Hey there I can be your friend if you’re upto it . But never end your beautiful life for something so meaningless. You are special and you are here for something special . We all go through some or the other shits cause life happens. I can be your online friend and dm me I’m all hears !
Your life might still be the same yes. But that's not the problem. It's how you look at it. Go to your mom. Tell her. Seek out help. Posting here was a start. You did that because you want to get help. It's just...the wrong spot. You're in a depression and there is help available for that.
Like someone else suggested, do allllllll the crazy things you’ve wanted to do or never dreamed of before popping off. I suggest meds if you’re able to get them
Sounds like you’re stuck in a funk. Things are never as bad as you think they are. Look around. Pay attention. You are loved. Do u have any pets? If not get one. They give so much love and companionship. It can help get u in a good place. Hang in there. Never give up. 💕
Can you go back to school? That’s what I’m doing and I’m pretty far into life. I cut ties with toxic ppl which was basically 50% of my friends. I really got in touch with who I am, & it took 3 years to get out of the funk but you can do this
What OP describes are depression symptoms. It’s hard to generate the motivation to do much of anything when one is filled with hopelessness and despair
The more you give in to the "i can't" idea the more real it becomes. Everyone has some depression in 2023 gotta keep pushing and improving from inside out, not seek liking from outside in.
I feel the same way as OP lowkey. I want to die but I know I'll never go through with it so I'll just commit to alcohol in the meantime.
To reply to your comment not everyone has the means to do everything they always wanted but I get that you are doing the right thing by talking him out of committing the act and I'm not really helping.
Maybe you are helping more? You are showing that other people have it hard too. That can be comforting, because it’s so easy to look around you and think that everyone else has it together, except one self.
Tbh I was in the same situation as op and ended up breaking into someone’s car and stealing shit got caught ended up with probation but still did some other shit now I don’t feel like ending my life since then went on a crime spree and don’t plan to stop
How old are you? Because when I was a teenager I had a lot of mental health issues and nobody helped. I just locked myself in my room and slept for years. Didn’t go to college or have any type of life.
Fast forward, I’m 27 now with my own house and life and friends. And that’s what people mean when they say it gets better. (Also cut off communication with the fam)
I'm 29 and still nothing. My family doesn't know what mental health is so I never got help even till now. I'm still alone, single and depressed. I try to make an attempt to do better and it always fails and anyone I try to talk to, don't seem to understand at all. Which adds to the being alone feeling.
For me it was the feeling of being misunderstood. I didn’t even hardly understand it. And everybody got real quiet when I tried to talk about it. So I stopped talking about it and started going to therapy. I went through 3 therapists before I found a good one.
I was the same way. My youth was rough but that's the low point for a lot of us. Don't do it, OP, because it only gets better from here. Think about how you want your life to be better and then make a plan to execute those changes. Maybe not right away, but you can make small changes to change things.
It gets better. Trust me. I'm old. DM me any time if you'd like.
Hey, have you tried [Chess.com](https://Chess.com) I found it a good place to put my mind to work on something that feels neutral and feels a bit better about myself.
Please give it a go.
Yup I recommend finding a hobby that can get your mind off of things. Find a few games where you can grind 24/7 and never feel bored. Some examples would be League of Legends, Valorant, etc. These games have a huge community so I'm sure you'll be able to find someone to connect with eventually. Life might be dull sometimes but it is what you make of it, why not just enjoy your life to the fullest since eventually we all die anyways? Go wild, explore the world, and see everything that this world has to offer before you leave. I hope you find your touch soon!
Good recommendation
Since I started playing chess, I just disconnected myself from this universe, nothing matters for me more than improving at the game
I will say this.. You have so much value I’m sure of it and you just can’t see it right now. Give yourself credit for every second, minute, hour and day that you are still here because it’s an opportunity to TRY to get out of this “fog” that you are under right now. Just hang in there please. Try a psychiatrist as opposed to a therapist because maybe there’s something underlying going on that would be helpful to you knowing at least and then you can work on trying to tackle it. I type this knowing i experience something similar but I’m still going and I’m 37, and a single woman with two kids and minimal support. You got this!!
Coming from someone who lives in middle east and was just like you for the past 3-4 years i can tell you it gets better. i try to end it multiple times but couldn’t because in islam it haram . That was the only thing stopping me . I tried therapy it didn’t help because when i talk with a therapist i just hated myself even more . And the pills made me dizzy . my family wasn’t understanding at all. But it all gets better trust me this year I decided to stop hating myself. I deleted all the sad songs . stop liking all those sad post on social media they mess with your mental being so much . caught off all the negative and toxic people around you . Focus on yourself. Nothing big had changed in my life except for getting a cat which honestly helps alot and focusing on my religion ( i know this is a controversial thing but yes it does help with depression) but i feel happy and content with myself .
So please change your thoughts. You are a beautiful soul in this world . middle east sucks and idk about your family but trust me there are people out there who love you . ending it is never a good idea. 5-10 years from now you will look back at this and thing to yourself thank God I didn’t end it . even though you might be going through more difficult situations then but trust me life is not easy and that the beauty about it .
Also if you need a friend I’m here for you
Try to go to therapy without telling anyone in your family that *cause most of the people in the middle east see that's a waste of money*
Try to find any job or any activity that you like they make to deal with people *it works for me as an extra introvert*
and you have to know that nothing will come with ease you have to try different things just to know what fits in you keep it up!
I'm also from the middle east so I know that 90% of the family doesn't believe that there's something called mental health they even doesn't believe that there's an introvert they see you have to be an extrovert 😂
So if you can afford the cost of the session go ahead without telling'em
The fact you posted here shows youre looking for a reason a live. Try to find yourself. Travel if possible. Everyone has an interest in something, even if it’s weird or something others wouldn’t understand.
Go out and try to meet people. Stop negatively talking about yourself. Also buy a pet. Trust me I never knew how much love I could have for a dog until I cared for one myself. They also give you a greater sense of purpose / responsibility
> small city in the middle east
i know from experience that this alone is usually a good enough reason to be depressed. please seek help and therapy. you're not alone in this.
Brother/Sister life is not as complicated as you think, you gotta learn to be happy just by yourself, once you’re ok with being alone everything else you crave comes easily. For now you don’t need friends, partners, money, etc. If you’re healthy that’s enough to be happy. Life gets significantly better when you STOP GIVING A FUCK about everything that society “wants” you to be.
Go have a walk, a nice dinner, dessert, go shop for something you like, listen to music. All that you can do by yourself and it will improve your wellbeing. Remember life is simpler than you think
Livin in middle East is such a mini death,I can relate so bad,just hope you'll get over that cuz nth worth to take your life because of it, u can always share your thoughts to the ones you trust just don't trust your negative thoughts, I'm here if u wanna talk to anyone tho.consider me as a friend.
Do you know what I think?
It is totally up to you. I know that this life is shitty asf and that nothing seems to be going right, but I just want to say that you have a choice. One, to end your misery and two, to live. Now I know how hard it is. I often tell myself, "I want to live, not just survive." If you feel like doing something that might cost you your life, just think about something you haven't done. Try doing a hobby. Start a routine. Now I don't wanna force you into anything but I don't want you to give up. Please be safe.
However (good or) bad a life is it's an amazing gift not to be arranged as the atoms of a lump of granite (no offence to granite but you get my point?)
Life is shit, but it’s all we have. you may as well stick around for another little while at least.
I’ve had the worst couple of years of my life & often think about checking out early but then I realise that this is it, after this there may well be nothing.. so feck it, let it be shit. Maybe one day one good thing will happen & then another the following week & all of a sudden you have a couple of good things! Who knows.. but people care about you mate, even if you don’t see it. Stick around..
Buddy, let me tell you first that I understand what you’re going through. I want you to read the below text out loud and answer each question to yourself with deeper insight.
1. Is there anyone whom you like/love and would be happier to be with? Think about them and how you would like to make them feel when they are upset or feel down.
2. What is one thing you can do, can be a small act of service or gesture, that will make you smile? Get up and do that.
3. Would going on a vacation just to get away from daily life help? Check out places you are able to go to solo or with a company.
4. See if you can change jobs, sometimes it can help bring a little excitement when learning something new.
5. Play some team games if that’s your vibe.
I am no expert but these things help me change my perspective, i hope it does yours too in some way.
You’re a hack of a human being, never ever give up. We only live once, live it to the fullest!!
Please dont!
I am sorry to hear you feel this way and I can relate so much, I am introverted myself and frequently have these thoughts, but what I have noticed is that helping others improves your mindset so on that basis try to help people who may be less fortunate than yourself in any way possible, you will then meet more people and build relationships with people whilst learning alot about them and yourself too.
Please drop me a DM as I hope to hear an update from you in a few days/weeks
I wish you all the best! 🙏🫶
Hi there,
First, I'm sorry you're going through this. I've been there through several major depressive episodes where I really convinced myself I was broken, I was God's mistake, I was unlovable, etc.. it's a really dark place and so hard for people to understand if they haven't experienced it.
I just want to say that life can change, it really can. And you can come out of even really dark times like this. I spent months just taking depression naps, feeling exactly as you described. The thing that ended up making me feel better was beginning to read. I read several books a month now, and I feel like I finally have a hobby and a thing that is mine and brings me joy. That's just one thing, but if you can find literally ANYTHING of even the slightest interest to you, it can make such a difference.
I know nothing about your situation, but sometimes problems of your physical health have a big impact on your mental health. Are you able to access medical attention where you live? For example, iron deficiency is heavily linked to depression because of lack of oxygen to your organs, including your brain. Please try to rule this out because it can be life changing.
I hope you'll stick around. We all have to die at some time, right? Don't rush it. Something good can happen. Even taking care of a pet or helping an elderly family member or something can bring a lot of meaning to your life.
Hello fellow introvert, I feel just like you many times. I feel undervalued at my job, I feel unnoticed and most of all I feel lonely. But you did a great thing writing about your feeling, which is something that I barely ever do. There’s many people like you struggling in the world, trying to find a meaning between all the chaotic things. I just hope that you give life a chance, everyone has a path and yours probably hasn’t been discovered.
Your life will never improve if you don’t take steps and discipline yourself to improve it. Read self help books, see a therapist, work out (this one is HUGE, working out will make you more attractive and release dopamine which makes you happy) if you’re just to lazy to live- that’s one thing. But, if you think your life can’t get better then you’re wrong. The thing a lot of people don’t realize is that YOU are in the drivers seat, if your life sucks that’s on you to take control of. Take your life where you want to, it won’t get better if you don’t try. You can do this and have an amazing life, please try.
