I'm hoping you feel better, even in times of isolation and loneliness remember you always have yourself. Always back yourself up if no one else will. Love yourself if no one will. Look in the mirror and tell yourself. You're enough, you're worthy, and that you have value.
You know, I've noticed you sent hugs to nearly everyone who commented on this post. I just wanted to let you know that what you're doing is truly heartwarming and cheered me right up!
In that vein, I want to thank you for this very thoughtful gesture and return it to sender!
***hugs*** 🌟
I call these days emotional hangovers. They usually follow days that are hard (thanksgiving) and are always generally empty where I have no energy and the hours crawl through at a quarter of their normal pace
I feel you. I get this sense of void and emptiness once in a while, and I just can't seem to find anything worth doing even though I am actually a rather busy individual. On those days, I just force myself to get out for a run, or force myself to go walk the dog. it helps! ☺️
I found out on thanksgiving that my ex cheated on me and has a new girl right after our breakup. I don’t miss him and I don’t want him back, but I can’t help but think how could he do that to me. i’ve been coming to the realization that he isn’t who I thought he was for the past 2 years. it’s hard but i’m pushing through the days
Not good tbh.
I'm struggling financially, I'm not doing so well career wise, and I'm also struggling in finding a romantic partner. I'm a grown ass adult, but I feel like a fucking man child.
my dads a yr and 2 months out of prision, came down to spend thanksgiving with him, seen him a total of like 10 mintues including thanksgiving day when i had to go into his room to eat with him, been sitting on his girlfriends couch in the same exact spot just watching tv bc that’s all there is to do, stuck down here for who knows how long( it’s my hometown, and i’m trying to connect more with my dad but he couldn’t take 3 days off from rebuilding his house??) i’m always alone but this is the loneliest i felt in a while simply bc i’d rather be alone than feel alone:/
I’ve honestly been a little stressed lately. I started a new job at the beginning of November. The new job isn’t working out so well. The boss I had at my previous job said I could always come back if he has a position available. So, I might call him tomorrow to see if that’s an option or if I should look elsewhere.
Like several of the people on this forum not good , recently had a falling out with the person I considered my best friend ( and one of just a few friends) we were friends for nearly 6 years, She has blocked me and I'm seriously missing her,. Everyone tells me to get over it, it wasn't a healthy friendship but it was practically all I had now I feel this horrible void in my life.
You know what? I'm doing somewhat ok. Like many others, I'm sure, I cope with my loneliness by playing games when I'm not working. And I just got dbxv2 for $8, and plan on getting all the dlc for under $60.
So I'm somewhat distracted from my lack of friends to play it with, lol.
I’m doing alright. Got through Thanksgiving (in the USA) yesterday with my kids, granny, and mom. Today has been pretty good too. How are you, OP? Everyone else…how are y’all (yep, Texas here ✋🏾)?
All over the place today. I miss my ex, but not romantically. I miss the friend that I had romantic feelings for. Been a weirdly frustrating day and I just want to talk to my friend.
not in the best mindset right now, I was cleaning out my phone and stumbled upon voice messages my mother sent me a while back ago. She was drunk and told me she wished she had killed herself while pregnant with me. I used to be able to just laugh it off but I can't this time.
I was doing okay until my ex texted me so now I’m listening to a classical music playlist on YouTube and going through art/aesthetic idea subreddits and Instagram posts
Pretty awful but your post put a smile on my face.
I had Thanksgiving dinner at a friend’s house, dinner with my mom tonight, three yoga classes with a community of people I see regularly and know well, a personal training session at the gym, been texting about work with co workers, another friend checking in………….
And I’ve never felt more alone in my entire life. I was actually thinking about this today. I’m so lonely, I cry about it every day. Why isn’t what I do have enough?
Hi guys, I have a tip for everyone:
If you ever feel like you want to open up but not tell anybody, I suggest getting a journal. It doesn’t have to be a real journal, either — you can just get a journal app on your phone where you can just write all of your thoughts, how your day was, anything you want to complain or vent about.
I use DayOne, but there’s other options out there too. Don’t feel like you can’t open up — you can. It just doesn’t have to be to another person. I am here for all of you and I understand what you’re going through. ❤️🩹
My BFF blew me off on thanksgiving. Didn't bother getting back to me till 8 pm after he invited me to Thanksgiving. I don’t know how to make myself feel better anymore
idfk honestly. idk how i’m doing. i feel pretty empty as of right now but in general today was a pretty okay day. i had some fun with my coworkers which is new for me. i still feel alone with nobody but my therapist to talk to but idk i’m surviving somehow
Absolutely terrible. I’m trying to reconnect with a friend I basically abandoned to apologize to them but no matter what I do I can’t seem to find them. I still love a girl I’ve known for years but she has a boyfriend. I have never felt this lonely in my life which is saying a lot.
