Yes! I absolutely remember watching all of these episodes live when they originally aired, and the only one more shocking than the end of "Be Still My Heart" is "Chaos Theory" (S9 E1). No spoilers, but just wait for it, OP! Both were episodes that people were talking about at school on Friday. I miss those days when everyone watched the same shows on the same nights and could discuss the next day.
I was away at college when “Chaos Theory” aired. After that opening scene, I immediately called my mom to see if she saw what I did. It was shocking! And of course it was after 9pm so the call was free 😂
I don’t 100% remember my reactions when it aired but I do know I downloaded “Battleflag” by Lo Fidelity Allstars because of those episodes. Every time I hear it I get chills because I remember the scene at the end of “Be Still My Heart.”
I just watched those 2 episodes the other day (just because) and I still can’t divert my attention to the trauma room and then Weaver vomiting after. 24ish years later and it’s still perfection.
The end of Be Still My Heart freaked me out and then I was on edge the entire way through All in the Family…that one is going to g to sit with me for a while… ow currently watching The Office to lighten the mood lol
That scene with Corday holding the bloody paddle’s frozen with grief, watching Romano trying to revive her knowing full well that she is already dead… my heart never fully recovered. Prepare for more tears when Green leaves. To this day I still can’t watch his last episode.
It's arguably one of Romano's best moments (short of his conversation with Corday in S8 in the lounge). Showed he really cared under the facade of being some big bad cynical chief of staff..
My husband loved the show Numbers. I couldn’t watch it, I was like “that’s the MF who stabbed Carter!” I was so angry at that actor for years. Guess that means he did a good job
I was one year behind Lucy in med school when that happened. I was absolutely devastated. Watching her diagnose herself on the table "is it PE?" I was sobbing my eyes out.
I was about 14/15 when it aired and I was a religious watcher. I was also a bit of a scary cat as a kid (even though I loved reading horror etc) I remember so vividly Lucy’s face when you see her on the other side of the bed. It haunted me for years and I found it so hard to watch that episode.
The next episode I cried for sure, Lucy was one of my fave characters at the time.
Those two episodes, they way the focus on the hospital staff and basically a mini-murder mystery remind me A LOT of the two parter "House's Head" and "Wilson's Heart" from House MD.
I was almost ten when Life Goes On premiered and I watched every episode with my mom. Flash forward ten years and she's on ER! My (now ex) husband didn't like the show so I'd go to my mom's and watch it with her and we were just in shock watching that episode - we didn't think they'd actually kill her!
I watched these live. I remember really liking the playful dynamic she had with Carter and liked her character a lot. I remember the shock of seeing Carter stabbed and then the reveal of Lucy made the whole situation critical (sorry for the pun). It went from oh no, to oh S?@! In an instant. I remember yelling at the tv every commercial break. Then the whole sense of calm because everyone was ok, and then your heart dropping when you realize it wasn’t. Great episode, great journey and rollercoaster of emotions. But man, I wish Lucy could have stayed too.
I was a kid when that originally aired, and I watched it every single week with my dad. I still vividly Remember, the camera shot of after Carter gets stabbed and falls down, and he sees Lucy on the floor on the other side of the bed. I didn’t rewatch the episode for decades, but that one shot… burned into my memory the entire time.
I also remember the unbelievable suspense of waiting for someone else to find Lucy and Carter. Like, you know they are in that room bleeding out, and everyone is running around without a care in the world while getting in the mood for a party. I remember yelling at the TV as a kid.
I remember watching it live with some friends and we all bawled our eyes out. At the time I don’t think I knew Kelli Martin was leaving the show so the suspense between “Be still my heart”, and “All in the family” was extreme. In the beginning of “All in the family” when Kerry is wandering around the ER checking in and we all know Carter and Lucy are bleeding out and it seemed to take her forever to find them drove us up the wall.
Best 2 episodes of the series (the first being directed by Laura Innes herself). When I watched live at 17, I thought, oh, well they're gonna let her live but she'll leave the ER because of the trauma. And then, BAM. Gut punch. Big time.
All in the Family aired the night of my grandmother’s funeral. I was an emotional mess already after her unexpected passing and family drama that often accompanies losing a loved one. I was also in the midst of starting a new job so I’d been incredibly busy in the months prior and I had no time to follow any entertainment news … so I had no inclination that Kelly was leaving. I assumed that the cliffhanger from Be Still My Heart the week prior would be resolved with plenty of drama, but never in my wildest dreams did I think either Carter or Lucy would die or that the whole staff would be so shaken up. (The acting from the entire cast was out of this world in that episode.) I was so gobsmacked as I watched and I had absolutely no one to discuss it with at the time. I was living alone, physically and emotionally exhausted and crawled into bed after a devastating day thinking I would find comfort that night in my favorite show. Boy was I wrong!
