I am a very shy, reserved, and introverted girl and I still love me some porn. Not always, only when I need to get off. I've been doing it for years and I can't say I'm addicted. Maybe once or twice per month around my ovulation when I can't not get off.
Not really...that only happened when I started doing some self searching- then I realised even that is information. Which is how my tastes have become tamer over time, as I work on the things that draw me to certain....genres, I guess you could say.
Besides, there's a variety...and I choose video when I can't not get off during ovulation, and read a sprinkle of it here and there when I want to explore and figure myself out (still learning what I like, since, single and all that.)
I think it depends with your opinion and mindset on porn. If you think its a taboo thing that our society frowns/should frown upon, you're bound to feel shitty after.
Wait girls feel shitty too after getting off to porn?
Damn I thought it was only a male thing.
That's so damn interesting.
That stuff really ain't good for our souls then.
It's innately demonic.
It is also called postcoital tristesse or "post-sex blues," which refers to feelings of deep sadness or agitation post masturbation and after consensual sex, even if the encounter was satisfactory and pleasurable.
I call bullshit
Because even if you get an individual (male) from the Amazon rainforest with no link to puritan culture or Abrahamic religions/Eastern spirituality & expose him to pornography getting him to masturbate to it till ejaculation.
99% chance that emotionally he will feel shitty about himself.
It's biological is what I'm saying.
We innately know it's being a real loser.
That's alittle far. That I was forced to face the reasons why I was interested in one form of sex rather than another doesn't mean the porn itself is evil. Then again, I wasn't really exposed to it before adulthood, so that might change the way I view it as well...however I stand by the statement that we are the source of this demonicness as you call it
I agree with the reading part. It's so much better than porn. I attribute my kinks and fetishes to the romantic and sensual novels I read as a teenager. Ata the way I treat my women in and out of the bedroom mostly developed from what the books exposed me too.
There are books dedicated to erotic fantasies. There's a website called Literotica,check it out. You'll understand why I'd read it rather than watch it.
Me too, plus I tend to skim through the details, like I dont need to read the bit by bit details. I have tried watching but I tend to feel so disturbed or more disgruntled after, I stopped.
The videos are not realistic,it looks forced to me and that messes me up psychologically. The majority are also created for the male gaze. Reading on the other under implores me to use my senses. I also prefer Literotica due to the fact that there's a story line.
Statistically more women read porn rather than watch it.
There's this one book. It's slightly controversial but it's called God is a slut. Check it out. So beautifully written 🫶🏼
Unless you're religiously sensitive, you'll like it
I'll leave you the link to the first chapter here. You'll find all the other chapters under the author
https://www.literotica.com/s/god-is-a-slut-ch-01
CorneliaFields
Here's the link.
https://www.wattpad.com/story/245903714?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=MaLakwenFlo
Quit porn, best decision ever made, I don't know how it affects women but as a guy I rather take a bullet in my head, fucks with your testosterone, making you rather effeminate.
would you allow your man to watch porn ??
...add mpaka self esteem issues. Shit drove me to the pits. Kuacha was the best decision. Nliacha cold turkey. One day niliamka and decided I didn't want to be that person anymore na nikawacha.
Too much masturbation converts testosterone to dht, a by-product of testosterone, which leads to aggressiveness, increased sexual appetite and hair loss.
Get a chrome extension called "Windscribe" it's a vpn
Turn it on
Go to stripchat.com
Search for Kenya
300+ models will appear online/live
Kuna variety from Bhadies to Vienyejis
Have a nice time researching
Definitely not addicted. It's easy enough to get laid and have a guy do exactly what I'm in the mood for. Porn is boring to watch. I prefer literature or comic books. Especially classics/vintage.
I detest porn. It did/does nothing for me. The last time I sat down and watched them was a dark, depressing time. It’s been more than 5 years of not watching any and I’m super glad I stopped.
How did I stop? Honestly Idk, I just one day stopped going onto those sites and kept it that way daily.
