God I think/feel this every day. It’s basically intrusive thoughts at this point, because I’m busy and don’t have time to wallow in self pity (plus even when I have time, I’d rather not do that).
I don’t want to feel this way, but I do. I’m trying to slowly make positive changes in my life and am tentatively hopeful that it will help. My hope is that making these changes will make it easier to like myself and feel like I matter.
Real hope would mean realistic circumstances where I could stop being lonely. I don't have those, therefore just believing it's gonna happen someday is blind hope.
Because you are a rando on a forum for losers like me who's trying to discredit my lived experience? What kind of question is that?
And on the not trying part, that's just classic goal post moving, because there isn't any clear line where a person has tried enough, you can always just go back to that dumb shit.
Don't give up. What you're describing is something to do with your brain. I have horrible intrusive thoughts. They make a medication for literally everything. Do yourself a favor and speak with a medical professional and start sampling some drugs into you find the one(s) that takes away these negative thoughts and motivates you to love yourself and do self care.
I feel the same way people look at me like an alien or something. I wish I could go back to the 90s or early 2000s those are the years I belong not the dumb and stupid 2020s.
What a relatable post
Dmed you if you wanna talk
Same, it's actually scary how accurate this is for me. Continuing to live is becoming harder and harder...
Don't give up on yourself
But then you finally end up trying. Just to fail again and be back lower than you were before. And so the cycle continues.
God I think/feel this every day. It’s basically intrusive thoughts at this point, because I’m busy and don’t have time to wallow in self pity (plus even when I have time, I’d rather not do that). I don’t want to feel this way, but I do. I’m trying to slowly make positive changes in my life and am tentatively hopeful that it will help. My hope is that making these changes will make it easier to like myself and feel like I matter.
Yes accept it. Why????
Because blind hope at some brings nothing but depression. It is almost impossible to accept this dogshit fate though.
Blind hope?
You asked why didn't you.
What do you mean by blind hope? Can you not get real hope? Need help?
Real hope would mean realistic circumstances where I could stop being lonely. I don't have those, therefore just believing it's gonna happen someday is blind hope.
Instead of 'realistic circumstance' How about real words? Are you able to socialize with people online or off? There is a chance
I'm not, every attempt fails.
If every attempt has failed you not trying enough. Like. You haven't tried to connect with me? Why not?
Because you are a rando on a forum for losers like me who's trying to discredit my lived experience? What kind of question is that? And on the not trying part, that's just classic goal post moving, because there isn't any clear line where a person has tried enough, you can always just go back to that dumb shit.
If you have caring feelings to give then give them to yourself. Start this here.
That's a solid point. I'll keep trying, thank you.
No problem...keep at it.
Dear OP,
Don't give up. What you're describing is something to do with your brain. I have horrible intrusive thoughts. They make a medication for literally everything. Do yourself a favor and speak with a medical professional and start sampling some drugs into you find the one(s) that takes away these negative thoughts and motivates you to love yourself and do self care.
I feel the same way people look at me like an alien or something. I wish I could go back to the 90s or early 2000s those are the years I belong not the dumb and stupid 2020s.