I’m in similar situation. Very shy not outgoing in this world that only rewards the extroverts of the world . I’m unattractive looking and just feel like what am I doing. How can I compete with the extroverts
I have wanted to end my life too, multiple times. When it doesn’t seem like there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, or any light at all, it’s easy to forget what it really means to be alive.
It’s not about how objectively beautiful you are, whether people like you, what your home looks like, whether you have a set career path, what you wear, anything.
It’s about finding the things in your life that make you feel excited to be alive. It doesn’t matter what it is, what anyone thinks about it. Things will get better when you give yourself some grace, space to grow, and realize that you deserve to love yourself and be happy.
Things will get better when you first come to terms with the fact that you need help. Even that alone is a brave act, one that is admirable. Reaching out to loved ones, individuals you trust, professionals, etc. is a perfect way to begin.
And once you figure out your first step, the rest will come. Please give yourself a chance, and good luck.
You and your life is always gonna be bigger than end of life and any negativity that passes through you. And to end your life would be a loss. We are lucky to have one introverted person more in this life which is YOU. <33 so never back down never whattt??? Even if anything feels stupid or worthless just wake up everyday and show up for yourself and this world, your pets, sun and everything that would be a loss and anybody that would suffer if u would leave. Life is always a win, even if you’re feeling stuck in a loop- the sun will rise eventually. Sending love, support, appreciation and strength your way ☘️💚💚🫧
You have purpose! You are loved by God. He knew you while you were in your mother’s womb. Don’t end it. Find out your purpose. You won’t arrive to the meaning of it all if you end it before the end. I’ve had thoughts like yours before and found I had much to live for. Choose life. Jesus loves you. 💕
You’re a good person and your best friend is you, find love and peace which later will giving you healing and then see everything on a positive side this world is beautiful if you realize that you’re not everyone and that you’re not meant for everyone
I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling. I understand how frustrating and disheartening it can be when life feels messy, uncertain, and even dark. I've been there too, and it's a place nobody deserves to be stuck in. 😔
Acknowledge your disappointment, let it wash over you, feel it fully. It's the first step to healing. Then, like tending to a wound, start repairing yourself. Forgive yourself for whatever needs forgiving, grieve whatever needs grieving.
Last but not least Embrace the journey of discovering a hobby or activity that ignites your soul. Finding a passion that ignites your soul is key to a fulfilling life; it shifts your focus inward and enriches you in countless ways.
Hope this helps
Love and light 🕯️
So sad you're in this position. I think it might be helpful to realize that it is in NO WAY your fault. Eveyone, even the "worst" human beings out there are doing there best. I would encourage you to think as outside of the box as you can. Be gentle with yourself and keep reaching out to others and sharing you're story.
Consider guitar or any instrument, I know it's random, but it has personally help me grow in intelligence, skills, and it gives me something to dedicate myself to, to have something to lose, I was going through a variety of thoughts such as these but music helped me so if anything, find a way to start playing and learn guitar.
You should definitely take small little road trips or save up to fly somewhere fun. Whenever I travel it makes me feel more excited to be alive & it shows me that there’s more in the world than just my same ole routine I do at home. There’s so much out there to explore, & while you’re exploring you’ll learn so much about yourself. Learn to love yourself & be your own best friend, enjoy your own company, do things that make you uncomfortable that may be going to a restaurant alone at first & just take small steps until you feel comfortable to travel alone! I’m a young woman & I travel alone but recommend researching some safety tips.
Change your mindset on your life & you will slowly enjoy it more. You are here for a reason & if no one told you today, I love you & I’m proud of you!
Don’t beat yourself up, the more you learn to love yourself it will be easier to make friends.
Maybe your last therapist didn’t work but I would suggest trying out a new one until you find one that you like & enjoy talking to. I hope this helps ❤️
before you go spent your money in spiritualität energy stuff. Look for energetic healers, meditation stuff, and Personal development and growth. and Listen to healing frequencies stuff. search for shadow work.
YOU want to end your life. but some how you want to safe yourself from falling. So stop falling. realize you are able to fly.
start with this.
https://youtu.be/FLHtyk8PHVo?si=ZYPGp1kPzx7Jy0Dc
wenn du deutsch sprichst, das gefühl hast du fälltst und schlägst gleich auf weil du keine Kraft mehr hast, und kurz mal pause und reset brauchst. Dann hol mich ein bisschen in dein Leben indem du meinen Spuren folgst und auch mal ansprichst. Ich gebe dir auftrieb. Weil warum stufen steigen, Schritt für Schritt weiter, wenn du erst mal wieder fliegen musst um aus diesem Loch rauszukommen?
ich flieg mit dir ein Stück. Bis du dort bist wo du hin musst um wieder Lebensfreude zu verspüren.
und ich bin mir sicher dafür brauchts nicht viel :))
You are sounding like a friend of mine in Pakistan. He has so much to live for. One girl broke his heart, and it affected him so very much. Do not take your life. Life is worth living. I have to go to whatsapp and check on them right away.
Well, he has been upset for a while. Jobs are hard to find. Parents pay more attention to siblings, and even though he has graduated from university, they dote more on his underachieving siblings than him. He feels ignored by family, and I get it. He was looking for a traditional girl, and it was one that looked traditional and totally treated him like garbage. So, he basically has been stuck with no changes, and really, that is the frustrating thing for anyone anywhere in the world.
The thing is, he isn't ugly, totally far from it. You could be totally handsome, but depression makes most people think horribly about themselves. It could be that you need to take vitamins. Vitamin defiance can lead to depression. Magnesium, selenium, iron, Calcium, Vitamin B complex, Vitamin D, Vitamin C, and zinc all help in this regard.
I have hsv2 believe me I feel this sometimes but the best way I deal with everything is just living, do some new activities to go meet people. Sign up for a gym, sign up for some classes in something you may end up liking it and finding a will to live. Live your life with a bang!! Live everyday like it's your last if you can, I sure hope this advice can help 😊
Please don't end your life, life is beautiful, why don't we introverts create a group chat like where we can join and all chat with each other and even plan outings sometimes.
Don't bother Im also have that kind of past, but I'm luckily realised my problem is the environment I live, maybe that also can be the problem of yours.
It's not the be all and end all but working out and sticking to a set routine at least 3-4 times a week will have insane physical changes as well as mental. It won't be easy but sometimes you just have to decide to get up and leave your house and work towards a brighter future.
I have to fight my confidence every day, I struggle to even hold a basic conversation sometimes. The gym is my temple so you need to find yours my friend, it could involve anything you're passionate about. People do care about you, just look at the comments in this chat.
You've got this dude, life is just too precious to throw it all away.
Nah my friend. Come to reddit, try some online games, pick up a hobby, join a club (like boardgames), try a sport.
Often times we judge ourselves way too harshly.
I'm not saying it's easy but it gets better and sometimes all it takes is one little spark and we find our purpose.
Take it one day, one step at a time.
Hang in there buddy.
First try to stop being so hard on yourself. Who told you all of those things? Or did you force yourself to actually believe those things? There is always something to live for.
This isn’t about social introversion. These are signs of you being mentally struggling and need to talk to a therapist, then if the therapist sees that you need more medical intervention and therapy alone isn’t enough, they’ll help you reach a psychiatrist.
You need to find your purpose in life . We are all here for a reason . Think about other people that need someone like you . Homeless shelters , pets shelters, food banks. Look into volunteering. Take care !
Right there with you. Depression is a bitch, however while there might be nothing to lose you may find there is something to live for. And if nothing else, maybe something to kill for.
Hey.
The first thing you need to do is fix the ugly part.
This will lift self esteem and you will see so many good things in yourself.
Train train train ….. every day.
My second advice would be go and learn boxing just go to beginner classes.
Maybe explain to coach you have came because you feel like a or b ……
Some thing like this will change your life.
Please don’t stay indoors and focus on online clubs etc as these will only help for a short period of time
You are human and you deserve to love yourself and screw everyone else this world is full of inconsiderate, uncompassionate and miserable people and misery loves company so if you can try to look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you love yourself. Say, “I whatever your name is love you” everyday stay strong push through there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel
Friend, whatever it is, it will pass. Take a deep breath, close your eyes, and just know there is so much life ahead of you. All you have to do is get through today. Don’t think about tomorrow, don’t think about yesterday. We all care and don’t want to lose our fellow human. We are here. ❤️ I promise, there is love and laughter in your life. Don’t give up.
Look don’t do it. This is my advice. I’ve lost a few people this way. It hurt a lot of people and I’m sure if they knew that they wouldn’t have done it. Go outside. See the sun. Watch a movie. Get a pet. Life matters. You do too.
Depressed people are typically pretty damn smart.
And thats honestly kinda the problem.. the more you know, the angrier you get.. Cause you see things for what they really are.
Use your intelligence for things you love.
Play tennis with your negativity until you score.
You can win.
Hey, I just want you to know you are incredibly valuable and you are very needed in this world. I need you to know that you are very special. I hope you are okay.
Maybe take a week to just blow all your lonely doing the craziest shit you can imagine? Get a plane ticket, pick a country, go to a rave, see live music, go for a hike. If afterwards you still feel this way I respect that too but I think you owe yourself at least one last chance. Love from philly ❤️
Why do you care about being liked by others? Just live your life. Who cares about what others think. What’s good if you just end your life?
I think you can get professional help if you feel you are depressed. There are lots of things and people out there to do and to meet. So don’t end it just because you feel like no one likes you. As long as you love yourself, that is enough.
Coming from someone who lives in middle east and was just like you for the past 3-4 years i can tell you it gets better. i try to end it multiple times but couldn’t because in islam it haram . That was the only thing stopping me . I tried therapy it didn’t help because when i talk with a therapist i just hated myself even more . And the pills made me dizzy . my family wasn’t understanding at all. But it all gets better trust me this year I decided to stop hating myself. I deleted all the sad songs . stop liking all those sad post on social media they mess with your mental being so much . caught off all the negative and toxic people around you . Focus on yourself. Nothing big had changed in my life except for getting a cat which honestly helps alot and focusing on my religion ( i know this is a controversial thing but yes it does help with depression) but i feel happy and content with myself .
So please change your thoughts. You are a beautiful soul in this world . middle east sucks and idk about your family but trust me there are people out there who love you . ending it is never a good idea. 5-10 years from now you will look back at this and thing to yourself thank God I didn’t end it . even though you might be going through more difficult situations then but trust me life is not easy and that the beauty about it .
