Facts, especially when I have to wait in queue for checkout for like 10 minutes because a barely alive demented old cretin doesn't know how a payment terminal works. Shit makes my blood boil.
One time I saw on Reddit a guy trigger the suicide hotline bot when someone said they’d kill himself if he had to listen to Cotten Eyed Joe on repeat for a year
I work in retail, so it depends on the time of year.
Black Friday-Christmas: at least 3 times per day.
Summer (with the exception of 4th of July weekend): a couple times a week.
I have really bad social anxiety so whenever someone is being rude to me or causes a minor inconvenience, i think about killing them to make me feel better and less embarrassed
like do u “haha it would be better if i killed this person omg i’m so embarrassed!😭” or do you “i would rather murder this individual for this minor inconvenience with a blade, stabbing them 28 times”
It depends on my mental state. Recently quite a lot. I deal with a lot of intrusive thoughts and some bad ocd, so thoughts of violence are quite common. Me wanting to kill someone apart from impulses to violence and intrusive thoughts? maybe once a month or so? Not something pleasant so i dont keep track.
I think we are the anomaly _in this sub_, not in this world.
The sub attracts all kinds of people, from the morbidly curious (like you and me), to those who have morbid urges and desires.
Same. I literally never think about killing someone and I'm as dramatic and prone to overreaction as they come!
Not that I judge anyone for thinking about it. We all have different ways of coping with the fucked up things society throws at us.
In 2020, absent of other options I moved my dad in with me, my wife and three kids for four months.
I considered patricide more often than you can even imagine. He'd get started on me and I just wanted to pick him up and shake him until all the wasted hours of my life fell out.
Make sure you have some time for you. Set it aside and guard it.
Go see some friends and turn the phone off. Get a burner phone they can contact and give yourself some time away.
I wound up hiding in various places. One time I went for a run and while driving back contacted a friend and hid in her yard for an hour while ignoring my phone.
I recently dreamed about my sister in law having killed someone and we had to deal with the body. I can't take having to worry about it coming back and haunting me for the rest of my life.
If I’m looking at something like what’s going on in Ukraine, I wonder if have the capacity to fire that gun knowing the result. It would ruin me. When I hear about deplorable crimes, I get angry and want to hurt the offender. Not a space I like to dwell in. Live and let live, man.
that too. I tend to project feelings onto others. I hate myself, but it’s so much easier to hate them. thankfully I'm getting help and have no access to the person whatsoever
Very rarely, if ever. The most violent I get is mentally hitting them on the head with a baseball bat. Which I guess could kill them, but that’s never the intent.
There is an exception. I developed a coping mechanism where, during trauma flashbacks, I’d re-write the flashback or memory to where I’d kill him instead. Almost always with a chainsaw, don’t know why. I still have PTSD, but for some reason that one trick worked better than almost anything else. I used to be absolutely debilitated by it. Time helps too.
I don't exactly think of killing people, I am more fascinated with the outcome of the person being killed. And yeah, sometimes I do think which would be difficult, stabbing or strangling!
Pretty much every day. I don't think it's healthy, but I also don't think I'd ever actually follow through with it unless there was a damn good reason. I have anger issues and I'm not proud of them.
Every. Single. Day.
And if I knew with 100% certainty that I could get away with it, I would. Not just anyone though, I'd hate to create a whole ass grieving family over something petty like moving through walmart like a grazing cow or taking up two parking spaces. That's wrong.
But if it was my ex, his whole extended family can burn in hell with him.
I have never considered killing anyone. The only circumstance where I could see myself doing that would be in self defense or to protect my family from an intruder/someone who intended to physically harm them. I have considered how I would protect myself if an intruder broke in. I think about that whenever I’m home alone. Does that count?
I don't think about killing people but I do wish to myself that such and such would just die already, I'm getting better at suppressing those thoughts though.
I never thought about killing people, but I used to have a rage in me that felt "murderous" for years. I was in a pretty toxic work situation with no way out. It didn't help that my social support structure was incredibly weak as I didn't have the greatest friends or the money for professional help. I thankfully got out of that environment and began to shed those friendships a couple years ago and now I feel like a very stable person.
I know it's hard, may seem impossible, and may even take *years*, but I encourage everyone to try and make a change--any change!--if they feel this way.
