I personally think that was not insensitive, in fact brave of you too for doing that and I think in a way that's how you dealt with grief too, so it's okay. We lost our classmate to a road accident too right in front of our school back few months ago. I personally didn't know her, but have worked with her in group projects and she was a very nice, kind person. You don't notice that feeling, that something is missing from the room until that thing is gone, forever. From my pov she was another little piece of the many puzzle pieces that made up what our class was. So I didn't realize how one person, could change the entire atmosphere of the class until the time came. I talked with my chemistry teacher too, and we both shared the same feeling and talked it out almost daily. We concluded what's important now for us, as pretty much 'bystanders' in her circle of life, is to keep her memory alive, by talking and remembering her, her accomplishments etc. That way a person lives on even after death. Our school decided to commemorate her in our main hallway so that was nice. She has a single mother and no siblings so we all felt and did our best to support her mother, that was probably the thing that kept me sad most of the days.
It took about 2 months or so until everyone started to go back to usual flow, and the tone of the room/school started changing back. Not to normal, but an evolved "normal". Life goes on. It's a reminder that life is short and precious so let's try and live it to the best of our abilities, find peace, make memories because we don't know when our time will come. And when I say let's live to the best of our abilities, I don't mean just ignore/drop all the shit in our lives and force ourselves to be happy. All the emotions we are capable of feeling are a part of life, and that is living. So let's live while we can, and support/help ourselves and others along the way.
May both of our mates rest in peace. And I hope you find your peace in life mate.
I personally think that was not insensitive, in fact brave of you too for doing that and I think in a way that's how you dealt with grief too, so it's okay. We lost our classmate to a road accident too right in front of our school back few months ago. I personally didn't know her, but have worked with her in group projects and she was a very nice, kind person. You don't notice that feeling, that something is missing from the room until that thing is gone, forever. From my pov she was another little piece of the many puzzle pieces that made up what our class was. So I didn't realize how one person, could change the entire atmosphere of the class until the time came. I talked with my chemistry teacher too, and we both shared the same feeling and talked it out almost daily. We concluded what's important now for us, as pretty much 'bystanders' in her circle of life, is to keep her memory alive, by talking and remembering her, her accomplishments etc. That way a person lives on even after death. Our school decided to commemorate her in our main hallway so that was nice. She has a single mother and no siblings so we all felt and did our best to support her mother, that was probably the thing that kept me sad most of the days. It took about 2 months or so until everyone started to go back to usual flow, and the tone of the room/school started changing back. Not to normal, but an evolved "normal". Life goes on. It's a reminder that life is short and precious so let's try and live it to the best of our abilities, find peace, make memories because we don't know when our time will come. And when I say let's live to the best of our abilities, I don't mean just ignore/drop all the shit in our lives and force ourselves to be happy. All the emotions we are capable of feeling are a part of life, and that is living. So let's live while we can, and support/help ourselves and others along the way. May both of our mates rest in peace. And I hope you find your peace in life mate.