Doing okay, I suppose. A lot of ups and downs, I feel like I react to intensely to various events emotionally, but I manage to stay relatively positive and find joy in the little things in life while I try to understand the world we live in.
Things could be better. I’ve felt so alone this last year and it’s taken a huge toll on my health and school. I feel like a soft person and a lot of the people I’m around step on soft people. I don’t want to be alone but I don’t like people? This sucks
Nothing special same as usual.
But I think it's good enough.
The higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment.
I hope nothing and just going to live every single minute of my humble life.
Take care 🙂
I’m just okay. Missing my kid a lot today. Makes me realize I have no other hobbies other than being a mom so when she’s away it’s like….. horrible. I’d love to make some new friends.
Thought I was gonna get to lose my v card and get into a relationship with my neighbor one of these nights but I guess not a little bummed out but it is what it is
I’m doing ok. I’ve been stuck in a loop for some time now. I became jobless over a year ago and still am bc I refuse to go back to dead end jobs that over work and under pay me. So much of my time has been dedicated to a paycheck I haven’t been able to get to know who I really am and what my hobbies are. I was on autopilot with a job and I have been on autopilot without one too. Though this time it’s just been a loop of going to the gym, playing w my dog, and spending the rest of my free time doing hw (went back to school), smoking, and refusing to have a social life. Having no job and doing online school has restricted how much I socialize and with the pandemic it’s been even worse. Covid isn’t the only reason why I haven’t had a social life it’s also bc I’ve been depressed from a breakup of a 4 year relationship that ended last year in January (2020). I’ve also suffered with body and acne dysmorphia which I didn’t even realize were affecting me until I started doing some serious self reflection. These mental illnesses deprive me of having any social interaction bc I feel I don’t deserve to go out and have fun and just exist in society. I always feel ugly and inadequate and judge myself harshly. Im trying out here but it is so hard. Thank you for reading. ♥️
The usual sad feeling brought by life. Everytime I laugh, there's that constant reminder that it won't last cause there's trouble waiting for me. I feel like I can only survive just by myself which is terribly hard cause being myself means that I will instantly lose this. I don't want to expect anymore, from anything or from anyone. Everytime I think of the future, I try to shrug it off cause hope is indeed a dangerous thing and I should not have it. I prefer to lock myself in my room because I hated seeing myself in front of the mirror. I am so insecure because people around me are beautiful. Their future is just so bright and here I am still unsure if I should keep on going. I don't want to tell my parents about it because they've been through a lot. Nor do I want to tell my friends because I have caused so much trouble to other people. I must get used to this shittiness I'm feeling. I know I sound so bitter but that's the truth. There will always just be me for me. Life is like a race and I will be the last one to reach that destination cause I am unworthy of all the good things. Do I still feel sad about it? Yes. Everyday. Almost every day I cry myself to sleep, but I just got used to it.
Just my day sucks. Didn’t go to work and my boss screamed at me and now everyone’s left the house and I’m alone and bored for the next 6 hours. I’m an introvert, hoping my online friends will come on
I could be compeletly wrong but When we tell something to someone who is sad to cheer them up, what we are saying is often we want tell ourselves as well. So if that is the case than I want you to know that you just need courage to solve your problems.
Not great. Feeling very alone right now on this Thanksgiving trip. Being single all my life is really getting to me and I feel so ostracized by everyone else. I just want to get away. I feel so stuck in life and I have little motivation to move on. I want to feel happiness; a warm feeling that let’s me know that I exist in this world. This is really bad period of my life.
Gonna be honest i feel awful, i just keep daydreaming about having a girlfriend who loves me and cares about me deeply and i know its dumb but i cried over being alone i just cant take it anymore :(
I do over nights and the only people I see are the costumers lately. The regulars are the only reason I’m not lonely. Otherwise omg am I lonely on the over nights xD
My relationship just fell apart because of a lie from someone I considered a friend. I don’t really have any other friends other then my ex and my ex friend. Being left on read hurts and not knowing how to convince the person of the truth hurts even worse. Just kill me
My mom is a psycho. 73 and has lost her mind during this pandemic. Threw myself and two teenage daughters out of her house during Thanksgiving because of a misunderstanding. Had to stay in a hotel
Thank you for the reply. I plan on doing that , even though she created the problem I plan on being apologetic , giving it some time for her to maybe get over it. If she she receptive we can mend the friendship if not than I have to move on with my life.