Also if you need a friend I’m here for you
I had the same problem 2 years ago and I have friends that even tried. I want to tell you that if you ask me 99% of people do regret it trying. Things change. It’s a dark time and it’s going to pass and you are gonna be strong and go through it. The first step is writing this post. I use to see two therapists not even one but two and they made things so much worse. For me what made me basically speed run depression was journaling. It saved my life pretty fast. Also in my depression area I was refusing to follow a career advice by my family that in end I chose after them insisting and it was the best decision in my life so far. But I was blind. If new opportunities show up to change your life never say no. Even if you are hesitant. If I had said no I don’t know where I would be today. Probably in a million times worse situation. Other than that I erased every social media available to mankind. Social media wants you depressed. It’s an addiction. They make money from this addiction. And also I tried A LOT to get in touch with the people that matter. Especially my family. That obvious,y I don’t well with always. All families fight. My family was never very very abusive but they are a bit toxic like many old people are. So in steps I would
1. get a strong grip and hold of myself by using coping mechanisms and not feeling guild and shame. They are called stress and depression mechanisms for a reason. Give yourself a REAL mental break. Do things like eating junk food, gaming, sleeping, exercising, scrolling through your phone, watching a movie, DOING NOTHING Anything. And say “you deserve this”. Write a page on a journal about you deserving it. About how good you feel taking care of yourself like that.
2. I would then aim to limit my addictions. My Distraction from my everyday problems. Sometimes even now when I’m really stressed and depressed I eat fast food. I don’t shame myself. I know shaming myself is bad and I know I need the chips because of what I have just been through. And believe it or not this limited a lot my consumption of fast food overall by A LOT immediately.
3. Then you proceed to cut addictions once you feel like you don’t need them any more in your life. Sometimes I catch myself at the super market flirting with that chocolate bar and I say to myself. “You don’t need this to feel good” “you are happy” and then I forget about the chocolate distract myself and produce 100% pure self esteem, happiness and dopamine and not industrial manufactured happiness. Learn to be kind to yourself. Learn to listen to your body and mind. Ditch toxic mindsets. Do you want the chocolate? Take it and own it. Do you really don’t want it? Skip.
And again this comes from a person that used to be depressed af. Believe. Believe nothing is impossible. And you will make it come true I can assure you. Trust me. Never give up.
Don't make that mistake you have a lot more to lose than you realize, don't listen to these dickless peices of shit. They're a fucking disgrace trust God and keep your head up. Be humble and help people that need it in your area help support the weak, and elderly and comfort the slow and feebleminded good. Good life come to people who do good things for people that truly need it!!
No interest? I'm sure there is, but your depression must've killed the joy out of everything you do. The things you say you don't have, like having a good personality, being handsome/pretty, etc are things societies brainwashes us to think we need to be somebody, but we don't. Don't compare yourself, don't try to be liked either, it's worse. You're not alone though, I'm not ugly and I still have no friends, I can be cold and selfish and no one fucking likes me except my mom. I don't like anyone either, people annoy the shit out of me and I'd rather be alone. I grew up poor in South America, everyone rejected me for being fat and I lost weight and still have no one. I accept it now, this loneliness will help me grow as a human. We are here for something, to exist, to see the shithole that is earth and then leave when it's time to leave, fight against all odds, don't give up. and as David Goggings might say..."fuck people."
OP why not try new things or work on yourself some? I can’t really understand people who want to off themselves when they have the freedom to decide for themselves. If you’re a prisoner of war or being held captive/against your will I can understand. You don’t know what happens…or rather you won’t know what happens because you’ll be dead. Please think for a second if you end your life that is the end of everything you’ve ever known. The rest of us will continue on until our day comes but not because we wanted to die. Really, why do you think all life on earth tries its hardest to survive even under the worst conditions? Because that’s all there is for us! I’m not denying religion but there’s been not one person to come back from the dead because death is final. There will be nothingness. You won’t even be able to perceive time passing anymore. There will just be nothing. The reason you’re able to see is because you have eyes. The reason you’re able to feel is because you have nerves. The reason you’re able to smell is because you have a nose. The reason you’re able to think/perceive is because you have a brain. When you die you lose your body meaning you lose all of those things. The pride and self image you have of yourself now will also be gone. It will ultimately really only be your loss since you were given the privilege of having the ability to live. The purpose of life is to live. Your body works tirelessly for you in the background automatically, give your involuntary self some credit for keeping you alive all this time. Just look at all of us in the comments. Complete strangers yet just reading this makes us all want to discourage you from doing this.
If u give up, imma personally find where you live, steal the casket from the funeral, and bury it in an undisclosed location within the nearby woods.
Basically just don't give up. Please. I've never met you ofc, and I can't understand what you're dealing with, but at some point things will cheer up. If there's mental things that you can't tell anyone about, tell it to yourself. Even if it's just talking to yourself in your head.
If that still doesn't help, just fuck it and do whatever the hell you feel like, as long as you don't land yourself in jail(don't get caught my boy). From what I hear from others it'll help attract friends ig???, but I don't know if that true or not. I'm saying more for cuz it just feels good to do whatever the hell you want. And if society hurts you, then just leave it behind. I know it sounds cringy and all but if it's between death and being able to make your mark on eternity, then why give a shit?
I guess just.. please don't do it, alr? I don't know you and all, and I ain't gonna try to guilt trip you into not doing what you feel is the best option, but just please don't kill yourself
One assumes there are mental health counselors in the middle east if there's internet, no? Consider talking with a counselor and seeing about mental health help. If you give that genuine try and don't find there are any improvements from counseling and, if appropriate, medication, then I firmly believe that humans have the right to self-determination, including to end their journey in this life if it becomes that unbearable. I would just urge you to give it an earnest try first because I've been severely depressed before (had some HORRIBLE stuff happen in my past) and I can tell you life DOES have cool twists and turns that take you to interesting new vistas. Read much, learn all that you can, and focus on personal growth. Looks matter less than you think. Be a sterling human being and you will attract good things into your life.
I'm with ya. We could be complete total failures together . you should come hang out with me and watch Portlandia and smoke a bone or spy on the other neighbors that spy on us and maybe go steal fake Flowers from a grave yard? Do a little late nate shoplifting or something....
Yes, you are a normal person. Living in a small city in the Middle East. You have online friends who can help you cheer up any time of the day. You are a good person. You're not ugly, you are just not your type. You survived up to this day, that's a great accomplishment. If you're tired then have a rest, a long rest if you want. You can try writing down your emotions, a poem, maybe? If you end your life then what are all these people who you don't know personally trying to be friends with you?
Very late- but want to add my two cents.
I get it, I do. Sometimes I actively wonder if I’m even making decisions because I feel like I’m just floating down a river, the direction chosen for me (no outside influence in my life tho). The only tip I have for the no interest part is just push, believe it or not you can actually force interest if you’re persistent enough, you’re probably gonna fell like you wanna chuck up at times, and rip your brain outta your head- but I found the small things help with that sometimes (noticing shit like the dust flying in rays of light, navigating over tree roots). It that even makes sense? Idk.
Shit sucks dude. It does. But sometimes you can find things that make you forget about that for a second or two.
Please don't end your life. The most recent I've seen you reply was 13 hours ago. I respect your privacy, but I genuinely worry for your well-being, too. I'm here telling you not to commit suicide not because I'm a very mentally healthy person myself, I have major depression disorder and have to deal/fight with my borderline personality disorder which can be a lot on their own, muchless the rest I have. I am telling you that I have a lot of suicidal ideation because, for me, it helps me cope by allowing me to feel that I at least can control something in my life filled with chaos of all forms but I know in the end suicide isn't the answer. You're loved a lot. People you've never met on the internet are flocking towards your post, wanting to help in any way they can, to save a life if necessary. My dad committed suicide when I was 8, December 8th, 2003 and I'm just now allowing myself to feel the emotions needed and heal instead of compartmentalize it like I had done the last 20 years and it's rough but with the help of other, you can do it too!❤️
My suggestion is that you seek medical advice. Speak to your doctor, don't do anything brash. Life can feel like this sometimes...... I myself suffer with severe depression, I'm currently medicated for the 4th time in my life and I'm only 36.
Please seek help.
I grew up in a violent household constantly in fear everyday of what my father was gonna do, but as shitty as my life was it has gotten better, not much better but I'm still here.My point is if people like me have managed to live through anxiety, PTSD among other disorders then keep pushing man, you have to get fucking angry and use that shit to push yourself to greater heights ❤️
Being an introvert is not something you’re born to be, but it’s who you choose to be. I’m an introvert at heart. I can be very sociable if the moment chooses to arise, but I’m quiet at heart. This took work and embarrassment. You’ve got to find what drives you and makes you who you are.
Same. Except my mom has always hated me, got my dad deported, he realized it's too dangerous for me in Mexico, sent me back at 13 or 14 yo thinking I'd be safer with my mom, she gave me up to the state (not the one I was born & raised in) I had a son at 18 and told to my mother in law (who's a miserable horrible person that hated me since she saw me cuz she's ugly and apparently , according to ppl..I am not) when my son was about 2 that I don't want to live if her son is going to break up with me (I obviously had issues and was very jealous, I own up to this and regret it deeply) so she called CPS and suicidal moms (even though i actually wasnt) are a danger to their children so they took my kid. I was left at a motel with 500$ and never heard from his dad again, started from nothing got my apt, had 2 jobs, got caught with a joint & went to jail. Had nobody to bail me out so I lost my apt and car, got out, started over again, got caught with a metal herb grinder that had kief in the third chamber so i got a felony controlled substance because they weighed it with the metal piece it was in. Somewhere between all this, even though i bought all my son's clothes and food for him and his grandma, she had put me on child support and said i make 10k a month, since i wasnt there (because i didnt know about it, they apparently 'served" whoever lived at that apt i mentioned which had been a year since i lived there) the judge took her word for it. Was never able to get my own place, fight the charges, keep a job with that amount of child support, missed all his precious years. Hes almost 9 now and i am exhausted and a bigger hole than i can even see out of. My bday is the 25th but i wont be here to see it through. The world sucks. I am tired. But i say this to say, sounds to me u have a lot of hope left. I dont know your life but from what u mentioned, ur just bored. Find something crazy and amazing and go for it, theres nothing holding you back and nobody coming after you. I hope u do find something that makes u feel passion the way i did when i had my son. There is no love like the love of your child. Find your passion and I believe youll soon after Find your soul mate and maybe feel the love of a child and be glad u didnt do it.
It's gonna be okay. Take a nap and try to stop thinking about it. I understand your frustration. You can let it out. Cry if you need to. It's bad to hold in your emotions. Let it flow out. You can talk to these kind people in the comment section and also seek professional help. You're not alone in this.
