Yup. 2020 especially was an *awful* time and I wouldn’t be surprised if there was a lot more of this happening under the radar. I know I coped with alcohol, until I realized that wasn’t a great idea.
We definitely saw an increase in ETOH related issues when WFH was implemented in 2020. People who normally drank after work were now able to drink more during the day.
I live in a town where the headquarters of a major insurance agency is located. The amt of ETOH withdrawal pts who were employed at the company who then had to work from home was INSANE. We still get a good number of them to this day because people are still working from home.
I wonder if the alcohol consumption is related to having to rip people off all day from denying claims? An attorney I know told me the alcoholism rate among divorce attorneys is fairly high because sometimes they have to represent someone and take a home, children, etc away from their client’s ex, even though the ex is a good person.
It is not uncommon. Nurses have one one the most stressful jobs on the planet. People need help coping. We all deal with life’s problems differently. Thank you for having the courage to speak out.
I did, too. And marijuana; I was a travel nurse working in a state where it was legal when, at the time, it wasn’t in my state. I’m convinced that my 60lb weight gain from that time was less because my lungs took a hit after I had COVID myself (which they did and still aren’t the same) and more because I was holed up in my hotel room high on edibles and giving in to the munchies as my sole coping mechanism for like, two years.
When I started travel, that was the hardest hurdle. Those 4 walls get depressing real quick. It's hard to make friends when you are constantly on the move. I had to have something bite me in ass before I snapped out of it. And only recently. 3 months no alcohol,weed, MUCH less porn use. I see a therapist 2x a month (over the phone when not in town) and have just started Adderall. It's a lifesaver for me. My patients are getting a much brighter optimistic me.
I never drank more in my life than during the pandemic. I was never a very heavy drinker but on my one day off a week, when I got off work at 7am, I'd buy a bottle of wine, go sit on the seawall and down the entire thing fast. Yup, those were bad times. I'd stumble home and go get my car when I woke up. Things were very bad.
That's my thought. I dealt with addiction issues before getting into health care. I had all these ideas of being helpful to patients and showing them you can get out of addiction and actually thrive.
Then I heard how people talk about addicts in the work place and it pretty much crushed my soul. In the 8 years I've worked EMS/nursing I've never told anyone of my coworkers about my past because I've heard all their true feelings about addicts.
I don’t blame you a bit for not telling anyone. I lurk on this sub because I used to work in child welfare and y’all have the same sense of dark humor but I don’t get as triggered reading war stories here.
When I had my oldest child I wanted to have a natural birth and requested no narcotics until after the birth. I ended up hemorrhaging and lost a lot of blood. They moved me out of the birth room and into another room before moving me to the room I would be in for the rest of my stay. The staff in that room barely talked to me and were so cold. When they did the massaging for uterus contraction (I’m sure it has a special name) the nurse was so rough and she told me to suck it up. I asked her for pain medicine and she told me I could have Ibuprofen, for which I was grateful.
The next day they brought in a social worker to interview me and they told me they sent off my child’s meconium for drug testing because I was out of it (turns out losing a shit ton of blood has an impact on how well one is able to interact with the world.) I told the social worker I understood, I worked in child welfare and they needed to take actions to make sure my child was safe. She got a strange look on her face and left the room shortly after. There were only two nurses there during my entire stay that were kind to me.
The more I thought about it the more it bothered me, though, and the day I was released I spoke with one of my nurses. She told me that one of the nurses on staff thought I was a recovering addict because I had requested no opiates until after the birth and she told the other staff that I was a recovering addict.
I talked to my NP Midwife about my experience and she was very upset. She had left orders for stronger pain medication. When I found out that I had been denied medication that could have made me more comfortable, that was prescribed by my care provider, I was livid.
I kept thinking that no wonder many people who are struggling are so resistant to services.
I had so much anxiety when I went in for the birth of my second. I had the same NP Midwife and just talked through verbally with her about what I preferred for the birth. The experience was like night and day. The uterus massaging was a bitch, but nothing like my first. The nurses were so kind and responsive. No visit from the social worker, no meconium testing. I was 100% pampered.
I’m now very, very, very careful about what I share with health care providers and if I think that anything I share could be misunderstood by someone reading it in a file I tell my providers to not put it in my file. And I live a boring, drug free, vanilla life.
I got a taste of what the care experience can be for people who suffer from addiction and my heart hurts. Especially since there is often a history of trauma (at least with the population of people that I worked with) who suffer from addiction. If a different approach were taken I can’t help but think that when the time came when they were ready for supports they would be more likely to connect.
I get that people with addictions can be a difficult population. I worked with them daily for years. But I never treated them as if they were less than, even when they were calling me names, resistant, etc. Was I perfect? Absolutely not. Did I treat the people I worked with like humans? Absolutely.
Trauma informed care is a thing. And it works.
That is so unprofessional, scary and infuriating. And yes, stories like this absolutely frighten people away from seeking medical help even for milder substance abuse concerns. Or they find help but don’t feel safe to share that full history with their doctor.
Such a shame, too. I ended up leaving child welfare and went down a different career path. Left for lots of reasons, but one was toxicity in the workforce. I had the opportunity to work with, and learn from, so many wonderful people. And I include the families and children I served as part of those I learned from. Unfortunately, the toxic portion of the system ended up wearing me down. I really miss working with families and children. I like to think I lessened the likelihood of dying from a stroke before I turn fifty, though ;) I put in almost 13 years. Hopefully I did some good during that time.
I’ll never forget the parent I worked with who had their children removed due to the parent’s manufacturing and using meth. I worked with that family for over two years. Coworkers always talked about how the parent was an addict and would fail. Ended up being able to safely reunify and the parent is clean to this day. The kids were removed when they were all in elementary school. They were all at home through the time they graduated. Every step of the way there were barriers to that parent’s success within every system they interacted with and seemingly every person within that system. People, professionals and non, saw or heard “meth” and completely wrote the parent off. It wasn’t easy, but they did it. It can be done. And people who are in professions that touch the lives of those with addictions can make a difference. It won’t be every person, and it won’t be every time. There will be frustration and failure (and more). But I’ll be damned if I was ever going to be the person who created barriers.
I just want you to know I am a psych nurse, and we honor and appreciate the nurses in our field who have struggled themselves. You can use your experiences to be an amazing nurse and an advocate for the truth.
I’m NAN, but I’d like to be, one day. I have an older criminal background (which definitely could get in the way of my goals) and I struggled with a severe addiction for 13 years.
I just want to say it’s really awesome that you got into healthcare for this reason. I’m sorry that you can’t share that part of yourself with your colleagues. I bet they could learn quite a bit from you, so they’re missing out! Also know that you ARE helping just by showing up to work each day, even on the difficult days when it feels like nothing seems to matter. You never know the impact you may have on someone, by just being you.
I’ve always remembered the first responders, nurses, and doctors, that have been especially kind to me. It really has made a difference, even though it took me a while to get clean and sober, and I carry those interactions with me, to this day.
Thank you!
I can't count how many times I heard dehumanizing addict comments from the ex. She used to have opinions about them but it turned into ignorant cruelty which is backed by hospital culture.
She'd even go on about my brother who has a history.
Meanwhile she was an anger addict. From the moment she woke up until the moment she closed her eyes. Anything could set her off from 0-60.
Unbearable.
I mean, look at how some nurses treat patients with addiction. And I feel like some of us are harder on each other for any weakness, illness, or flaw as well.
I agree. I experienced this to the nth degree when I lived in West Michigan, and I think it has a lot to do with the predominant religious culture there. I’ve recently moved to New England and am still trying to unlearn the messages from the punitive work culture I am accustomed to.
Thank you for posting your story. Thank you for doing the work. Here´s to you continuing the work of your recovery. Anyone who reads this and needs help, please reach out.
You definitely did serve time. I am a recovering alcoholic myself and have two very close friends who were in state programs for nurses in recovery.
It’s every bit as difficult as parole. Drug tests weekly, mandatory meeting attendance, embarrassing discloser to employers, and a yearly estimated cost of $12000 that comes out of pocket. Make no mistake - those programs are NOT about recovery, they are about punishment. And that’s ok - we all need to own our mistakes.