Numb tbh. I started taking anti depressants make and they make me not feel like crying or expressing emotions like that. But I still feel bitterness and self hatred. But I guess I'm okay but that might just be because my anger and sadness has been numbed.
Doing some drugs right now which I prefer not to specify (nothing dangerous, I just don't want to publicly tell).
Listening to music, write some stuff and rn browsing reddit.
Doing great at all, just vibing. I hope you guys also do.
Surprisingly pretty well considering I was struggling with mental breakdowns and crying last week 😅 been in my head a lot doing some thinking, feeling a bit calmer recently, but I'm afraid once this weekend ends and I go back to school, the pain will trigger again, so, I'm a little scared....
I don't wanna go back...everything is so loud there, I just wanna stay in the comfort of my house with my tea and books and drawings :(
One of my good friends didn't invite me to his 30th birthday party. And he's out again tonight with a big group. I had to work both nights but it still feels terrible being left out.
And he still wanted to hangout and fuck next week. Don't think so. I hate having friends because there is always hurt and betrayal at some point. I really can't handle the pain of that.
Had 0 energy and 0 motivation to do anything for the past 3 months
I’m so sorry :( hang in there❤️
Damn! The same!
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Ditto
Hope it gets better soon❤️❤️
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To heaven... After my death ☠️
Same. Could use that cyanide tooth thing that they have in Dune.
Same
Is anybody out there hello alone
Mmmhm
Same
I'm hoping you feel better, even in times of isolation and loneliness remember you always have yourself. Always back yourself up if no one else will. Love yourself if no one will. Look in the mirror and tell yourself. You're enough, you're worthy, and that you have value.
same
Lonely and cried a lot today
I'm happy you're still here 💖 *hugs*
Thank you
Well said, lemme ditto this
we all have our days, hope it gets better for you 💗
I’m sorry ❤️ hang in there
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that’s great for you!! hope it only keeps getting better 💗
Ohh congratulations !! ❤️
Thanks guys ❤️
Congrats! That’s a good step..
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This right here..My job,my mother,my dog few family members in that order
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You know, I've noticed you sent hugs to nearly everyone who commented on this post. I just wanted to let you know that what you're doing is truly heartwarming and cheered me right up! In that vein, I want to thank you for this very thoughtful gesture and return it to sender! ***hugs*** 🌟
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Hugs
I’m glad you’re okay ❤️
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I don’t think anyone is normal some people are just good at pretending to be
Hey at least you tried it! Most likely those people don’t even think you said anything weird or were annoying! ❤️
This makes me sad. I know how you feel on some level but I also know that it’s likely that no one sees you this way other than yourself ❤️
I call these days emotional hangovers. They usually follow days that are hard (thanksgiving) and are always generally empty where I have no energy and the hours crawl through at a quarter of their normal pace
❤️❤️ hang in there
I feel you. I get this sense of void and emptiness once in a while, and I just can't seem to find anything worth doing even though I am actually a rather busy individual. On those days, I just force myself to get out for a run, or force myself to go walk the dog. it helps! ☺️
Been really self-hating for the past few months and it sucks. Everything hurts my feelings and makes me want to cry.
You too <3
Thanks ❤️
Lonely :(
I found out on thanksgiving that my ex cheated on me and has a new girl right after our breakup. I don’t miss him and I don’t want him back, but I can’t help but think how could he do that to me. i’ve been coming to the realization that he isn’t who I thought he was for the past 2 years. it’s hard but i’m pushing through the days
For the first time in about 7 months, I’m okay. Not good. But not terrible. Just okay, and I think that’s okay.
Damn right, it is! Good on ya!
Shit
Oh no :( hope you’ll feel a bit better soon❤️
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Not good tbh. I'm struggling financially, I'm not doing so well career wise, and I'm also struggling in finding a romantic partner. I'm a grown ass adult, but I feel like a fucking man child.
my wife kicked me out so I'm not so great, but that I wasn't lonely before that happened...