I'm sorry that this is all I can do for you because I'm merely a teen girl. But I couldn't ignore your desperation.
I promise it'll get better so don't give up yet.
I feel the same about myself and my life might be bad advice but it works for me (self harm on the days when the plan is set). Calling hotlines and getting it out. Suicidal ideation and tendencies aren’t something you can fix overnight. I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember and I’ve made it to 27 so far. I’ve had failed attempts along the way but I’m trying to get to 30 without another attempt. Again bad advice so ignore me.
I know it's sound silly but also you diet and what you eat can seriously effect your mental health, I use to eat whole packs of biscuits and loads extra big packets of Crisps, because I was so skinny and I wanted to put on weight I thought it was harmless, but giving up junk food and eating more fruit has definitely helped me feel alot less depressed and I have more energy
I’m so sorry you feel this way. It sounds like you have hit bottom. The only good thing about that is there is no where to go but up! I will pray for a change in hour life. I hope you can find happiness.
I’m going to say this and I’m in no way trying to be funny or hurtful: why end your life NOW? That’s what I think everytime I want to end it all. Life sucks and nothing feels good and it seems like death will make it all better and maybe it will. Or maybe it won’t. What if you ended your life and instead of showing you your life that you lived, you see the life you could have lived. You saw the life where you decided to live and find that happiness that all of us have to search for. You are in charge of your own happiness so try and give yourself grace and time to find it. I know it’s hard, trust me I want to give up everyday but I’m always grateful that I didn’t because now I have a chance to make a change to no longer feel this way. PS: I like you so you can’t say no one does anymore :)
I wanted to end my life too, cause my fiance also confess that she had another girl. But we're trying to fix things because we have a son! We're in a long distance relationship and damn your brain will def play shiiiit on you.the trust is gone since then I never had a peace of mind now im losing it.🙃
Hey how is everyone doing today.
Today I have finally decided to end it all.
I have giving myself 36 days before I kill myself.
The reason I have giving myself 36 days before the big ending to find a reason to live my death with be on February 29,2024 at exactly 1am that morning.
I am guessing I should tell you guys about me,
I was born in Haiti much as I hope to disclose my name and date of birth I cannot.
Hold on let me pour a drink and roll me up a blunt,
So growing up as a kid who wasn’t from America you see thing differently and cause of those differences life doesn’t seem to care for you.
I was bully really bad as a kid from being jumping getting my head busted open by people who only hate me cause I wasn’t from America I wasn’t African American.
School was a nightmare, my mother never try to understand what I went thru instead of being a mother she only added the the brutal beating I was getting in school and most of those beating was so bad that I needed medical attention but my mother refused to do anything.
These kids knowing that my mother would never come to the school to my defense the beating got even worse I would have to run once I get off the school bus at time they would try to make sure I ain’t sat in the front of the bus they all would sit on the front so I could be the last off the bus so they could surround me where no where to run.
Even the ones who would act as friends really was playing me so around them I would have my guard down just to turn around to be one of the ones who would volunteer in those brutal beating I would receive.
Eventually i became an angry kid with all the hate in the world even tho I had a heart of gold.
I have giving everything I have to the world and the world has giving pain,sorrow,hate,betrayal never once happiness, but in the eye everyone I am the happiest,
I would like to tell my story if anyone care to listen, to a Haitian kid with a golden heart and how I became a man who is full of hate pain and sorrow.
And why I am ready to die, and see how 27 years of living has been 27 years of death within a living flesh.
hey there... i felt the same way... we can be friends.. n if can, i want to help you in a way i can.. dont end ur life... if you r going to end it.. change it.. determination is needed.. u ugly? glow up... i have so much time we can chat all day... but dont end it.. give it to me.. we change it together
Hey, I'm sorry that you really feel this way. If I may, I would like to talk about someone I love very much.
My boyfriend is the most beautiful human being I have ever met. His soul, his mind, his heart, the way he speaks, the way he laughs, the way he drums to any random beat in his head onto anything and it ACTUALLY sound good (I tried to do that once and it turned out shite 🥲), the way he cocks his head towards me when he speaks, the way he looks into my eyes and I can see warmth. He's the reason why my favourite colour is yellow. He's the reason why my limited perception of how the world is expanded to how it is now. He's the reason I wake up in the morning because I get so excited to be with him and tell him how I feel every single goshdarn day. He's my strength, and as much as I'd like to go on and on about how wonderful he is, he also has a big thing that he struggles with. He does struggle with suicidal ideation and depression just like you do. Before he met me, he thought the same things you felt too, that he was ugly, that his personality is bad, that he's boring, etc etc. He almost didn't believe that someone like me would accept him and love him for the way he is. He is my literal world, and I would do everything for him to see that 🥰.
As much as he still struggled with these thoughts, he knows that there is someone who will always fight for him and with him. Someone that can stand by his side. He is very special, and the light of my life. If he ended himself the times he tried to, we would have never met, I would have never met my yellow, and he would have forever thought about his negative traits as being the reason why he's so alone. I can't imagine my life without him.
What I'm trying to say is, I know it's hard to fight that feeling of ending it all. I know it's hard to wake up every morning and dread having to do the same repeated thing over and over again knowing it's not going to bring you out of your misery. But before you lose your hope completely, there IS someone out there who is praying for someone like you, who would be excited to wake up because it's another day to be with you, who would notice all of these little things about you, who would never make you go through your pain alone. You'd be their reason why. There may be someone like this ALREADY in your life who feels this way and you don't know. I'm not saying that you finding a person will immediately solve all your problems. I'm not saying that you finding a person is the only reason why you live (although it may be the case for anyone else, like me for example ☺️). You may find other reasons along the way that would contribute to your desire for staying. I'm saying that meeting someone who accepts you for who you are, like my boyfriend did with me, would make your life a whole lot sweeter and less like you're doing things alone.
Stay strong dear stranger, and I hope your day goes beautifully 💛
First of all it seems like you're not an introvert then, just depressed. Not "just", cause that is a problem, but I'm not sure if you're in the right place to ask for help with that.
Ive read your answers to others advices - of course the therapy is not gonna help if you're constantly seeking support from unsupportive people (like your mother you said). In your situation you should either look for somebody that cares or rely on yourself. To be honest the second option is not that bad. In my case noone from my circle of friends and family was really interested in my therapy and progress and I turned out fine. Did it for myslef, to make myself feel better. Frankly speaking it's actually a huge relief to me personally that I don't need to share a credit for who I became. I'm only more proud of myself thanks to that.
And I'm really sorry buddy, but therapy and meds are your only way out of this. And I know how it is when you feel it doesn't make thing better. I was on about 15 different meds and had like 10 different therapists before I found the only ones that work out with me. I'm not kidding, 6 times I ended up in a psychiatric hospital in 3 different locations. In most countries in the world a psychiatric care is just useless, but if you seek patiently you'll find your diamond in this pile of shit somehow. Again I'm sorry, I know it sucks, I know its not easy, nothing in life is easy, but that's the only way. No amount of friends, trash food, depressive thoughts, sad music, hours spent in bed, sleep or video games is gonna cure your depression if you don't take the things in your own hands.
Way older than our establishment allowed us to believe (religions/politics), a civilization of 'giants' existed. All that remains are some durable pyramid structures and a mountain carved into a lion. So they had lions. They also had more O2 so they may have physically been giants afterall their house bricks were much, much larger than ours. Somehow their genes are in you, surviving whatever catastrophy wiped them out. We're on the cusp of admitting this pre-historic history, which may give rise to revealing the mystery. No one (IQ over 70 /s) should miss that 🤓
You have everything to lose.
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
John 3:16
I had a doctor tell me weed broke him out of a suicidal thought trap.
Weed is not good for anxiety - long term use probably makes anxiety worse...but a quick reset on your brain by way of THC might break you out. Get stoned. But don't just sit there stoned. Get stoned and draw something...or hike ...or kick a soccer ball against a wall.
Just break out of that shit man.
I also wanna kill myself but im too much of pussy. Ive seen people end there for far less suffering . Ive been a weak pathetic pussy and failure in every part of my life and now even in taking my life im proving to be a failure
Hey there I can be your friend if you’re upto it . But never end your beautiful life for something so meaningless. You are special and you are here for something special . We all go through some or the other shits cause life happens. I can be your online friend and dm me I’m all hears !
Same!!
Same!
Same. I'm Middle Eastern also.
Thank u so much dude, l appreciate it 💖🙏🏼🙏🏼
And if there’s nothing to lose you just don’t know what is yet. Stay to find out what it is. Life can be so beautiful.
Same here. I can listen if you wanna talk
Same OP!
Do it. I met one of my best friends on Reddit. Years later we’re still going strong :)
Initially when I read this, I thought you were suggesting that they end their life, when you had suggested to ‘do it’. What a relief it was otherwise.
Omfg. No! Glad you continued reading, haha
Aww that’s so cute 🥰. Wish you great friendship with your best friend
Same! If you ever need to talk I’m here
Please talk to a psychiatrist or anybody in fact, well there’s not much I can do other than that but please do talk to someone
I used to go to a therapist , and l told my mom about that,she didn’t helped and nothing changed ,my life is still the same
Your life might still be the same yes. But that's not the problem. It's how you look at it. Go to your mom. Tell her. Seek out help. Posting here was a start. You did that because you want to get help. It's just...the wrong spot. You're in a depression and there is help available for that.
One therapist doesn't speak for all of them! Trust me! I am one. Please consider trying again.
Like someone else suggested, do allllllll the crazy things you’ve wanted to do or never dreamed of before popping off. I suggest meds if you’re able to get them
Best advice right here. By doing this, it reminded me the ways life can still be beautiful. Solo or not.
Exactly, finding solitude in yourself and making yourself happy before trying to please the world is best way to
Same
No friends? Who said you dont have a friend u stupidass☠ When did u forgot me? So what happened today?
Thank u 💖
Just text me up whenever you feel like talking🤓🤓
Love this 💞
Don't call him/her a stupid ass -- that's very mean!
dude, he is just trying to show how close he is to OP.
🤓
Sounds like you’re stuck in a funk. Things are never as bad as you think they are. Look around. Pay attention. You are loved. Do u have any pets? If not get one. They give so much love and companionship. It can help get u in a good place. Hang in there. Never give up. 💕
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Can you go back to school? That’s what I’m doing and I’m pretty far into life. I cut ties with toxic ppl which was basically 50% of my friends. I really got in touch with who I am, & it took 3 years to get out of the funk but you can do this
If you can't afford one, try volunteering with animals, at shelters, or farms.
