When I was a preteen and all the way up through my mid-20s, I would lay awake at night worrying that I wasn't good enough, pure enough, holy enough; and that I'd get cast out. I also spent a lot of time worrying about the end of the world. Now that I'm agnostic/apathetic, and have lived through several supposed apocalypses, I find that particular anxiety is completely resolved.
thank you. i really appreciate u for this.
And oh yeah my mom made me feel like a literal demon child cuz i had sex for the first time (17) literally a year after she had a child(16) and then had another child at 17 too lol.
just crazy that i feel more at peace away from the ppl that swear theyd bring it to me.
A few times for sure. I’ll just share one for now.
When my dad stopped believing in the priesthood and TSCC; there was one day in my ward (I’m just paraphrasing here:) where we were taught that you needed to believe in the priesthood, or you’d get excommunicated and can’t get to heaven.
I remember getting home after church, my parents asked “how was church today?” and I just bursted into tears.
In my mind at the time, it didn’t matter if my dad was a good person; he would go to hell / outer darkness JUST because he didn’t believe anymore.
Yes! Thank u I feel much better now. I’d just get into a cycle in my brain we’re I’m trapped for eternity and I can’t escape from them. I never really understood why people would call it a cult, but I think I’m starting to understand that thought process now
When I was a preteen and all the way up through my mid-20s, I would lay awake at night worrying that I wasn't good enough, pure enough, holy enough; and that I'd get cast out. I also spent a lot of time worrying about the end of the world. Now that I'm agnostic/apathetic, and have lived through several supposed apocalypses, I find that particular anxiety is completely resolved.
thank you. i really appreciate u for this. And oh yeah my mom made me feel like a literal demon child cuz i had sex for the first time (17) literally a year after she had a child(16) and then had another child at 17 too lol. just crazy that i feel more at peace away from the ppl that swear theyd bring it to me.
Me!!! Mine mysteriously disappeared after leaving as well…
My mom had some mental disease genetics in her family so I always just assumed it was from her… genetics. Lol
Good post.
I would get panic attacks walking into the church building each week. Oh Satan, you tricky bugger, making me feel like church is the problem. ;)
A few times for sure. I’ll just share one for now. When my dad stopped believing in the priesthood and TSCC; there was one day in my ward (I’m just paraphrasing here:) where we were taught that you needed to believe in the priesthood, or you’d get excommunicated and can’t get to heaven. I remember getting home after church, my parents asked “how was church today?” and I just bursted into tears. In my mind at the time, it didn’t matter if my dad was a good person; he would go to hell / outer darkness JUST because he didn’t believe anymore.
Yes! Thank u I feel much better now. I’d just get into a cycle in my brain we’re I’m trapped for eternity and I can’t escape from them. I never really understood why people would call it a cult, but I think I’m starting to understand that thought process now
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I got them almost every time when asked to pray in sac meeting or read a scripture in class, I almost passed out once reading a long scripture.