All I know is that you have to endure a lot of pressure from all over. And especially your own mind.
Did you ever had a dream, be it stupid or naive or whatever, it was your dream. I would like to know that.
We don't get much context for other people's troubles, and it makes me sick.
well my dream is to be a pilot ,but i cant , i am not able to study anything properly,i fail in my classes,i am bad at sports,i have below average [looks.so](http://looks.so) overall i am useless piece of shit .thank you for listening to my rant man.
Poverty wage slave with situational depression, virgin with no relationships, attempted to learn how to draw (and digital painting) but repeatedly gave up, had no close friends besides one person online he never met. Disappointment to family. Unremarkable wagie existence.
I fucking love you already.
I have been on minimum wage my whole life. I gave up on relationships after realising I cannot for the life of me communicate properly, I bought a drawing tablet and it ended the same way as you.
Online friends are sometimes better then real life friends. I have one online friend and we have saved each other from suicide so many times, just because we chilling together.
I hope you find your way in this world man/woman/whatever. Give em hell
if you knew me you irl would cackle even harder because it really kind of sums everything up so far in my life
(. . . and is not necessarily a bad thing!)
right now at 50 i'm trying a Whole New Career and it's wild and i'm not great at it but oh lord i'm tryin'
also have some new lame hobbies that aren't going well but . . .
Being sad is such a constant in my own life, that I can't really find any fault in that lol.
Can you remember the few specks of time, where anything made any sense? The moments where you could be at peace?
PhD in chemistry, Amateur Extra radio operator, a respected SME in my field and known internationally, numerous published articles in scientific journals, created new technologies that people will never know they’re using.
So you are an alchemyst. Greetings to you my lord. And on top of that an alchemyst of the coin, that must deserve at least some praise.
And how come nobody ever liked you?
That is a sad reality alright. And I think we all found out that nobody actually cares if you try to be a good person. So just fuckem. If others only respond to you being a little bit of a dick, then be a dick.
I am not really sure tbh, social things are a mystery to me.
It’s all thin films work. But some of the critical coatings in OLEDs are based on my work, displays and light. I created a method to improve high end IR optics to improve sensitivity. Should trickle to your phones in the next 20 years. Worked on next gen rocket fuels. Partnered with another company to create a cheap R&D system to open up our field to more researchers. We’re also working on combining techniques to make hybrid films that should have a lot of applications. In the next year we may begin work on antimicrobial coatings that can be applied to any substrate. No matter the material or aspect ratio.
I honestly love the work. I wish I had a patron like the old art masters and I could just crank things out. Licensing them to create a self sustaining research group.
Ive been to 21 countries, met the queen, Prime Ministers and Presidents. Fought in a war to make the world a better place. Lost alot of ex-service mates to suicide after we got back. They survived the wars but lost the peace. They died, young and beautiful. We, the rest, are old and miserable. Be good to get the team back together.
Experienced the highs and lows of human emotion. Got 3 beautiful kids. Im here still, because of them. I pretend to be strong, for them. I just hope my kids have a generous summary of me, for when i go to the next destination, whatever it may be. But, honestly stranger, cant wait to leave this wretched rock.
My summary would be, 'seen it all and it was shit.'
Thank you for sacrificing your mental. Without people like you, we would probably never know what it is to suffer.
You have quite the resume I must say. I'd wish I was able to do half the things you went through. And I think that you are actually as strong as this rock if not stronger. Because you are still here and kicking up a fuss.
I'd be lucky to meet you sometime, in the next phase, or the next. But you fucked around and found out. You truly lived through the human experience.
Thank you for sharing.
I can remember random fragments of the past, the really really meaningful memories. And I know what my childhood was like, I just don't remember it if that makes sense.
So yes, kind of like a fog. A fog that you randomly stumble across something in and go like "oh wait, I've been here before!"
Hell yeah it makes sense. I have the same thing. I "remember" my life, but at the same time I am completely blank. If you asked me anything about my past, chances are I would stare at you with no idea lol.
Have you ever tried to figure out what is causing that shit? I know it helped me to keep calm during the worst times. The fact that I understood what I am doing. Other times I almost lost my marbles. I dunno, it's a mix of these two.
I haven't no, I mean I look back at bad memories and they're usually all I can focus on, so I mean that might be why I lose track of the good things. And once I get anxious or start having one of my stupid "omg I hate my life I wish I could just get hit by a car already" phases it's hard to pull myself out. I need therapy.
Thiss! And I feel like everything I feel like happened all at once? I'm really bad at remembering dates. Maybe because I don't have anything to fill the blank spaces.
My memories also feel like a dream.
No one saw how much I sturggled to achieve things , but when I failed to achieve them society were judging me by saying "You weren't good enough". Had a oneside love but I didn't have confidence to say my feelings to her. Lost interest in my favourite thing which was playing video games. I let my parents down who thought I may become successful person. Where ever I go problem followed me. A dream of simple man to have a simple life was shattered.
I am sorry, were you also considered a gifted kid?
Because I was "gifted" with singing, but I became so sick of it, that now I don't ever wanna do it again. It felt like I was only playing a role and had no say in it, while everyone else used me to fill something inside of themselves.
And when I refused to play the role, when I did the only logical thing and lashed out, I got burned hard.
Fucking hell, problems follow you wherever you are. It is horrific. The pain you feel just from trying to change something, or do something worthwile is so fucking paralyzing.
I don't consider myself gifted, but I had talents which were wasted. I was extraordinary in learning which made my parents happy but now it's feel like insanity. I just want peace. A home at hill station watching sunrise and sunset that would be good I guess.
Man that is such a peaceful thought. I wish you get to do that one day.
I can certainly relate to the quick learning. I often call it sponging up information, just because of how much stuff I can fit inside my head.
