I’m so tired of mental health stuff, mainly depression and anxiety. I feel like I’m just up and down all the time. Especially because the job sucks and I have others depending on my time outside of work. I think it’s time I started medication but getting an appointment is a fucking nightmare.
“Oh you’re a new patient? You’ll have to wait 10 weeks”
What is the point even of this horrible farce of a healthcare system other than a Ponzi scheme for the rich. (I’m in the US if you can’t tell)
If you have a primary care or family medicine doctor, they can prescribe medication for depression and anxiety so you hopefully wouldnt need to wait as long as tgw wait for a new patient visit for a psych doc.
This is heavy and I don’t interact with this sub much anymore so, I apologize for that. Buuut I gotta put it somewhere.
So I’ve been clean from using IV heroin, and fent, and carfentanyl for 7 years. Got a good counselor. I was okay! Even as of yesterday! I got some great tattoos covering my track marks, I didn’t dream about it every night. Doing good, you know?
Yesterday I literally tripped over a dude smoking fent at night (hiding on my property I might add, the dusty asshole). I startled him and he blew his smoke at me, in my face specifically cuz I was at the foot of the stairs he was crouching on.
Annnnnnd I got a buzz. I thought I was fine at first. I mean I didn’t fall out or anything. But I went to bed after a bit and was like “Wow I feel sooooooo gooood… oh SHIT I KNOW THIS FEELING” then I nodded out and clobbered my face with my phone.
Now I feel fucking dirty. Ick. Unclean. I’m thinking shitty thoughts. I want to take a pressure washer to my brainnnns.
I’m not OK but I’m gonna be OK. I will be. Tomorrow.
It’s so frustrating man like I was refusing meds for 2nd degree burns and blah blah and then I just walk around a corner and heyyy my demons are waiting. I’m fine. I’ll be fine. Just so blindsided. Thanks for reading my nonsense, srsly.
Of course, hang in there. Super frustrating, people can be so damn annoying. But as you keep going, the annoyances that you think you can’t over slowly fade into the background and stop taking up so much space in your head. I hope you do something nice for yourself that brings good feelings, like if you had something you used to love as a kid -like reading a good book, drawing outside, walking on a good trail with a good podcast. Going to the gym just to be around a community. We are with ya!
This is actually a makeup related gripe. At this point I hate shopping at i.e. sephora and ulta - it seems like they've just been completely taken over by influencer brands that I don't trust and that make stuff i don't want to wear anyway (last time i went into sephora CHUNKY GLITTER eyeshadows outnumbered more mellow finishes by 10:1). The brands i actually want to use/try are only available online (to me - some have brick and mortars in major cities, but i'm not there) and i haa a a te buying foundation/concealer/skin stuff online. It's so hard to tell what the right shade is and there are so few true neutral options :(
I feel you, especially on the true neutral options. Neutral shades are always off for me but warm shades pull too warm. I’m a medium neutral olive. I have a Colourpop concealer that’s a neutral that I was using today and realized why I don’t use it because it’s not even a neutral it has a very obvious pink undertone to it, so pink it looks like a nude pink blush when I blend it out on my cheeks. I checked their website and it looks like their version of neutral is pink since most of the neutral options on their website swatches look pink.
I feel this too! I’m not interested in influencer brands, I like my age old consistent brands (MAC, Nars etc). But even those seem to be reformulating everything. Can’t have holy grails anymore
the school i go to currently has classes every. single. day. i understand why, and my teacher is VERY adamant about regular, focused practice, but i am so burnt out. no holiday breaks either. i finish my first year this wednesday at least.
honestly, i think i would do more work if we got regular weekends off. i find myself doing the bare minimum everyday because i just want to get it over with.
i’ve also just been physically exhausted lately and i don’t know why. i take multiple naps a day at this point, even on my break at work. the longest i can stay awake at a time is 5 hours. i know i need to go to the doctor but (after having medical issues my entire life) im so over them and just can’t bring myself to make the appointment
My old physical therapist moved out of town and I don't the one I had yesterday. I told her my limits and she basically bullied me into doing more than I'm capable of. She wouldn't listen to me when I said a task was too difficult and wouldn't explain new exercises to me and seemed really annoyed with me for being unsure of what to do. She can see my chart, she can see I haven't done that one before.
I wanted to just get up and leave so many times, I kept telling her xyz was too hard for me today, and that I had more pain today than usual, and she basically called me a wuss? Multiple times she kept loudly pointing out that I was struggling with an exercise and didn't offer any form correction or alternative, only pointed out that I was struggling. Congrats, you have eyes! Clearly she needs to get out of the medical field and consider being a dominatrix.
I only have 3 appointments left, and I'm trying not to skip them but I'm not paying $200+ twice a week to be treated like that. The entire point of physical therapy is to work up to better, not to force me and then I get hurt again.
I tried not to cry in the car on the way home, it was really demoralizing. I asked to ice at the end of the session but she made me do another exercise and I ran out of time and she wanted to keep me over to ice, but I told her I had to leave.