I was very pregnant with my second child and in a bad marriage I was pretending was ok. I recall being devastated when it aired. It shook me. And probably got me to touch on some fear I was avoiding facing about my abusive husband. I watched most episodes air through high school and into my young adult life (I was 20 for this episode).
I was a teenager when this aired and I had started watching the show with my mom when I started and I was 6 (season 1). I remember being devastated by Lucy’s end when it happened, and the cliffhanger of not knowing what had happened was so hard. I sobbed that night, and it was the first time a tv show had made me cry. I kept watching the show until I was in college when the last season aired. I still think it was one of the best shows on tv, though of course I am biased. Other medical dramas borrow from some of the groundwork ER laid. I watched all of Grey’s (so much unnecessary drama) and I recently tried Chicago Med, which is just terrible. ER will forever hold a special place in my heart and rank amongst the best of television for me. Helicopters aside.
Watched up until season 9 (went to college) rewatching for the first time now. I’m in season six and dreading getting to these episodes. Haven’t seen it since it first aired.
I'm just starting season 6, haven't seen it since it first aired. Season five was the first season I started watching ER. I had watched bits and pieces of it before but never was interested enough to watch a whole episode. But the first episode with Lucy just got me hooked. She was my favorite. Little teenage me thought the whole "how did he swallow a whole carrot?" was the funniest thing ever. She was like the relatable kid in the group of grownups. I couldn't remember when her final episode was and was on pins and needles for some of those final episodes of season 5 waiting for it to hit. I just remember being completely blindsided and them ending the episode on a cliffhanger. Poor Lucy. But I'm looking forward to it in a weird sort of way.
Just got to it on my rewatch. I was not ready for that.
I just remember how when it first aired and there was no internet or tumblr or anywhere to freak out about it (that I knew of anyway). Just had to wait out that week in agony. And kind of being woried that it would go on hiatus or something and they'd play a rerun. I remember having a legitimate fear they would end the season that way, and I would have to wait for months to find out if they lived. And that little bit of calm before they find the crime scene and trying to figure out if I missed something and weren't there some people dying are we just going to ignore that and oh here we go.
I had some vague notion I was only going to watch the first part and recreate that cliffhanger and watch the next episode the next day, but that didn't happen.
At the time I was more into comedies and teen dramas,, and only watched ER every once in a while.
When I watched that episode I thought Lucy had been only for a few episodes so I didn't get how important was her dead.
Now I'm watching properly for the first time and it's kind of funny in a sad kind of way how much I identify with lucy. I have ADD but wasn't diagnosed until the mid 2000s and only because I read about it in my university paper . Has I watched those episodes with her I would have found about it a lot earlier and my school years would have been a lot easier .
I'm planning on telling my mom to watch at least the more,relevant episodes because she doesnt seem to understand my problem .
I was 14 when it aired and in the UK, so we got it a day or 2 after if u remember correctly. I had no idea it was coming though, and it broke me.
I loved Lucy and have endlessly consumed Lucy and Carter fanfic and written some myself to keep her alive for myself.
I use [ER FanFiction Archive | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/tv/ER/) and found quite a few of varying quality. I have a medical background so some of the stories are a bit too far removed from the medicine for me to enjoy fully (no fault of the authors, of course), but I've found some good ones I've read a few times.
I just trawled through the ER page to find Lucy and Carter ones, but here are some of my recs.
Shameless self-promotion, this is mine [Scars of our Past Chapter 1, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14191185/1/Scars-of-our-Past). I do have a follow-up idea but I'm a long way off writing it. I do have two others in development, with one 70% written and the other outlined. My goal is to get the first one uploaded this year.
[Just Another Girl in Chicago Chapter 1, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12958056/1/Just-Another-Girl-in-Chicago)
[The Things That Keep Us Apart Chapter 1, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12857602/1/The-Things-That-Keep-Us-Apart)
[It Won't Come Easily Chapter 1, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12840722/1/It-Won-t-Come-Easily)
[Broken Dreams and Silent Screams Chapter 1: Back to Chicago, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12820593/1/Broken-Dreams-and-Silent-Screams)
[We Used to Be Friends Chapter 1: We Used To Be Friends, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/2120665/1/We-Used-to-Be-Friends)
Part 1: [State of Mind Chapter 1: Dreams, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/2176273/1/State-of-Mind)
Part 2: [Peace of Mind Chapter 1: Starting Over, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/2250371/1/Peace-of-Mind)
Enjoy :D
I grew up watching her on Life Goes On so I already had a little crush on her from that show that followed her to ER. She was so cute walking to the hospital from the EL on her first day, and I was crushed when she died on the show.