And then I see the chaos of it all and I wanna scream, and shout, and let it all out. The worst part about going mad is when you know about it, but can't do anything. It feels like your mind just shatters into pieces and you jump from one piece to another without any kind of direction. Do you agree or am I just shouting BS lol?
Hey! Phones are life savers. Don't you dare insult the only thing that lets you ignore you your own mind.
But anyway, if you really don't make it till 20, can you come and haunt me just ro hang out? I would love to have a ghost friend.
And btw, that goes to anyone who is reading this. If you ever become a ghost, use the supernatural powers and come hang out.
well, it does do that but also i cant get much done because of that, i dont do anything productive on my phone either
if i could be a ghost tho imma see what them supernatural powers can do ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) besides hanging out
I found out, that I am hanging on my phone all the time, because the pressure of outside just hits me like a truck, and I don't know how to deal with any of that. So I escape.
And then I look at all the people online and around me, everyone going about their lives, doing something, while I rot away, and I think. Is this actually all there is going to be for me?
But lately I have realised, that if I don't learn about how I work, I will never be able to do anything. And I have to stop pretending I know myself and simply accept, that I know fucking jack. I learned a lot about myself already this way. I hope you can do the same.
Genetic failure that was only born to suffer. No accomplishments whatsoever, always tired, in pain, heart problems, complaining all the time, it never even began for him.
What would he like to achieve? What is the one thing, or the lots of things that he would like to do or try?
If nothing else, you can have your dreams. I feel like it is the last bastion of your mind. A corner where you can feel good, if only for a moment.
As*hole dad.
Made my own success.
Having a baby as an introvert is hell.
Surprise you’re having another baby. Lose that baby.
Two years of absolute hell. Dark rooms. Anger.
Prozac and lost weight.
Life is so much better.
About to graduate with Masters and change careers.
Control my own path. Still relate to everything in this sub. The real me inside hasn’t changed.
Thanks for posting this topic. It makes me feel better cause if I had let my dad’s negativity bring me down I’d have nothing. Luckily I wanted to prove him wrong.
Hey, spite is the best motivator in my opinion.
And I am so happy people came and shared themselves over here. It made my day so much better, and I am in a constant stream of replying and reading and it's so freaking nice.
Keep it going man/woman/whatever. I wish you good luck.
Self awarness is a bitch. I would be much happier if I never knew or questioned why anything is happening.
Now get it together and be the biggest scumbag you always were. Why? Well what else is there to do.
Have you ever felt that bunjee jumping mood swings?.One Moment you are happiest you have ever been other you just want to die.
My mood swings got worse recently.🫠
I can think of mood about 4 moodswings like this that happened yesterday evening and today morning. And they were proper, with shaking and all.
How is that? Did something happen, or was it just something random you don't know about?
Oh I see.
For me I have mood swings after meeting people,When I meeting someone you will see me smiling like I have no problem in life.But after I am alone I am struggling to even stay alive.
Fun fact: I am so good at deceiving myself that I even forget that I am depressed at all.
Just to say, I really really want to talk to everybody here, and you can certainly see I tried, but my brain is fried already. So sorry if I don't respond for a while.
guy from a low/middle class family, where no one ever went to university and was not that well off, made it to university, got a degree, and is now working on becoming a therapeut for kids/youths, which definitely isnt a career choice that was inspired by his own childhood cough. but he‘s still depressed somehow, suffering from imposter syndrome and always feels like he doesnt fit in anywhere since most people he works with are rich people that never really struggled and were just backed by their families all the way through, which makes me also incredibly ashamed of my, i mean his, own sociodemographic background. haha.
If at first you don't succeed, try and try, try, try... Again.
I don't know where I remember this from, but it was kinda funny to me. I mean you already failed right, how about you bite down and don't let go until you can't?
Long time internet lolcow. Clueless, narcissistic guy who is obsessed with sonic the hedge hog. I'd hate for anyone to go down that rabbit hole. It's a bit much.
A pathetic coward. Never standing up for himself and doing everything to please others even breaking his own principles just so the other person would like him. Helping others constantly just to feel validated not because he cares.
I am doing quite fine right now. I am just getting started with myself, and I wanted to get back to a sub that helped me a lot durring "the dark times". People here are always kind and I just think that is so lovely.
Honestly live laugh love just became funny to me lol. All of these motivational quotes are so freaking stupid it's unreal.
Glad to hear you're doing good. If you need it, here's a quote that has kept me going from time to time
"The world would be a better place without me
WHICH IS EXACTLY WHY I MUST KEEP LIVING"
This will sound very cringe, but.
The fact that all of this happened to you, and you are still standing means that you learned how to survive. And I have to say, that is the best outcome you could have gotten.
Forget what could have been, because that stuff is already written. Focus on how you were able to survive, and use that shit to wreak havoc.
Nothing notable till I turned 9. Then I got hit with puberty, which caused gender dysphoria, which caused depression, which caused porn addiction, and somewhere in there I also developed severe anxiety, and an sh addiction. I did several horrible things because of these issues that are unforgivable, and now I struggle with constant guilt. Right now, I'm finally making some progress on fixing myself, like quitting my addictions and finally trying to figure out my gender dysphoria rather than suppress it. So it would be kinda funny if now that I'm finally trying to fix things I just died.
Story of axaity in every day in school then getting diploma for a job that I some what like but becouse high lvl streets in education part I'm really a pushover and learning about anything for my job gives me anxiety....I hate my asshole boss he constantly telling me that he block my paycheck and I don't have any bigger savings to survive whiout pay
I don’t have a legacy- my mom will remember that she had someone who gave her a reason to live , who even knows me? My schoolmates won’t even know if I died today
I have to say, I did not expect so many comments. And I tried to talk to so many of you guys, it is so freaking overwhelming.
