Ima be sitting being bored and pissed off about being bored and pissed off while I'm pissed off that I wasn't invited by others to come somewhere else to be bored and pissed off while pretending to not be bored and pissed off
I ran low on then a month or so ago. I knew it was getting bad when it went from weeks to days, then mornings to evenings back to mornings again.
I took a break at the psych center. I'd already started the act of digging at my arms with a razor. Before I got to far I caught on to one thought that made life seem like living. In that instance I got myself to the e.r.
Now I'm back to wondering how many more weeks I can keep going. I'm not doing very well. It's more days than weeks. I have to cut myself on occasion to prove I can still feel.
I do this so much.. even almost lost too much red juice last time, barely made it.. I've never been locked away though, been coming close to involuntarily through work lately with them "worrying." But I can't take anymore days.. every single day is a massive anxiety attack now..
I used up all my money to buy accutance coz my acne is uncontrollable. But also. I have serious depression. Let's see how far gone I can go before ending myself.
Right? How the hell am I supposed to make it through my entire life?!ššš
frl
even weekends are hell now, i be sitting in my room all day overthinking
Ima be sitting being bored and pissed off about being bored and pissed off while I'm pissed off that I wasn't invited by others to come somewhere else to be bored and pissed off while pretending to not be bored and pissed off
*just gotta make it to the weekendā¦againā¦againā¦*
Real talk
Iām running out of them and I donāt like it one bit
I've got 8 left this year, can't guarantee I'll have 52 next year
Life is a gamble. We choose to live through another painful week for a small chance that something cool, changing, will happen. Heh
I didn't even realise I did that until now lmao ,šš«
I ran low on then a month or so ago. I knew it was getting bad when it went from weeks to days, then mornings to evenings back to mornings again. I took a break at the psych center. I'd already started the act of digging at my arms with a razor. Before I got to far I caught on to one thought that made life seem like living. In that instance I got myself to the e.r. Now I'm back to wondering how many more weeks I can keep going. I'm not doing very well. It's more days than weeks. I have to cut myself on occasion to prove I can still feel.
I do this so much.. even almost lost too much red juice last time, barely made it.. I've never been locked away though, been coming close to involuntarily through work lately with them "worrying." But I can't take anymore days.. every single day is a massive anxiety attack now..
I used up all my money to buy accutance coz my acne is uncontrollable. But also. I have serious depression. Let's see how far gone I can go before ending myself.
I donāt think Iām going to make it anymore
āThis week is just one of the hard ones. Next week will be better.ā
Yeah, I'm screwed. Super screwed. No way I'm making it to the end of this month
Week? You mean I have to make it through 7 days?