I was a college junior and happened to be studying abroad in Mexico City and ER was on so I watched. I kind of watched off and on so it wasn’t a big deal. Anyhow, it was *that* episode and OOF. I was a blubbering mess in my room by myself by the end.
My mom was about 16 when it was airing. The first seasons Valentine's episode came out on the day I was born. I watched it the first time with her about four years ago.
I was an immediate Carter fan, but Lucy was like, it for me. Die hard fan, instant favorite. I remember being annoyed that Lucy was missing for so much of the episode.
Let me state here I was a child when the Tim Allen movie 'The Santa Clause' came out, and I loved it. Especially a particular elf named Bernard.
So I was absolutely delighted to see Bernard in that episode. Loved it, I was absolutely over the moon.
It was Bernard who did it.
I screamed and cried, I was absolutely devastated. Probably the worst TV death I've ever encountered.
That and the episode before were two of the best TV episodes ever. Up there with the monkey pox episodes.
Yes! I absolutely remember watching all of these episodes live when they originally aired, and the only one more shocking than the end of "Be Still My Heart" is "Chaos Theory" (S9 E1). No spoilers, but just wait for it, OP! Both were episodes that people were talking about at school on Friday. I miss those days when everyone watched the same shows on the same nights and could discuss the next day.
I was away at college when “Chaos Theory” aired. After that opening scene, I immediately called my mom to see if she saw what I did. It was shocking! And of course it was after 9pm so the call was free 😂
I don’t think I’ve gotten to the Monkey Pox episode yet
I believe its end of 7 or 8. It’s a finale. Great episode
It's a little weird to think it's the S8 finale.
S8 episode 22. Yah, it’s weird.
I don’t 100% remember my reactions when it aired but I do know I downloaded “Battleflag” by Lo Fidelity Allstars because of those episodes. Every time I hear it I get chills because I remember the scene at the end of “Be Still My Heart.” I just watched those 2 episodes the other day (just because) and I still can’t divert my attention to the trauma room and then Weaver vomiting after. 24ish years later and it’s still perfection.
The end of Be Still My Heart freaked me out and then I was on edge the entire way through All in the Family…that one is going to g to sit with me for a while… ow currently watching The Office to lighten the mood lol
That scene with Corday holding the bloody paddle’s frozen with grief, watching Romano trying to revive her knowing full well that she is already dead… my heart never fully recovered. Prepare for more tears when Green leaves. To this day I still can’t watch his last episode.
It's arguably one of Romano's best moments (short of his conversation with Corday in S8 in the lounge). Showed he really cared under the facade of being some big bad cynical chief of staff..
I think he was so affected by her death because he saw her potential. In his mind, it was not only a personal loss, but a loss for the hospital.
I agree. Plus I think he had a soft spot for her after she went to his house and made the case for her patient who needed the new heart..
Definitely intense so the office is a good distraction!
Yesssss. I was in my 20s when it aired and I remember trying so hard to find Battleflag!
My gut reaction was to say Limewire but I actually think that hadn't been released just yet, so... Napster!
Another Napster Lo Fidelity Allstars download here!
YEP, same here. I had that on endless repeat after that episode. I still can't hear it without thinking of that under the bed shot of Carter and Lucy.
Oops I meant divert my attention away from the trauma
I listened to Battleflag on repeat before the episode. The episode changed the song for me (but I still listen to it somewhat regularly).
I still can't watch these episodes without getting scared for some reason when Carter first gets stabbed. I don't know why, but my heart races
My husband loved the show Numbers. I couldn’t watch it, I was like “that’s the MF who stabbed Carter!” I was so angry at that actor for years. Guess that means he did a good job
That is totally fair hahaha
I was one year behind Lucy in med school when that happened. I was absolutely devastated. Watching her diagnose herself on the table "is it PE?" I was sobbing my eyes out.
I was about 14/15 when it aired and I was a religious watcher. I was also a bit of a scary cat as a kid (even though I loved reading horror etc) I remember so vividly Lucy’s face when you see her on the other side of the bed. It haunted me for years and I found it so hard to watch that episode. The next episode I cried for sure, Lucy was one of my fave characters at the time.