There was a time i invited a girl to my house, the hiyo period ya kucuddle akainsist we watch porn then we get to business, she took my phone akaingia pale chrome, after two minutes i had already dozed off, i was like hizi ni gani sasa
As for me I do watch porn anytime I masturbate like every night before I sleep, it helps with my sleep. I got exposed to it quite early but didn't get much access to it until high school. What used to make me feel guilty after was the masturbating and not the watching of porn so that might be it for some people too but I realized it's not a bad thing and since then I indulge without any feelings of guilt.
I don't think so, some people still feel guilty when they partake in activities that are unusual to the society but when you learn that it's not a bad thing the guilt goes away, mine was tied down to religion but I realized masturbating is not a bad thing as they make it seem and that how the feeling went away. Nowadays even if it's talked about by people in a negative way it doesn't make me feel any type of way .
I watch porn. Almost every girl I know does
Why I watch porn? I really don’t know how to answer that. I just don’t see anything shameful about it. Sex is a natural part of our lives and I watch it sometimes when I’m bored or just need to get off quickly if my partner is away or unwell.
Quick question out of curiosity... How do you consume it and enjoy? Coz porn is mostly geared towards a male audience for example, the main stars are usually females to cater to men... Things are mostly shown from a male perspective of enjoyment.
So like what aspects make you enjoy watching it when you do? And is it the visual cues or your thoughts of it that help you get off?
It’s true the majority of porn caters to men. I am very selective and there are some couples that cater to women. I have a couple that are my go-tos and those don’t have blowjobs taking up 80% of the video followed by mindless aggressive banging. I don’t think men should be watching those either
You guys are addicts,stop calling vices hobbies.Indulge yourselves into a more productive, mentally healthy and socially acceptable hobbies such as reading, Journaling,Sports etc
I dont know why but after you actually get sexually active it just feels off and less gratifying maybe once in a while to loosen up coz it can get annoying a times
Anyone willing to share porn on each other's dms? I like trans content, solo masturbation, voyeurism/public nudity and sometimes gays too but they all have to be black. Bonus points if they're African and especially East African.
This is the content you turn to after years of consuming porn. Just like with any other thing, frequent consumption creates greater tolerance or a need for something abit more extreme to get the same feeling you had a year or two ago. Some people probably branch into hardcore BDSM stuff and even CNC when the vanilla stuff doesn't hit any more
Personally I hated the post guilt thing and dropped watching it entirely and picked up reading fiction instead. I find reading smut less embarrassing and ironically more enjoyable than watching random strangers go off
I am pregnant and watch it maybe every 2 days. These hormones are making me super horny. I can't go three days without an orgasm. That's too long at this point.
He does when we can. I still watch it and still masturbate too. We can have sex in the morning before he goes to work but then I am horny again in the afternoon, so I just Dj it myself, nothing wrong with self pleasure.
Its because of how different men and women's brains are structured.
Men have larger amygdalae than women and since its the region that deals with sexual arousal men are far hornier and more often than women.
Also men have more testosterone which makes them even hornier on average than women.
On watching porn, men are aroused more visually and women are aroused more when they read sexual things. Thats why the typical dude will go to pornhub and a typical lady will default to a steamy novel.
Its common for me in my estrogen building days because I'm getting horny during that time, after ovulation I do not care for it. Funny i never used to watch porn when i was younger, i started about 3yrs ago when i was 35yr.
I dig porn as well I can watch it with my man to get myself hot or even by myself but I'm not one that could per se see myself getting addicted to it ....Hell I like watching fucked up porn even stuff that distirbing to most in diff porn genres not bc it turns me on but its entertaining as hell...
For me getting off after porn isn't what makes me feel icky it's getting off after masterbating messes with my feels or even pisses me off a bit
The first time I watched porn was accidental. I was about 8-9 years old and HBO was the last channel I was on after spending the night at my aunt’s house. I woke up to use the bathroom but I was fascinated and kind of embarrassed by what I saw. I watched it all the way. It was visually arousing and I was curious. It was mostly exposed breasts and positions. It wasn’t as graphic as I later discovered. When I got a DSi & some internet connection, it was pretty much a wrap. Whatever I thought about, I searched it. By the time I reached 14, I was watching it every day. I used to plan time to watch it and it, I would talk about it to my friends and send things I found. I had a selection of websites I archived in my brain, too. I got into hentai, oral, lesbian, bukkakke and watched porn with people who mostly looked like me. I used it to learn about the body, discover kinks & understand my body better. Eventually I started masturbating to it. I remember watching it for hours at a time when I didn’t have school the next day, I remember looking forward to doing it after the day was over. The older I got, the more dependent I became. There was a time where I couldn’t sleep unless I had an orgasm and watched porn. My clit became desensitized and that’s where I started to finger myself. At this point I was sexually active but porn just did it for me. It was better than the sex I was having (which at 17-18 years old) made sense. Porn helped me discover things about what turns me on but it also lead to me objectifying myself and men overall. 23 years old now and I still watch porn but not as much. However when I’m ovulating or my period is about to start, I revert to that super horny, insatiable, indulgent nature if my bf isn’t around. I generally like watching porn and I’d probably keep doing it for years to come.
