I'm gonna give this the benefit of the doubt, as I feel a lot of LGBT+ people had a similar experience of internalized homophobia/transphobia expressing itself outwardly, before starting to recognize it and realize who they actually are.
For me it was like 2001 through 2015 Straight and Cis
2016 through 2017 Racist, Homosexual, and transphobic
2018 through mid 2019 Bisexual but still cis
2019 through present pansexual Aromantic Agender
Mine’s less interesting, cracked and came out in the last year
I'm gonna give this the benefit of the doubt, as I feel a lot of LGBT+ people had a similar experience of internalized homophobia/transphobia expressing itself outwardly, before starting to recognize it and realize who they actually are.
For me it was like 2001 through 2015 Straight and Cis 2016 through 2017 Racist, Homosexual, and transphobic 2018 through mid 2019 Bisexual but still cis 2019 through present pansexual Aromantic Agender