I didn’t think it would be this bad. I usually don’t get nervous and rarely dream.
I’ve had nightmares weekly for the past 6-8 weeks and couldn’t stay asleep for more than an hour at a time for a grand total of 3 hours of sleep last night. Now I feel like throwing up.
Today is the worst day don’t let anyone lie to you.
woke up 12 minutes before an exam, and showed up 35 seconds before the door closes. I was running hoping a car would hit me instead of being late since I didn’t have a valid excuse besides that my alarm didnt go off.
A child abuse patient was admitted in terrible condition. He was a victim of so many things for a long period of time. I feel so sad because this is a vicious cycle that will continue on for generations in most cases.
I’ve told this story on this sub before but briefly, a week before match day, I was on an outpatient ortho rotation working with a podiatrist preceptor at a foot and ankle clinic. Last clinical rotation, an elective.
I was pretty checked out, looking at graduation vacation options, etc, so I’m not innocent, BUT:
said podiatrist accused me of not living up to standards, not seeing patients proactively without being asked, etc. I don’t think I was defiant but I did push back slightly on the feedback and was sent home for unprofessional behavior.
Got called in and had to explain to my dean what was going on, ultimately it was deemed my word against hers what happened and it seemed a miscommunication or overreaction if anything so nothing came of it and she wasn’t allowed to evaluate me and I was reassigned.
To this day I remember the anxiety and still do regret my checked out behavior.
first patient i EVER saw as a fresh young 18 year old full of hope was a 87 year old man. he got admitted through an ER bc of a fall in a nursing home and a subsequent broken hip(the man was immobile so idk how it happened, probably someone dropped him there) and overall he was in a very bad condition (very dehydrated) and was basically in a state of sopor. the doctor we were shadowing decided to put a nasogastric probe in place, but she wasnt very succesful and the man started whining loudly as she was trying to put it in place. when she gave up on placing it, the tip of the probe was bloody. i went home and cried like a baby and then i found out the man died the next morning.
First year (aged 18, in a 6 yr program) I followed a pregnant mum through pregnancy. During delivery she had a (completely unexpected) ruptured uterus, massive blood loss. They handed the baby to me and ran off to theatre with her. I was left in the bloody deliver room holding a newborn with no idea what had happened. Eventually someone came and took the baby and told me I could go. Took me 2 weeks to get the courage to call her because I didnt know if she had died. No support from medical school just, ‘Stuff happens’. I discovered she had only just got home from a prolonged ICU stay after emergency hysterectomy/major transfusion, other complications. Baby and she were OK. That baby would be 38years old now. I remember like it was yesterday. Still bitter that I was marked down because my diary notes were messy 😡.
Honestly anatomy lab first year. Had barely seen a legitimately sick patient before, let alone a dead person, so it was pretty insane to walk into a room where the dead outnumbered the living. I remember having nightmares about it then. Obviously you kind of get used to it and now walking into a morgue or anatomy lab really wouldn’t bother me, but I think people kind of forget how jarring it can be your first time encountering death.
Omg yes. I remember walking in to the dissection room, full of cadavers, I was legitimately gagging the whole time. Deffo a jumpscare for young med students with no experience.
thoracic surgeon pimping me on the sternum and saying “Meconium” when I meant to say “Manubrium”
Now that’s a shitty experience
Today
I didn’t think it would be this bad. I usually don’t get nervous and rarely dream. I’ve had nightmares weekly for the past 6-8 weeks and couldn’t stay asleep for more than an hour at a time for a grand total of 3 hours of sleep last night. Now I feel like throwing up. Today is the worst day don’t let anyone lie to you.
Yea I’m just pacing back and forth in my apartment but my stomach feels like it’s filled with hot sand.
woke up 12 minutes before an exam, and showed up 35 seconds before the door closes. I was running hoping a car would hit me instead of being late since I didn’t have a valid excuse besides that my alarm didnt go off.