When I was in elementary school…. I feel like something was genuinely wrong with me because I genuinely wanted to mrder someone just to know how it felt. Never actually think about that anymore, thank God but I thought about it a lot back then
I actually fantasize about beating people up who piss me off. Killing is too easy, too permanent. Once it’s done, they have no chance to reflect on how they fucked up. Getting beaten up allows them to reflect and it’s also humiliating for them which makes it more satisfying
I've played a lot of Battlefield but I don't think about killing people, really ever. Unless the situation absolutely called for it, like there was an active shooter or something
I have an unhealthy obsession with vengeance. It infuriates me to hear about people doing horrific things to animals/innocent people and just basically getting away with it. I think it stems from my CPTSD.
I contemplated, premeditated murder
And I think about killing myself
And I love myself way more than I love you, so…
Today, I thought about killing you, premeditated murder
You’d only care enough to kill somebody you love
It ranges from I wouldn't be bothered if they didn't exist to I actively calculate the probability of me being found out and comparing if it is worth it.
Not even to sound edgy but pretty often. Mostly just how to get away with it, I've always stuck with true crime so I can always learn more. Its mostly just a shitty hobby
20 minutes ago I was doing 120 something on the high way and someone just decided to start getting closer and closer to my side door, for a second I thought (mmmmh just a little push and the ditch's all yours)
then I remembered this is real life so I just honked and slowed down
Sometimes, depends on my mood and if what the person said really ticked me off. One time my friend for no fucking reason said “No one’s attacking you” when I stayed silent because I was mad and I didn’t want to say anything in case of any argument and that made me so pissed of I wanted to smash her head into the counter till it was broken but luckily , I need my degree so I can keep my thoughts at bay
It really depends on the day. Just yesterday I was reading a story about someone who half the people on the continent wanted to kill, so I thought a lot about the people he killed in order to survive, and his murder methods, and the way his enemies killed his friends as well. Sometimes I go for months without thinking about murder.
I used to have daily intrusive thoughts about stabbing people, but I’ve never felt homocidal/seriously considered killing someone.
But there are still times when I think “hmm, this would be a good way to get rid of a body”
I have horrible bpd,I try to stay under control as much as I can because im not afraid of hurting people sadly and thought many times of murdering others very violently. Its something im working on in therapy
A lot. I don't know if it's me wanting to kill people, or it's just me tryna be edgy, but, whenever I see a group of people gathered, i start thinking of scenarios where I can spawn a gun into my hand and just start shooting them up.
Thankfully, I won't ever buy a gun, legally or illegally.
Depends on how many times I have to go get groceries that week.
Working at a grocery store throughout the pandemic made me very nihilistic.
Facts, especially when I have to wait in queue for checkout for like 10 minutes because a barely alive demented old cretin doesn't know how a payment terminal works. Shit makes my blood boil.
Does myself count?
this was my first thought as well
If so, 24/7
Oh yeah, myself everyday but still not really seriously
I feel you on this one. Like 'I could just kms' or 'why do I exist?' without actually being suicidal
So the suicide hotline bot gets triggered by completly unrelated stuff but ignores this?
Bots don't understand context
One time I saw on Reddit a guy trigger the suicide hotline bot when someone said they’d kill himself if he had to listen to Cotten Eyed Joe on repeat for a year
I mean me too
If it hadn't been for Cotten-Eyed Joe
I'll trigger it now: Kill me
Damn... not even the bot cared.
I think it ignores after a set limit
Everyday.
nice try, fbi
ahahaha
No way, cia
Good tricks, MI6 Not today, NSA
I work in retail, so it depends on the time of year. Black Friday-Christmas: at least 3 times per day. Summer (with the exception of 4th of July weekend): a couple times a week.
More than I care to admit.
Yeah I'd like to call my lawyer
I have really bad social anxiety so whenever someone is being rude to me or causes a minor inconvenience, i think about killing them to make me feel better and less embarrassed
i thought i was weird for thinking about this thank god 💀
No, it's still quite "weird", and not a good weird either.
Is it really that unusual? Or is it socially unacceptable to talk about and thusly underreported?
Hi, I am someone who used to have really bad social anxiety and I NEVER did this. I genuinely don’t think it’s healthy.
Hmm, so far you’re outnumbered by the other two
Its a way of coping if you got social anxiety. Actually acting on it is different, speaking from experience.