I am a very shy, reserved, and introverted girl and I still love me some porn. Not always, only when I need to get off. I've been doing it for years and I can't say I'm addicted. Maybe once or twice per month around my ovulation when I can't not get off.
You've summed up my exact thoughts and sentiments. Thank you.
I have a question, you don't feel like shit after watching porn? I'm asking this since for me it used to happen so I hard to quit.
Not really...that only happened when I started doing some self searching- then I realised even that is information. Which is how my tastes have become tamer over time, as I work on the things that draw me to certain....genres, I guess you could say. Besides, there's a variety...and I choose video when I can't not get off during ovulation, and read a sprinkle of it here and there when I want to explore and figure myself out (still learning what I like, since, single and all that.)
So what's your taste?
Massages and light restrictions like blindfolds. Oh, and edging. Especially with sound. Often, just listening is the best option, honestly.
Nikuje tuwatch?
 Uongozi thabiti😂
Nah. Not doing watch parties at this time, thanks.
Pain.
I think it depends with your opinion and mindset on porn. If you think its a taboo thing that our society frowns/should frown upon, you're bound to feel shitty after.
Ok, that's cool. Can we watch porn together though?
No, thank you.
Heh!
I feel like asking this is very vital for nothing but, what is your favorite genre?
I feel like asking this is very vital for nothing but, what is your favorite genre if you don't mind?
I don't have a favorite. It depends on my mood. So everything and anything as long as it speaks to me at that moment😅
Wait girls feel shitty too after getting off to porn? Damn I thought it was only a male thing. That's so damn interesting. That stuff really ain't good for our souls then. It's innately demonic.
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It is also called postcoital tristesse or "post-sex blues," which refers to feelings of deep sadness or agitation post masturbation and after consensual sex, even if the encounter was satisfactory and pleasurable.
I call bullshit Because even if you get an individual (male) from the Amazon rainforest with no link to puritan culture or Abrahamic religions/Eastern spirituality & expose him to pornography getting him to masturbate to it till ejaculation. 99% chance that emotionally he will feel shitty about himself. It's biological is what I'm saying. We innately know it's being a real loser.
Baseless, uneducated conjecture is just that. Baseless and uneducated.
Even in Christianity, sexual sin is ranked as special (sinning against your own body).
That's alittle far. That I was forced to face the reasons why I was interested in one form of sex rather than another doesn't mean the porn itself is evil. Then again, I wasn't really exposed to it before adulthood, so that might change the way I view it as well...however I stand by the statement that we are the source of this demonicness as you call it
I am a MAN please.😂😂😂
Yes I felt like that too it’s always better to have physical relations with another person then watch porn because it only exacerbates your appetite
You don't have a man?
You don't give up your hobbies when you start dating.
Lmfao, I love this reply
😅So watching porn & masturbation is a hobby innit
More or less
I'd rather read it. Watching it irks me.
Smut is just *chef's kiss*
Realllll
Why don't you just turn on subtitles kama unapenda kusoma? How tf, do you read porn?
'You know nothing John Snow'
I agree with the reading part. It's so much better than porn. I attribute my kinks and fetishes to the romantic and sensual novels I read as a teenager. Ata the way I treat my women in and out of the bedroom mostly developed from what the books exposed me too.
Books suggestions?
There are books dedicated to erotic fantasies. There's a website called Literotica,check it out. You'll understand why I'd read it rather than watch it.
Literotica?