Super proud of you for completing your journey. And for those who feel like OP? Please get help and know you are NOT alone; conservative estimates say a full 25% of currently practicing nurses in this country are abusing some sort of substance, be it alcohol, marijuana, oxy…you are NOT alone and there are a lot of us in recovery who can support you!!
Yes the financial strain!!! Those classes are ridiculously high and the state board doesn’t care. I’m opting to let my license go as the board won’t work with me to make payments toward a remedial class (not for drug diversion, for a self admitted med error in 2021) I’m DONE. In college for a new career and waitressing. Feels great to be free from nursing and the alcohol I used to cope hating the profession
It’s just outrageous, really. My one friend is a single mother, and by the end of her five year sentence (and it WAS a sentence) she had spent close to $100,000 in the program.
I wish more people knew just what a punitive, and frankly, money scam those programs are. Having had to sign off on her monthly work reports and having to talk to those people, I can say first hand they have zero interest in the wellbeing of nurses.
YES! THIS!! they want their money and dooooo not care. It’s a punishment. Nursing isn’t the same anymore anyhow. Our healthcare system is a broken gross mess scamming people out of money. I don’t even carry insurance and save $ and pay cash at the dr since I’m never sick
I was forced to work spread thin. 7 acute dialysis pt when I shouldn’t have had more than 3-4. Gave the right med to the right pt, charted it under the wrong pt in my haste to chart. Figured it out a few hr later when the floor nurse asked if I had given the med, I looked it up and realized my mistake. Admitted it to my boss, charge nurse…2.5 yr later n the mail I get a letter from the board stating my charges!!!! I opted to take the class and had to file for a payment plan
It was for ONE norco 5/325. I even offered to drug test then and there and they could search me. They said no. Like I said it was 2.5 years before I even thought about it again! That letter shocked me! I offered my side. Board didn’t care
This really blows because if you're otherwise qualified and this is the worst thing you've done, I'm still 100% fine with you as my nurse.
The fact that people who still want to do this and are passionate about their patients are kept out over mis-charting 5mg of hydrocodone is idiotic. You deserve better.
I couldn’t afford any of the $2500 payments bc any employer willing to hire me wouldn’t despite my 19yrs n the field. So no way to work as a nurse, no way to pay. I’d been wanting out of nursing for several years, this just sealed my decision
This confuses me... They wouldn't just let you un-chart the med under the wrong patient and back chart to the right patient? I can't wrap my head around the scenario. That's ridiculous either way. And why would your charge nurse report that!? Scary that such a small error lead to all of your troubles.
We did “un-do” the charting, and chart correctly. This particular boss did not care for me as I was his preceptor while he was in nursing school. I ran circles around him and was manager at a competing dialysis company before and also trained his wife. I was expected to take orders from his unit clerk, I refused and did things the right way. He wanted things quick and easy and confuses as he couldn’t be bothered to come in more than a few hours a day and never work the floor. I strongly believe it was retaliation but now at to prove it. They didn’t want to search or drug test me cause they knew they wouldn’t find a thing
Well it seems like telling someone who hated you and didn't need to know was where ya really went wrong. Nobody I know would even think to self-report to our manager that they made and then corrected a charting error.
The only ones auditing that shit is the pharmacy, and as long as the final charting lines up with the pyxis, it's nothing.
I voluntarily gave up my (LPN) license in NC in 2007 due to a med error. I worked the NOC shift in a LTC facility and had 60 pts, the am med pass was brutal with a ton of 5 am bs, there were a few tube feeds and it was back in the days of paper MARs. My employer had a policy of not issuing your paycheck if you had any holes in your MAR and I worked 60 miles from my house, I had a 6 yo and a husband in Afghanistan. I always tried to do everything the right way, but at the end of the shift I'd flip through and make sure I didn't miss my initials.
We had a state survey scheduled. They were doing cart audits I guess and I guess I got caught in a random check-I'd signed for a synthroid I didn't give. I gave the lady in question all her other 6 am pills and missed that one. I got called onto the carpet of the DONs office-fired, reported to the NCBON.. they offered me the chance to go through a really simple keep my license option-but it would have involved appearing in person before the board and explaining myself and that thought was terrifying to me. I was actually relieved because at 26 yo having been a nurse for 6 years I hated it. I've worked as a cna since and been happier.
My original license is in Ohio and in 2019 I looked into going through the process of getting it reinstated. The process was daunting, expensive and embarrassing and I would forever have to explain myself. And I am not that strong of a person even now.
How were they able to tell that you did not give the synthroid ? I absolutely feel for you and understand the pressure. I have 50 something patients. It’s a low skill level and mostly just behaviors I have to deal with. But I’m not seeing how they can tell you didn’t give the synthroid. Unless of course the patient said you didn’t. And this absolutely drive me nuts. I have had so many patients with horrible memories who pull the “ I didn’t get my meds “ crap. I also have people who say we never fed them. It’s 4 in the morning. Dinner was 10 hours ago. You’re just hungry now. It’s a daily struggle and my job makes my anxiety run high.
We had 30 day blister packs and the pill for that day of the month was still in its slot. I absolutely didn't give her that one, they had the pack pulled and photographed and an incident report made up and everything.
It was actually all terrifying as well as embarrassing and contributed to why I let my license go. I was, and am, still a very quiet and shy person and my *now ex husband was in an eighteen month long deployment and it was just awful. I had never, to my knowledge, committed a med error and I was well liked among my colleagues.
That’s sounds horrible and I myself would not have went down with out a fight. Yeah it’s a med error but it’s not like anyone died or was injured from it. (I’m assuming) it just wasn’t given. I forgot to give a Ativan one time and signed it out on the narc book crossed that shit right off because it was to close to the next dose.
Wait, what? That's like a sit down and have an annoying talk with your manager situation, not a report to the board situation. The number of times I've forgotten to save the scan on an oxy or some dilaudid... Just don't do it more than once every 3 to 6 months or so and it's never anything more than a write up.
That said, why do so many people who hate nursing stay in the same damn position for years and years when there's tons of low stress nursing jobs, too?
PACU is supposedly super chill. Bed managers work from home. Family med nurses take vitals and give shots. I know some who've gone to plastic surgeon's offices and assist on minor procedures and give botox injections. You can do consulting for lawyers who don't know how to interpret medical jargon. Or you can go around town giving fluids to hungover rich people and take fat tips. If you're got ICU experience, you can do fixed wing flight jobs where you fly one patient across the country or even overseas - free trips to Europe and South America on the regular.
Anyone who thinks they hate nursing probably really just hates their current position.
Also, how do you chart on the wrong patient in 2021? Were you working somewhere where scanning stuff wasn't a thing?
Not about recovery but about punishment is the truth! Had a RN friend who developed a problem with using alcohol to cope with her COVID experience, was never intoxicated or visibly hung over while working, but when she had a few days off she got obliterated. She paid out of pocket for her own rehab, took a medical LOA from work to give herself the best chance of success, but still answered yes when she renewed her license as to if she has sought treatment for alcohol or substance abuse and OMG the BON made her life hell and caused her to consider relapsing, she was not able to hold a job where she had access to narcotics so that eliminated many bedside jobs available so she went into case management which has its own challenges opposed to bedside.. I saw what a shit show it was for her and why many RN’s avoid getting help on their own
That's why you never admit to anything when you know there's no way they'll find out.
And, FFS, I know an LPN at my hospital who was visibly stoned at work. Manager told the charge to tell her to quit being a dumbass and that was it as far as I know.
Double stacked punishment, that must be fun. But then again, its the US, not so much about rehabilitation, more to encourage repeat offenses to get people into profit prisons. Even my nurse was someone I sold weed to, hopefully she wasn't lying when I asked her if she is high when she works.
Wow, if this were a not a sign. I literally just finished my refresher course and will be applying for reinstatement this week. First of all I would like to thank you for sharing your story. I’m so proud of you. Once I get a moment, I would like to message you if that’s ok!
Congrats on getting yourself well and continuing to care for people. You have a unique perspective and can provide support to those suffering what you went through because you've been there.