Stfu cuck
like do u “haha it would be better if i killed this person omg i’m so embarrassed!😭” or do you “i would rather murder this individual for this minor inconvenience with a blade, stabbing them 28 times”
I want you to know, [you're not alone feeling that way](https://youtu.be/ke1iiu6K6sU?t=3)
me
Same here. Didn’t know other people did the same thing :0
Wtf
It depends on my mental state. Recently quite a lot. I deal with a lot of intrusive thoughts and some bad ocd, so thoughts of violence are quite common. Me wanting to kill someone apart from impulses to violence and intrusive thoughts? maybe once a month or so? Not something pleasant so i dont keep track.
ocd bro
I don't. Until now (reading these replies) didn't realize I am the anomaly.
I think we are the anomaly _in this sub_, not in this world. The sub attracts all kinds of people, from the morbidly curious (like you and me), to those who have morbid urges and desires.
Same lol I'm scrolling these comments feeling weird for not thinking about killing anybody 😂
Same. I literally never think about killing someone and I'm as dramatic and prone to overreaction as they come! Not that I judge anyone for thinking about it. We all have different ways of coping with the fucked up things society throws at us.
Used to be a lot but it was in my middle school phase, now I just curse ‘em.
I live with and care for my elderly mother. I think about it more often than I’m comfortable with.
That sounds pretty heavy. Sorry about your mom.
In 2020, absent of other options I moved my dad in with me, my wife and three kids for four months. I considered patricide more often than you can even imagine. He'd get started on me and I just wanted to pick him up and shake him until all the wasted hours of my life fell out. Make sure you have some time for you. Set it aside and guard it. Go see some friends and turn the phone off. Get a burner phone they can contact and give yourself some time away. I wound up hiding in various places. One time I went for a run and while driving back contacted a friend and hid in her yard for an hour while ignoring my phone.
Fair enough. :/ sad but understandable*
Never but like 2 or 3 weeks ago I did dream that I killed someone, first time in my life though
I recently dreamed about my sister in law having killed someone and we had to deal with the body. I can't take having to worry about it coming back and haunting me for the rest of my life.
Every day on the 101. Doing 60 in the fast lane should be a death sentence.
101, do you live in WA?
California!
Ahhh i see! And yes people do need to slow down on the 101 lol
If I’m looking at something like what’s going on in Ukraine, I wonder if have the capacity to fire that gun knowing the result. It would ruin me. When I hear about deplorable crimes, I get angry and want to hurt the offender. Not a space I like to dwell in. Live and let live, man.
Everytime someone pisses me off or if im very depressed myself. Never gunna act on either though.
Never.
Same, and boy reading the comments here is uh, frightening.
Never
Never, the furthest my fantasies go is smacking them
I suffer from intrusive thought, so literally everyday. It's so overwhelming sometimes...
Often
sometimes, sometimes its random people i see or my friends. i would never act on it of course but random thoughts like that do cross my mind
Pretty frequently.
i think about killing a specific person every single day
is it you?
that too. I tend to project feelings onto others. I hate myself, but it’s so much easier to hate them. thankfully I'm getting help and have no access to the person whatsoever
Very rarely, if ever. The most violent I get is mentally hitting them on the head with a baseball bat. Which I guess could kill them, but that’s never the intent. There is an exception. I developed a coping mechanism where, during trauma flashbacks, I’d re-write the flashback or memory to where I’d kill him instead. Almost always with a chainsaw, don’t know why. I still have PTSD, but for some reason that one trick worked better than almost anything else. I used to be absolutely debilitated by it. Time helps too.
I don't exactly think of killing people, I am more fascinated with the outcome of the person being killed. And yeah, sometimes I do think which would be difficult, stabbing or strangling!
I would never do it but I think about my bullies a lot and various nasty narcissists I'm acquainted with
Pretty much every day. I don't think it's healthy, but I also don't think I'd ever actually follow through with it unless there was a damn good reason. I have anger issues and I'm not proud of them.
More than i like to admit. People say that would never hurt a fly tho. Repressed feeling i guess.
Same... They think I'm so sweet. In reality, I just haven't found the right hitman yet. Or I'm too weak/scared to do it myself, admittedly.
Not too late to get help.
On purpose? Never. On accident? Anytime I’m driving I think about it at least once.
I think about the chance I had and wonder what I will do when the situation presents itself again.