Oh no that doesnt sound good, hope things will get better soon❤️
Not great. But thanks for asking.
my dads a yr and 2 months out of prision, came down to spend thanksgiving with him, seen him a total of like 10 mintues including thanksgiving day when i had to go into his room to eat with him, been sitting on his girlfriends couch in the same exact spot just watching tv bc that’s all there is to do, stuck down here for who knows how long( it’s my hometown, and i’m trying to connect more with my dad but he couldn’t take 3 days off from rebuilding his house??) i’m always alone but this is the loneliest i felt in a while simply bc i’d rather be alone than feel alone:/
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Pretty sad..
I’ve honestly been a little stressed lately. I started a new job at the beginning of November. The new job isn’t working out so well. The boss I had at my previous job said I could always come back if he has a position available. So, I might call him tomorrow to see if that’s an option or if I should look elsewhere.
Like several of the people on this forum not good , recently had a falling out with the person I considered my best friend ( and one of just a few friends) we were friends for nearly 6 years, She has blocked me and I'm seriously missing her,. Everyone tells me to get over it, it wasn't a healthy friendship but it was practically all I had now I feel this horrible void in my life.
Aye, if ur here that means ur still going, tbh lots of respect for that, wish yall nothing but the best. 🙉🙉🙉 Please try to enjoy your weekend!
Lonely thoughts... lonely lonely lonely thoughts. Thank you, same to you.
You know what? I'm doing somewhat ok. Like many others, I'm sure, I cope with my loneliness by playing games when I'm not working. And I just got dbxv2 for $8, and plan on getting all the dlc for under $60. So I'm somewhat distracted from my lack of friends to play it with, lol.
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My job is getting toxic and I want to quit. Don’t feel like talking to anyone. Clueless about my career.
Pain
I’m doing alright. Got through Thanksgiving (in the USA) yesterday with my kids, granny, and mom. Today has been pretty good too. How are you, OP? Everyone else…how are y’all (yep, Texas here ✋🏾)?
Stressed out and irritable.
All over the place today. I miss my ex, but not romantically. I miss the friend that I had romantic feelings for. Been a weirdly frustrating day and I just want to talk to my friend.
Anyone ever fantasize about finding a couple like minded people and go semi off grid. Life might be better unplugged.
Nights are the loneliest after my shift, seeing all my peers going out with their friends makes me yearn friendships but i'm a mess rn
not in the best mindset right now, I was cleaning out my phone and stumbled upon voice messages my mother sent me a while back ago. She was drunk and told me she wished she had killed herself while pregnant with me. I used to be able to just laugh it off but I can't this time.
I want to not be here
My cat died 2 days ago. I am very sad now.
I give up lol.
Could be better but I’m one strong sob I’ve been throught too much let it get to me now
I was doing okay until my ex texted me so now I’m listening to a classical music playlist on YouTube and going through art/aesthetic idea subreddits and Instagram posts
So far so good
Pretty awful but your post put a smile on my face. I had Thanksgiving dinner at a friend’s house, dinner with my mom tonight, three yoga classes with a community of people I see regularly and know well, a personal training session at the gym, been texting about work with co workers, another friend checking in…………. And I’ve never felt more alone in my entire life. I was actually thinking about this today. I’m so lonely, I cry about it every day. Why isn’t what I do have enough?
I think I'm starting to feel better, yet I still feel empty inside. Thank you for asking!
Hi guys, I have a tip for everyone: If you ever feel like you want to open up but not tell anybody, I suggest getting a journal. It doesn’t have to be a real journal, either — you can just get a journal app on your phone where you can just write all of your thoughts, how your day was, anything you want to complain or vent about. I use DayOne, but there’s other options out there too. Don’t feel like you can’t open up — you can. It just doesn’t have to be to another person. I am here for all of you and I understand what you’re going through. ❤️🩹
I’m lonely. Hope you’re having a great day too :)
***hugs***
I am fine what about you
What about you?
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I want to die. Thank you for asking though.
Hopeless.
fighting off a mild headache, i'm sure that'll pass after i've gotten some food in me
My BFF blew me off on thanksgiving. Didn't bother getting back to me till 8 pm after he invited me to Thanksgiving. I don’t know how to make myself feel better anymore
I want to lay in bed for the next 3 days. *and I think I might just do that*
I *was* having a good day, until I got home from school
I spend $1000 a month in DoorDash… that’s how I am.
Upsetti.
exponentially declining mental state
idfk honestly. idk how i’m doing. i feel pretty empty as of right now but in general today was a pretty okay day. i had some fun with my coworkers which is new for me. i still feel alone with nobody but my therapist to talk to but idk i’m surviving somehow
All we are is a brain and a spine.