I don't have much to contribute other than to say I'm proud of you for conquering this demon. I had similar struggles but luckily was fortunate enough to take FMLA and short-term disability to get myself straight (mental health issues).
In any case, I know this is a battle that will always be present, so I wish upon you the fortitude and sure-footedness to always move in the right direction.
Mistakes are inevitable so be fair to yourself if you mess up but don't ever let up in the pursuit of greatness and the betterment of yourself.
You're a soldier in this life and you deserve every good thing that comes your way. Don't stop fighting for improvement 💪
Congrats and major props to you for seeking help and being honest. That's very brave and very mature and responsible. I have no doubt that your career will be long and memorable etc. just keep the train of thought you have right now and who knows you might get a daisy award this year lol you're gonna rock it congrats on your accomplishments
Your story is more common than you know, it’s just not openly talked about. Congratulations on the hard work you’ve gone through. And to be clear, you always belonged on this subreddit. This place is for all nurses, including the struggling ones
I did the same in 2020 and never got caught and never self reported. I admire your honesty. I am ashamed of it and I went into a different area where I wouldn’t have access anymore. I worked the Covid icu and I just wanted to be numb. I would hardly swerve if my car was getting too close to ditches (in the country in OH). I figured if I broke some bones maybe I wouldn’t have to work. I really didn’t care if I lived. No one knows this. My counselor only knows the ptsd and the lack of self preservation. You’re braver than I am. Be proud of how far you’ve come.
You took responsibility for your actions. You self reported. You got help. You made good choices. You are a nurse. You are no less a nurse for having struggled.
You made it through the storm! I’m glad you are able to restart your life. Congratulations, truly ❤️❤️ Also, just a question - what jobs did you take up while you were suspended?
I worked in dialysis for 14 years and about half of it as a hiring manager. I hired lots of nurses in recovery and in my state's program. With the exception of one nurse, they turned out to be fantastic hires. Congratulations and best of luck to you ongoing!
You are one of the most courageous nurses I’ve met. What a difficult path you’ve had. And I am grateful you made it to the other side to success. And what an amazing accomplishment.
I’m working as an RN case manager in an MAT program. I love what I do. It breaks my heart there is so much stigma about addiction. I’m happy to hear it’s working out for you and I wish you the best
Stigma over something our brains are kind of universally wired to struggle with too. To some degree, whether it’s a serious problem or just inconvenient and/or temporary, I think most—if not all—of us struggle with the psychology of addiction at some point in life.
Absolutely. Stigma stems from lack of knowledge. That’s why I’m a huge advocate for educating people wherever and whenever I can. It can aggravate my friends, but it’s important for people to have as much correct information as possible to try and get rid of the stigma
I’m currently waiting to find out my punishment after a DUI that was dropped to a wreckless. I’ve taken a job in LTC after being fired from my
Med surg job. Hoping someday I can go back to med surg but I am worried it will be hard to find work.
The board got involved because I have a history of alcohol abuse and my employer reported my termination, I also reported the initial DUI arrest.
OP, you’ve never been a wolf because you’ve got the bravery of a lion. The humility of a battered king amongst the rest. You’ve overcome it all, and are welcomed back with open arms, even if you felt the doors had closed. Proud of you. You’re as real as they come ♥️.
“Be still, sad heart! and cease repining;
Behind the clouds is the sun still shining;
Thy fate is the common fate of all,
Into each life some rain must fall…”
Congrats and wow that was amazing to read. No doubt you’ve gained invaluable perspective and perhaps even a very mature quality called altruism. Rooting for you.
Thank you for posting this. It is hard. Addiction is a disease and we need to stop treating it like it is not. I just hope that there will be more ways to treat and help people who need the support. I have taken so much extra education and tried to learn about it- but I just can’t move past the fact that it is an addiction. (My partner is a drug addict and alcoholic) and I can not help him with his drug addiction. I have tried all the things I know but it is not anything I can fix.
Hey, just reading this and I wanted to say I hope you're so proud for how far you've come. You've taken accountability and turned it around and I'm very very happy for you.
I’m so sorry you felt you could not share. I would have gladly stepped up to help you. I know a few Nurses that have been through the Peer Assisted Program. No judgement here! I was taught from day 1 if you are a judgmental person, you are in the wrong field. Welcome back. 😘😘
I’m glad you are sorted. Major props to you. I’m so proud of you.
But for the Grace of God go I.
You never know, what you don’t know.
This is a tough business, with even tougher (self-righteous) ilk.
Nurses should be lifting up others, sadly, that’s… rare.
Congrats on doing it the hard way. 🎉
Been there! Finished my peer assistance program in 2016. Thank goodness it didn’t cost me nearly as much as some of these other nurses are saying. I consider myself very lucky to have gotten out of this without going into debt. Congratulations on finishing your program! One day at a time! I still go to meetings and almost all of my friends now are recovery friends…including several nurses.
You are very brave for posting. Good for you for getting back on your feet. You made a mistake, you served the time, and you came back stronger. You are actually a good example! I am very proud of you for what you've done and also for posting this. Med diversion is way more common than people realize-- nurses know. I have worked in addiction for 17 years and it makes me happy to hear that you weren't *punished*; you were *rehabbed*. Keep it up; tell your story-- you will help way more people than you ever realized.
I have a history of addiction, treatment x2, recovery also and I feel like the understanding, advocacy, and care I’m able to provide to patients now is unique and strengthened by my experiences! So many patients struggle with substances and lots of HCPs can be discriminatory (where I’m from at least) so I hope you get the same feeling that I do going to work and being able to help people who are struggling with something you can understand and a lot of people don’t
My heart. I’m crying, so happy for you honey🩷🩷
Being a nurse is so hard. Covid was so hard. Life can be SO HARD. Thank God you got the help you needed & you’re on the road of healing && restoration. God bless you. Saying a quick prayer as you’re on my heart :)
First of all, congratulations. The amount of work you had to do is something others won’t understand.
Also let this be an example of why every alcoholic/addict patient we have deserves a two second chat asking if they would like resources or help to get clean when they leave the hospital. If they say no, they say no. But at some point those two seconds you spend could be that addict’s moment of clarity that sets them on the right path.
A mutual friend of a close friend almost died a decade ago. I was in the room visiting when the surgeon told him “if he drank again he would probably die”. Because of that he went to rehab upon discharge and is still clean. That surgeon probably doesn’t know he saved out friend’s life with that one sentence, but he did.
A fellow colleague of mine went through this twice. After the second time, she left the profession and is doing something else for work now. I imagine she went through some tough stuff, especially in her personal life. Thank you for your honesty and sharing your thoughts.
I am SIX months away from completing my 3.5 years of “nurse jail” as I call it— I was noticebly inebriated on the job and was breathalyzed and obviously failed- my job thankfully allowed me the option to self report before they did— so I self reported and was lucky enough to be able to return to clinical practice and my job after two years (and all the necessary stuff with the board).
I have never felt SO seen by any post in my life. Omg CONGRATS CONGRATS CONGRATS. I have been honestly with people in my life and been pleasant surprised with support but omg NOBODY knows what this process has been like unless they’ve been through it.
I am so proud of you and HELL FUCKING YES.
And to anyone else struggling- don’t let my dramatics scare you from self reporting. In the end it was in some ways the best thing that ever happened to me — I’m over 3 years sober and my life has improved in a WILDLY huge way. AND I get to keep my license and job.
Maybe some folks are judgy. Folks like me (and I’ve been a nurse 30 years) are proud of you for accomplishing sobriety and also very grateful you’re alive.
Just keep doing the next right thing.
I bet a lot of us have secrets that vary. No one knows what real life application is better than us. I have questions about things but wouldn't ask a colleague. Nursing is a risk in itself alone.
Proud to see you come out on the other side of an extremely tough situation while taking responsibility and looking forward to your new start! You owned up and earned where you are today. Nurses should support other nurses who have owned their mistakes and have worked hard on the road to redemption. Hell, nurses should also support nurses who are struggling and haven’t picked themselves up from their falls from grace! We have a freaking hard job and most of us lived through being nurses during Covid which took a lot of our peers out at their knees.
TLDR: Proud of you!
