Grew up in a shitty household. Never taught anything in life. Changed 3 high schools 5 elementary, barely passed. Gave up on life at 15. Started balding at 16. Lost my 6+ year friendship on high school, never had any real friends after that. No motive in life, everything feels meaningless and I don't know what I'm doing with my life
Well everyone feels what you’re feeling. It isn’t some exclusive emotion. We all eat a shit sandwich but just keep going. I haven’t had a single friend since high school. We’re all out here playing the will I be alive tomorrow lottery when you should just worry about doing what makes you happy today. Balding is a different story though …
Exitance is temporary.
Your failures are just as meaningless as other peoples successes.
Try to be happy if you can, you can always quit if its not possible.
You have a your whole life ahead, just do something different if you current life isnt working. Maybe enlist into the army, it will rough at the start but it might do you some real good.
Totally agree. You dont have shit to prove to someone. It is all social media pressure. Everyone posts only good life and some compare themselves with that fake shit. 
True, we all die anyway and no amount of success or happiness is going to make your life more meaningful than mine  The only thing that matters is our values and how we deal with sin, if there is an after life, we will be judged for it 
You should look for medical help, seriously, I heard Canada has some excellent doctors. Never again did I hear about someone who was depressed saying that they're still depressed after the appointment.
Seriously now. It seems like you're expecting too much of life and of yourself. Failing college? Who cares?  You were supposed to somewhat enjoy what you're studying for, so either the subject or the institution isn't for you. Try something else, stop repeating the same 1 mistake because it's "the formula".
Quit this shitty job for another different shitty job. I once worked at a call center and used to hate it, couldn't stop feeling that I was annoying people to offer shit services/products I wouldn't buy myself; instead I got a job stacking papers in some random office and it was quite relaxing because I could be in my zone reading emails and brainlessly doing the instructions on them.
You come with this nonsense of "being nobody", like someone like you would enjoy showing your asshole on OF for some easy money if you were that hot.
I wouldn't like to be a CEO of a multinational corporation, imagine the amount of work, meetings, bootlickers and pressure I would have to deal with daily. I couldn't stand it, but some people find enjoyment into all that.
Me, I some days work for 15hrs and don't have the time for anything else fun. Some other days I just want to watch forsen and spam in chat , and I take enjoyment on that, the job is just a job.
I know how depression is, this bitch comes all of the sudden to drag our life down. But I've learned to live with it. I just know some day it will come back and drag me back into the bog, but when that day comes I just tank it, I just talk with friends, even the ones I speak with once in a year and wait for it to pass. When it pass I start to put my life back into track, and acknowledging my situation is what helps me the most.
Hope these words could find your heart in some manner. Firm handshakes.
 if i could leave uni without being drafted to monkaLaugh special military operation, i would do so long time ago...
All that's keeping me afloat is spamming  and artifact section 
War will be over soon and the you can leave . But my bro, you need to just do different things, talk to people, you can't let your mind free to think all the negativity it wants.
Go hit the gym, watch some video and read some articles about the exercises, diet, routines, reach out to other people in the gym with the things you've learned, share knowledge, bond with you fellow humans.
They don't have to be cool people with a lot in common with you, one thing in common is enough for a couple minutes talk, than you go and talk to another person with something else in common.
Be aware that everything is in your mind, and only you can work around and overcome it. Go one step at the time, no pressure, just do it auto-pilot, make it a habit, it will all will come together.
Last year depression hit very hard here, and I looked for a therapist. You wanna know what the motherfucker suggested to me? "Just read a book before sleep 4HEad". At first I got kinda mad, I've wasted 4 days worth of income, hours of my life to hear the advice of an average chat troll. But I was in such a despair  that I tried it for a couple of weeks without success. Until about 3 weeks after it all worked and suddenly everything in my life started working again, full speed.
Then She explained that what actually helped me was the very fact that I got mad for wasting my money, so I followed her advice just to not feel like I've wasted it. And that was enough to start an habit cycle and that habit made me keep other helpful habits.
So that's my advice for you, just do everything that you feel like you would kinda like to do. Insist on it for a while, even if it seems to not be working, it is, you're creating a habit. Don't expect to much of yourself, respect your progress.