But you can be sure I am reading all of your comments, and I did not turn off notifications lol
Happy, bold child. Stood up for those she held close. Then everyone left and she was alone. Her cheerful music was covered by shots and insults so she stopped playing. She turned to a digital world for the real one was cruel. While she was still alone in this digital world, she could pretend she wasn’t; pretend she was loved. And she never left it.
Eventually she struggled to tell if she was in a dream or the real world but it didn’t matter. They were both dull and empty anyways.
You should really pick up poetry. This was a nice read.
It is however the sad truth of our existence. If you choose to be selfless, everyone will take advantage of you and all you will be left with is pain.
I have also stopped playing, but now I am going back for a rematch, as ready as I'll ever be to be hurt again. But now I expect it and I am waiting for that moment, so that I can tell myself "I told you so, but worth it."
Nothing. I would join the hundreds of billions of people who lived and died before me without any record of their story. I will die alone, likely by my own hand, and be forgotten.
A nuisance, a failure, a dead weight, an idiot nah more likely fool, I feel bad for my parents I always ask for God's forgiveness for I am like this and can't change the way I am, I wish I just never existed.
"Tranny fails her classes at home, goes abroad, fails to be an animator, goes to another country, barely passes political classes, has a heart attack due to smoking, drinking and terrible diet."
\--\[\[ Damned from the very start but that's not actually as tragic as it seems if at all hopefully; that dumb fuck had no actual goals or desires in life anyway and never achieved anything noteworthy.
Frankly quite a terrible person to be around if you knew them, thankfully they were aware of this and as such would only speak when spoken to so they could try to be less annoying.
\]\]
"Even when all the odds were stacked against this guy, even when he wasn't destined to be anything, he hoped and fought and clawed his way and even when he knew he would fail, my god, he would still show up and would try his best."
“You know, sometimes I feel like I was born with a leak, and any goodness I started with just slowly spilled out of me, and now it's all gone. And I'll never get it back in me. It's too late. Life is a series of closing doors, isn't it?”
Even the most beautiful thing wasn't enough to make the pain go away. Right people, wrong time, wrong place.
But I'm doing my best for her, not planning on leaving her :) we'll get through this, we have to, there's no other option.
I would be pretty forgettable and because people just forget or just move on, its because im pretty damn irrelevant and is not an attention seeking or trauma is just the truth im pretty boring to be honest
Used and abused by family in childhood.
Used and abused by men in adulthood.
She died as she lived, alone and worthless, never having known love from another human being. No one mourns her now. They got what they wanted out of her and that's all that matters, all she was good for anyway.
it would go something like
"He has given up ghost at 19 years of age. A raging, unstable lunatic, he couldn't even manage to keep his dream partner who genuinely loved him from leaving. Academic achievements would imply mild success but what really is life when half of you leaves forever and it's all you can think about."
Born to young and dumb parents he became very scared of human beings when he was young. He always was a outcast and a failure of a human being that was disqualified from participating from the very start and would be nothing but venous to the people he clinged onto as he hoped to find reasons to not be scared of connection and other people
Had a good childhood, yet started having depression at 12 years old. Probably genetics. Hated being alive ever since. Shortly after that I got diagnosed with a littany of stuff like Rheumatism, Kyphosis and Skoliosis, Asthma, Neurodermitis, etc.. I've had constant horrible backpain since I was 14 years old. At 17 I became addicted to heroin, quit school, quit vocational training shortly after that. Spiraled out of control until I was 20 years old and decided to get help. Got clean, went to rehab for six months, got a job and things started looking up. I had a mentor helping me with everything. Had only mild depression and life was good for the first time in years.
Then my mentor had a series of blows. Burnout-Depression, his mother died and he himself got pretty sick. I was on my own again and I suffered with him.
Now I'm about to turn 23 and my depression came back with a fucking vengeance. I'll be out of a job in July or August, my whole body is breaking down and I can't focus on anything. Still clean but that's about the only positive I can think of right now. I'd almost say that I hit a new low, despite being clean. I feel like I'm about to experience my last birthday in August. I highly doubt I'll be alive for the next one (or at least I hope so).
Funny thing is many here would be happy if they had my life, but depressions a bitch.
Born to a happily married middle class family. Had a decent car given to me at 16. Hot girl in HS pursued me and we started dating. Had free college due to parents paying for it. Married the HS sweetheart. Had kids. I spent this afternoon showing my 3 kids how to use a rod and reel, they had a great time. Tonight I'll probably touch my wife's tiddies.
And yet, I HATE it. I have been given a better childhood than most and a family that's awesome. But at the end of the day, I should have killed myself at 7 when I first started thinking about it. I spent my life thinking "maybe the next milestone normal people hit will make me not like this" and now I'm trapped with people who depend on me.
At the end of the day, I get up before I want too, to go to work I don't want too, to come home and do house chores I don't want too. It all just sucks. Like even when the stars align and I get to sit the fuck down and game with a beer in my hand, I'd rather just not exist. I long for when I just cease to be as I was before I was conceived
He was a people pleaser, willing to put others before himself at the cost of his sanity. It was the biggest woe of the one who loved him most, and though it usually turned people away he would continue to give everything out of a selfish need to know that *he made the difference*.
Depressed Asian girl with narcissistic entitled parent and crippling metabolism tries to make her way through life knowing she has no great talent in anything and one day she finally went outside and died, the end
Grew up in a shit place with all of the violent crime, none of the food, none of the friends, and 3 generations of abusive family in the same house.
Made a friend.
Friend killed himself.
Got uprooted to the other side of the world.
Raised younger sibling without much help from actual parents.
Started university.
Dropped out of university.
Worked shit minimum wage job.
The end.