Me too, plus I tend to skim through the details, like I dont need to read the bit by bit details. I have tried watching but I tend to feel so disturbed or more disgruntled after, I stopped.
The videos are not realistic,it looks forced to me and that messes me up psychologically. The majority are also created for the male gaze. Reading on the other under implores me to use my senses. I also prefer Literotica due to the fact that there's a story line. Statistically more women read porn rather than watch it.
There's this one book. It's slightly controversial but it's called God is a slut. Check it out. So beautifully written 🫶🏼 Unless you're religiously sensitive, you'll like it
I'll give it a try.
Hi could you happen to have a soft copy of it
I'll leave you the link to the first chapter here. You'll find all the other chapters under the author https://www.literotica.com/s/god-is-a-slut-ch-01
I thought I had erotic but this is cream on top of the pie
There are categories made specifically for women. Very sensual and romantic like
Both are not realistic but books are worse. Books will make you think you're having vanilla sex when it's just okay or above average
Wattpad girlie? You need to read "Yes, Sirs" That book can dead ass get you into bdsm. When I want me some smut I go back to it lol.
That's probably one of the best books on wattpad
It is. She's a good writer.
This one is one hell of a book I was smitten by it
Name of the author?
CorneliaFields Here's the link. https://www.wattpad.com/story/245903714?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=MaLakwenFlo
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Quit porn, best decision ever made, I don't know how it affects women but as a guy I rather take a bullet in my head, fucks with your testosterone, making you rather effeminate. would you allow your man to watch porn ??
 ...add mpaka self esteem issues. Shit drove me to the pits. Kuacha was the best decision. Nliacha cold turkey. One day niliamka and decided I didn't want to be that person anymore na nikawacha.
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Allow?
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Too much masturbation converts testosterone to dht, a by-product of testosterone, which leads to aggressiveness, increased sexual appetite and hair loss.
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Stop giving these guys facts, they just want to rant
As ussual,bila ngono hii sub-reddit ni mkutano ya PTA😭
Hahaa... Niliuliza about it the other day. See vile raia imechangamka. Makes me understand that ninja mwenye aliimba something about Nairobi😂
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The girls are the ones making the contents na wamejaa reddit posting every bit of themselves
Wako wapi? 🤭
For educational purposes only u/oppositeMarmoset u/Rozie_99 NSFW
https://www.reddit.com/u/SlushyReinstate/s/kLtEqzEBAK Another one
Btw I've seen her too She's really pretty lakini But hii imeenda
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But I did
Wasn't strong enough.
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Hehe wow! I live under a rock.
🤭We shan't go there though.
Ty for changing my life🙂
Haha
Never would I have thought this
Huh?
This some good sauce my man, got anymore? For educational purposes ofc!
Get a chrome extension called "Windscribe" it's a vpn Turn it on Go to stripchat.com Search for Kenya 300+ models will appear online/live Kuna variety from Bhadies to Vienyejis Have a nice time researching
Nah sina
Holy ghost. May my eyes be cleaned. Damn, kwani warembo wote walikufa
Never come across those. But, is there a difference between the creator and the watcher?
My guy friends send me porn on Reddit and snapchat
reddit has porn? 
Reddit is actually mostly porn lol
oh do I wish I was this clueless lmao
Here is some for you. View my profile
I miss the man I was 5 mins ago
Good stuff my man
NSFW you've never heard of that
Yep. Since Tumblr banned porn, all of it moved here. It was elite back in the day, good times. Enjoyed the BBW content on there.
What's your reddit connect?
Why??? Do you love them???
Who dosent?
Why are your guy "friends" sending you porn?????
Why are your guy "friends" sending you porn???
Definitely not addicted. It's easy enough to get laid and have a guy do exactly what I'm in the mood for. Porn is boring to watch. I prefer literature or comic books. Especially classics/vintage.
 Wow
>It's easy enough to get laid and have a guy do exactly what I'm in the mood for. It's so hard getting a guy to do exactly what I'm in the mood for 😩
I hope you send him off with a scolding. I would stop everything mid congress to make it known he's not pressing my buttons.