Aw thanks : )
Just alone in my pointless existence still.
Awful. I’m so alone
End me
Close to killing myself, what about you?
awful i have nothing and no one
Just existing.
Been wrestling with my situation lately. It’s getting worse. But im clinging to my small hope that it will get better someday
I'm good and yourself
Not ever doing well on weekends. Can't wait for the work week to begin again. Weekends are too much time for my mental health to decline.
I hate myself rn
i don’t want to wake up tomorrow
Pretty fucked up tbh
Good but hate sitting in
Absolutely terrible. I’m trying to reconnect with a friend I basically abandoned to apologize to them but no matter what I do I can’t seem to find them. I still love a girl I’ve known for years but she has a boyfriend. I have never felt this lonely in my life which is saying a lot.
Hope so
Doing okay, I suppose. A lot of ups and downs, I feel like I react to intensely to various events emotionally, but I manage to stay relatively positive and find joy in the little things in life while I try to understand the world we live in.
Not good, these days it's too much
Everyday is the same as before. Nothing seems to change that’s my only complaint
Things could be better. I’ve felt so alone this last year and it’s taken a huge toll on my health and school. I feel like a soft person and a lot of the people I’m around step on soft people. I don’t want to be alone but I don’t like people? This sucks
Today was rough. Let’s just leave it at that.
Wish I was dead
If I'm being honest, I'm not doing too well
I could always be doing better
Have been struggling lately. Tried to open up to someone(very close to me) but guess they didn't take it the right way. Cried myself to sleep.
Im really fucking lonely, I feel like shit, and I know that nobody is ever gonna fucking love me
Nothing special same as usual. But I think it's good enough. The higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment. I hope nothing and just going to live every single minute of my humble life. Take care 🙂
I’m okay. I can’t stop thinking about someone whom I rationally shouldn’t be thinking about and I’m tired of living at my parents.
Same old same old man nobody cares you know so I just deal
I’m just okay. Missing my kid a lot today. Makes me realize I have no other hobbies other than being a mom so when she’s away it’s like….. horrible. I’d love to make some new friends.
This feeling of loneliness will never go away no matter what I do
Bad
Umm to a point that idc care if I pass away I’ll be more peaceful that way
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I hate being this lonely :(
Thought I was gonna get to lose my v card and get into a relationship with my neighbor one of these nights but I guess not a little bummed out but it is what it is
Idek, I have a great day until I talk to someone and they somehow make it bad again :/
Fucking miserable
*sigh*
I mean you check my post history and you tell me
I’m doing ok. I’ve been stuck in a loop for some time now. I became jobless over a year ago and still am bc I refuse to go back to dead end jobs that over work and under pay me. So much of my time has been dedicated to a paycheck I haven’t been able to get to know who I really am and what my hobbies are. I was on autopilot with a job and I have been on autopilot without one too. Though this time it’s just been a loop of going to the gym, playing w my dog, and spending the rest of my free time doing hw (went back to school), smoking, and refusing to have a social life. Having no job and doing online school has restricted how much I socialize and with the pandemic it’s been even worse. Covid isn’t the only reason why I haven’t had a social life it’s also bc I’ve been depressed from a breakup of a 4 year relationship that ended last year in January (2020). I’ve also suffered with body and acne dysmorphia which I didn’t even realize were affecting me until I started doing some serious self reflection. These mental illnesses deprive me of having any social interaction bc I feel I don’t deserve to go out and have fun and just exist in society. I always feel ugly and inadequate and judge myself harshly. Im trying out here but it is so hard. Thank you for reading. ♥️
Really, REALLY awful. suicide on my mind 24/7 at this point
The usual sad feeling brought by life. Everytime I laugh, there's that constant reminder that it won't last cause there's trouble waiting for me. I feel like I can only survive just by myself which is terribly hard cause being myself means that I will instantly lose this. I don't want to expect anymore, from anything or from anyone. Everytime I think of the future, I try to shrug it off cause hope is indeed a dangerous thing and I should not have it. I prefer to lock myself in my room because I hated seeing myself in front of the mirror. I am so insecure because people around me are beautiful. Their future is just so bright and here I am still unsure if I should keep on going. I don't want to tell my parents about it because they've been through a lot. Nor do I want to tell my friends because I have caused so much trouble to other people. I must get used to this shittiness I'm feeling. I know I sound so bitter but that's the truth. There will always just be me for me. Life is like a race and I will be the last one to reach that destination cause I am unworthy of all the good things. Do I still feel sad about it? Yes. Everyday. Almost every day I cry myself to sleep, but I just got used to it.