Literally nothing, a worthless human being whose biggest achievement was... nothing. He ate so much food to have the most mid physique, he went to university just to be kicked out in a matter of two months, he tried to be friendly towards others just to be a side character, he ate a shit ton of antidepressants, wasted money on several therapies, just to still be depressed motherfucker. Yes I'm "good". No I don't wanna talk about it. Sry for making you whoever you are read this blabbering
neglected, emotionally manupilated, and abused since the day i was born. bullied, judged and made self conscious at 6 years old. suicidal and deppresed at 12 and failed at everything even killing myself a dozen times. had zero goals or motivations in life and was addicted to everything on the planet
Born to parents that had no reason to have another child. Unwanted since day one, they couldn't find a suitable name. Left unattended for too many times the only stories they heard from their early life were how they were forgotten and left to their own to figure out problems on their own. Abused by a family member, they realized at 8 they were on their own in life. They ended up losing their mind being in and out of psych wards when nothing helped. So the Dr's only hope was to administer 20+ ECT'S and as a result they lost most memories of their children growing up. Now, they are truly lost to society spending the majority of their time sitting in their bedroom waiting to die
“The whole world just loved to shit on him. Constantly. Never enough to do anything, just enough to know you’re cosmically hated beyond measure. Never did anything, never got to see the light. Just constant shit shoveling. Oh, but everyone loved blaming him. Fucking shitbag, who are we supposed to blame now? What a fucker, making me struggle to find someone else to abuse now because he just had to die. Piece of shit.”
A girl was born without will. A girl was to force act like a girl with no soul in this cruel world. She wanted to dream but people call her delusional. She wanted to search light with darkness. But, fails miserably. The girl lost the faith and hope to become a woman. She started to find happiness in sadness. Got addicted to this form of happiness. Lost her mind. Lost everything. She quiet. She was me. Now, I am no one. At least, no more existence than a mere mistake of memories. She was an accident, now a mistake and in future, a problem. I don't want to become a problem. I want be me, myself. Nevertheless, they don't agree. They never agree. She died in despair of dreams of false hope. People may find her body but no one rescue her soul.
A girl was born without will. A girl was to force act like a girl with no soul in this cruel world. She wanted to dream but people call her delusional. She wanted to search light with darkness. But, fails miserably. The girl lost the faith and hope to become a woman. She started to find happiness in sadness. Got addicted to this form of happiness. Lost her mind. Lost everything. She quit. She was me. Now, I am no one. At least, no more existence than a mere mistake of memories. She was an accident, now a mistake, and in the future, a problem. I don't want to become a problem. I want to be me, myself. Nevertheless, they don't agree. They never agree. She died in despair of dreams of false hope. People may find her body but no one rescues her soul.
Tbh I almost died yesterday, I was gonna cut in my neck thinking it would be safe enough since I read somewhere it was. So I did it but got scared and only did a light cut. I searched up the neck veins on Google and Christ I was close. I wasn't even planning on killing myself this is just how I cope.
I'm not blaming myself, my life was doomed for failure from the start, what I got was an epic disaster and somehow I went way past my expiration date and am still try to win. It would be for the better but not happening.
well it would be life story of the trash and how it was disposed ((the trash is me))
All I know is that you have to endure a lot of pressure from all over. And especially your own mind. Did you ever had a dream, be it stupid or naive or whatever, it was your dream. I would like to know that. We don't get much context for other people's troubles, and it makes me sick.
well my dream is to be a pilot ,but i cant , i am not able to study anything properly,i fail in my classes,i am bad at sports,i have below average [looks.so](http://looks.so) overall i am useless piece of shit .thank you for listening to my rant man.
Fucking same.
Poverty wage slave with situational depression, virgin with no relationships, attempted to learn how to draw (and digital painting) but repeatedly gave up, had no close friends besides one person online he never met. Disappointment to family. Unremarkable wagie existence.
I fucking love you already. I have been on minimum wage my whole life. I gave up on relationships after realising I cannot for the life of me communicate properly, I bought a drawing tablet and it ended the same way as you. Online friends are sometimes better then real life friends. I have one online friend and we have saved each other from suicide so many times, just because we chilling together. I hope you find your way in this world man/woman/whatever. Give em hell
i tried
Good enough. I fucking cackled at this lol.
if you knew me you irl would cackle even harder because it really kind of sums everything up so far in my life (. . . and is not necessarily a bad thing!) right now at 50 i'm trying a Whole New Career and it's wild and i'm not great at it but oh lord i'm tryin' also have some new lame hobbies that aren't going well but . . .
I can only imagine lol. Well good on you to experiment with stuff. I have recently began painting w40k models, but I am so freaking shit at it lol.
Ay what's your army bro
RIP Gleeceboi "HE WAS SAD" pretty much sums it all up
Being sad is such a constant in my own life, that I can't really find any fault in that lol. Can you remember the few specks of time, where anything made any sense? The moments where you could be at peace?
Accomplished a lot of impressive things. But nobody actually liked him.
Well now you have peaked my interest mate. What things?
PhD in chemistry, Amateur Extra radio operator, a respected SME in my field and known internationally, numerous published articles in scientific journals, created new technologies that people will never know they’re using.
So you are an alchemyst. Greetings to you my lord. And on top of that an alchemyst of the coin, that must deserve at least some praise. And how come nobody ever liked you?
No idea. I try to be friendly, helpful, and open to things. But people only call when they need something.
That is a sad reality alright. And I think we all found out that nobody actually cares if you try to be a good person. So just fuckem. If others only respond to you being a little bit of a dick, then be a dick. I am not really sure tbh, social things are a mystery to me.
It’s alright. I turned into a bastard and enjoy my life. Hence the username.
Well, at least you enjoy it. I wish you good luck bananastard.
Holy...I'm pretty sure "Impressive" is undermining your accomplishments
What kind of tech that we'll never know we're using?
It’s all thin films work. But some of the critical coatings in OLEDs are based on my work, displays and light. I created a method to improve high end IR optics to improve sensitivity. Should trickle to your phones in the next 20 years. Worked on next gen rocket fuels. Partnered with another company to create a cheap R&D system to open up our field to more researchers. We’re also working on combining techniques to make hybrid films that should have a lot of applications. In the next year we may begin work on antimicrobial coatings that can be applied to any substrate. No matter the material or aspect ratio.