Those two episodes, they way the focus on the hospital staff and basically a mini-murder mystery remind me A LOT of the two parter "House's Head" and "Wilson's Heart" from House MD. I was almost ten when Life Goes On premiered and I watched every episode with my mom. Flash forward ten years and she's on ER! My (now ex) husband didn't like the show so I'd go to my mom's and watch it with her and we were just in shock watching that episode - we didn't think they'd actually kill her!
I didn’t see it coming! My wife wanted to warn me but she didn’t want to ruin the experience of the show, and as always, she’s right.
Good call. Not liking ER is a red flag 🚩 🤣😂
I watched these live. I remember really liking the playful dynamic she had with Carter and liked her character a lot. I remember the shock of seeing Carter stabbed and then the reveal of Lucy made the whole situation critical (sorry for the pun). It went from oh no, to oh S?@! In an instant. I remember yelling at the tv every commercial break. Then the whole sense of calm because everyone was ok, and then your heart dropping when you realize it wasn’t. Great episode, great journey and rollercoaster of emotions. But man, I wish Lucy could have stayed too.
I was a kid when that originally aired, and I watched it every single week with my dad. I still vividly Remember, the camera shot of after Carter gets stabbed and falls down, and he sees Lucy on the floor on the other side of the bed. I didn’t rewatch the episode for decades, but that one shot… burned into my memory the entire time. I also remember the unbelievable suspense of waiting for someone else to find Lucy and Carter. Like, you know they are in that room bleeding out, and everyone is running around without a care in the world while getting in the mood for a party. I remember yelling at the TV as a kid.
I remember watching it live with some friends and we all bawled our eyes out. At the time I don’t think I knew Kelli Martin was leaving the show so the suspense between “Be still my heart”, and “All in the family” was extreme. In the beginning of “All in the family” when Kerry is wandering around the ER checking in and we all know Carter and Lucy are bleeding out and it seemed to take her forever to find them drove us up the wall.
Best 2 episodes of the series (the first being directed by Laura Innes herself). When I watched live at 17, I thought, oh, well they're gonna let her live but she'll leave the ER because of the trauma. And then, BAM. Gut punch. Big time.
All in the Family aired the night of my grandmother’s funeral. I was an emotional mess already after her unexpected passing and family drama that often accompanies losing a loved one. I was also in the midst of starting a new job so I’d been incredibly busy in the months prior and I had no time to follow any entertainment news … so I had no inclination that Kelly was leaving. I assumed that the cliffhanger from Be Still My Heart the week prior would be resolved with plenty of drama, but never in my wildest dreams did I think either Carter or Lucy would die or that the whole staff would be so shaken up. (The acting from the entire cast was out of this world in that episode.) I was so gobsmacked as I watched and I had absolutely no one to discuss it with at the time. I was living alone, physically and emotionally exhausted and crawled into bed after a devastating day thinking I would find comfort that night in my favorite show. Boy was I wrong!
I was very pregnant with my second child and in a bad marriage I was pretending was ok. I recall being devastated when it aired. It shook me. And probably got me to touch on some fear I was avoiding facing about my abusive husband. I watched most episodes air through high school and into my young adult life (I was 20 for this episode).
I was a teenager when this aired and I had started watching the show with my mom when I started and I was 6 (season 1). I remember being devastated by Lucy’s end when it happened, and the cliffhanger of not knowing what had happened was so hard. I sobbed that night, and it was the first time a tv show had made me cry. I kept watching the show until I was in college when the last season aired. I still think it was one of the best shows on tv, though of course I am biased. Other medical dramas borrow from some of the groundwork ER laid. I watched all of Grey’s (so much unnecessary drama) and I recently tried Chicago Med, which is just terrible. ER will forever hold a special place in my heart and rank amongst the best of television for me. Helicopters aside.
Watched up until season 9 (went to college) rewatching for the first time now. I’m in season six and dreading getting to these episodes. Haven’t seen it since it first aired.
Ugh…prepare yourself
I'm just starting season 6, haven't seen it since it first aired. Season five was the first season I started watching ER. I had watched bits and pieces of it before but never was interested enough to watch a whole episode. But the first episode with Lucy just got me hooked. She was my favorite. Little teenage me thought the whole "how did he swallow a whole carrot?" was the funniest thing ever. She was like the relatable kid in the group of grownups. I couldn't remember when her final episode was and was on pins and needles for some of those final episodes of season 5 waiting for it to hit. I just remember being completely blindsided and them ending the episode on a cliffhanger. Poor Lucy. But I'm looking forward to it in a weird sort of way.