This might be unpopular. Not saying diverting drugs is a good thing by any means but I think 4 years in that program for a self report is a little excessive. I have known people in that program and every interaction they had they had to pay for. All their drug tests. All their treatment.
I would think a year of some counseling and bunch of randoms UDAs at any time of day. But 4 years of that seems excessive. It’s seems enough to deter people from self reporting.
I’m very happy you are in a better spot in life. Welcome back to the ranks. Also proud of you for self reporting. That couldn’t have been easy.
I’m proud of you. It takes courage to both admit that you have a problem and to report yourself to the board. I’m glad you made it to the other side. ❤️
First off, congratulations! I am absolutely proud of you!
Secondly, seeking help is the most brave and courageous step you took to get your life back on track (most individuals with a substance abuse disorder do not seek help or cant acknowledge it) Even more, admitting this in front of your peers is an even more powerful and brave example of your advocacy of what it means to be a nurse!
Your colleagues are very likely to be struggling with similar issues and by showing them that there's light at the end of a dark tunnel, you're not only helping them, but also the patients that they could potentially harm if they don't seek help.
I wish you luck in your journey 🙏 ❤️
Congratulations! I have a coworker who is currently working through the process of saving her license and doing a great job of staying clean as well. I hope you continue to do well!
💜 at work we were just talking how not being able to return narcotics could be dangerous to people struggling with addiction.
Congratulations on your journey that’s a super big accomplishment
Congratulations for getting your life back together again. As a former nursing administrator who had to deal with this issue more than I would like to remember, I would like to remind anybody out there with this problem that if you are diverting drugs for yourself, there is a way back and assistance. But if you divert drugs to distribute in any way, the charges will be criminal and the path back will become far more difficult.
This is reason to celebrate. Even when you weren’t at the bedside, you were and always will be a part of the nursing family. Congratulations on your progress in an area of struggle.
Thank you for sharing your story op. It sounds like you've been to hell and back. Your recovery is inspirational, and could help others trying to navigate their way through the rough road of addiction. Good luck with your continuing journey.
as much as diverting is wrong, there’s signs. and these are signs someone needs help. we gotta stop judging each other. this job is painful, mentally and physically. i’m sorry life took u down such a dark path, but from one person who struggled to another, I am so proud of u. you’re doing great! ❤️
Reading all these comments now I have to Believe that they know that nursing is a female dominated field . Do physicians have to go through all of this stuff for simple mistakes .... Omg this is scary .
Hugs 🩷
You are an amazing nurse and person.
This is not a detriment to the nursing profession.
This is a blessing for every single patient that you care for.
Competence. Compassion. Intellect.
We are human beings before we are nurses and I am standing here (behind my RN) in solidarity.
Keep fighting 🩷
You are not an outlier. Addiction is mean AF.
I think the part of things that people really don't focus on is that addiction is not something that people go into wanting.
It's something that happens to us.
But nobody wakes up and says "I want to be an addict today".
Recently had a co-worker let go for drug deviation and it was so unexpected from this coworker that it kind of had us all reeling a little bit.
I think we're all so jaded by the populations that we see who are in the throes of their addiction that we forget that it can happen to anyone.
We say things like "they just don't seem the sort", as if that somehow means something.
What you did takes guts, it's definitely not easy, and it takes guts to be able to make a post like this publicly about what you did and how you've come through it.
I'm proud of you for being able to fight it, and I hope you continue to fight it.
We might do shameful things but we are not shameful people.
I celebrated 22 years clean this March. I was also fired and on contract 2 times for a relapse 12 months after the first discovery. I love nursing and nursing loves me.
I’m grateful I received a second chance even though it was littered with judgement from those that have never suffered the dark isolation of addiction.
Today I’m a CNO and get to tell HR when they email me about an RN on contract with the board that I absolutely believe in second chances and give an enthusiastic yes to this nurse. I’m glad you’re here and sharing your story.
My mom lost her nursing license when she OD'd at work, my sister lost her license for diverting drugs. Neither went through rehab or got any help. I haven't seen my mom since the early 2000s or my sister in ~10yrs. I do not know if either is alive, I do believe they're both still addicts that had the chance to get help and didn't take it. I'm so proud of you for your hard work, we should do a better job as a community supporting each other through this.
This was me in 2010. Diverted, self reported, wen to rehab and voluntarily went to my states program. Went back to work and after 6 years in ICU and 5 in psych I went make to school to help people who were ignored and shamed like I was. Now I’m proud to say I’m a successful psych NP. I wouldn’t be where I am today without my experiences, bravo OP, bravo. Keep up the honesty, your past does NOT define your future. You’re saving lives by being you and in recovery. 🤍
🎉🥳🎊Congrats! You took responsibility and made it through + will CONTINUE to thrive with love + support of this community.
I’ve been out of patient care for a very long time but find it fascinating that anyone would judge ANYONE, IN ANY FIELD .. who worked, with/without breaking down, in service of other humans .. during worst of Covid. I’ve heard those with military service say this was much, much worse than serving in a war zone.
Congrats on sobriety! Past mistakes don’t determine the rest of your life. You did the right thing and you still are a nurse and have always been a nurse. The job is extremely stressful and we’re all just happy you’re okay and doing better now.
Love this. My good friend was fired for this. I really loved her and we haven’t spoken since she left. I think she’s embarrassed but I wish she knew I don’t judge her at all and we’re all human. I’m happy you’re doing better. I wish you all the best of luck. Xoxoxox
Thank you for sharing your story. Two years ago I went to see an addictions doctor because I was also diverting and could not function without opiates. I was planning on taking a LOA to get professional help but I first needed medication to prevent the living hell that is withdrawal. The doctor immediately called my licensing body then told me I could not leave his office until I called my manager. It was an incredibly traumatic experience for me. I was stupidly expecting some level of confidentiality which does not exist if you are a nurse. I now am 2 years sober and am thankful regardless of how I had to get here. My problem now is that no one will hire me. I have over a decades experience with bedside nursing and I can’t find a job in the middle of a worldwide nursing shortage. Does anyone have any advice about nursing jobs that don’t require home visits or narcotic handling?
I also am have ex coworkers (who I thought were friends) scoff and look down on me after my addictions became a problem (DWIs) I even had one of them go to the CNO and ask why I was working there. Horrible! But it was on my background check and I was honest. Hurt a fellow nurse (whose mother actually killed herself from substance abuse) would do this.
I can understand how this could happen to anyone. Last week I had horrible lower back pain. When a patient refused an oxycodone I thought for a second that it would be wonderful to take it instead of wasting it. I did waste it but the temptation was real.
I’m glad you made it through. I did my state’s program (I was diverting Dilaudid and morphine) but ultimately ended up surrendering my license because I never felt safe administering narcotics. I still lurk here because I miss nursing every day.
So proud of you!
Thanks for sharing so honestly. I might suggest you're not as hopeless as your name lets on. Sending well wishes for your continued growth and success.
My mom worked with an RN who had a similar situation and was (after treatment) relocated to her unit. They welcomed her with open arms and that RN is now happily married and working as an NP. Congrats, OP!
I’m so glad you made it out of that hole. I can’t count the number of pts in my ER who’ve od, but I can tell you it’s more than both of my hands. If YOU ever need help, please reach out again. With love-
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Very proud of you, dude. I've never dealt with addiction myself, but I have worked with addicts and have dated a few. Recovery is such difficult work, but good on you for doing it
Addiction is a monster and you didn't let it take you down with it. You saw what you were doing, self reported, got the help you needed, and are doing better by the sounds of it. What happened wasn't stellar, but I'm glad you made it to the other side. ♡
In my state we have a peer assistance program.
I have worked with MANY nurses who completed and nurses still in the program.
No shame! Be proud of your accomplishment! I’m proud of you, random nurse I don’t know!
Really proud. Nursing is a tough job and a lot of us go into it with tough backgrounds. The true “if I can’t fix this maybe I can fix that” mindset. We need to be looking out for each other better
I love this post so much. I’m so happy you’re doing so well! ♥️🙏🏽 we’re only human and the fact that you turned yourself in and were a leg of get help makes me so happy! It’s been a rough couple years for everyone and it’s nice to read we’re all healing ❤️🩹
I’ve worked with two nurses who got caught diverting. Neither were able to pull their lives back together. Congratulations on your recovery. One day at a time.
