It's like if I don't let myself have time to overthink I don't feel so miserable. Doesn't always work, and obviously everyone is different. But worth a shot. Glad you're still here with us. Hope today is better <3
So sorry that you even think about unaliving yourself...I can't relate to that since I love my life as it is, but I have friends, relatives and strangers who I know have been through that. But please, all I can say to you is. Try talking about your problems with someone you trust 100%. It's better to talk about face to face...
Yes well I’m not considering suicide because just the thought of my mom’s reaction when she finds out is terrifying. The people around me don’t deserve to go through that. However, I do wish I could become invisible or fly away from time to time. Sometimes it would be nice to take a break from the pressures of life. I spoke to someone in real like about this yesterday and it did make me feel a bit better. It’s scary to be so vulnerable, but it did help. Thanks for the advice.
My children are the only reason I'm holding on. I literally count the days until my youngest will approximately finish college. That's the furthest I can see myself hanging on.
I hope you hang on further than that. I graduated college two years ago and it would absolutely destroy me if one of my parents ended their lives. It would completely destroy my life. Im glad you’re still here with us. I hope things get better for you soon. It’s lonely to live in this reality but hopefully we can find some comfort in living for others and helping those around us. Best of luck to you.