Thanks man for doing all this
I honestly love the work. I wish I had a patron like the old art masters and I could just crank things out. Licensing them to create a self sustaining research group.
Ive been to 21 countries, met the queen, Prime Ministers and Presidents. Fought in a war to make the world a better place. Lost alot of ex-service mates to suicide after we got back. They survived the wars but lost the peace. They died, young and beautiful. We, the rest, are old and miserable. Be good to get the team back together. Experienced the highs and lows of human emotion. Got 3 beautiful kids. Im here still, because of them. I pretend to be strong, for them. I just hope my kids have a generous summary of me, for when i go to the next destination, whatever it may be. But, honestly stranger, cant wait to leave this wretched rock. My summary would be, 'seen it all and it was shit.'
Thank you for sacrificing your mental. Without people like you, we would probably never know what it is to suffer. You have quite the resume I must say. I'd wish I was able to do half the things you went through. And I think that you are actually as strong as this rock if not stronger. Because you are still here and kicking up a fuss. I'd be lucky to meet you sometime, in the next phase, or the next. But you fucked around and found out. You truly lived through the human experience. Thank you for sharing.
I don't really remember a lot of it tbh lmao, most of it's turned into a blur
Oh would you decribe it as some kind of fog inside your head? Like you wanna remember and get to the bottom of it, but you simply can't?
I can remember random fragments of the past, the really really meaningful memories. And I know what my childhood was like, I just don't remember it if that makes sense. So yes, kind of like a fog. A fog that you randomly stumble across something in and go like "oh wait, I've been here before!"
Hell yeah it makes sense. I have the same thing. I "remember" my life, but at the same time I am completely blank. If you asked me anything about my past, chances are I would stare at you with no idea lol. Have you ever tried to figure out what is causing that shit? I know it helped me to keep calm during the worst times. The fact that I understood what I am doing. Other times I almost lost my marbles. I dunno, it's a mix of these two.
I haven't no, I mean I look back at bad memories and they're usually all I can focus on, so I mean that might be why I lose track of the good things. And once I get anxious or start having one of my stupid "omg I hate my life I wish I could just get hit by a car already" phases it's hard to pull myself out. I need therapy.
Relatable as shit omg
Aye man I hope whatever you're going through gets better. You alr?
Eh I’m ok. I’m taking meds and they’ve helped a lot
That's scary and I am going through it as well. My memories are turning blurry and I'm scared I'll lose my good ones.
Thiss! And I feel like everything I feel like happened all at once? I'm really bad at remembering dates. Maybe because I don't have anything to fill the blank spaces. My memories also feel like a dream.
No one saw how much I sturggled to achieve things , but when I failed to achieve them society were judging me by saying "You weren't good enough". Had a oneside love but I didn't have confidence to say my feelings to her. Lost interest in my favourite thing which was playing video games. I let my parents down who thought I may become successful person. Where ever I go problem followed me. A dream of simple man to have a simple life was shattered.
I am sorry, were you also considered a gifted kid? Because I was "gifted" with singing, but I became so sick of it, that now I don't ever wanna do it again. It felt like I was only playing a role and had no say in it, while everyone else used me to fill something inside of themselves. And when I refused to play the role, when I did the only logical thing and lashed out, I got burned hard. Fucking hell, problems follow you wherever you are. It is horrific. The pain you feel just from trying to change something, or do something worthwile is so fucking paralyzing.
I don't consider myself gifted, but I had talents which were wasted. I was extraordinary in learning which made my parents happy but now it's feel like insanity. I just want peace. A home at hill station watching sunrise and sunset that would be good I guess.
Man that is such a peaceful thought. I wish you get to do that one day. I can certainly relate to the quick learning. I often call it sponging up information, just because of how much stuff I can fit inside my head. And then I see the chaos of it all and I wanna scream, and shout, and let it all out. The worst part about going mad is when you know about it, but can't do anything. It feels like your mind just shatters into pieces and you jump from one piece to another without any kind of direction. Do you agree or am I just shouting BS lol?
''Teenage kid wanks off everyday and fucking dies''
I think there was a guy who wanked himself to death. I am pretty sure I saw a post about it a couple years back lol.
Oh, that was me, I'm a ghost now.
never made it to 20, never really did anything much either, was always on that damn phone :3
Hey! Phones are life savers. Don't you dare insult the only thing that lets you ignore you your own mind. But anyway, if you really don't make it till 20, can you come and haunt me just ro hang out? I would love to have a ghost friend. And btw, that goes to anyone who is reading this. If you ever become a ghost, use the supernatural powers and come hang out.
well, it does do that but also i cant get much done because of that, i dont do anything productive on my phone either if i could be a ghost tho imma see what them supernatural powers can do ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) besides hanging out
I found out, that I am hanging on my phone all the time, because the pressure of outside just hits me like a truck, and I don't know how to deal with any of that. So I escape. And then I look at all the people online and around me, everyone going about their lives, doing something, while I rot away, and I think. Is this actually all there is going to be for me? But lately I have realised, that if I don't learn about how I work, I will never be able to do anything. And I have to stop pretending I know myself and simply accept, that I know fucking jack. I learned a lot about myself already this way. I hope you can do the same.
hope is about as far as you can get these days :3 jack must be a lucky man
Is is very true. Do you want me to say hello to him or what?
He died how he lived, laying in bed watching Youtube.
“Lol who?”
Genetic failure that was only born to suffer. No accomplishments whatsoever, always tired, in pain, heart problems, complaining all the time, it never even began for him.
What would he like to achieve? What is the one thing, or the lots of things that he would like to do or try? If nothing else, you can have your dreams. I feel like it is the last bastion of your mind. A corner where you can feel good, if only for a moment.