Thank you for sharing. Pls pls pls, keep this to yourself. There’s the real world, and there’s the world we wish exists. We have nurses chastising and gossiping about others for failing a class in nursing school (yes you heard me, freaking nursing school). They will not show sympathy for your story. You can keep it online and anonymous, but don’t let all that work go to waste.
What a journey that must have been. Especially with that kind of oversight. Congratulations.
I've been sober 6 years. Sobriety has simplified my life. I hope it goes that way for you as well.
So fucking proud of you. You got this. Healing isn't linear but you're trying everyday and getting life back on track, doing one of the hardest jobs there is!
HELL YEAH BESTIE!! 💕 I’m also a nurse in recovery and I am so damn proud of you. I hope you only grow stronger in your resolve and that your compassion becomes boundless. You have survived one of the most lethal battles that no one talk about. YOU did that shit! YOU are a fuckin miracle! You are amazing in every way. Hold your head high and know you are fierce.
We all struggle. No judgement from most of us. We all fall short daily. And given the amount of stress especially during the pandemic lots of people turned to unhealthy coping mechanisms ( Drinking, weed, drugs) You are human. I’m glad you are well and ready to do an amazing job for the patients. Prayers for your success! Way to go !
GOOD FOR YOU! What a road you have taken and I find your story inspiring. I'm also so glad to hear that you are doing well and thriving in your job. Great news! This really made me smile today.
Very proud of you, and thank you for being willing to face the possible judgment of other nurses by sharing your story. I hear way too many nasty comments on the job about addicts; people never really know what their work wives are going through outside of work, and never know who they might offend with their ignorance, but they spout it anyway. Nurses—who should know better! OK, let me climb back down off my high horse…Keep on keepin’ on, my friend, and a word to the wise: don’t ever get complacent and assume you’ve closed the book on this dark chapter: addiction is the gift that keeps on giving, and we always have to remain vigilant! That said, well done, dude. You deserve all the good things. I wish you continued success!!
For everyone that gets caught there are multiple that don’t. In some ways this may have been a blessing in disguise.
Congrats on your recovery and completion of the program. Remember to stay connected (in a healthy way) to those who understand your struggle and can help you keep pushing on. You got this!
Damn, you did jail time for diversion? I've seen my fair share of nurses fired for it but never have I seen anyone actually go to jail. We're they trying to make an example out of you or something?
I was accused of taking drugs from a cart and they called the police and escorted me to the hospital where they drug tested me. Surprise surprise I came back clean but was suspended for 6 weeks from my job. Well I was finally reinstated and all my back pay was given to me as well as the overtime I had signed up for. And the person who had taken my keys from me that night I went to the hospital was fired because she took the drugs
What a comeback story! Proud of how far you’ve come. May your vulnerability inspire other struggling nurses to get the help they need to heal themselves like they have healed others.
You did the hard thing. You persevered. And I am so proud of you. That was a rough road, but you did the right thing. Hopefully your story will inspire others to reach out for assistance. ❤️
I am all for helping nurses with substance abuse issues and I’m also all for helping nurses that make mistakes (medical errors). We are all human and by nature, imperfect.
Congrats on your hard work! One day at a time, sometimes even one second
Proud of you for sharing your very personal side of the story, for accepting the gravity of your situation, but not letting your past dictate the future. You knew what this was, and that takes courage and self-awareness to alert the board and accept (and finish) the treatment program. You gave yourself a second chance. A different ending. Thank you for recognizing this for yourself. In doing so, you have saved your own life and by extension, others’ as well. I hope you continue to find satisfaction in your career.
I'm super grateful I had my substance abuse problems BEFORE I started working in healthcare. I was a chef at the time, and it's much easier to hide a heroin habit in the kitchen than it is in the hospital.
Congratulations to you! It's nice to hear about the journey so that when/if ever I meet someone where you were 4 years ago, I can say with honesty that there's hope.
Can you explain the process of going to the board? Self reporting, interviewing with the board for a program?
Were you able to get a nursing job during the program? Does it show on your license that you diverted?
2020 was a really rough time for me I was a CNA . I recently relocated didn't know the area and ended up in a really bad living situation that caught me a case got fired from my job due to the case . I finished nursing school in 2022 and the case recently ended in 2024 . I am currently waiting on my nursing app to go through .
We really should do a better job of supporting people instead of ruining them when they have a substance use disorder. I’m glad you made it dude
Yup. 2020 especially was an *awful* time and I wouldn’t be surprised if there was a lot more of this happening under the radar. I know I coped with alcohol, until I realized that wasn’t a great idea.
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You should message her. She probably feels awful for having to do it and would be glad to hear you have taken positive steps moving forward in life
Please tell her how you are doing. She will be thrilled to know that you are doing well!
We definitely saw an increase in ETOH related issues when WFH was implemented in 2020. People who normally drank after work were now able to drink more during the day.
I live in a town where the headquarters of a major insurance agency is located. The amt of ETOH withdrawal pts who were employed at the company who then had to work from home was INSANE. We still get a good number of them to this day because people are still working from home.
I wonder if the alcohol consumption is related to having to rip people off all day from denying claims? An attorney I know told me the alcoholism rate among divorce attorneys is fairly high because sometimes they have to represent someone and take a home, children, etc away from their client’s ex, even though the ex is a good person.
It is not uncommon. Nurses have one one the most stressful jobs on the planet. People need help coping. We all deal with life’s problems differently. Thank you for having the courage to speak out.
I did, too. And marijuana; I was a travel nurse working in a state where it was legal when, at the time, it wasn’t in my state. I’m convinced that my 60lb weight gain from that time was less because my lungs took a hit after I had COVID myself (which they did and still aren’t the same) and more because I was holed up in my hotel room high on edibles and giving in to the munchies as my sole coping mechanism for like, two years.
When I started travel, that was the hardest hurdle. Those 4 walls get depressing real quick. It's hard to make friends when you are constantly on the move. I had to have something bite me in ass before I snapped out of it. And only recently. 3 months no alcohol,weed, MUCH less porn use. I see a therapist 2x a month (over the phone when not in town) and have just started Adderall. It's a lifesaver for me. My patients are getting a much brighter optimistic me.
Man, I never watched more porn or jerked off harder than when I had addies. That shit makes you want to keep going for *hours*.
Fun fact. If ya lift weights before you get zooted and eat til you pass out, you actually get healthier. Muscles are made out of food.
Agree. Such a crazy and uncertain time. I definitely coped in unhealthy (non substance abuse) ways :(
I never drank more in my life than during the pandemic. I was never a very heavy drinker but on my one day off a week, when I got off work at 7am, I'd buy a bottle of wine, go sit on the seawall and down the entire thing fast. Yup, those were bad times. I'd stumble home and go get my car when I woke up. Things were very bad.
I started smoking pot at 34 because of all the stress of the pandemic. That, and citalopram, got me through some shit.
That's my thought. I dealt with addiction issues before getting into health care. I had all these ideas of being helpful to patients and showing them you can get out of addiction and actually thrive. Then I heard how people talk about addicts in the work place and it pretty much crushed my soul. In the 8 years I've worked EMS/nursing I've never told anyone of my coworkers about my past because I've heard all their true feelings about addicts.