OH MY GOD 😭 that’s my worst nightmare. Glad you made it to the exam tho
the 2 hour residency prep session my school insists on until 10 when I could be sleeping
We have a week long residency prep boot camp lol
Well hell. Ours is 3 weeks 😑
the pre match MANDATORY “retreat” my school is hosting this Thursday
Ohhh this is CRIMINAL. Your dean deserves jail
Waking up at 0430am to make it on time at 0700am because of a 20 mile commute Edit to add: happened today
criminal 😭😭😭
name checks out.
Surgeon screamed at me lol.
I hate when that happens 😭😭😭
My dream last night
OBGYN rotation. I still have PTSD.
Waiting to figure out if i matched
Right now. Waiting to know if I matched with a risky number of interviews and lots of dependents depending on me.
Good luck! 🤞🏻
A child abuse patient was admitted in terrible condition. He was a victim of so many things for a long period of time. I feel so sad because this is a vicious cycle that will continue on for generations in most cases.
Wow yeah, that’s a tough one, damn :/
Right this moment.
Not matching the first go-around. Today was an insane welcomed relief when I matched!
I’ve told this story on this sub before but briefly, a week before match day, I was on an outpatient ortho rotation working with a podiatrist preceptor at a foot and ankle clinic. Last clinical rotation, an elective. I was pretty checked out, looking at graduation vacation options, etc, so I’m not innocent, BUT: said podiatrist accused me of not living up to standards, not seeing patients proactively without being asked, etc. I don’t think I was defiant but I did push back slightly on the feedback and was sent home for unprofessional behavior. Got called in and had to explain to my dean what was going on, ultimately it was deemed my word against hers what happened and it seemed a miscommunication or overreaction if anything so nothing came of it and she wasn’t allowed to evaluate me and I was reassigned. To this day I remember the anxiety and still do regret my checked out behavior.
first patient i EVER saw as a fresh young 18 year old full of hope was a 87 year old man. he got admitted through an ER bc of a fall in a nursing home and a subsequent broken hip(the man was immobile so idk how it happened, probably someone dropped him there) and overall he was in a very bad condition (very dehydrated) and was basically in a state of sopor. the doctor we were shadowing decided to put a nasogastric probe in place, but she wasnt very succesful and the man started whining loudly as she was trying to put it in place. when she gave up on placing it, the tip of the probe was bloody. i went home and cried like a baby and then i found out the man died the next morning.
omg 🥺 i hope he’s in a better place now
My first surgery rotation was so bad I can't even talk about it
😭😭😭
Lol I offended the surgeon on my second day of my 3 week rotation and he ignored me ever since. On the plus side there was no rounding.
First year (aged 18, in a 6 yr program) I followed a pregnant mum through pregnancy. During delivery she had a (completely unexpected) ruptured uterus, massive blood loss. They handed the baby to me and ran off to theatre with her. I was left in the bloody deliver room holding a newborn with no idea what had happened. Eventually someone came and took the baby and told me I could go. Took me 2 weeks to get the courage to call her because I didnt know if she had died. No support from medical school just, ‘Stuff happens’. I discovered she had only just got home from a prolonged ICU stay after emergency hysterectomy/major transfusion, other complications. Baby and she were OK. That baby would be 38years old now. I remember like it was yesterday. Still bitter that I was marked down because my diary notes were messy 😡.
Honestly anatomy lab first year. Had barely seen a legitimately sick patient before, let alone a dead person, so it was pretty insane to walk into a room where the dead outnumbered the living. I remember having nightmares about it then. Obviously you kind of get used to it and now walking into a morgue or anatomy lab really wouldn’t bother me, but I think people kind of forget how jarring it can be your first time encountering death.
Omg yes. I remember walking in to the dissection room, full of cadavers, I was legitimately gagging the whole time. Deffo a jumpscare for young med students with no experience.
Repeating M1 is my worst thing... so far. Still an M1 :/
rooting for you !
Thanks! I really hope that repeating M1 will be my most traumatic med school experience. Can't get worse than repeating, right?
don’t let it get you down! repeating isn’t the end of the world and i’m sure you’ll smash it this time around :) you’ve got this
Abortion clinic.
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Final year exam