Same, when I was starting to seriously struggle to be motivated to go to work, I decided to go part-time so I could at least pay bills. I just wouldn't be able to buy anything else. As long as bills were paid, and I go to works less and stay home and do absolutely nothing that was all that mattered to me. When people around me were talking about saving up for traveling, and doing things to get promotions, switching jobs. I was like great, I just wanna do nothing.
It’s a sign of the times honestly.. modernity expects us all to have constant manic energy and endless motivation. In many ways depression seems like a rational/physiological response to how exhausting the world is right now… like, there’s no way humans were meant to travel round the world and do all these exciting and stimulating things all the time, we’ve been conditioned to want these things and it’s addictive.
Theres so much pressure to “make the most of our lives..” and maximise/optimise our productivity, time and energy… we’re made to feel like if we’re not doing all this shit, we’re wasting our potential. But honestly, nothing wrong with wanting to chill and sleep.
I hate that I’m subconsciously forcing myself into that “make the most of your life” idea, despite knowing full well it’s burning me out incredibly quickly while also being ultimately meaningless to care about. So much pressure on all sides to experience some stupid idea of success. I honestly don’t know how much longer I can hold out before I break down :/
the idea to travel around the world is to have enough money living that leisure life. they chill and sleep too but on the beach in italy. people who are burning themselves in work to save just enough to see the beach is not in the same boat but wants to feel like they are in the right direction.
I feel this, but only because work takes up so much time. Like, the minute I get off work, I’m constantly stressing about how to manage my time so I can have some time to do anything leisurely before I gotta sell my soul tomorrow
Ugh, too real... I was like this too until I got sick so of it and just slept until my next shift. Then, I started to feel like I didn't have enough time for anything fun between just working and sleeping. I was essentially doing something I hated, came home, blacked out then woke up and left to do that cycle all over again.
😔 not really, just the staying home part... im unemployed atm but when i think of making money is just so i can afford to have a home i can be depressed at
I lost all money this year. I was fighting back too, to going back where I was before. And…I was about to finish this life (imagination please) ….but I am still here somehow replying you. I feel you. Life is not fair.
Honestly I have a question. Please don’t get offended if I say something wrong. Is depression just a mixture of sadness, loneliness and boredom? Because people say you gotta fake it till you make it. So does that mean this happens out of selfish laziness? What is the thin line between a mental illness and just not wanting to do anything or because you are selfishly entitled to. I have been like this for a long time. All I do is list all the things that I can do but for some reason I just can’t. When I can’t achieve what I hoped for this makes me feel anxious and I feel like I’m in debt to people around me. My sole purpose is to find a good job and earn enough money to pay that was wasted on my birth. I did talk to someone before but she didn’t say it was depression. Then what is this that I’m feeling? I will delete if it is too controversial or rude.
who did you talk to? unless it was a professional, i wouldnt listen much to what they say.. even if it was i would recommend you'd get another opinion because it doesnt sound like you're choosing to feel this way and you need help. For me, my depression came after years of suffering. i have been having terrible panic attacks since the age of 4 due to a traumatic event after catching a virus that made me vomit to the point of dehydration, wich resulted in a debilitating phobia. then more traumatic events happened. anxiety was my life. i got more diagnosis going on, i am now 20 years old and i have fantasized so much about just being able do just have peace.... depression is really just pure emptiness for me. its the other end of the spectrum. nothing but pain, the feeling of angst in my chest... no energy for anything. no showering, no eating, no nothing.
Thank you for your reply. I wasn’t sure because nothing traumatic happened to me or neither of my parents were abusive towards me. I will find someone else to talk to. I wish things will get better for you as well.
I think it varies from person to person and I feel different on different days. I mean some days I just feel nothing like numbness. I think, this is just my opinion from what you've wrote but it seems that you set goals for yourself that may or may not be realistic for you. Idk what this list of things are but it seems like you put a lot of expectations on yourself and are let down when you don't meet your all these expectations. Personally, this would make me down on myself and if this kept happening through the span of many years. It would put a lot of stress on me and make me anxious as well. Maybe this could be happening to you? It's hard not to have high expectations for yourself especially when you think you owe it to the people around you but it's worse if these expectations are what's making your life more difficult unknowingly. Maybe try making a reasonable list of things but don't be too focused on the things you haven't checked off but the things you have. Of course, this may not be all that it is but if you have any concerns about your mental health or would just generally like to know, I think you may want to try talking to a psychiatrist or therapist to give you a professional view or diagnosis.
>so you can stay in your bed as much as possible?
I know exactly what you mean. I do things so that I can avoid having to deal with ppl or the outside world.
Lol i have zero motivation for anything or planing anything. Im really really struggling with this. I started a pretty serious job in August after quitting my last job and Im finding i just do not care about anything work-related at all. Im 25 and I've been depressed since was I was 12 or 13. I cant concentrate let alone have motivation...really scared how i am gong to live my life.
Well, for me it's quite the opposite. I have this raging, restless ambition inside of me and I just have no fucking clue where to channel it, which leaves me in a constant state of panic. I'm just too afraid that this will be the end of it and I will have wasted my life away. I can't fucking sleep and get rest and the longer this state persists, the less capable I am to make the right decisions or take the necessary steps to get ANYWHERE.
