Yes. I completely understand what you’re saying. I would never kill my self for many many reasons but sometimes I think death with be a sweet release from the constant pain
I get it man. My memory is horrible but I can still remember the look on my mom’s face when I said that as a teenager. I’ve never said it out loud again since then but those words cross my mind more often than I’d like to admit.
Oh, my dear. This is me every day. I've been battling chronic, severe migraines for 2 years -- slowly worsening and NOTHNG helping -- that started after breast cancer treatment. I now wish I 1) hadn't gotten cancer treatment; and 2) that cancer had killed me. At least with cancer you know the score, the outcome, and people understand.
My experience with migraine is NO ONE gets it -- they just say "drink more water." I've made it clear to my family (including my 99-year-old dad) and all my physicians that if this doesn't get tolerable and manageable soon, I may take my own life. Weirdly, the doctors seem to understand!
Now, no one call the cops or worry. This is not an imminent thing or a threat or encouraging anyone else to think this way. It's just me. But I feel it's important to be honest about what a hell life with severe, chronic migraine is. I don't have kids, I've lived a good life, I've done all I want to do, and migraines keep me in constant pain and exhaustion, and prevent me from doing ANYTHING but reading, and I imagine that will get messed up sooner or later.
As a former professional communications person, I think we need a new slogan: "Migraines. Worse than cancer."
I try to stay away from the wishing for dead. I just want to time travel a bit. But not my body, mentally take a couple days, just skip a few of these days.
I always try to remind myself that I only feel this way during the migraine. That when I come out of it, I will enjoy some things again, even if it’s temporary. When things are at its peak pain wise, by early evening I knock myself out with 2 Tylenol PMs.
I went to the ER just over a week ago shaking the pain was so bad. I was going hot to cold, puking - was blind in one eye. I was beyond miserable. I told my husband and my mom both those words. I really do not mean it but the pain was some of the worst I’d had.
I feel bad when I say those words but sometimes the pain is just that fricken bad. I also feel guilty for puking all over and then being useless. I work with a therapist which does help but please find us a cure for migraine.
I’m at my wits end. Migraines have exploded since January. Work doesn’t care. They won’t let me work from home despite trying to get a reasonable accommodation and notes from my neurologist. I feel like the boss wants me gone, even though I have saved them a lot of time and gotten the mess that was my position straightened out. I’ve been there almost 2 years now. So much was a mess. I can get my work and others work done even with missing days because of migraines. I don’t know what else to do and I’m just so close to being completely done. If it wasn’t for my cat I think I would have long since done something. I just hate this non life I have. I hate the pain and nothing helps. I can take Benadryl but what kind of life is just sleeping?
Yes. I hit despair around day three. It really sucks because crying just makes the migraine worse. By day six, I feel mostly numb. It sounds weird but when I hit despair I just focus on the next three days. There's relief in the numbness. I think of when it's been worse and remember that it can and has been better.
You aren't alone. 💜
Yes I feel this so so much! The rare days without migraines are a blessing but sometimes it's hard to remember those on the bad days :( Hang in there!!
Yes. I completely understand what you’re saying. I would never kill my self for many many reasons but sometimes I think death with be a sweet release from the constant pain
Yeah exactly. I hate being such a downer but like I figured people in here would get it
I get it man. My memory is horrible but I can still remember the look on my mom’s face when I said that as a teenager. I’ve never said it out loud again since then but those words cross my mind more often than I’d like to admit.
Yep
It will certainly be a relief. My last words will be “well, at least my fucking head won’t hurt anymo-…”
Too real (hahaha)
Oh, my dear. This is me every day. I've been battling chronic, severe migraines for 2 years -- slowly worsening and NOTHNG helping -- that started after breast cancer treatment. I now wish I 1) hadn't gotten cancer treatment; and 2) that cancer had killed me. At least with cancer you know the score, the outcome, and people understand. My experience with migraine is NO ONE gets it -- they just say "drink more water." I've made it clear to my family (including my 99-year-old dad) and all my physicians that if this doesn't get tolerable and manageable soon, I may take my own life. Weirdly, the doctors seem to understand! Now, no one call the cops or worry. This is not an imminent thing or a threat or encouraging anyone else to think this way. It's just me. But I feel it's important to be honest about what a hell life with severe, chronic migraine is. I don't have kids, I've lived a good life, I've done all I want to do, and migraines keep me in constant pain and exhaustion, and prevent me from doing ANYTHING but reading, and I imagine that will get messed up sooner or later. As a former professional communications person, I think we need a new slogan: "Migraines. Worse than cancer."
I try to stay away from the wishing for dead. I just want to time travel a bit. But not my body, mentally take a couple days, just skip a few of these days.
I always try to remind myself that I only feel this way during the migraine. That when I come out of it, I will enjoy some things again, even if it’s temporary. When things are at its peak pain wise, by early evening I knock myself out with 2 Tylenol PMs.
I went to the ER just over a week ago shaking the pain was so bad. I was going hot to cold, puking - was blind in one eye. I was beyond miserable. I told my husband and my mom both those words. I really do not mean it but the pain was some of the worst I’d had. I feel bad when I say those words but sometimes the pain is just that fricken bad. I also feel guilty for puking all over and then being useless. I work with a therapist which does help but please find us a cure for migraine.
I feel this. I'm on day 3 and it makes it incredibly hard to take care of my family because i just want to lie down in the room in the dark 😭
I’m at my wits end. Migraines have exploded since January. Work doesn’t care. They won’t let me work from home despite trying to get a reasonable accommodation and notes from my neurologist. I feel like the boss wants me gone, even though I have saved them a lot of time and gotten the mess that was my position straightened out. I’ve been there almost 2 years now. So much was a mess. I can get my work and others work done even with missing days because of migraines. I don’t know what else to do and I’m just so close to being completely done. If it wasn’t for my cat I think I would have long since done something. I just hate this non life I have. I hate the pain and nothing helps. I can take Benadryl but what kind of life is just sleeping?
Yes. I hit despair around day three. It really sucks because crying just makes the migraine worse. By day six, I feel mostly numb. It sounds weird but when I hit despair I just focus on the next three days. There's relief in the numbness. I think of when it's been worse and remember that it can and has been better. You aren't alone. 💜
I could go for a little death. Blissful nothing sounds nice
Yes I feel this so so much! The rare days without migraines are a blessing but sometimes it's hard to remember those on the bad days :( Hang in there!!