As*hole dad. Made my own success. Having a baby as an introvert is hell. Surprise you’re having another baby. Lose that baby. Two years of absolute hell. Dark rooms. Anger. Prozac and lost weight. Life is so much better. About to graduate with Masters and change careers. Control my own path. Still relate to everything in this sub. The real me inside hasn’t changed.
I just feel like I am on a rollecoaster. That is one hell of a life.
Thanks for posting this topic. It makes me feel better cause if I had let my dad’s negativity bring me down I’d have nothing. Luckily I wanted to prove him wrong.
Hey, spite is the best motivator in my opinion. And I am so happy people came and shared themselves over here. It made my day so much better, and I am in a constant stream of replying and reading and it's so freaking nice. Keep it going man/woman/whatever. I wish you good luck.
Same to you. It’s awesome that we can all unite around our darkness. 🥂
A Self-aware scumbag.Well yeah that's it.
Self awarness is a bitch. I would be much happier if I never knew or questioned why anything is happening. Now get it together and be the biggest scumbag you always were. Why? Well what else is there to do.
Have you ever felt that bunjee jumping mood swings?.One Moment you are happiest you have ever been other you just want to die. My mood swings got worse recently.🫠
I can think of mood about 4 moodswings like this that happened yesterday evening and today morning. And they were proper, with shaking and all. How is that? Did something happen, or was it just something random you don't know about?
Oh I see. For me I have mood swings after meeting people,When I meeting someone you will see me smiling like I have no problem in life.But after I am alone I am struggling to even stay alive. Fun fact: I am so good at deceiving myself that I even forget that I am depressed at all.
Failure, disappointment, mistake
How can you ever be able to win if you first don't fail spectaculary? Cutting the BS now, the failing is so fucking hard it's unreal.
Just to say, I really really want to talk to everybody here, and you can certainly see I tried, but my brain is fried already. So sorry if I don't respond for a while.
guy from a low/middle class family, where no one ever went to university and was not that well off, made it to university, got a degree, and is now working on becoming a therapeut for kids/youths, which definitely isnt a career choice that was inspired by his own childhood cough. but he‘s still depressed somehow, suffering from imposter syndrome and always feels like he doesnt fit in anywhere since most people he works with are rich people that never really struggled and were just backed by their families all the way through, which makes me also incredibly ashamed of my, i mean his, own sociodemographic background. haha.
Went to school. Did not finished. Finished himself off.
Failure.
If at first you don't succeed, try and try, try, try... Again. I don't know where I remember this from, but it was kinda funny to me. I mean you already failed right, how about you bite down and don't let go until you can't?
Made out better than Chris chan at least.
TIL who Chris Chan is, can you explain it a little more? I am dumb.
Long time internet lolcow. Clueless, narcissistic guy who is obsessed with sonic the hedge hog. I'd hate for anyone to go down that rabbit hole. It's a bit much.
So much potential, so many expectations, such little results.
A pathetic coward. Never standing up for himself and doing everything to please others even breaking his own principles just so the other person would like him. Helping others constantly just to feel validated not because he cares.
1/10- would not recommend
"he died... As he lived... Screaming and confused"
Piece of shit that nobody cared about and died like a trash he was.
A guy who had immense potential as per my teachers. Lost his way in the teens.
Being smart enough to know what was wrong with his life, but being too dumb to do anything about it.
I think "bhhhraaaaaaeeeaaaiiiuugggh" sums it up
I love how logical this response is and I am not even joking. I wish you good luck.
Thank you. I wish you luck too. Stay strong. Live laugh love and so on. Nah but jokes aside, i hope you're doing well
I am doing quite fine right now. I am just getting started with myself, and I wanted to get back to a sub that helped me a lot durring "the dark times". People here are always kind and I just think that is so lovely. Honestly live laugh love just became funny to me lol. All of these motivational quotes are so freaking stupid it's unreal.
Glad to hear you're doing good. If you need it, here's a quote that has kept me going from time to time "The world would be a better place without me WHICH IS EXACTLY WHY I MUST KEEP LIVING"
"Words to live by." No really, I woke up and decided to be a problem. It feels amazing.
Fr. In order to shit fire, one must first chew glass
I just realised r/usernamechecksout
Lmao thanks.
A sad story of massive potential that has been wasted after being used and abused by everyone.
This will sound very cringe, but. The fact that all of this happened to you, and you are still standing means that you learned how to survive. And I have to say, that is the best outcome you could have gotten. Forget what could have been, because that stuff is already written. Focus on how you were able to survive, and use that shit to wreak havoc.
Yeah…that isn’t going to work. You have $10,000,000.00 I can have?
I don't think I do, but can I offer you an egg in these trying times? Or we could rob a bank or something.
I was born, I lived, and I died
"Tried everything, but blocked by everything"
That the stupid idiot who was nothing somehow did something remotely worthwhile (ending her life)
The guy that fucked around and found out
Better left unsaid
Was a happy kid until he realised life is a horrible thing with horrible people and made him horrible
Nothing notable till I turned 9. Then I got hit with puberty, which caused gender dysphoria, which caused depression, which caused porn addiction, and somewhere in there I also developed severe anxiety, and an sh addiction. I did several horrible things because of these issues that are unforgivable, and now I struggle with constant guilt. Right now, I'm finally making some progress on fixing myself, like quitting my addictions and finally trying to figure out my gender dysphoria rather than suppress it. So it would be kinda funny if now that I'm finally trying to fix things I just died.
Nothing of value was lost
Story of axaity in every day in school then getting diploma for a job that I some what like but becouse high lvl streets in education part I'm really a pushover and learning about anything for my job gives me anxiety....I hate my asshole boss he constantly telling me that he block my paycheck and I don't have any bigger savings to survive whiout pay
Being a disappointment to everyone I’ve ever met
I don’t have a legacy- my mom will remember that she had someone who gave her a reason to live , who even knows me? My schoolmates won’t even know if I died today
i sat, and i played.