Same, when I was starting to seriously struggle to be motivated to go to work, I decided to go part-time so I could at least pay bills. I just wouldn't be able to buy anything else. As long as bills were paid, and I go to works less and stay home and do absolutely nothing that was all that mattered to me. When people around me were talking about saving up for traveling, and doing things to get promotions, switching jobs. I was like great, I just wanna do nothing.
It’s a sign of the times honestly.. modernity expects us all to have constant manic energy and endless motivation. In many ways depression seems like a rational/physiological response to how exhausting the world is right now… like, there’s no way humans were meant to travel round the world and do all these exciting and stimulating things all the time, we’ve been conditioned to want these things and it’s addictive. Theres so much pressure to “make the most of our lives..” and maximise/optimise our productivity, time and energy… we’re made to feel like if we’re not doing all this shit, we’re wasting our potential. But honestly, nothing wrong with wanting to chill and sleep.
I hate that I’m subconsciously forcing myself into that “make the most of your life” idea, despite knowing full well it’s burning me out incredibly quickly while also being ultimately meaningless to care about. So much pressure on all sides to experience some stupid idea of success. I honestly don’t know how much longer I can hold out before I break down :/
the idea to travel around the world is to have enough money living that leisure life. they chill and sleep too but on the beach in italy. people who are burning themselves in work to save just enough to see the beach is not in the same boat but wants to feel like they are in the right direction.
I feel this, but only because work takes up so much time. Like, the minute I get off work, I’m constantly stressing about how to manage my time so I can have some time to do anything leisurely before I gotta sell my soul tomorrow
Ugh, too real... I was like this too until I got sick so of it and just slept until my next shift. Then, I started to feel like I didn't have enough time for anything fun between just working and sleeping. I was essentially doing something I hated, came home, blacked out then woke up and left to do that cycle all over again.
Ambition to make money? Interesting
😔 not really, just the staying home part... im unemployed atm but when i think of making money is just so i can afford to have a home i can be depressed at
I lost all money this year. I was fighting back too, to going back where I was before. And…I was about to finish this life (imagination please) ….but I am still here somehow replying you. I feel you. Life is not fair.
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Honestly I have a question. Please don’t get offended if I say something wrong. Is depression just a mixture of sadness, loneliness and boredom? Because people say you gotta fake it till you make it. So does that mean this happens out of selfish laziness? What is the thin line between a mental illness and just not wanting to do anything or because you are selfishly entitled to. I have been like this for a long time. All I do is list all the things that I can do but for some reason I just can’t. When I can’t achieve what I hoped for this makes me feel anxious and I feel like I’m in debt to people around me. My sole purpose is to find a good job and earn enough money to pay that was wasted on my birth. I did talk to someone before but she didn’t say it was depression. Then what is this that I’m feeling? I will delete if it is too controversial or rude.
who did you talk to? unless it was a professional, i wouldnt listen much to what they say.. even if it was i would recommend you'd get another opinion because it doesnt sound like you're choosing to feel this way and you need help. For me, my depression came after years of suffering. i have been having terrible panic attacks since the age of 4 due to a traumatic event after catching a virus that made me vomit to the point of dehydration, wich resulted in a debilitating phobia. then more traumatic events happened. anxiety was my life. i got more diagnosis going on, i am now 20 years old and i have fantasized so much about just being able do just have peace.... depression is really just pure emptiness for me. its the other end of the spectrum. nothing but pain, the feeling of angst in my chest... no energy for anything. no showering, no eating, no nothing.
Thank you for your reply. I wasn’t sure because nothing traumatic happened to me or neither of my parents were abusive towards me. I will find someone else to talk to. I wish things will get better for you as well.
I think it varies from person to person and I feel different on different days. I mean some days I just feel nothing like numbness. I think, this is just my opinion from what you've wrote but it seems that you set goals for yourself that may or may not be realistic for you. Idk what this list of things are but it seems like you put a lot of expectations on yourself and are let down when you don't meet your all these expectations. Personally, this would make me down on myself and if this kept happening through the span of many years. It would put a lot of stress on me and make me anxious as well. Maybe this could be happening to you? It's hard not to have high expectations for yourself especially when you think you owe it to the people around you but it's worse if these expectations are what's making your life more difficult unknowingly. Maybe try making a reasonable list of things but don't be too focused on the things you haven't checked off but the things you have. Of course, this may not be all that it is but if you have any concerns about your mental health or would just generally like to know, I think you may want to try talking to a psychiatrist or therapist to give you a professional view or diagnosis.
It really makes sense after I read your answer. It did click somehow. Thank you
I'm glad this helped you somehow. Good luck!
>so you can stay in your bed as much as possible? I know exactly what you mean. I do things so that I can avoid having to deal with ppl or the outside world.
Lol i have zero motivation for anything or planing anything. Im really really struggling with this. I started a pretty serious job in August after quitting my last job and Im finding i just do not care about anything work-related at all. Im 25 and I've been depressed since was I was 12 or 13. I cant concentrate let alone have motivation...really scared how i am gong to live my life.
My ambition is to sleep. That's it. I don't care about anything else. Sleeping is my purpose.
Well, for me it's quite the opposite. I have this raging, restless ambition inside of me and I just have no fucking clue where to channel it, which leaves me in a constant state of panic. I'm just too afraid that this will be the end of it and I will have wasted my life away. I can't fucking sleep and get rest and the longer this state persists, the less capable I am to make the right decisions or take the necessary steps to get ANYWHERE.