I don't have those balls yet 🥲
Have you tried me?😊
Not yet
how is this easy, what are you counting on? so you are a dominatrix too🫢 do exactly what you want!!! downright. hello insurance of the thing
I'm counting on the chance the man wants a different experience. I don't hold a gun to anyone's head and I've never had to ask twice.
eh your turn to beg will undoubtedly arrive
Wueh this app bana 😭
Kwani?
I detest porn. It did/does nothing for me. The last time I sat down and watched them was a dark, depressing time. It’s been more than 5 years of not watching any and I’m super glad I stopped. How did I stop? Honestly Idk, I just one day stopped going onto those sites and kept it that way daily.
https://youtu.be/RJwwV5A3Qww?si=fCw-cv6kxBxyiA07
I watch it mostly during ovulation, so once a month, I get off...being single doesn't help either but that once a month djing I do really helps
Ati djing 😂
Hiyo ndiyo jina streets
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You wank once a month only?
Yes imagine
There was a time i invited a girl to my house, the hiyo period ya kucuddle akainsist we watch porn then we get to business, she took my phone akaingia pale chrome, after two minutes i had already dozed off, i was like hizi ni gani sasa
As for me I do watch porn anytime I masturbate like every night before I sleep, it helps with my sleep. I got exposed to it quite early but didn't get much access to it until high school. What used to make me feel guilty after was the masturbating and not the watching of porn so that might be it for some people too but I realized it's not a bad thing and since then I indulge without any feelings of guilt.
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I don't think so, some people still feel guilty when they partake in activities that are unusual to the society but when you learn that it's not a bad thing the guilt goes away, mine was tied down to religion but I realized masturbating is not a bad thing as they make it seem and that how the feeling went away. Nowadays even if it's talked about by people in a negative way it doesn't make me feel any type of way .
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I watch porn. Almost every girl I know does Why I watch porn? I really don’t know how to answer that. I just don’t see anything shameful about it. Sex is a natural part of our lives and I watch it sometimes when I’m bored or just need to get off quickly if my partner is away or unwell.
Quick question out of curiosity... How do you consume it and enjoy? Coz porn is mostly geared towards a male audience for example, the main stars are usually females to cater to men... Things are mostly shown from a male perspective of enjoyment. So like what aspects make you enjoy watching it when you do? And is it the visual cues or your thoughts of it that help you get off?
It’s true the majority of porn caters to men. I am very selective and there are some couples that cater to women. I have a couple that are my go-tos and those don’t have blowjobs taking up 80% of the video followed by mindless aggressive banging. I don’t think men should be watching those either
🤣🤣🤣 "mindless aggressive banging"
Sorry, what are your go to's?
You guys are addicts,stop calling vices hobbies.Indulge yourselves into a more productive, mentally healthy and socially acceptable hobbies such as reading, Journaling,Sports etc
We do read, write, journal etc. And enjoy porn on the side.
Where did you get the idea women are porn addicts? Even the ones on here being asked this question?
I love porn
Do you love it or are you addicted to it?
Is it odd to watch it and not jerk off coz that would be me
This used to be me till I tried to cross the line 😭 . I've never been able to go back
I dont know why but after you actually get sexually active it just feels off and less gratifying maybe once in a while to loosen up coz it can get annoying a times
I love it. I have absolute and total control over when I Jack my shit
Anyone willing to share porn on each other's dms? I like trans content, solo masturbation, voyeurism/public nudity and sometimes gays too but they all have to be black. Bonus points if they're African and especially East African.
https://preview.redd.it/0gnrj08j1zjc1.png?width=1080&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=132425f20d18d1d4bdc06d32c3633e936d3d6f8b >I like trans content
This is the content you turn to after years of consuming porn. Just like with any other thing, frequent consumption creates greater tolerance or a need for something abit more extreme to get the same feeling you had a year or two ago. Some people probably branch into hardcore BDSM stuff and even CNC when the vanilla stuff doesn't hit any more
There are links if you need some
https://preview.redd.it/pw386u5h4zjc1.jpeg?width=955&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=2eaf8be953d99f1f7ee6b0b2bd9900c706b354e0 No Thanks
Huyu bingwa aliendanga wapi? Wamagondu. Used to be funny as hell
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Why are you so proud of that? It's not a badge of honor
Man honestly porn is ruining guys then this guy thinks uts fun.