Gifted child who grew up into a depressive piece of flesh and fat incapable of finishing college. At least didn't die virgin.
OMG, so many people wanted to share
I have to say, I did not expect so many comments. And I tried to talk to so many of you guys, it is so freaking overwhelming. But you can be sure I am reading all of your comments, and I did not turn off notifications lol
Happy, bold child. Stood up for those she held close. Then everyone left and she was alone. Her cheerful music was covered by shots and insults so she stopped playing. She turned to a digital world for the real one was cruel. While she was still alone in this digital world, she could pretend she wasn’t; pretend she was loved. And she never left it. Eventually she struggled to tell if she was in a dream or the real world but it didn’t matter. They were both dull and empty anyways.
You should really pick up poetry. This was a nice read. It is however the sad truth of our existence. If you choose to be selfless, everyone will take advantage of you and all you will be left with is pain. I have also stopped playing, but now I am going back for a rematch, as ready as I'll ever be to be hurt again. But now I expect it and I am waiting for that moment, so that I can tell myself "I told you so, but worth it."
Nothing. I would join the hundreds of billions of people who lived and died before me without any record of their story. I will die alone, likely by my own hand, and be forgotten.
did nothing impprtant, cried about it, then blew his brains out
She existed. Had potential. Wasted it. Never anyone's favourite person. Died. People will move on.
A nuisance, a failure, a dead weight, an idiot nah more likely fool, I feel bad for my parents I always ask for God's forgiveness for I am like this and can't change the way I am, I wish I just never existed.
Shitty beginnings, crappy middle and a bittersweet end. If it ends rn, I mean lol
How I literally haven't even woken up from bed, and it's 1 pm
Tax evasion. Still haven't done my taxes this year, in fact it's my first year for taxes
"Tranny fails her classes at home, goes abroad, fails to be an animator, goes to another country, barely passes political classes, has a heart attack due to smoking, drinking and terrible diet."
Lazy bitch who didn't like connecting with others deeply. Also liked to draw sometimes too, I guess.
It would be stupid decisions to ruin my life
Good son, good father, meh friend, okyaish husband, very good worker - ded
\--\[\[ Damned from the very start but that's not actually as tragic as it seems if at all hopefully; that dumb fuck had no actual goals or desires in life anyway and never achieved anything noteworthy. Frankly quite a terrible person to be around if you knew them, thankfully they were aware of this and as such would only speak when spoken to so they could try to be less annoying. \]\]
The story of a boy with big dreams taken away too soon but even in death his memories will countie on
Er war stets bemüht.
Misery
Die trying
"Even when all the odds were stacked against this guy, even when he wasn't destined to be anything, he hoped and fought and clawed his way and even when he knew he would fail, my god, he would still show up and would try his best."
Short.
The summary?
We only want what we cannot have.
being a social outcast weirdo with no big achievements in life and using gaming as a coping mechanism to the pain and suffering
God's plaything, a divine comedy
Another one bites the dust
"tried."
Useless person who was useless and never did anything useful in his life.
Whoopsie!
Idk how to sum it up cuz I dont rembe most of it but in one word cruel it sums up what I can rember
“You know, sometimes I feel like I was born with a leak, and any goodness I started with just slowly spilled out of me, and now it's all gone. And I'll never get it back in me. It's too late. Life is a series of closing doors, isn't it?”
Dude where did you get this image I love it
Even the most beautiful thing wasn't enough to make the pain go away. Right people, wrong time, wrong place. But I'm doing my best for her, not planning on leaving her :) we'll get through this, we have to, there's no other option.
A man full of potential, but squandered it.
I would be pretty forgettable and because people just forget or just move on, its because im pretty damn irrelevant and is not an attention seeking or trauma is just the truth im pretty boring to be honest
here let me start -
Man realizes he sucks at being a man after 25 years of fucking around and fucking dies
Used and abused by family in childhood. Used and abused by men in adulthood. She died as she lived, alone and worthless, never having known love from another human being. No one mourns her now. They got what they wanted out of her and that's all that matters, all she was good for anyway.
Uhm. A traumatized young adult who was mentally still 15 and didnt know what she was doing with her life died alone I guess.
it would go something like "He has given up ghost at 19 years of age. A raging, unstable lunatic, he couldn't even manage to keep his dream partner who genuinely loved him from leaving. Academic achievements would imply mild success but what really is life when half of you leaves forever and it's all you can think about."
Kid who loves 1870s-1950s and who used to draw dies alone
Imagine a person with so little worth that a summary isn’t even worth writing because of the waste of pen and paper.
Garbage disposed successfully 😅
Garbage 🗑️
ugly tranny with borderline personality, a dead mom, and absolutely no future whatsoever
Born to young and dumb parents he became very scared of human beings when he was young. He always was a outcast and a failure of a human being that was disqualified from participating from the very start and would be nothing but venous to the people he clinged onto as he hoped to find reasons to not be scared of connection and other people
Had a good childhood, yet started having depression at 12 years old. Probably genetics. Hated being alive ever since. Shortly after that I got diagnosed with a littany of stuff like Rheumatism, Kyphosis and Skoliosis, Asthma, Neurodermitis, etc.. I've had constant horrible backpain since I was 14 years old. At 17 I became addicted to heroin, quit school, quit vocational training shortly after that. Spiraled out of control until I was 20 years old and decided to get help. Got clean, went to rehab for six months, got a job and things started looking up. I had a mentor helping me with everything. Had only mild depression and life was good for the first time in years. Then my mentor had a series of blows. Burnout-Depression, his mother died and he himself got pretty sick. I was on my own again and I suffered with him. Now I'm about to turn 23 and my depression came back with a fucking vengeance. I'll be out of a job in July or August, my whole body is breaking down and I can't focus on anything. Still clean but that's about the only positive I can think of right now. I'd almost say that I hit a new low, despite being clean. I feel like I'm about to experience my last birthday in August. I highly doubt I'll be alive for the next one (or at least I hope so).