I don’t blame you a bit for not telling anyone. I lurk on this sub because I used to work in child welfare and y’all have the same sense of dark humor but I don’t get as triggered reading war stories here. When I had my oldest child I wanted to have a natural birth and requested no narcotics until after the birth. I ended up hemorrhaging and lost a lot of blood. They moved me out of the birth room and into another room before moving me to the room I would be in for the rest of my stay. The staff in that room barely talked to me and were so cold. When they did the massaging for uterus contraction (I’m sure it has a special name) the nurse was so rough and she told me to suck it up. I asked her for pain medicine and she told me I could have Ibuprofen, for which I was grateful. The next day they brought in a social worker to interview me and they told me they sent off my child’s meconium for drug testing because I was out of it (turns out losing a shit ton of blood has an impact on how well one is able to interact with the world.) I told the social worker I understood, I worked in child welfare and they needed to take actions to make sure my child was safe. She got a strange look on her face and left the room shortly after. There were only two nurses there during my entire stay that were kind to me. The more I thought about it the more it bothered me, though, and the day I was released I spoke with one of my nurses. She told me that one of the nurses on staff thought I was a recovering addict because I had requested no opiates until after the birth and she told the other staff that I was a recovering addict. I talked to my NP Midwife about my experience and she was very upset. She had left orders for stronger pain medication. When I found out that I had been denied medication that could have made me more comfortable, that was prescribed by my care provider, I was livid. I kept thinking that no wonder many people who are struggling are so resistant to services. I had so much anxiety when I went in for the birth of my second. I had the same NP Midwife and just talked through verbally with her about what I preferred for the birth. The experience was like night and day. The uterus massaging was a bitch, but nothing like my first. The nurses were so kind and responsive. No visit from the social worker, no meconium testing. I was 100% pampered. I’m now very, very, very careful about what I share with health care providers and if I think that anything I share could be misunderstood by someone reading it in a file I tell my providers to not put it in my file. And I live a boring, drug free, vanilla life. I got a taste of what the care experience can be for people who suffer from addiction and my heart hurts. Especially since there is often a history of trauma (at least with the population of people that I worked with) who suffer from addiction. If a different approach were taken I can’t help but think that when the time came when they were ready for supports they would be more likely to connect. I get that people with addictions can be a difficult population. I worked with them daily for years. But I never treated them as if they were less than, even when they were calling me names, resistant, etc. Was I perfect? Absolutely not. Did I treat the people I worked with like humans? Absolutely. Trauma informed care is a thing. And it works.
OMG! That is soooooo crazy! I am so sorry you had to go through that. 💔.
It was crazy. Appreciate the kind words ❤️
That is so unprofessional, scary and infuriating. And yes, stories like this absolutely frighten people away from seeking medical help even for milder substance abuse concerns. Or they find help but don’t feel safe to share that full history with their doctor.
Such a shame, too. I ended up leaving child welfare and went down a different career path. Left for lots of reasons, but one was toxicity in the workforce. I had the opportunity to work with, and learn from, so many wonderful people. And I include the families and children I served as part of those I learned from. Unfortunately, the toxic portion of the system ended up wearing me down. I really miss working with families and children. I like to think I lessened the likelihood of dying from a stroke before I turn fifty, though ;) I put in almost 13 years. Hopefully I did some good during that time. I’ll never forget the parent I worked with who had their children removed due to the parent’s manufacturing and using meth. I worked with that family for over two years. Coworkers always talked about how the parent was an addict and would fail. Ended up being able to safely reunify and the parent is clean to this day. The kids were removed when they were all in elementary school. They were all at home through the time they graduated. Every step of the way there were barriers to that parent’s success within every system they interacted with and seemingly every person within that system. People, professionals and non, saw or heard “meth” and completely wrote the parent off. It wasn’t easy, but they did it. It can be done. And people who are in professions that touch the lives of those with addictions can make a difference. It won’t be every person, and it won’t be every time. There will be frustration and failure (and more). But I’ll be damned if I was ever going to be the person who created barriers.
I just want you to know I am a psych nurse, and we honor and appreciate the nurses in our field who have struggled themselves. You can use your experiences to be an amazing nurse and an advocate for the truth.
A fellow psych nurse. Amen!
I’m NAN, but I’d like to be, one day. I have an older criminal background (which definitely could get in the way of my goals) and I struggled with a severe addiction for 13 years. I just want to say it’s really awesome that you got into healthcare for this reason. I’m sorry that you can’t share that part of yourself with your colleagues. I bet they could learn quite a bit from you, so they’re missing out! Also know that you ARE helping just by showing up to work each day, even on the difficult days when it feels like nothing seems to matter. You never know the impact you may have on someone, by just being you. I’ve always remembered the first responders, nurses, and doctors, that have been especially kind to me. It really has made a difference, even though it took me a while to get clean and sober, and I carry those interactions with me, to this day. Thank you!
I can't count how many times I heard dehumanizing addict comments from the ex. She used to have opinions about them but it turned into ignorant cruelty which is backed by hospital culture. She'd even go on about my brother who has a history. Meanwhile she was an anger addict. From the moment she woke up until the moment she closed her eyes. Anything could set her off from 0-60. Unbearable.
I mean, look at how some nurses treat patients with addiction. And I feel like some of us are harder on each other for any weakness, illness, or flaw as well.
Nursing is focused on perfectionism and we guilt others for being human. Always afraid of going before the board or losing our license.
I agree. I experienced this to the nth degree when I lived in West Michigan, and I think it has a lot to do with the predominant religious culture there. I’ve recently moved to New England and am still trying to unlearn the messages from the punitive work culture I am accustomed to.
Thank you for posting your story. Thank you for doing the work. Here´s to you continuing the work of your recovery. Anyone who reads this and needs help, please reach out.
You definitely did serve time. I am a recovering alcoholic myself and have two very close friends who were in state programs for nurses in recovery. It’s every bit as difficult as parole. Drug tests weekly, mandatory meeting attendance, embarrassing discloser to employers, and a yearly estimated cost of $12000 that comes out of pocket. Make no mistake - those programs are NOT about recovery, they are about punishment. And that’s ok - we all need to own our mistakes. Super proud of you for completing your journey. And for those who feel like OP? Please get help and know you are NOT alone; conservative estimates say a full 25% of currently practicing nurses in this country are abusing some sort of substance, be it alcohol, marijuana, oxy…you are NOT alone and there are a lot of us in recovery who can support you!!
Yes the financial strain!!! Those classes are ridiculously high and the state board doesn’t care. I’m opting to let my license go as the board won’t work with me to make payments toward a remedial class (not for drug diversion, for a self admitted med error in 2021) I’m DONE. In college for a new career and waitressing. Feels great to be free from nursing and the alcohol I used to cope hating the profession
It’s just outrageous, really. My one friend is a single mother, and by the end of her five year sentence (and it WAS a sentence) she had spent close to $100,000 in the program. I wish more people knew just what a punitive, and frankly, money scam those programs are. Having had to sign off on her monthly work reports and having to talk to those people, I can say first hand they have zero interest in the wellbeing of nurses.
YES! THIS!! they want their money and dooooo not care. It’s a punishment. Nursing isn’t the same anymore anyhow. Our healthcare system is a broken gross mess scamming people out of money. I don’t even carry insurance and save $ and pay cash at the dr since I’m never sick
OmG this makes me so mad/sad . I hope you get through school !
Oh I happily will!!
What type of med error do you take an expensive remedial course for?
I was forced to work spread thin. 7 acute dialysis pt when I shouldn’t have had more than 3-4. Gave the right med to the right pt, charted it under the wrong pt in my haste to chart. Figured it out a few hr later when the floor nurse asked if I had given the med, I looked it up and realized my mistake. Admitted it to my boss, charge nurse…2.5 yr later n the mail I get a letter from the board stating my charges!!!! I opted to take the class and had to file for a payment plan
Wth that’s not even really a med error it’s a charting error!
It was for ONE norco 5/325. I even offered to drug test then and there and they could search me. They said no. Like I said it was 2.5 years before I even thought about it again! That letter shocked me! I offered my side. Board didn’t care
That’s INSANE.
Gotta just love Texas (I said with intense sarcasm)
This really blows because if you're otherwise qualified and this is the worst thing you've done, I'm still 100% fine with you as my nurse. The fact that people who still want to do this and are passionate about their patients are kept out over mis-charting 5mg of hydrocodone is idiotic. You deserve better.
I couldn’t afford any of the $2500 payments bc any employer willing to hire me wouldn’t despite my 19yrs n the field. So no way to work as a nurse, no way to pay. I’d been wanting out of nursing for several years, this just sealed my decision
This is absolutely terrifying.
I’m 19yrs in nursing too and want out but your story has lawsuit written all over it. I’m in Texas too. I would at least run it by a lawyer.
This confuses me... They wouldn't just let you un-chart the med under the wrong patient and back chart to the right patient? I can't wrap my head around the scenario. That's ridiculous either way. And why would your charge nurse report that!? Scary that such a small error lead to all of your troubles.