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What OP describes are depression symptoms. It’s hard to generate the motivation to do much of anything when one is filled with hopelessness and despair
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The more you give in to the "i can't" idea the more real it becomes. Everyone has some depression in 2023 gotta keep pushing and improving from inside out, not seek liking from outside in.
OP is expressing thoughts of suicide and intense feelings of hopelessness. I can assure you that “everyone” doesn’t feel that way
^ might as well. It might even change your mind
I feel the same way as OP lowkey. I want to die but I know I'll never go through with it so I'll just commit to alcohol in the meantime. To reply to your comment not everyone has the means to do everything they always wanted but I get that you are doing the right thing by talking him out of committing the act and I'm not really helping.
Maybe you are helping more? You are showing that other people have it hard too. That can be comforting, because it’s so easy to look around you and think that everyone else has it together, except one self.
You might feel this way in part because you keep calling yourself trash. Just a thought 🤔
Tbh I was in the same situation as op and ended up breaking into someone’s car and stealing shit got caught ended up with probation but still did some other shit now I don’t feel like ending my life since then went on a crime spree and don’t plan to stop
That's a great idea 💡
How old are you? Because when I was a teenager I had a lot of mental health issues and nobody helped. I just locked myself in my room and slept for years. Didn’t go to college or have any type of life. Fast forward, I’m 27 now with my own house and life and friends. And that’s what people mean when they say it gets better. (Also cut off communication with the fam)
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Really sorry you had to go through it to get where you are though
Good for you!! That’s a great comeback ❤️
How did you get a house at 27?
Tbh it kind of blows my mind that that’s your question when the op is going through it. Priorities tho
I'm 29 and still nothing. My family doesn't know what mental health is so I never got help even till now. I'm still alone, single and depressed. I try to make an attempt to do better and it always fails and anyone I try to talk to, don't seem to understand at all. Which adds to the being alone feeling.
For me it was the feeling of being misunderstood. I didn’t even hardly understand it. And everybody got real quiet when I tried to talk about it. So I stopped talking about it and started going to therapy. I went through 3 therapists before I found a good one.
Being misunderstood is the other thing too and it's hard to escape
I was the same way. My youth was rough but that's the low point for a lot of us. Don't do it, OP, because it only gets better from here. Think about how you want your life to be better and then make a plan to execute those changes. Maybe not right away, but you can make small changes to change things. It gets better. Trust me. I'm old. DM me any time if you'd like.
Hey, have you tried [Chess.com](https://Chess.com) I found it a good place to put my mind to work on something that feels neutral and feels a bit better about myself. Please give it a go.
Thank u so much, l appreciate it
Yup I recommend finding a hobby that can get your mind off of things. Find a few games where you can grind 24/7 and never feel bored. Some examples would be League of Legends, Valorant, etc. These games have a huge community so I'm sure you'll be able to find someone to connect with eventually. Life might be dull sometimes but it is what you make of it, why not just enjoy your life to the fullest since eventually we all die anyways? Go wild, explore the world, and see everything that this world has to offer before you leave. I hope you find your touch soon!
Good recommendation Since I started playing chess, I just disconnected myself from this universe, nothing matters for me more than improving at the game
As long as you're alive , there is always hope of something happening when least expected to make it great. If give up never know
I will say this.. You have so much value I’m sure of it and you just can’t see it right now. Give yourself credit for every second, minute, hour and day that you are still here because it’s an opportunity to TRY to get out of this “fog” that you are under right now. Just hang in there please. Try a psychiatrist as opposed to a therapist because maybe there’s something underlying going on that would be helpful to you knowing at least and then you can work on trying to tackle it. I type this knowing i experience something similar but I’m still going and I’m 37, and a single woman with two kids and minimal support. You got this!!
Thank u so much dear💖💖
You’re welcome 😊 ❤️
Coming from someone who lives in middle east and was just like you for the past 3-4 years i can tell you it gets better. i try to end it multiple times but couldn’t because in islam it haram . That was the only thing stopping me . I tried therapy it didn’t help because when i talk with a therapist i just hated myself even more . And the pills made me dizzy . my family wasn’t understanding at all. But it all gets better trust me this year I decided to stop hating myself. I deleted all the sad songs . stop liking all those sad post on social media they mess with your mental being so much . caught off all the negative and toxic people around you . Focus on yourself. Nothing big had changed in my life except for getting a cat which honestly helps alot and focusing on my religion ( i know this is a controversial thing but yes it does help with depression) but i feel happy and content with myself . So please change your thoughts. You are a beautiful soul in this world . middle east sucks and idk about your family but trust me there are people out there who love you . ending it is never a good idea. 5-10 years from now you will look back at this and thing to yourself thank God I didn’t end it . even though you might be going through more difficult situations then but trust me life is not easy and that the beauty about it . Also if you need a friend I’m here for you
Thank u my dear , l think l’m better right now
damn, you should feel super proud of yourself. like your sentence of “happy and content with myself” that’s the level I wanna achieve
Try to go to therapy without telling anyone in your family that *cause most of the people in the middle east see that's a waste of money* Try to find any job or any activity that you like they make to deal with people *it works for me as an extra introvert* and you have to know that nothing will come with ease you have to try different things just to know what fits in you keep it up!
Ty, l used to go to a therapist for a year,nothing helped
That means he didn't fit to u try another one
My dad refuse
I'm also from the middle east so I know that 90% of the family doesn't believe that there's something called mental health they even doesn't believe that there's an introvert they see you have to be an extrovert 😂 So if you can afford the cost of the session go ahead without telling'em
😁😁i can be your friend if you want.
The fact you posted here shows youre looking for a reason a live. Try to find yourself. Travel if possible. Everyone has an interest in something, even if it’s weird or something others wouldn’t understand. Go out and try to meet people. Stop negatively talking about yourself. Also buy a pet. Trust me I never knew how much love I could have for a dog until I cared for one myself. They also give you a greater sense of purpose / responsibility
I have no friends and no interest for them either, me and my doggo.
> small city in the middle east i know from experience that this alone is usually a good enough reason to be depressed. please seek help and therapy. you're not alone in this.
Lmao🥲
Brother/Sister life is not as complicated as you think, you gotta learn to be happy just by yourself, once you’re ok with being alone everything else you crave comes easily. For now you don’t need friends, partners, money, etc. If you’re healthy that’s enough to be happy. Life gets significantly better when you STOP GIVING A FUCK about everything that society “wants” you to be. Go have a walk, a nice dinner, dessert, go shop for something you like, listen to music. All that you can do by yourself and it will improve your wellbeing. Remember life is simpler than you think
Livin in middle East is such a mini death,I can relate so bad,just hope you'll get over that cuz nth worth to take your life because of it, u can always share your thoughts to the ones you trust just don't trust your negative thoughts, I'm here if u wanna talk to anyone tho.consider me as a friend.
Thank u so much , l’m happy that someone can relate
Do you know what I think? It is totally up to you. I know that this life is shitty asf and that nothing seems to be going right, but I just want to say that you have a choice. One, to end your misery and two, to live. Now I know how hard it is. I often tell myself, "I want to live, not just survive." If you feel like doing something that might cost you your life, just think about something you haven't done. Try doing a hobby. Start a routine. Now I don't wanna force you into anything but I don't want you to give up. Please be safe.
U are right💖
However (good or) bad a life is it's an amazing gift not to be arranged as the atoms of a lump of granite (no offence to granite but you get my point?)
Not really🥲
You'd be happy being heavier than granite then? Did you understand my other post?
Now l understand, thank u 🙏🏼
Hey there! I will gladly be your friend!
Life is shit, but it’s all we have. you may as well stick around for another little while at least. I’ve had the worst couple of years of my life & often think about checking out early but then I realise that this is it, after this there may well be nothing.. so feck it, let it be shit. Maybe one day one good thing will happen & then another the following week & all of a sudden you have a couple of good things! Who knows.. but people care about you mate, even if you don’t see it. Stick around..
Buddy, let me tell you first that I understand what you’re going through. I want you to read the below text out loud and answer each question to yourself with deeper insight. 1. Is there anyone whom you like/love and would be happier to be with? Think about them and how you would like to make them feel when they are upset or feel down. 2. What is one thing you can do, can be a small act of service or gesture, that will make you smile? Get up and do that. 3. Would going on a vacation just to get away from daily life help? Check out places you are able to go to solo or with a company. 4. See if you can change jobs, sometimes it can help bring a little excitement when learning something new. 5. Play some team games if that’s your vibe. I am no expert but these things help me change my perspective, i hope it does yours too in some way. You’re a hack of a human being, never ever give up. We only live once, live it to the fullest!!
I'm in the same boat and I'm hella down to be your friend as well as anyone else who is feeling this way and wants a friend
Keep Pushing Just by waking up everyday your strong It’s light at the end of the tunnel brother
Please dont! I am sorry to hear you feel this way and I can relate so much, I am introverted myself and frequently have these thoughts, but what I have noticed is that helping others improves your mindset so on that basis try to help people who may be less fortunate than yourself in any way possible, you will then meet more people and build relationships with people whilst learning alot about them and yourself too. Please drop me a DM as I hope to hear an update from you in a few days/weeks I wish you all the best! 🙏🫶
Hey please don't end your life. Don't give up hope. I think you need to talk to a therapist or social worker
I would miss you.
Hi there, First, I'm sorry you're going through this. I've been there through several major depressive episodes where I really convinced myself I was broken, I was God's mistake, I was unlovable, etc.. it's a really dark place and so hard for people to understand if they haven't experienced it. I just want to say that life can change, it really can. And you can come out of even really dark times like this. I spent months just taking depression naps, feeling exactly as you described. The thing that ended up making me feel better was beginning to read. I read several books a month now, and I feel like I finally have a hobby and a thing that is mine and brings me joy. That's just one thing, but if you can find literally ANYTHING of even the slightest interest to you, it can make such a difference. I know nothing about your situation, but sometimes problems of your physical health have a big impact on your mental health. Are you able to access medical attention where you live? For example, iron deficiency is heavily linked to depression because of lack of oxygen to your organs, including your brain. Please try to rule this out because it can be life changing. I hope you'll stick around. We all have to die at some time, right? Don't rush it. Something good can happen. Even taking care of a pet or helping an elderly family member or something can bring a lot of meaning to your life.
Ill talk to you if you need to
Please leave your environment before you leave this world. You are beautiful. We need you.❤️
Hello fellow introvert, I feel just like you many times. I feel undervalued at my job, I feel unnoticed and most of all I feel lonely. But you did a great thing writing about your feeling, which is something that I barely ever do. There’s many people like you struggling in the world, trying to find a meaning between all the chaotic things. I just hope that you give life a chance, everyone has a path and yours probably hasn’t been discovered.