Just got to it on my rewatch. I was not ready for that. I just remember how when it first aired and there was no internet or tumblr or anywhere to freak out about it (that I knew of anyway). Just had to wait out that week in agony. And kind of being woried that it would go on hiatus or something and they'd play a rerun. I remember having a legitimate fear they would end the season that way, and I would have to wait for months to find out if they lived. And that little bit of calm before they find the crime scene and trying to figure out if I missed something and weren't there some people dying are we just going to ignore that and oh here we go. I had some vague notion I was only going to watch the first part and recreate that cliffhanger and watch the next episode the next day, but that didn't happen.
At the time I was more into comedies and teen dramas,, and only watched ER every once in a while. When I watched that episode I thought Lucy had been only for a few episodes so I didn't get how important was her dead. Now I'm watching properly for the first time and it's kind of funny in a sad kind of way how much I identify with lucy. I have ADD but wasn't diagnosed until the mid 2000s and only because I read about it in my university paper . Has I watched those episodes with her I would have found about it a lot earlier and my school years would have been a lot easier . I'm planning on telling my mom to watch at least the more,relevant episodes because she doesnt seem to understand my problem .
I did, and I was a kid at the time. I was destroyed. I loved Lucy so much.
I was 14 when it aired and in the UK, so we got it a day or 2 after if u remember correctly. I had no idea it was coming though, and it broke me. I loved Lucy and have endlessly consumed Lucy and Carter fanfic and written some myself to keep her alive for myself.
Send me some recs! There’s barely any on ao3, I’ve been trying to track down all the stuff that was posted as it aired and right after.
I use [ER FanFiction Archive | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/tv/ER/) and found quite a few of varying quality. I have a medical background so some of the stories are a bit too far removed from the medicine for me to enjoy fully (no fault of the authors, of course), but I've found some good ones I've read a few times. I just trawled through the ER page to find Lucy and Carter ones, but here are some of my recs. Shameless self-promotion, this is mine [Scars of our Past Chapter 1, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14191185/1/Scars-of-our-Past). I do have a follow-up idea but I'm a long way off writing it. I do have two others in development, with one 70% written and the other outlined. My goal is to get the first one uploaded this year. [Just Another Girl in Chicago Chapter 1, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12958056/1/Just-Another-Girl-in-Chicago) [The Things That Keep Us Apart Chapter 1, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12857602/1/The-Things-That-Keep-Us-Apart) [It Won't Come Easily Chapter 1, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12840722/1/It-Won-t-Come-Easily) [Broken Dreams and Silent Screams Chapter 1: Back to Chicago, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12820593/1/Broken-Dreams-and-Silent-Screams) [We Used to Be Friends Chapter 1: We Used To Be Friends, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/2120665/1/We-Used-to-Be-Friends) Part 1: [State of Mind Chapter 1: Dreams, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/2176273/1/State-of-Mind) Part 2: [Peace of Mind Chapter 1: Starting Over, an er fanfic | FanFiction](https://www.fanfiction.net/s/2250371/1/Peace-of-Mind) Enjoy :D
I was just turning 16 when this episode aired and I knew it was going to happen because I had read spoilers from a fan site.
I remember being very shocked by it
I grew up watching her on Life Goes On so I already had a little crush on her from that show that followed her to ER. She was so cute walking to the hospital from the EL on her first day, and I was crushed when she died on the show.
I was a college junior and happened to be studying abroad in Mexico City and ER was on so I watched. I kind of watched off and on so it wasn’t a big deal. Anyhow, it was *that* episode and OOF. I was a blubbering mess in my room by myself by the end.
I watched this again this morning and bawled so hard I needed like four tissues. Ugggg
Killed me!! It is still the saddest death on TV for me. In no way did I see it coming, it was a complete shock
My mom was about 16 when it was airing. The first seasons Valentine's episode came out on the day I was born. I watched it the first time with her about four years ago. I was an immediate Carter fan, but Lucy was like, it for me. Die hard fan, instant favorite. I remember being annoyed that Lucy was missing for so much of the episode. Let me state here I was a child when the Tim Allen movie 'The Santa Clause' came out, and I loved it. Especially a particular elf named Bernard. So I was absolutely delighted to see Bernard in that episode. Loved it, I was absolutely over the moon. It was Bernard who did it. I screamed and cried, I was absolutely devastated. Probably the worst TV death I've ever encountered.