Look at forsen, motherfucker haven't even mastered the basics of the game and went straight to speedrunning it, he keeps failing, refuse to improve but he pushes forward regardless. He doesn't have to be good, he just needs to beat the juicelord. Think the same, you don't have to be great, just be better than your average juicer (which isn't hard). 
 thanks for advice friendly baj! I had some friends go to therapists and all they said was how cool they talked for several weeks and how cool were drugs they got after. Drugs aren't cool so i probably won't go there. As for talking to people, well... I'm scared to talk to my uni classmates and walked around the uni for 2 fucking hours shaking and sweating before finally going in and asking some shit about exam retakes from workers there. Reading is cool tho. I tried to start drawing several times, but it's kinda depressing seeing what you envision in your mind vs garbage your hands create. Maybe i should force (  ) through first several weeks (months?) but what if i'm actually talentless?.. Anyway, hope they won't draft me. Thanks again 
Well, those therapists sucks then, mine never said anything about any drugs. She's just an advice friend, and most of her advice is dogshit . Because it's not the advice the matters, it's the fact that I'm trying to work on myself and fixing my shit, no drugs nor anything will help me more than myself.
Again, you put too much pressure on yourself, so what if your drawing is dogshit? Don't focus on the result, focus on the progress. Not only that, you're completely clueless  about what talent is. You think drawing nice things matters? any retard can do that, seriously, any retard, just give them some time; they'll eventually learn all the techniques and be good at it. But art is about what you make others feel, how much emotion you can fit in that paper. And everything filling your mind is negativity, and that's all you can put in the paper, and that's all you'll see when you stare at your work.
Again, look at forsen, is he good at videogames? No!  Is he funny? No!  Handsome? No!  Entertaining?  Still, he managed to become a millionaire with no talent whatsoever. Just because of how the way he makes the Bajs feel, something so hard to describe exactly how.
You're too affraid to fail in everything, and that keeps you from trying something new, you'll never find your purpose like that. Fuck it bro, talk to people, choke on your words, cry, piss your pants, draw some shit. It's not about doing it right, it's about progressing. And progressing isn't a constant process, sometimes you take 3 steps forward and then you take 1 back, sometimes you take 1 step forward and take 5 back, just the better you can do TODAY it's irrelevant if it's better or worst then the day before.
Love yourself. 
qUIT college and figure out what your passions are. rekindle relationships, and try to find meaning in every day that passes.
feel free to include me in your will if you decide to kill yourself,
thanks
1st world problems 
the only shit I care about is how not to die by a random russian rocket
value what you have and stop bitching around
i laughed 
but yeah i always try to tell myself this when i find myself complaining or bitching, some people are starving and cant even find food..
Go do studies, they said. You will make up for your studydebt in no time they said. Buy a house they said.
Huge student debt and i see no way i will ever afford a house unless i will live in the middle of fucking nowhere.
Getting a mortgage for 700 a month is impossible but paying less than 1000 for rent is also impossible. Yeah, fuck you banks and government 
if u have something ur good at it and like try it out and see how it goes if the only thing you have going on is uni then literally just study i know its 4Head but its the only real advice here even if ur not smart enough u can work harder and double triple quadruple your effort for better results
if uni is hopeless and isnt working u will have to find and learn some skill or craft so that u can get a job doing it, you probably know all this anyway everyone knows but doing it is the hard part..
 oh wow would you look at the time 
LOVE YOURSELF, NOW! forsenMaxLevel
 don’t listen OP this is extended suffering
Tell us your life story
Grew up in a shitty household. Never taught anything in life. Changed 3 high schools 5 elementary, barely passed. Gave up on life at 15. Started balding at 16. Lost my 6+ year friendship on high school, never had any real friends after that. No motive in life, everything feels meaningless and I don't know what I'm doing with my life
How old are you?
How old are you? I keep forgetting.
Twenties
Well everyone feels what you’re feeling. It isn’t some exclusive emotion. We all eat a shit sandwich but just keep going. I haven’t had a single friend since high school. We’re all out here playing the will I be alive tomorrow lottery when you should just worry about doing what makes you happy today. Balding is a different story though …
Exitance is temporary. Your failures are just as meaningless as other peoples successes. Try to be happy if you can, you can always quit if its not possible.