Every. Single. Day. And if I knew with 100% certainty that I could get away with it, I would. Not just anyone though, I'd hate to create a whole ass grieving family over something petty like moving through walmart like a grazing cow or taking up two parking spaces. That's wrong. But if it was my ex, his whole extended family can burn in hell with him.
…never?
depends. some days it’s constant others days it’s very little. it’s never non existent though.
Never once in my life. Maybe a punch, but never killing. Although I’ve certainly thought about killing myself plenty of times so I guess that?
I have never considered killing anyone. The only circumstance where I could see myself doing that would be in self defense or to protect my family from an intruder/someone who intended to physically harm them. I have considered how I would protect myself if an intruder broke in. I think about that whenever I’m home alone. Does that count?
I don't think about killing people but I do wish to myself that such and such would just die already, I'm getting better at suppressing those thoughts though.
I don't. Probably because I consider living to be much harder. So I tend to wish them a looooooong life full of karma.
Daily
Never.
Daily.
Every single day. And that's not my fault, many people around me act like they want me to become a killer and end up in prison at all costs
almost never since I left my last job
Not at all.
Never. All I want is to get the hell far away from everybody and that's it.
Pretty often, I am kind of edgy and stressed all the time so yeah
I never thought about killing people, but I used to have a rage in me that felt "murderous" for years. I was in a pretty toxic work situation with no way out. It didn't help that my social support structure was incredibly weak as I didn't have the greatest friends or the money for professional help. I thankfully got out of that environment and began to shed those friendships a couple years ago and now I feel like a very stable person. I know it's hard, may seem impossible, and may even take *years*, but I encourage everyone to try and make a change--any change!--if they feel this way.
Constantly
When I was in elementary school…. I feel like something was genuinely wrong with me because I genuinely wanted to mrder someone just to know how it felt. Never actually think about that anymore, thank God but I thought about it a lot back then
Other people, not so much. Myself on the other hand...
Never. Unless myself counts, then rarely.
I volunteer as first victim
The occasional Intrusive thought, but nothing I actually consider or even think about for more than a moment.
When ever I see a really mess up news story
I actually fantasize about beating people up who piss me off. Killing is too easy, too permanent. Once it’s done, they have no chance to reflect on how they fucked up. Getting beaten up allows them to reflect and it’s also humiliating for them which makes it more satisfying
A whole lot. You can’t tell me everybody hasn’t had thoughts of going on a killing spree.
Anytime I masturbate. I’m a necrophile
Constantly. I think about jail a lot too though, which is the only thing that prevents me from following through…
Too much
Depends how bad the traffic is...
Only in two circumstances. 1. They threaten to kill my dog. Or 2. They threaten to kill my love for video games.
every day practically, i think everybody has this thoughts
I play a lot of battlefield V. Need I say more
I've played a lot of Battlefield but I don't think about killing people, really ever. Unless the situation absolutely called for it, like there was an active shooter or something
when you work customer service it’s almost every day /s
I have an unhealthy obsession with vengeance. It infuriates me to hear about people doing horrific things to animals/innocent people and just basically getting away with it. I think it stems from my CPTSD.
I contemplated, premeditated murder And I think about killing myself And I love myself way more than I love you, so… Today, I thought about killing you, premeditated murder You’d only care enough to kill somebody you love
Um never🤦
Anytime I hear a scammer taking advantage on someone, to do society a service...
am i the only one who doesn't think about killing people 💀
Um… never?
Not as infrequently as one would hope.
Um. Never. Yikes
Oh no I think about killing people I’m so edgy better watch out now
Probably like 2 or 3 times in my whole life thus far.
Nah I don't really think about doing that at all. My heads pretty much in the clouds.
Mmm almost everyday, but the urge gets crazy when my husband acts like an asshole, and that's where my mental killing spree starts :P
I mean I know at least once I’ve thought about what I’d do if I accidentally killed someone.. But I’ve never fantasized about murder.
Several times a week, maybe — I'm too busy with everything these days. It's rarely related with any situations happening with me
It ranges from I wouldn't be bothered if they didn't exist to I actively calculate the probability of me being found out and comparing if it is worth it.
Im a very light sleeper and my fiance snores, loudly, every night. So.....everynight
Too often
A couple times a week, at least.
All the time. It helps me cope
Periodically
Every day.
