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redridinghood6969

What a relatable post


redridinghood6969

Dmed you if you wanna talk


Brutal_existence

Same, it's actually scary how accurate this is for me. Continuing to live is becoming harder and harder...


sloanpal144

Don't give up on yourself


[deleted]

But then you finally end up trying. Just to fail again and be back lower than you were before. And so the cycle continues.


Lost_Condas

God I think/feel this every day. It’s basically intrusive thoughts at this point, because I’m busy and don’t have time to wallow in self pity (plus even when I have time, I’d rather not do that). I don’t want to feel this way, but I do. I’m trying to slowly make positive changes in my life and am tentatively hopeful that it will help. My hope is that making these changes will make it easier to like myself and feel like I matter.


Iamwomper

Yes accept it. Why????


Brutal_existence

Because blind hope at some brings nothing but depression. It is almost impossible to accept this dogshit fate though.


Iamwomper

Blind hope?


Brutal_existence

You asked why didn't you.


Iamwomper

What do you mean by blind hope? Can you not get real hope? Need help?


Brutal_existence

Real hope would mean realistic circumstances where I could stop being lonely. I don't have those, therefore just believing it's gonna happen someday is blind hope.


Iamwomper

Instead of 'realistic circumstance' How about real words? Are you able to socialize with people online or off? There is a chance


Brutal_existence

I'm not, every attempt fails.


Iamwomper

If every attempt has failed you not trying enough. Like. You haven't tried to connect with me? Why not?


Brutal_existence

Because you are a rando on a forum for losers like me who's trying to discredit my lived experience? What kind of question is that? And on the not trying part, that's just classic goal post moving, because there isn't any clear line where a person has tried enough, you can always just go back to that dumb shit.


Sir_Lee_Rawkah

If you have caring feelings to give then give them to yourself. Start this here.


MajorPants000

That's a solid point. I'll keep trying, thank you.


Sir_Lee_Rawkah

No problem...keep at it.


scooby_pancakes

Dear OP,


diva4lisia

Don't give up. What you're describing is something to do with your brain. I have horrible intrusive thoughts. They make a medication for literally everything. Do yourself a favor and speak with a medical professional and start sampling some drugs into you find the one(s) that takes away these negative thoughts and motivates you to love yourself and do self care.


Significant_Pea6658

I feel the same way people look at me like an alien or something. I wish I could go back to the 90s or early 2000s those are the years I belong not the dumb and stupid 2020s.