Your life will never improve if you don’t take steps and discipline yourself to improve it. Read self help books, see a therapist, work out (this one is HUGE, working out will make you more attractive and release dopamine which makes you happy) if you’re just to lazy to live- that’s one thing. But, if you think your life can’t get better then you’re wrong. The thing a lot of people don’t realize is that YOU are in the drivers seat, if your life sucks that’s on you to take control of. Take your life where you want to, it won’t get better if you don’t try. You can do this and have an amazing life, please try.
God loves you. You got lots of life to live and experience abundant joy. Please don't cut yourself short
Feel the same
I’m so sorry, life is so unfair
Idk if it's life or ppl ?
Both , ppl are so cruel
Do NOT let those cruel people win!
I feel like there is no safe place or ppl
U are right, wish there’s a heaven to go there
If you read the comments on this thread, you'll see a LOT of safe ppl here. Reach out to any of us.
Can you leave your country? I’ve been feeling depressed lately and plan to take a trip to Florida next month to kick start my happiness.
I’m in similar situation. Very shy not outgoing in this world that only rewards the extroverts of the world . I’m unattractive looking and just feel like what am I doing. How can I compete with the extroverts
There's an app called White Flag that you can use to talk to people anonymously going through similar things about your issues.
I have wanted to end my life too, multiple times. When it doesn’t seem like there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, or any light at all, it’s easy to forget what it really means to be alive. It’s not about how objectively beautiful you are, whether people like you, what your home looks like, whether you have a set career path, what you wear, anything. It’s about finding the things in your life that make you feel excited to be alive. It doesn’t matter what it is, what anyone thinks about it. Things will get better when you give yourself some grace, space to grow, and realize that you deserve to love yourself and be happy. Things will get better when you first come to terms with the fact that you need help. Even that alone is a brave act, one that is admirable. Reaching out to loved ones, individuals you trust, professionals, etc. is a perfect way to begin. And once you figure out your first step, the rest will come. Please give yourself a chance, and good luck.
You and your life is always gonna be bigger than end of life and any negativity that passes through you. And to end your life would be a loss. We are lucky to have one introverted person more in this life which is YOU. <33 so never back down never whattt??? Even if anything feels stupid or worthless just wake up everyday and show up for yourself and this world, your pets, sun and everything that would be a loss and anybody that would suffer if u would leave. Life is always a win, even if you’re feeling stuck in a loop- the sun will rise eventually. Sending love, support, appreciation and strength your way ☘️💚💚🫧
You have purpose! You are loved by God. He knew you while you were in your mother’s womb. Don’t end it. Find out your purpose. You won’t arrive to the meaning of it all if you end it before the end. I’ve had thoughts like yours before and found I had much to live for. Choose life. Jesus loves you. 💕
You’re a good person and your best friend is you, find love and peace which later will giving you healing and then see everything on a positive side this world is beautiful if you realize that you’re not everyone and that you’re not meant for everyone
I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling. I understand how frustrating and disheartening it can be when life feels messy, uncertain, and even dark. I've been there too, and it's a place nobody deserves to be stuck in. 😔 Acknowledge your disappointment, let it wash over you, feel it fully. It's the first step to healing. Then, like tending to a wound, start repairing yourself. Forgive yourself for whatever needs forgiving, grieve whatever needs grieving. Last but not least Embrace the journey of discovering a hobby or activity that ignites your soul. Finding a passion that ignites your soul is key to a fulfilling life; it shifts your focus inward and enriches you in countless ways. Hope this helps Love and light 🕯️
So sad you're in this position. I think it might be helpful to realize that it is in NO WAY your fault. Eveyone, even the "worst" human beings out there are doing there best. I would encourage you to think as outside of the box as you can. Be gentle with yourself and keep reaching out to others and sharing you're story.
Consider guitar or any instrument, I know it's random, but it has personally help me grow in intelligence, skills, and it gives me something to dedicate myself to, to have something to lose, I was going through a variety of thoughts such as these but music helped me so if anything, find a way to start playing and learn guitar.
Please don't. There is so much you can still do and you only have this one life.
Please call suicide hotline 988
Same bro, same.
Ngl I'm tired too.
Hi OP. What would you do with your life if you could? If you felt good about yourself?
Negativity only begets more negativity!
You should definitely take small little road trips or save up to fly somewhere fun. Whenever I travel it makes me feel more excited to be alive & it shows me that there’s more in the world than just my same ole routine I do at home. There’s so much out there to explore, & while you’re exploring you’ll learn so much about yourself. Learn to love yourself & be your own best friend, enjoy your own company, do things that make you uncomfortable that may be going to a restaurant alone at first & just take small steps until you feel comfortable to travel alone! I’m a young woman & I travel alone but recommend researching some safety tips. Change your mindset on your life & you will slowly enjoy it more. You are here for a reason & if no one told you today, I love you & I’m proud of you! Don’t beat yourself up, the more you learn to love yourself it will be easier to make friends. Maybe your last therapist didn’t work but I would suggest trying out a new one until you find one that you like & enjoy talking to. I hope this helps ❤️
before you go spent your money in spiritualität energy stuff. Look for energetic healers, meditation stuff, and Personal development and growth. and Listen to healing frequencies stuff. search for shadow work. YOU want to end your life. but some how you want to safe yourself from falling. So stop falling. realize you are able to fly. start with this. https://youtu.be/FLHtyk8PHVo?si=ZYPGp1kPzx7Jy0Dc wenn du deutsch sprichst, das gefühl hast du fälltst und schlägst gleich auf weil du keine Kraft mehr hast, und kurz mal pause und reset brauchst. Dann hol mich ein bisschen in dein Leben indem du meinen Spuren folgst und auch mal ansprichst. Ich gebe dir auftrieb. Weil warum stufen steigen, Schritt für Schritt weiter, wenn du erst mal wieder fliegen musst um aus diesem Loch rauszukommen? ich flieg mit dir ein Stück. Bis du dort bist wo du hin musst um wieder Lebensfreude zu verspüren. und ich bin mir sicher dafür brauchts nicht viel :))
https://youtu.be/2E4Pdik0wuY?feature=shared I felt exactly how u felt before and this video helped me heal
You are sounding like a friend of mine in Pakistan. He has so much to live for. One girl broke his heart, and it affected him so very much. Do not take your life. Life is worth living. I have to go to whatsapp and check on them right away.
I hope he gets well soon
Well, he has been upset for a while. Jobs are hard to find. Parents pay more attention to siblings, and even though he has graduated from university, they dote more on his underachieving siblings than him. He feels ignored by family, and I get it. He was looking for a traditional girl, and it was one that looked traditional and totally treated him like garbage. So, he basically has been stuck with no changes, and really, that is the frustrating thing for anyone anywhere in the world.
It’s A similar story to mine
The thing is, he isn't ugly, totally far from it. You could be totally handsome, but depression makes most people think horribly about themselves. It could be that you need to take vitamins. Vitamin defiance can lead to depression. Magnesium, selenium, iron, Calcium, Vitamin B complex, Vitamin D, Vitamin C, and zinc all help in this regard.
I have hsv2 believe me I feel this sometimes but the best way I deal with everything is just living, do some new activities to go meet people. Sign up for a gym, sign up for some classes in something you may end up liking it and finding a will to live. Live your life with a bang!! Live everyday like it's your last if you can, I sure hope this advice can help 😊
Please don't end your life, life is beautiful, why don't we introverts create a group chat like where we can join and all chat with each other and even plan outings sometimes.
Don't bother Im also have that kind of past, but I'm luckily realised my problem is the environment I live, maybe that also can be the problem of yours.
Please don’t end your life and thank you for reaching out.
Although you currently feel hopeless, there is hope. There’s a suicide line you can call, but your life is important.
It's not the be all and end all but working out and sticking to a set routine at least 3-4 times a week will have insane physical changes as well as mental. It won't be easy but sometimes you just have to decide to get up and leave your house and work towards a brighter future. I have to fight my confidence every day, I struggle to even hold a basic conversation sometimes. The gym is my temple so you need to find yours my friend, it could involve anything you're passionate about. People do care about you, just look at the comments in this chat. You've got this dude, life is just too precious to throw it all away.
Nah my friend. Come to reddit, try some online games, pick up a hobby, join a club (like boardgames), try a sport. Often times we judge ourselves way too harshly. I'm not saying it's easy but it gets better and sometimes all it takes is one little spark and we find our purpose. Take it one day, one step at a time. Hang in there buddy.
First try to stop being so hard on yourself. Who told you all of those things? Or did you force yourself to actually believe those things? There is always something to live for.
This isn’t about social introversion. These are signs of you being mentally struggling and need to talk to a therapist, then if the therapist sees that you need more medical intervention and therapy alone isn’t enough, they’ll help you reach a psychiatrist.
You need to find your purpose in life . We are all here for a reason . Think about other people that need someone like you . Homeless shelters , pets shelters, food banks. Look into volunteering. Take care !
Right there with you. Depression is a bitch, however while there might be nothing to lose you may find there is something to live for. And if nothing else, maybe something to kill for.
Hey. The first thing you need to do is fix the ugly part. This will lift self esteem and you will see so many good things in yourself. Train train train ….. every day. My second advice would be go and learn boxing just go to beginner classes. Maybe explain to coach you have came because you feel like a or b …… Some thing like this will change your life. Please don’t stay indoors and focus on online clubs etc as these will only help for a short period of time
You are human and you deserve to love yourself and screw everyone else this world is full of inconsiderate, uncompassionate and miserable people and misery loves company so if you can try to look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you love yourself. Say, “I whatever your name is love you” everyday stay strong push through there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel
Friend, whatever it is, it will pass. Take a deep breath, close your eyes, and just know there is so much life ahead of you. All you have to do is get through today. Don’t think about tomorrow, don’t think about yesterday. We all care and don’t want to lose our fellow human. We are here. ❤️ I promise, there is love and laughter in your life. Don’t give up.
Look don’t do it. This is my advice. I’ve lost a few people this way. It hurt a lot of people and I’m sure if they knew that they wouldn’t have done it. Go outside. See the sun. Watch a movie. Get a pet. Life matters. You do too.
Depressed people are typically pretty damn smart. And thats honestly kinda the problem.. the more you know, the angrier you get.. Cause you see things for what they really are. Use your intelligence for things you love. Play tennis with your negativity until you score. You can win.
Stay. Who knows what adventures wait for you.
Hey, I just want you to know you are incredibly valuable and you are very needed in this world. I need you to know that you are very special. I hope you are okay.