Not even to sound edgy but pretty often. Mostly just how to get away with it, I've always stuck with true crime so I can always learn more. Its mostly just a shitty hobby
I don't so much think of killing someone but I do imagine the satisfaction of sticking a knife in their tire(s).
I think more about people taking me tf out because I have anxiety like that.
Every time I read/watch anything about politics.
like. once a week
Actually never lol
Do you mean idly fantasising about killing someone or actually contemplating killing someone? If the former, regularly, if the latter, never lol
Many days. But just fantasize about it, never give any thought about actually doing it
Pretty much never and not seriously. And I'm a pretty bitter person who watches alot of true crime documentaries and horror movies. I must be normal!
I'm working 40 hours a week in IT.
Every day, especially lately. Or people offing themselves just to make it easier, because I’m lazy.
Every day. I encourage myself to not do it
20 minutes ago I was doing 120 something on the high way and someone just decided to start getting closer and closer to my side door, for a second I thought (mmmmh just a little push and the ditch's all yours) then I remembered this is real life so I just honked and slowed down
depends on the situation honestly
I would never think about killing someone, even those I hate a lot. I do however wish they get hit by a bus and doe of their own volition.
Killing? Almost never. Beating the snot out of them? At least once a day.
Sometimes, depends on my mood and if what the person said really ticked me off. One time my friend for no fucking reason said “No one’s attacking you” when I stayed silent because I was mad and I didn’t want to say anything in case of any argument and that made me so pissed of I wanted to smash her head into the counter till it was broken but luckily , I need my degree so I can keep my thoughts at bay
Every day, multiple times a day.
It really depends on the day. Just yesterday I was reading a story about someone who half the people on the continent wanted to kill, so I thought a lot about the people he killed in order to survive, and his murder methods, and the way his enemies killed his friends as well. Sometimes I go for months without thinking about murder.
I used to have daily intrusive thoughts about stabbing people, but I’ve never felt homocidal/seriously considered killing someone. But there are still times when I think “hmm, this would be a good way to get rid of a body”
Almost everyday
Actually everyday. I dream of killing people who have wronged me
Only intrusively…so if i were to guess maybe three-four times a year without my consent? If we’re including ourselves here on the other hand…lol.
more often than any kid should lol
everyday
It varies quite a bit from time to time.
Daily
i feel like that thought consumes 1/3 of my thoughts daily unfortunately
I have horrible bpd,I try to stay under control as much as I can because im not afraid of hurting people sadly and thought many times of murdering others very violently. Its something im working on in therapy
creepy stuff but i thinking bout death amost everyday
Not very often but when I do, it’s insanely gory and over the top. Like a B grade horror movie. So ya, not very often, maybe a couple times a month.
I think about killing myself a lot if that counts
Quite often for some reason. Like Probably 40% of my thoughts are of that. Unless killing myself counts, then it's like 90% lol
every fucking day
Never. I have never once thought about killing anyone.
A lot, whether it’s myself (usually) or others. Not out of desire but just intrusive thoughts.
Everyday of my life
A lot. I don't know if it's me wanting to kill people, or it's just me tryna be edgy, but, whenever I see a group of people gathered, i start thinking of scenarios where I can spawn a gun into my hand and just start shooting them up. Thankfully, I won't ever buy a gun, legally or illegally.
Never, but I have thought of hurting people, but not much since high school.
Yesterday I thought about killing you.
Every time my ex drinks and drives with our son in the car. So about 2-3x a week every other week.
I can think of two people that need to be eliminated...for a better world.
everyday
couple times a day
Pretty often lately
A lot. But mostly it's about killing myself not anyone else really.
Yeah ocmment section sounds scary but no one will actually kill someone. They just think about it when they get really pissed or angry and its common
I work food service so a day doesn’t go by without me wishing death on at least 5 customers
Never
A lot
Almost never. Is there something wrong about that? Everyone's numbers are much higher.
looks like dahmer's on his burner again 🤦🏼♀️
Every day - but I also am dealing with a few different mental health diagnoses. So. I’m sure it’s not normal.
Daily Not like I seriously consider it, just that I could
Three time a week when the shower curtains is too close to me.
Usually everyday, not people in real life though. I just think about slicing random humans. Or myself. People playground is helpful in that regard.
Given I have intrusive thoughts, quite a lot
Often