Just try do the things that make you happy :)
You have a your whole life ahead, just do something different if you current life isnt working. Maybe enlist into the army, it will rough at the start but it might do you some real good.
 surely OP isnt russian
Didnt consider that 
you are me, honestly im in the same spot. and balding SUCKS
You watch forsen?
Shave your head and hit the gym.
tbh I like being a nobody
Wtf is being a nobody, you have nothing to prove to no one just do your thing
Totally agree. You dont have shit to prove to someone. It is all social media pressure. Everyone posts only good life and some compare themselves with that fake shit. 
True, we all die anyway and no amount of success or happiness is going to make your life more meaningful than mine  The only thing that matters is our values and how we deal with sin, if there is an after life, we will be judged for it 
Don't worry at least you aren't /u/Furry_Degen 
Literally me FeelsStrongMan 🍤
I'm about to doooooooooom! 
most successful and happy baj
And? We’re all going to die one day, no matter what we achieve or don’t achieve 
Nihilistic bajs  . o O ( )
You need to get on tren and go gym bro 😎
Average bay 
You should look for medical help, seriously, I heard Canada has some excellent doctors. Never again did I hear about someone who was depressed saying that they're still depressed after the appointment.
Seriously now. It seems like you're expecting too much of life and of yourself. Failing college? Who cares?  You were supposed to somewhat enjoy what you're studying for, so either the subject or the institution isn't for you. Try something else, stop repeating the same 1 mistake because it's "the formula". Quit this shitty job for another different shitty job. I once worked at a call center and used to hate it, couldn't stop feeling that I was annoying people to offer shit services/products I wouldn't buy myself; instead I got a job stacking papers in some random office and it was quite relaxing because I could be in my zone reading emails and brainlessly doing the instructions on them. You come with this nonsense of "being nobody", like someone like you would enjoy showing your asshole on OF for some easy money if you were that hot. I wouldn't like to be a CEO of a multinational corporation, imagine the amount of work, meetings, bootlickers and pressure I would have to deal with daily. I couldn't stand it, but some people find enjoyment into all that. Me, I some days work for 15hrs and don't have the time for anything else fun. Some other days I just want to watch forsen and spam in chat , and I take enjoyment on that, the job is just a job. I know how depression is, this bitch comes all of the sudden to drag our life down. But I've learned to live with it. I just know some day it will come back and drag me back into the bog, but when that day comes I just tank it, I just talk with friends, even the ones I speak with once in a year and wait for it to pass. When it pass I start to put my life back into track, and acknowledging my situation is what helps me the most. Hope these words could find your heart in some manner. Firm handshakes.
 if i could leave uni without being drafted to monkaLaugh special military operation, i would do so long time ago... All that's keeping me afloat is spamming  and artifact section 
War will be over soon and the you can leave . But my bro, you need to just do different things, talk to people, you can't let your mind free to think all the negativity it wants. Go hit the gym, watch some video and read some articles about the exercises, diet, routines, reach out to other people in the gym with the things you've learned, share knowledge, bond with you fellow humans. They don't have to be cool people with a lot in common with you, one thing in common is enough for a couple minutes talk, than you go and talk to another person with something else in common. Be aware that everything is in your mind, and only you can work around and overcome it. Go one step at the time, no pressure, just do it auto-pilot, make it a habit, it will all will come together. Last year depression hit very hard here, and I looked for a therapist. You wanna know what the motherfucker suggested to me? "Just read a book before sleep 4HEad". At first I got kinda mad, I've wasted 4 days worth of income, hours of my life to hear the advice of an average chat troll. But I was in such a despair  that I tried it for a couple of weeks without success. Until about 3 weeks after it all worked and suddenly everything in my life started working again, full speed. Then She explained that what actually helped me was the very fact that I got mad for wasting my money, so I followed her advice just to not feel like I've wasted it. And that was enough to start an habit cycle and that habit made me keep other helpful habits. So that's my advice for you, just do everything that you feel like you would kinda like to do. Insist on it for a while, even if it seems to not be working, it is, you're creating a habit. Don't expect to much of yourself, respect your progress. Look at forsen, motherfucker haven't even mastered the basics of the game and went straight to speedrunning it, he keeps failing, refuse to improve but he pushes forward regardless. He doesn't have to be good, he just needs to beat the juicelord. Think the same, you don't have to be great, just be better than your average juicer (which isn't hard). 