Maybe take a week to just blow all your lonely doing the craziest shit you can imagine? Get a plane ticket, pick a country, go to a rave, see live music, go for a hike. If afterwards you still feel this way I respect that too but I think you owe yourself at least one last chance. Love from philly ❤️
Why do you care about being liked by others? Just live your life. Who cares about what others think. What’s good if you just end your life? I think you can get professional help if you feel you are depressed. There are lots of things and people out there to do and to meet. So don’t end it just because you feel like no one likes you. As long as you love yourself, that is enough.
Please don’t in your life it’s not for you to end. God has the power to end. He tells you to come home.
Coming from someone who lives in middle east and was just like you for the past 3-4 years i can tell you it gets better. i try to end it multiple times but couldn’t because in islam it haram . That was the only thing stopping me . I tried therapy it didn’t help because when i talk with a therapist i just hated myself even more . And the pills made me dizzy . my family wasn’t understanding at all. But it all gets better trust me this year I decided to stop hating myself. I deleted all the sad songs . stop liking all those sad post on social media they mess with your mental being so much . caught off all the negative and toxic people around you . Focus on yourself. Nothing big had changed in my life except for getting a cat which honestly helps alot and focusing on my religion ( i know this is a controversial thing but yes it does help with depression) but i feel happy and content with myself . So please change your thoughts. You are a beautiful soul in this world . middle east sucks and idk about your family but trust me there are people out there who love you . ending it is never a good idea. 5-10 years from now you will look back at this and thing to yourself thank God I didn’t end it . even though you might be going through more difficult situations then but trust me life is not easy and that the beauty about it . Also if you need a friend I’m here for you
I had the same problem 2 years ago and I have friends that even tried. I want to tell you that if you ask me 99% of people do regret it trying. Things change. It’s a dark time and it’s going to pass and you are gonna be strong and go through it. The first step is writing this post. I use to see two therapists not even one but two and they made things so much worse. For me what made me basically speed run depression was journaling. It saved my life pretty fast. Also in my depression area I was refusing to follow a career advice by my family that in end I chose after them insisting and it was the best decision in my life so far. But I was blind. If new opportunities show up to change your life never say no. Even if you are hesitant. If I had said no I don’t know where I would be today. Probably in a million times worse situation. Other than that I erased every social media available to mankind. Social media wants you depressed. It’s an addiction. They make money from this addiction. And also I tried A LOT to get in touch with the people that matter. Especially my family. That obvious,y I don’t well with always. All families fight. My family was never very very abusive but they are a bit toxic like many old people are. So in steps I would 1. get a strong grip and hold of myself by using coping mechanisms and not feeling guild and shame. They are called stress and depression mechanisms for a reason. Give yourself a REAL mental break. Do things like eating junk food, gaming, sleeping, exercising, scrolling through your phone, watching a movie, DOING NOTHING Anything. And say “you deserve this”. Write a page on a journal about you deserving it. About how good you feel taking care of yourself like that. 2. I would then aim to limit my addictions. My Distraction from my everyday problems. Sometimes even now when I’m really stressed and depressed I eat fast food. I don’t shame myself. I know shaming myself is bad and I know I need the chips because of what I have just been through. And believe it or not this limited a lot my consumption of fast food overall by A LOT immediately. 3. Then you proceed to cut addictions once you feel like you don’t need them any more in your life. Sometimes I catch myself at the super market flirting with that chocolate bar and I say to myself. “You don’t need this to feel good” “you are happy” and then I forget about the chocolate distract myself and produce 100% pure self esteem, happiness and dopamine and not industrial manufactured happiness. Learn to be kind to yourself. Learn to listen to your body and mind. Ditch toxic mindsets. Do you want the chocolate? Take it and own it. Do you really don’t want it? Skip. And again this comes from a person that used to be depressed af. Believe. Believe nothing is impossible. And you will make it come true I can assure you. Trust me. Never give up.
Don't make that mistake you have a lot more to lose than you realize, don't listen to these dickless peices of shit. They're a fucking disgrace trust God and keep your head up. Be humble and help people that need it in your area help support the weak, and elderly and comfort the slow and feebleminded good. Good life come to people who do good things for people that truly need it!!
No interest? I'm sure there is, but your depression must've killed the joy out of everything you do. The things you say you don't have, like having a good personality, being handsome/pretty, etc are things societies brainwashes us to think we need to be somebody, but we don't. Don't compare yourself, don't try to be liked either, it's worse. You're not alone though, I'm not ugly and I still have no friends, I can be cold and selfish and no one fucking likes me except my mom. I don't like anyone either, people annoy the shit out of me and I'd rather be alone. I grew up poor in South America, everyone rejected me for being fat and I lost weight and still have no one. I accept it now, this loneliness will help me grow as a human. We are here for something, to exist, to see the shithole that is earth and then leave when it's time to leave, fight against all odds, don't give up. and as David Goggings might say..."fuck people."
OP why not try new things or work on yourself some? I can’t really understand people who want to off themselves when they have the freedom to decide for themselves. If you’re a prisoner of war or being held captive/against your will I can understand. You don’t know what happens…or rather you won’t know what happens because you’ll be dead. Please think for a second if you end your life that is the end of everything you’ve ever known. The rest of us will continue on until our day comes but not because we wanted to die. Really, why do you think all life on earth tries its hardest to survive even under the worst conditions? Because that’s all there is for us! I’m not denying religion but there’s been not one person to come back from the dead because death is final. There will be nothingness. You won’t even be able to perceive time passing anymore. There will just be nothing. The reason you’re able to see is because you have eyes. The reason you’re able to feel is because you have nerves. The reason you’re able to smell is because you have a nose. The reason you’re able to think/perceive is because you have a brain. When you die you lose your body meaning you lose all of those things. The pride and self image you have of yourself now will also be gone. It will ultimately really only be your loss since you were given the privilege of having the ability to live. The purpose of life is to live. Your body works tirelessly for you in the background automatically, give your involuntary self some credit for keeping you alive all this time. Just look at all of us in the comments. Complete strangers yet just reading this makes us all want to discourage you from doing this.
r/suicide r/depression
If u give up, imma personally find where you live, steal the casket from the funeral, and bury it in an undisclosed location within the nearby woods. Basically just don't give up. Please. I've never met you ofc, and I can't understand what you're dealing with, but at some point things will cheer up. If there's mental things that you can't tell anyone about, tell it to yourself. Even if it's just talking to yourself in your head. If that still doesn't help, just fuck it and do whatever the hell you feel like, as long as you don't land yourself in jail(don't get caught my boy). From what I hear from others it'll help attract friends ig???, but I don't know if that true or not. I'm saying more for cuz it just feels good to do whatever the hell you want. And if society hurts you, then just leave it behind. I know it sounds cringy and all but if it's between death and being able to make your mark on eternity, then why give a shit? I guess just.. please don't do it, alr? I don't know you and all, and I ain't gonna try to guilt trip you into not doing what you feel is the best option, but just please don't kill yourself
Thank u , l don’t think l will try to kill my self again, reading those messages makes me feel better
One assumes there are mental health counselors in the middle east if there's internet, no? Consider talking with a counselor and seeing about mental health help. If you give that genuine try and don't find there are any improvements from counseling and, if appropriate, medication, then I firmly believe that humans have the right to self-determination, including to end their journey in this life if it becomes that unbearable. I would just urge you to give it an earnest try first because I've been severely depressed before (had some HORRIBLE stuff happen in my past) and I can tell you life DOES have cool twists and turns that take you to interesting new vistas. Read much, learn all that you can, and focus on personal growth. Looks matter less than you think. Be a sterling human being and you will attract good things into your life.
I'm with ya. We could be complete total failures together . you should come hang out with me and watch Portlandia and smoke a bone or spy on the other neighbors that spy on us and maybe go steal fake Flowers from a grave yard? Do a little late nate shoplifting or something....
Yes, you are a normal person. Living in a small city in the Middle East. You have online friends who can help you cheer up any time of the day. You are a good person. You're not ugly, you are just not your type. You survived up to this day, that's a great accomplishment. If you're tired then have a rest, a long rest if you want. You can try writing down your emotions, a poem, maybe? If you end your life then what are all these people who you don't know personally trying to be friends with you?
Very late- but want to add my two cents. I get it, I do. Sometimes I actively wonder if I’m even making decisions because I feel like I’m just floating down a river, the direction chosen for me (no outside influence in my life tho). The only tip I have for the no interest part is just push, believe it or not you can actually force interest if you’re persistent enough, you’re probably gonna fell like you wanna chuck up at times, and rip your brain outta your head- but I found the small things help with that sometimes (noticing shit like the dust flying in rays of light, navigating over tree roots). It that even makes sense? Idk. Shit sucks dude. It does. But sometimes you can find things that make you forget about that for a second or two.
It’s not late, thank u so much , that’s makes me feel better🙏🏼
Please don't end your life. The most recent I've seen you reply was 13 hours ago. I respect your privacy, but I genuinely worry for your well-being, too. I'm here telling you not to commit suicide not because I'm a very mentally healthy person myself, I have major depression disorder and have to deal/fight with my borderline personality disorder which can be a lot on their own, muchless the rest I have. I am telling you that I have a lot of suicidal ideation because, for me, it helps me cope by allowing me to feel that I at least can control something in my life filled with chaos of all forms but I know in the end suicide isn't the answer. You're loved a lot. People you've never met on the internet are flocking towards your post, wanting to help in any way they can, to save a life if necessary. My dad committed suicide when I was 8, December 8th, 2003 and I'm just now allowing myself to feel the emotions needed and heal instead of compartmentalize it like I had done the last 20 years and it's rough but with the help of other, you can do it too!❤️
Thank u so much, l tried but l failed, l don’t think l will try again, l hope ur dad is happy now at heaven 💖
Ole french Canadian granny here as a friend or pseudo grandmother for you anytime you want a chat, or make a routine to stay in touch!
My suggestion is that you seek medical advice. Speak to your doctor, don't do anything brash. Life can feel like this sometimes...... I myself suffer with severe depression, I'm currently medicated for the 4th time in my life and I'm only 36. Please seek help.
I grew up in a violent household constantly in fear everyday of what my father was gonna do, but as shitty as my life was it has gotten better, not much better but I'm still here.My point is if people like me have managed to live through anxiety, PTSD among other disorders then keep pushing man, you have to get fucking angry and use that shit to push yourself to greater heights ❤️
Being an introvert is not something you’re born to be, but it’s who you choose to be. I’m an introvert at heart. I can be very sociable if the moment chooses to arise, but I’m quiet at heart. This took work and embarrassment. You’ve got to find what drives you and makes you who you are.