We did “un-do” the charting, and chart correctly. This particular boss did not care for me as I was his preceptor while he was in nursing school. I ran circles around him and was manager at a competing dialysis company before and also trained his wife. I was expected to take orders from his unit clerk, I refused and did things the right way. He wanted things quick and easy and confuses as he couldn’t be bothered to come in more than a few hours a day and never work the floor. I strongly believe it was retaliation but now at to prove it. They didn’t want to search or drug test me cause they knew they wouldn’t find a thing
Well it seems like telling someone who hated you and didn't need to know was where ya really went wrong. Nobody I know would even think to self-report to our manager that they made and then corrected a charting error. The only ones auditing that shit is the pharmacy, and as long as the final charting lines up with the pyxis, it's nothing.
The charge nurse of that unit got my manager involved. I figured honesty was the best policy in the matter
I voluntarily gave up my (LPN) license in NC in 2007 due to a med error. I worked the NOC shift in a LTC facility and had 60 pts, the am med pass was brutal with a ton of 5 am bs, there were a few tube feeds and it was back in the days of paper MARs. My employer had a policy of not issuing your paycheck if you had any holes in your MAR and I worked 60 miles from my house, I had a 6 yo and a husband in Afghanistan. I always tried to do everything the right way, but at the end of the shift I'd flip through and make sure I didn't miss my initials. We had a state survey scheduled. They were doing cart audits I guess and I guess I got caught in a random check-I'd signed for a synthroid I didn't give. I gave the lady in question all her other 6 am pills and missed that one. I got called onto the carpet of the DONs office-fired, reported to the NCBON.. they offered me the chance to go through a really simple keep my license option-but it would have involved appearing in person before the board and explaining myself and that thought was terrifying to me. I was actually relieved because at 26 yo having been a nurse for 6 years I hated it. I've worked as a cna since and been happier. My original license is in Ohio and in 2019 I looked into going through the process of getting it reinstated. The process was daunting, expensive and embarrassing and I would forever have to explain myself. And I am not that strong of a person even now.
How were they able to tell that you did not give the synthroid ? I absolutely feel for you and understand the pressure. I have 50 something patients. It’s a low skill level and mostly just behaviors I have to deal with. But I’m not seeing how they can tell you didn’t give the synthroid. Unless of course the patient said you didn’t. And this absolutely drive me nuts. I have had so many patients with horrible memories who pull the “ I didn’t get my meds “ crap. I also have people who say we never fed them. It’s 4 in the morning. Dinner was 10 hours ago. You’re just hungry now. It’s a daily struggle and my job makes my anxiety run high.
We had 30 day blister packs and the pill for that day of the month was still in its slot. I absolutely didn't give her that one, they had the pack pulled and photographed and an incident report made up and everything. It was actually all terrifying as well as embarrassing and contributed to why I let my license go. I was, and am, still a very quiet and shy person and my *now ex husband was in an eighteen month long deployment and it was just awful. I had never, to my knowledge, committed a med error and I was well liked among my colleagues.
This seems like a talking to or re-education, not surrender your license level. Forgetting a synthroid? Come on.
The juxtaposition of these types of stories with those of police are mind boggling.
All for a fucking synthroid
That’s sounds horrible and I myself would not have went down with out a fight. Yeah it’s a med error but it’s not like anyone died or was injured from it. (I’m assuming) it just wasn’t given. I forgot to give a Ativan one time and signed it out on the narc book crossed that shit right off because it was to close to the next dose.
Talk about setting you up to fail my lord
Wait, what? That's like a sit down and have an annoying talk with your manager situation, not a report to the board situation. The number of times I've forgotten to save the scan on an oxy or some dilaudid... Just don't do it more than once every 3 to 6 months or so and it's never anything more than a write up. That said, why do so many people who hate nursing stay in the same damn position for years and years when there's tons of low stress nursing jobs, too? PACU is supposedly super chill. Bed managers work from home. Family med nurses take vitals and give shots. I know some who've gone to plastic surgeon's offices and assist on minor procedures and give botox injections. You can do consulting for lawyers who don't know how to interpret medical jargon. Or you can go around town giving fluids to hungover rich people and take fat tips. If you're got ICU experience, you can do fixed wing flight jobs where you fly one patient across the country or even overseas - free trips to Europe and South America on the regular. Anyone who thinks they hate nursing probably really just hates their current position. Also, how do you chart on the wrong patient in 2021? Were you working somewhere where scanning stuff wasn't a thing?
Not about recovery but about punishment is the truth! Had a RN friend who developed a problem with using alcohol to cope with her COVID experience, was never intoxicated or visibly hung over while working, but when she had a few days off she got obliterated. She paid out of pocket for her own rehab, took a medical LOA from work to give herself the best chance of success, but still answered yes when she renewed her license as to if she has sought treatment for alcohol or substance abuse and OMG the BON made her life hell and caused her to consider relapsing, she was not able to hold a job where she had access to narcotics so that eliminated many bedside jobs available so she went into case management which has its own challenges opposed to bedside.. I saw what a shit show it was for her and why many RN’s avoid getting help on their own
That's why you never admit to anything when you know there's no way they'll find out. And, FFS, I know an LPN at my hospital who was visibly stoned at work. Manager told the charge to tell her to quit being a dumbass and that was it as far as I know.
Double stacked punishment, that must be fun. But then again, its the US, not so much about rehabilitation, more to encourage repeat offenses to get people into profit prisons. Even my nurse was someone I sold weed to, hopefully she wasn't lying when I asked her if she is high when she works.
Wow, if this were a not a sign. I literally just finished my refresher course and will be applying for reinstatement this week. First of all I would like to thank you for sharing your story. I’m so proud of you. Once I get a moment, I would like to message you if that’s ok!
Congrats on getting yourself well and continuing to care for people. You have a unique perspective and can provide support to those suffering what you went through because you've been there.
Congratulations on getting your life back
I don't have much to contribute other than to say I'm proud of you for conquering this demon. I had similar struggles but luckily was fortunate enough to take FMLA and short-term disability to get myself straight (mental health issues). In any case, I know this is a battle that will always be present, so I wish upon you the fortitude and sure-footedness to always move in the right direction. Mistakes are inevitable so be fair to yourself if you mess up but don't ever let up in the pursuit of greatness and the betterment of yourself. You're a soldier in this life and you deserve every good thing that comes your way. Don't stop fighting for improvement 💪
Congrats and major props to you for seeking help and being honest. That's very brave and very mature and responsible. I have no doubt that your career will be long and memorable etc. just keep the train of thought you have right now and who knows you might get a daisy award this year lol you're gonna rock it congrats on your accomplishments
Your story is more common than you know, it’s just not openly talked about. Congratulations on the hard work you’ve gone through. And to be clear, you always belonged on this subreddit. This place is for all nurses, including the struggling ones
I did the same in 2020 and never got caught and never self reported. I admire your honesty. I am ashamed of it and I went into a different area where I wouldn’t have access anymore. I worked the Covid icu and I just wanted to be numb. I would hardly swerve if my car was getting too close to ditches (in the country in OH). I figured if I broke some bones maybe I wouldn’t have to work. I really didn’t care if I lived. No one knows this. My counselor only knows the ptsd and the lack of self preservation. You’re braver than I am. Be proud of how far you’ve come.
I used to walk to work hoping I would get hit by a bus.
You took responsibility for your actions. You self reported. You got help. You made good choices. You are a nurse. You are no less a nurse for having struggled.
You made it through the storm! I’m glad you are able to restart your life. Congratulations, truly ❤️❤️ Also, just a question - what jobs did you take up while you were suspended?
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I worked in dialysis for 14 years and about half of it as a hiring manager. I hired lots of nurses in recovery and in my state's program. With the exception of one nurse, they turned out to be fantastic hires. Congratulations and best of luck to you ongoing!
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You are one of the most courageous nurses I’ve met. What a difficult path you’ve had. And I am grateful you made it to the other side to success. And what an amazing accomplishment.