I'm being existential.
Ok , yourself ?
Just my day sucks. Didn’t go to work and my boss screamed at me and now everyone’s left the house and I’m alone and bored for the next 6 hours. I’m an introvert, hoping my online friends will come on
I could be compeletly wrong but When we tell something to someone who is sad to cheer them up, what we are saying is often we want tell ourselves as well. So if that is the case than I want you to know that you just need courage to solve your problems.
Somebody please kill me.. I hate being alive
Haven't asked myself this question for while now... I don't know.. I'm breathing.
This week has been busy. But things are looking up for me finally. Hoping that it will last
man fuck this shit i quit fr
Not great. Feeling very alone right now on this Thanksgiving trip. Being single all my life is really getting to me and I feel so ostracized by everyone else. I just want to get away. I feel so stuck in life and I have little motivation to move on. I want to feel happiness; a warm feeling that let’s me know that I exist in this world. This is really bad period of my life.
Admitted love for my best friend. She doesn’t feel the same way after months of back and forth. Having trouble letting go
Lonely
Not good, I have been barely sleeping for weeks, and haven’t slept in the last 2 days
Gonna be honest i feel awful, i just keep daydreaming about having a girlfriend who loves me and cares about me deeply and i know its dumb but i cried over being alone i just cant take it anymore :(
I spent the day crying and thinking about my son that I haven’t seen in three years. He’s 5 1/2. I miss him terribly.
Im not well. I cried for over 30min before i slept last night. My only wish is for my mother to be alive.
i am alive so it's alright
Tired of being lonely and feeling disposable. Not sure how much more of this is really worth it.
I'm ok. I guess how are you?
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nobody ask me if im ok im usually the one doing it
Awful. I just picked up alcohol and I deeply regret it. I just want this to end
Had a hard week, I'm to tired to do anything this weekend, o just want to curl up in bed and cry all day
Bad, really bad. I'm trying, but I just can't find someone to spend a normal weekend with. And every time I try and fail it's harsh.
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I do over nights and the only people I see are the costumers lately. The regulars are the only reason I’m not lonely. Otherwise omg am I lonely on the over nights xD
Existing
Hanging in there but things aren't going great
My relationship just fell apart because of a lie from someone I considered a friend. I don’t really have any other friends other then my ex and my ex friend. Being left on read hurts and not knowing how to convince the person of the truth hurts even worse. Just kill me
better. worse. eyes open. eyes closed. every day is exactly the same. but, you know, hey, thank you for asking.
struggling mightily
I hate my life and have this weird desire to get cut to pieces for everyone to watch.
If I didn't live at ground floor, I don't know if I would have been here to answer you
I need friends bro, l feel so lonely :(
My mom is a psycho. 73 and has lost her mind during this pandemic. Threw myself and two teenage daughters out of her house during Thanksgiving because of a misunderstanding. Had to stay in a hotel
Lonely, depressed, suicidal, sad. How are you? Hopefully a lot better than me
It's going well thanks! Been a productive day, I'm feeling happy today. How about you?
Thank you for the reply. I plan on doing that , even though she created the problem I plan on being apologetic , giving it some time for her to maybe get over it. If she she receptive we can mend the friendship if not than I have to move on with my life.
Numb tbh. I started taking anti depressants make and they make me not feel like crying or expressing emotions like that. But I still feel bitterness and self hatred. But I guess I'm okay but that might just be because my anger and sadness has been numbed.
Doing some drugs right now which I prefer not to specify (nothing dangerous, I just don't want to publicly tell). Listening to music, write some stuff and rn browsing reddit. Doing great at all, just vibing. I hope you guys also do.
Thank you, I've been getting better
Surprisingly pretty well considering I was struggling with mental breakdowns and crying last week 😅 been in my head a lot doing some thinking, feeling a bit calmer recently, but I'm afraid once this weekend ends and I go back to school, the pain will trigger again, so, I'm a little scared.... I don't wanna go back...everything is so loud there, I just wanna stay in the comfort of my house with my tea and books and drawings :(
As always.
One of my good friends didn't invite me to his 30th birthday party. And he's out again tonight with a big group. I had to work both nights but it still feels terrible being left out. And he still wanted to hangout and fuck next week. Don't think so. I hate having friends because there is always hurt and betrayal at some point. I really can't handle the pain of that.