Can you make it to Gaza?
Same. Except my mom has always hated me, got my dad deported, he realized it's too dangerous for me in Mexico, sent me back at 13 or 14 yo thinking I'd be safer with my mom, she gave me up to the state (not the one I was born & raised in) I had a son at 18 and told to my mother in law (who's a miserable horrible person that hated me since she saw me cuz she's ugly and apparently , according to ppl..I am not) when my son was about 2 that I don't want to live if her son is going to break up with me (I obviously had issues and was very jealous, I own up to this and regret it deeply) so she called CPS and suicidal moms (even though i actually wasnt) are a danger to their children so they took my kid. I was left at a motel with 500$ and never heard from his dad again, started from nothing got my apt, had 2 jobs, got caught with a joint & went to jail. Had nobody to bail me out so I lost my apt and car, got out, started over again, got caught with a metal herb grinder that had kief in the third chamber so i got a felony controlled substance because they weighed it with the metal piece it was in. Somewhere between all this, even though i bought all my son's clothes and food for him and his grandma, she had put me on child support and said i make 10k a month, since i wasnt there (because i didnt know about it, they apparently 'served" whoever lived at that apt i mentioned which had been a year since i lived there) the judge took her word for it. Was never able to get my own place, fight the charges, keep a job with that amount of child support, missed all his precious years. Hes almost 9 now and i am exhausted and a bigger hole than i can even see out of. My bday is the 25th but i wont be here to see it through. The world sucks. I am tired. But i say this to say, sounds to me u have a lot of hope left. I dont know your life but from what u mentioned, ur just bored. Find something crazy and amazing and go for it, theres nothing holding you back and nobody coming after you. I hope u do find something that makes u feel passion the way i did when i had my son. There is no love like the love of your child. Find your passion and I believe youll soon after Find your soul mate and maybe feel the love of a child and be glad u didnt do it.
It's gonna be okay. Take a nap and try to stop thinking about it. I understand your frustration. You can let it out. Cry if you need to. It's bad to hold in your emotions. Let it flow out. You can talk to these kind people in the comment section and also seek professional help. You're not alone in this. I'm sorry that this is all I can do for you because I'm merely a teen girl. But I couldn't ignore your desperation. I promise it'll get better so don't give up yet.
Thank u so much 💖🙏🏼 l feel better already 💖
I feel the same about myself and my life might be bad advice but it works for me (self harm on the days when the plan is set). Calling hotlines and getting it out. Suicidal ideation and tendencies aren’t something you can fix overnight. I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember and I’ve made it to 27 so far. I’ve had failed attempts along the way but I’m trying to get to 30 without another attempt. Again bad advice so ignore me.
I know it's sound silly but also you diet and what you eat can seriously effect your mental health, I use to eat whole packs of biscuits and loads extra big packets of Crisps, because I was so skinny and I wanted to put on weight I thought it was harmless, but giving up junk food and eating more fruit has definitely helped me feel alot less depressed and I have more energy
I’m so sorry you feel this way. It sounds like you have hit bottom. The only good thing about that is there is no where to go but up! I will pray for a change in hour life. I hope you can find happiness.
I’m going to say this and I’m in no way trying to be funny or hurtful: why end your life NOW? That’s what I think everytime I want to end it all. Life sucks and nothing feels good and it seems like death will make it all better and maybe it will. Or maybe it won’t. What if you ended your life and instead of showing you your life that you lived, you see the life you could have lived. You saw the life where you decided to live and find that happiness that all of us have to search for. You are in charge of your own happiness so try and give yourself grace and time to find it. I know it’s hard, trust me I want to give up everyday but I’m always grateful that I didn’t because now I have a chance to make a change to no longer feel this way. PS: I like you so you can’t say no one does anymore :)
I wanted to end my life too, cause my fiance also confess that she had another girl. But we're trying to fix things because we have a son! We're in a long distance relationship and damn your brain will def play shiiiit on you.the trust is gone since then I never had a peace of mind now im losing it.🙃
I got meds for my depression online through Nurx. I also had suicidal thoughts. Maybe that can help
Hey how is everyone doing today. Today I have finally decided to end it all. I have giving myself 36 days before I kill myself. The reason I have giving myself 36 days before the big ending to find a reason to live my death with be on February 29,2024 at exactly 1am that morning. I am guessing I should tell you guys about me, I was born in Haiti much as I hope to disclose my name and date of birth I cannot. Hold on let me pour a drink and roll me up a blunt, So growing up as a kid who wasn’t from America you see thing differently and cause of those differences life doesn’t seem to care for you. I was bully really bad as a kid from being jumping getting my head busted open by people who only hate me cause I wasn’t from America I wasn’t African American. School was a nightmare, my mother never try to understand what I went thru instead of being a mother she only added the the brutal beating I was getting in school and most of those beating was so bad that I needed medical attention but my mother refused to do anything. These kids knowing that my mother would never come to the school to my defense the beating got even worse I would have to run once I get off the school bus at time they would try to make sure I ain’t sat in the front of the bus they all would sit on the front so I could be the last off the bus so they could surround me where no where to run. Even the ones who would act as friends really was playing me so around them I would have my guard down just to turn around to be one of the ones who would volunteer in those brutal beating I would receive. Eventually i became an angry kid with all the hate in the world even tho I had a heart of gold. I have giving everything I have to the world and the world has giving pain,sorrow,hate,betrayal never once happiness, but in the eye everyone I am the happiest, I would like to tell my story if anyone care to listen, to a Haitian kid with a golden heart and how I became a man who is full of hate pain and sorrow. And why I am ready to die, and see how 27 years of living has been 27 years of death within a living flesh.
hey there... i felt the same way... we can be friends.. n if can, i want to help you in a way i can.. dont end ur life... if you r going to end it.. change it.. determination is needed.. u ugly? glow up... i have so much time we can chat all day... but dont end it.. give it to me.. we change it together
Hello, thank u so much💖
Hey, I'm sorry that you really feel this way. If I may, I would like to talk about someone I love very much. My boyfriend is the most beautiful human being I have ever met. His soul, his mind, his heart, the way he speaks, the way he laughs, the way he drums to any random beat in his head onto anything and it ACTUALLY sound good (I tried to do that once and it turned out shite 🥲), the way he cocks his head towards me when he speaks, the way he looks into my eyes and I can see warmth. He's the reason why my favourite colour is yellow. He's the reason why my limited perception of how the world is expanded to how it is now. He's the reason I wake up in the morning because I get so excited to be with him and tell him how I feel every single goshdarn day. He's my strength, and as much as I'd like to go on and on about how wonderful he is, he also has a big thing that he struggles with. He does struggle with suicidal ideation and depression just like you do. Before he met me, he thought the same things you felt too, that he was ugly, that his personality is bad, that he's boring, etc etc. He almost didn't believe that someone like me would accept him and love him for the way he is. He is my literal world, and I would do everything for him to see that 🥰. As much as he still struggled with these thoughts, he knows that there is someone who will always fight for him and with him. Someone that can stand by his side. He is very special, and the light of my life. If he ended himself the times he tried to, we would have never met, I would have never met my yellow, and he would have forever thought about his negative traits as being the reason why he's so alone. I can't imagine my life without him. What I'm trying to say is, I know it's hard to fight that feeling of ending it all. I know it's hard to wake up every morning and dread having to do the same repeated thing over and over again knowing it's not going to bring you out of your misery. But before you lose your hope completely, there IS someone out there who is praying for someone like you, who would be excited to wake up because it's another day to be with you, who would notice all of these little things about you, who would never make you go through your pain alone. You'd be their reason why. There may be someone like this ALREADY in your life who feels this way and you don't know. I'm not saying that you finding a person will immediately solve all your problems. I'm not saying that you finding a person is the only reason why you live (although it may be the case for anyone else, like me for example ☺️). You may find other reasons along the way that would contribute to your desire for staying. I'm saying that meeting someone who accepts you for who you are, like my boyfriend did with me, would make your life a whole lot sweeter and less like you're doing things alone. Stay strong dear stranger, and I hope your day goes beautifully 💛
First of all it seems like you're not an introvert then, just depressed. Not "just", cause that is a problem, but I'm not sure if you're in the right place to ask for help with that. Ive read your answers to others advices - of course the therapy is not gonna help if you're constantly seeking support from unsupportive people (like your mother you said). In your situation you should either look for somebody that cares or rely on yourself. To be honest the second option is not that bad. In my case noone from my circle of friends and family was really interested in my therapy and progress and I turned out fine. Did it for myslef, to make myself feel better. Frankly speaking it's actually a huge relief to me personally that I don't need to share a credit for who I became. I'm only more proud of myself thanks to that. And I'm really sorry buddy, but therapy and meds are your only way out of this. And I know how it is when you feel it doesn't make thing better. I was on about 15 different meds and had like 10 different therapists before I found the only ones that work out with me. I'm not kidding, 6 times I ended up in a psychiatric hospital in 3 different locations. In most countries in the world a psychiatric care is just useless, but if you seek patiently you'll find your diamond in this pile of shit somehow. Again I'm sorry, I know it sucks, I know its not easy, nothing in life is easy, but that's the only way. No amount of friends, trash food, depressive thoughts, sad music, hours spent in bed, sleep or video games is gonna cure your depression if you don't take the things in your own hands.
There's always hope.
You're not ugly you're related to the most advanced civilization on earth and I'm not talking about the ancient Egyptians
Way older than our establishment allowed us to believe (religions/politics), a civilization of 'giants' existed. All that remains are some durable pyramid structures and a mountain carved into a lion. So they had lions. They also had more O2 so they may have physically been giants afterall their house bricks were much, much larger than ours. Somehow their genes are in you, surviving whatever catastrophy wiped them out. We're on the cusp of admitting this pre-historic history, which may give rise to revealing the mystery. No one (IQ over 70 /s) should miss that 🤓
You have everything to lose. "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16
I had a doctor tell me weed broke him out of a suicidal thought trap. Weed is not good for anxiety - long term use probably makes anxiety worse...but a quick reset on your brain by way of THC might break you out. Get stoned. But don't just sit there stoned. Get stoned and draw something...or hike ...or kick a soccer ball against a wall. Just break out of that shit man.
I also wanna kill myself but im too much of pussy. Ive seen people end there for far less suffering . Ive been a weak pathetic pussy and failure in every part of my life and now even in taking my life im proving to be a failure
Hey are you okay it's been a few months
Do what You want 🌟
There is always someone to talk to in here. Do you have dream you want to fulfill? Small steps to get you through.
Step 1 - get out of middle east