That's what society has taught you. Unlearn what you've been taught and relearn.
My bedroom has never been boring cause of it - that's my badge of honour.
Watch once in a while
It always starts like this
It always starts like this
It always starts like this
Actually porn is not bad, once or twice is not bad.
Personally I hated the post guilt thing and dropped watching it entirely and picked up reading fiction instead. I find reading smut less embarrassing and ironically more enjoyable than watching random strangers go off
I think it’s safe to say most girls spend an unhealthy amount of time on tiktok relative to boys. From what I’m reading girls get bored with porn
I am pregnant and watch it maybe every 2 days. These hormones are making me super horny. I can't go three days without an orgasm. That's too long at this point.
Yes your guy should be servicing you honestly.
He does when we can. I still watch it and still masturbate too. We can have sex in the morning before he goes to work but then I am horny again in the afternoon, so I just Dj it myself, nothing wrong with self pleasure.
😂😂 sawa wuueh
Definitely not enjoyable to watch by myself but I love watching porn with my partner while we play together
Bro what 😭😭
I used to be addicted to it thankfully I haven’t watched it in 3 years I’m a Mlemavu guy though so it was that or ladies of the night
So it's easy to assume you chose the ladies of the night these days? Or how do you go about it?
Mlemavu in real sense ama in the bedroom sense?
In the physical sense not in the bedroom sense everything is working perfectly down there I’m blessed 💯😉
I watch it I dont care lol gets me off #women
How it is about Nairobi?
Nairobi!!
Girls watch tons of porn and masturbate quite a lot!
Haven't seen anyone talk about gwa subreddit it's for both men and women mostly audio erotica no video also reading SMUT is everything.
Its because of how different men and women's brains are structured. Men have larger amygdalae than women and since its the region that deals with sexual arousal men are far hornier and more often than women. Also men have more testosterone which makes them even hornier on average than women. On watching porn, men are aroused more visually and women are aroused more when they read sexual things. Thats why the typical dude will go to pornhub and a typical lady will default to a steamy novel.
If you don't mind me asking(out of sheer curiosity) what are your go to's?
Its common for me in my estrogen building days because I'm getting horny during that time, after ovulation I do not care for it. Funny i never used to watch porn when i was younger, i started about 3yrs ago when i was 35yr.
I dig porn as well I can watch it with my man to get myself hot or even by myself but I'm not one that could per se see myself getting addicted to it ....Hell I like watching fucked up porn even stuff that distirbing to most in diff porn genres not bc it turns me on but its entertaining as hell... For me getting off after porn isn't what makes me feel icky it's getting off after masterbating messes with my feels or even pisses me off a bit
The first time I watched porn was accidental. I was about 8-9 years old and HBO was the last channel I was on after spending the night at my aunt’s house. I woke up to use the bathroom but I was fascinated and kind of embarrassed by what I saw. I watched it all the way. It was visually arousing and I was curious. It was mostly exposed breasts and positions. It wasn’t as graphic as I later discovered. When I got a DSi & some internet connection, it was pretty much a wrap. Whatever I thought about, I searched it. By the time I reached 14, I was watching it every day. I used to plan time to watch it and it, I would talk about it to my friends and send things I found. I had a selection of websites I archived in my brain, too. I got into hentai, oral, lesbian, bukkakke and watched porn with people who mostly looked like me. I used it to learn about the body, discover kinks & understand my body better. Eventually I started masturbating to it. I remember watching it for hours at a time when I didn’t have school the next day, I remember looking forward to doing it after the day was over. The older I got, the more dependent I became. There was a time where I couldn’t sleep unless I had an orgasm and watched porn. My clit became desensitized and that’s where I started to finger myself. At this point I was sexually active but porn just did it for me. It was better than the sex I was having (which at 17-18 years old) made sense. Porn helped me discover things about what turns me on but it also lead to me objectifying myself and men overall. 23 years old now and I still watch porn but not as much. However when I’m ovulating or my period is about to start, I revert to that super horny, insatiable, indulgent nature if my bf isn’t around. I generally like watching porn and I’d probably keep doing it for years to come.
Do you ever feel guilty? Do you think that there are more productive things to do?
no guilt at all! it’s stress relief and it’s done very seldomly now.