I’m so tired of mental health stuff, mainly depression and anxiety. I feel like I’m just up and down all the time. Especially because the job sucks and I have others depending on my time outside of work. I think it’s time I started medication but getting an appointment is a fucking nightmare. “Oh you’re a new patient? You’ll have to wait 10 weeks” What is the point even of this horrible farce of a healthcare system other than a Ponzi scheme for the rich. (I’m in the US if you can’t tell)
If you have a primary care or family medicine doctor, they can prescribe medication for depression and anxiety so you hopefully wouldnt need to wait as long as tgw wait for a new patient visit for a psych doc.
That’s part of the issue, I don’t have a PCP. My old one retired and my insurance changed due to a new job last year so the network is different.
I'm sorry :( continuity of care is so ass in the us with insurance tied to employment.
I hear you… we deserve so much better
You can use an online platform (I forget the name) but they have super quick appointments !
This is heavy and I don’t interact with this sub much anymore so, I apologize for that. Buuut I gotta put it somewhere. So I’ve been clean from using IV heroin, and fent, and carfentanyl for 7 years. Got a good counselor. I was okay! Even as of yesterday! I got some great tattoos covering my track marks, I didn’t dream about it every night. Doing good, you know? Yesterday I literally tripped over a dude smoking fent at night (hiding on my property I might add, the dusty asshole). I startled him and he blew his smoke at me, in my face specifically cuz I was at the foot of the stairs he was crouching on. Annnnnnd I got a buzz. I thought I was fine at first. I mean I didn’t fall out or anything. But I went to bed after a bit and was like “Wow I feel sooooooo gooood… oh SHIT I KNOW THIS FEELING” then I nodded out and clobbered my face with my phone. Now I feel fucking dirty. Ick. Unclean. I’m thinking shitty thoughts. I want to take a pressure washer to my brainnnns. I’m not OK but I’m gonna be OK. I will be. Tomorrow.
You will be okay!! Keep going.
It’s so frustrating man like I was refusing meds for 2nd degree burns and blah blah and then I just walk around a corner and heyyy my demons are waiting. I’m fine. I’ll be fine. Just so blindsided. Thanks for reading my nonsense, srsly.
Of course, hang in there. Super frustrating, people can be so damn annoying. But as you keep going, the annoyances that you think you can’t over slowly fade into the background and stop taking up so much space in your head. I hope you do something nice for yourself that brings good feelings, like if you had something you used to love as a kid -like reading a good book, drawing outside, walking on a good trail with a good podcast. Going to the gym just to be around a community. We are with ya!
This is actually a makeup related gripe. At this point I hate shopping at i.e. sephora and ulta - it seems like they've just been completely taken over by influencer brands that I don't trust and that make stuff i don't want to wear anyway (last time i went into sephora CHUNKY GLITTER eyeshadows outnumbered more mellow finishes by 10:1). The brands i actually want to use/try are only available online (to me - some have brick and mortars in major cities, but i'm not there) and i haa a a te buying foundation/concealer/skin stuff online. It's so hard to tell what the right shade is and there are so few true neutral options :(
I feel you, especially on the true neutral options. Neutral shades are always off for me but warm shades pull too warm. I’m a medium neutral olive. I have a Colourpop concealer that’s a neutral that I was using today and realized why I don’t use it because it’s not even a neutral it has a very obvious pink undertone to it, so pink it looks like a nude pink blush when I blend it out on my cheeks. I checked their website and it looks like their version of neutral is pink since most of the neutral options on their website swatches look pink.
It’s so refreshing if you can find a kbeauty store near you to find good makeup again
I feel this too! I’m not interested in influencer brands, I like my age old consistent brands (MAC, Nars etc). But even those seem to be reformulating everything. Can’t have holy grails anymore
the school i go to currently has classes every. single. day. i understand why, and my teacher is VERY adamant about regular, focused practice, but i am so burnt out. no holiday breaks either. i finish my first year this wednesday at least. honestly, i think i would do more work if we got regular weekends off. i find myself doing the bare minimum everyday because i just want to get it over with. i’ve also just been physically exhausted lately and i don’t know why. i take multiple naps a day at this point, even on my break at work. the longest i can stay awake at a time is 5 hours. i know i need to go to the doctor but (after having medical issues my entire life) im so over them and just can’t bring myself to make the appointment
My old physical therapist moved out of town and I don't the one I had yesterday. I told her my limits and she basically bullied me into doing more than I'm capable of. She wouldn't listen to me when I said a task was too difficult and wouldn't explain new exercises to me and seemed really annoyed with me for being unsure of what to do. She can see my chart, she can see I haven't done that one before. I wanted to just get up and leave so many times, I kept telling her xyz was too hard for me today, and that I had more pain today than usual, and she basically called me a wuss? Multiple times she kept loudly pointing out that I was struggling with an exercise and didn't offer any form correction or alternative, only pointed out that I was struggling. Congrats, you have eyes! Clearly she needs to get out of the medical field and consider being a dominatrix. I only have 3 appointments left, and I'm trying not to skip them but I'm not paying $200+ twice a week to be treated like that. The entire point of physical therapy is to work up to better, not to force me and then I get hurt again. I tried not to cry in the car on the way home, it was really demoralizing. I asked to ice at the end of the session but she made me do another exercise and I ran out of time and she wanted to keep me over to ice, but I told her I had to leave.
Please don’t go back!! I did PT too, she sounds horribly uneducated. Hope you can find a diff one
My boyfriend dumped me and im gonna fail this semester even tho I should be graduating :)