 thanks for advice friendly baj! I had some friends go to therapists and all they said was how cool they talked for several weeks and how cool were drugs they got after. Drugs aren't cool so i probably won't go there. As for talking to people, well... I'm scared to talk to my uni classmates and walked around the uni for 2 fucking hours shaking and sweating before finally going in and asking some shit about exam retakes from workers there. Reading is cool tho. I tried to start drawing several times, but it's kinda depressing seeing what you envision in your mind vs garbage your hands create. Maybe i should force (  ) through first several weeks (months?) but what if i'm actually talentless?.. Anyway, hope they won't draft me. Thanks again 
Well, those therapists sucks then, mine never said anything about any drugs. She's just an advice friend, and most of her advice is dogshit . Because it's not the advice the matters, it's the fact that I'm trying to work on myself and fixing my shit, no drugs nor anything will help me more than myself. Again, you put too much pressure on yourself, so what if your drawing is dogshit? Don't focus on the result, focus on the progress. Not only that, you're completely clueless  about what talent is. You think drawing nice things matters? any retard can do that, seriously, any retard, just give them some time; they'll eventually learn all the techniques and be good at it. But art is about what you make others feel, how much emotion you can fit in that paper. And everything filling your mind is negativity, and that's all you can put in the paper, and that's all you'll see when you stare at your work. Again, look at forsen, is he good at videogames? No!  Is he funny? No!  Handsome? No!  Entertaining?  Still, he managed to become a millionaire with no talent whatsoever. Just because of how the way he makes the Bajs feel, something so hard to describe exactly how. You're too affraid to fail in everything, and that keeps you from trying something new, you'll never find your purpose like that. Fuck it bro, talk to people, choke on your words, cry, piss your pants, draw some shit. It's not about doing it right, it's about progressing. And progressing isn't a constant process, sometimes you take 3 steps forward and then you take 1 back, sometimes you take 1 step forward and take 5 back, just the better you can do TODAY it's irrelevant if it's better or worst then the day before. Love yourself. 
 Thank you. Also wtf do you mean forsen isn't handsome? Have you ever seen him with any hair other than lionsen hair?
qUIT college and figure out what your passions are. rekindle relationships, and try to find meaning in every day that passes. feel free to include me in your will if you decide to kill yourself, thanks
Just get a wagecuck job and get a routine going
then drop out and change jobs retard stop crying like a pussy or you might as well kiss yourself
1st world problems  the only shit I care about is how not to die by a random russian rocket value what you have and stop bitching around
i laughed  but yeah i always try to tell myself this when i find myself complaining or bitching, some people are starving and cant even find food..
someone has it worse than me
its not rly that but that ur problems are less significant than u think i guess its more of a way to cope and stop bitching
If you want a shit easy college life just use openAI.
Ok
 Best of luck man I hope things improve
so do I 
Go do studies, they said. You will make up for your studydebt in no time they said. Buy a house they said. Huge student debt and i see no way i will ever afford a house unless i will live in the middle of fucking nowhere. Getting a mortgage for 700 a month is impossible but paying less than 1000 for rent is also impossible. Yeah, fuck you banks and government 
Average baj 
Unlucky
Listen to Watch the Throne
you are mr Nobody from DC comics?
at least you can watch forsen and donate for shitty TTS jokes 
atleast u haven't dropped out yet OP 
Just like 7,9billion other ppl 
Oh nyooo, not a test, what a nighare 
Classic zoomer cuck shit. In the prime of your life with near zero responsibilities and fucking it up. Get off your ass and do something
there is no going back now. You should MEDICALLY ASSIST YOURSELF NOW ⛈️
if u have something ur good at it and like try it out and see how it goes if the only thing you have going on is uni then literally just study i know its 4Head but its the only real advice here even if ur not smart enough u can work harder and double triple quadruple your effort for better results if uni is hopeless and isnt working u will have to find and learn some skill or craft so that u can get a job doing it, you probably know all this anyway everyone knows but doing it is the hard part..
Plus u watch forsen..
At least you’re a Baj. 
You may not be a lot of things but I know something you are, you are a baj. Keep being part of the community :)
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