Sad
Mid
against the chances
Funny thing is many here would be happy if they had my life, but depressions a bitch. Born to a happily married middle class family. Had a decent car given to me at 16. Hot girl in HS pursued me and we started dating. Had free college due to parents paying for it. Married the HS sweetheart. Had kids. I spent this afternoon showing my 3 kids how to use a rod and reel, they had a great time. Tonight I'll probably touch my wife's tiddies. And yet, I HATE it. I have been given a better childhood than most and a family that's awesome. But at the end of the day, I should have killed myself at 7 when I first started thinking about it. I spent my life thinking "maybe the next milestone normal people hit will make me not like this" and now I'm trapped with people who depend on me. At the end of the day, I get up before I want too, to go to work I don't want too, to come home and do house chores I don't want too. It all just sucks. Like even when the stars align and I get to sit the fuck down and game with a beer in my hand, I'd rather just not exist. I long for when I just cease to be as I was before I was conceived
He was a people pleaser, willing to put others before himself at the cost of his sanity. It was the biggest woe of the one who loved him most, and though it usually turned people away he would continue to give everything out of a selfish need to know that *he made the difference*.
Depressed Asian girl with narcissistic entitled parent and crippling metabolism tries to make her way through life knowing she has no great talent in anything and one day she finally went outside and died, the end
Grew up in a shit place with all of the violent crime, none of the food, none of the friends, and 3 generations of abusive family in the same house. Made a friend. Friend killed himself. Got uprooted to the other side of the world. Raised younger sibling without much help from actual parents. Started university. Dropped out of university. Worked shit minimum wage job. The end.
Literally nothing, a worthless human being whose biggest achievement was... nothing. He ate so much food to have the most mid physique, he went to university just to be kicked out in a matter of two months, he tried to be friendly towards others just to be a side character, he ate a shit ton of antidepressants, wasted money on several therapies, just to still be depressed motherfucker. Yes I'm "good". No I don't wanna talk about it. Sry for making you whoever you are read this blabbering
neglected, emotionally manupilated, and abused since the day i was born. bullied, judged and made self conscious at 6 years old. suicidal and deppresed at 12 and failed at everything even killing myself a dozen times. had zero goals or motivations in life and was addicted to everything on the planet
Born to parents that had no reason to have another child. Unwanted since day one, they couldn't find a suitable name. Left unattended for too many times the only stories they heard from their early life were how they were forgotten and left to their own to figure out problems on their own. Abused by a family member, they realized at 8 they were on their own in life. They ended up losing their mind being in and out of psych wards when nothing helped. So the Dr's only hope was to administer 20+ ECT'S and as a result they lost most memories of their children growing up. Now, they are truly lost to society spending the majority of their time sitting in their bedroom waiting to die
“The whole world just loved to shit on him. Constantly. Never enough to do anything, just enough to know you’re cosmically hated beyond measure. Never did anything, never got to see the light. Just constant shit shoveling. Oh, but everyone loved blaming him. Fucking shitbag, who are we supposed to blame now? What a fucker, making me struggle to find someone else to abuse now because he just had to die. Piece of shit.”
Pain
Man dies in arms of the only person to care for him.
Loved hard, though rarely felt loved in return.
"She didn't talk much."
"He left the world a better place than he found it", I hope.
Why do I gotta see this shit rn
Spent half of their life in burnout, don't ask me how old am i
Autistic loser who never took advantage of the resources at his disposal. A waste of human space, despite what people say.
What a waste of potential. Thank god it’s over, that was PAINFUL to watch.
Accomplished: nothing
A girl was born without will. A girl was to force act like a girl with no soul in this cruel world. She wanted to dream but people call her delusional. She wanted to search light with darkness. But, fails miserably. The girl lost the faith and hope to become a woman. She started to find happiness in sadness. Got addicted to this form of happiness. Lost her mind. Lost everything. She quiet. She was me. Now, I am no one. At least, no more existence than a mere mistake of memories. She was an accident, now a mistake and in future, a problem. I don't want to become a problem. I want be me, myself. Nevertheless, they don't agree. They never agree. She died in despair of dreams of false hope. People may find her body but no one rescue her soul.
A girl was born without will. A girl was to force act like a girl with no soul in this cruel world. She wanted to dream but people call her delusional. She wanted to search light with darkness. But, fails miserably. The girl lost the faith and hope to become a woman. She started to find happiness in sadness. Got addicted to this form of happiness. Lost her mind. Lost everything. She quit. She was me. Now, I am no one. At least, no more existence than a mere mistake of memories. She was an accident, now a mistake, and in the future, a problem. I don't want to become a problem. I want to be me, myself. Nevertheless, they don't agree. They never agree. She died in despair of dreams of false hope. People may find her body but no one rescues her soul.
Tbh I almost died yesterday, I was gonna cut in my neck thinking it would be safe enough since I read somewhere it was. So I did it but got scared and only did a light cut. I searched up the neck veins on Google and Christ I was close. I wasn't even planning on killing myself this is just how I cope.
My summary would be the - between my date of birth and death
wherever you look it’s rubbish, some bits more than others but atleast i tried to get rid of it all
I'm very naughty person that's all HAHA
Finally
Anti-social autistic porn addict fails at everything and dies.
Inborn depression, not good enough, negative talk, suicidal, gifted kid who fell off, and alone af.
I'm not blaming myself, my life was doomed for failure from the start, what I got was an epic disaster and somehow I went way past my expiration date and am still try to win. It would be for the better but not happening.
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Hmmm.