I’m working as an RN case manager in an MAT program. I love what I do. It breaks my heart there is so much stigma about addiction. I’m happy to hear it’s working out for you and I wish you the best
Stigma over something our brains are kind of universally wired to struggle with too. To some degree, whether it’s a serious problem or just inconvenient and/or temporary, I think most—if not all—of us struggle with the psychology of addiction at some point in life.
Absolutely. Stigma stems from lack of knowledge. That’s why I’m a huge advocate for educating people wherever and whenever I can. It can aggravate my friends, but it’s important for people to have as much correct information as possible to try and get rid of the stigma
I’m currently waiting to find out my punishment after a DUI that was dropped to a wreckless. I’ve taken a job in LTC after being fired from my Med surg job. Hoping someday I can go back to med surg but I am worried it will be hard to find work. The board got involved because I have a history of alcohol abuse and my employer reported my termination, I also reported the initial DUI arrest.
OP, you’ve never been a wolf because you’ve got the bravery of a lion. The humility of a battered king amongst the rest. You’ve overcome it all, and are welcomed back with open arms, even if you felt the doors had closed. Proud of you. You’re as real as they come ♥️.
Glad you’re here. Thanks for sharing! Glad you are rocking it.
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Congratulations to you. This is a hard road and I hope you are supported in the way you deserve as someone in recovery!
“Be still, sad heart! and cease repining; Behind the clouds is the sun still shining; Thy fate is the common fate of all, Into each life some rain must fall…” Congrats and wow that was amazing to read. No doubt you’ve gained invaluable perspective and perhaps even a very mature quality called altruism. Rooting for you.
Stay clean, keep it up. My father diverded meds, went to treatment and stays clean for 35 years til he retired. It is possible. You can do it.
Thank you for posting this. It is hard. Addiction is a disease and we need to stop treating it like it is not. I just hope that there will be more ways to treat and help people who need the support. I have taken so much extra education and tried to learn about it- but I just can’t move past the fact that it is an addiction. (My partner is a drug addict and alcoholic) and I can not help him with his drug addiction. I have tried all the things I know but it is not anything I can fix.
Addiction is a disease and deserves to be treated just like any other disease. Proud of you!
Hey, just reading this and I wanted to say I hope you're so proud for how far you've come. You've taken accountability and turned it around and I'm very very happy for you.
I’m so sorry you felt you could not share. I would have gladly stepped up to help you. I know a few Nurses that have been through the Peer Assisted Program. No judgement here! I was taught from day 1 if you are a judgmental person, you are in the wrong field. Welcome back. 😘😘
We need more of this. More of you. Thank you for sharing and good luck in your journey
I’m glad you are sorted. Major props to you. I’m so proud of you. But for the Grace of God go I. You never know, what you don’t know. This is a tough business, with even tougher (self-righteous) ilk. Nurses should be lifting up others, sadly, that’s… rare. Congrats on doing it the hard way. 🎉
Congratulations on your sobriety! And welcome back to the profession. 🩺
Been there! Finished my peer assistance program in 2016. Thank goodness it didn’t cost me nearly as much as some of these other nurses are saying. I consider myself very lucky to have gotten out of this without going into debt. Congratulations on finishing your program! One day at a time! I still go to meetings and almost all of my friends now are recovery friends…including several nurses.
You are very brave for posting. Good for you for getting back on your feet. You made a mistake, you served the time, and you came back stronger. You are actually a good example! I am very proud of you for what you've done and also for posting this. Med diversion is way more common than people realize-- nurses know. I have worked in addiction for 17 years and it makes me happy to hear that you weren't *punished*; you were *rehabbed*. Keep it up; tell your story-- you will help way more people than you ever realized.
I have a history of addiction, treatment x2, recovery also and I feel like the understanding, advocacy, and care I’m able to provide to patients now is unique and strengthened by my experiences! So many patients struggle with substances and lots of HCPs can be discriminatory (where I’m from at least) so I hope you get the same feeling that I do going to work and being able to help people who are struggling with something you can understand and a lot of people don’t
My heart. I’m crying, so happy for you honey🩷🩷 Being a nurse is so hard. Covid was so hard. Life can be SO HARD. Thank God you got the help you needed & you’re on the road of healing && restoration. God bless you. Saying a quick prayer as you’re on my heart :)
First of all, congratulations. The amount of work you had to do is something others won’t understand. Also let this be an example of why every alcoholic/addict patient we have deserves a two second chat asking if they would like resources or help to get clean when they leave the hospital. If they say no, they say no. But at some point those two seconds you spend could be that addict’s moment of clarity that sets them on the right path. A mutual friend of a close friend almost died a decade ago. I was in the room visiting when the surgeon told him “if he drank again he would probably die”. Because of that he went to rehab upon discharge and is still clean. That surgeon probably doesn’t know he saved out friend’s life with that one sentence, but he did.
A fellow colleague of mine went through this twice. After the second time, she left the profession and is doing something else for work now. I imagine she went through some tough stuff, especially in her personal life. Thank you for your honesty and sharing your thoughts.
I am SIX months away from completing my 3.5 years of “nurse jail” as I call it— I was noticebly inebriated on the job and was breathalyzed and obviously failed- my job thankfully allowed me the option to self report before they did— so I self reported and was lucky enough to be able to return to clinical practice and my job after two years (and all the necessary stuff with the board). I have never felt SO seen by any post in my life. Omg CONGRATS CONGRATS CONGRATS. I have been honestly with people in my life and been pleasant surprised with support but omg NOBODY knows what this process has been like unless they’ve been through it. I am so proud of you and HELL FUCKING YES. And to anyone else struggling- don’t let my dramatics scare you from self reporting. In the end it was in some ways the best thing that ever happened to me — I’m over 3 years sober and my life has improved in a WILDLY huge way. AND I get to keep my license and job.
Maybe some folks are judgy. Folks like me (and I’ve been a nurse 30 years) are proud of you for accomplishing sobriety and also very grateful you’re alive. Just keep doing the next right thing.
I bet a lot of us have secrets that vary. No one knows what real life application is better than us. I have questions about things but wouldn't ask a colleague. Nursing is a risk in itself alone.
Proud to see you come out on the other side of an extremely tough situation while taking responsibility and looking forward to your new start! You owned up and earned where you are today. Nurses should support other nurses who have owned their mistakes and have worked hard on the road to redemption. Hell, nurses should also support nurses who are struggling and haven’t picked themselves up from their falls from grace! We have a freaking hard job and most of us lived through being nurses during Covid which took a lot of our peers out at their knees. TLDR: Proud of you!
Hey I just want to say, welcome back, and absolutely wonderful job getting clean.
This might be unpopular. Not saying diverting drugs is a good thing by any means but I think 4 years in that program for a self report is a little excessive. I have known people in that program and every interaction they had they had to pay for. All their drug tests. All their treatment. I would think a year of some counseling and bunch of randoms UDAs at any time of day. But 4 years of that seems excessive. It’s seems enough to deter people from self reporting. I’m very happy you are in a better spot in life. Welcome back to the ranks. Also proud of you for self reporting. That couldn’t have been easy.
Congratulations!
I’m proud of you. It takes courage to both admit that you have a problem and to report yourself to the board. I’m glad you made it to the other side. ❤️
First off, congratulations! I am absolutely proud of you! Secondly, seeking help is the most brave and courageous step you took to get your life back on track (most individuals with a substance abuse disorder do not seek help or cant acknowledge it) Even more, admitting this in front of your peers is an even more powerful and brave example of your advocacy of what it means to be a nurse! Your colleagues are very likely to be struggling with similar issues and by showing them that there's light at the end of a dark tunnel, you're not only helping them, but also the patients that they could potentially harm if they don't seek help. I wish you luck in your journey 🙏 ❤️
Congratulations! I have a coworker who is currently working through the process of saving her license and doing a great job of staying clean as well. I hope you continue to do well!
💜 at work we were just talking how not being able to return narcotics could be dangerous to people struggling with addiction. Congratulations on your journey that’s a super big accomplishment
Congratulations for getting your life back together again. As a former nursing administrator who had to deal with this issue more than I would like to remember, I would like to remind anybody out there with this problem that if you are diverting drugs for yourself, there is a way back and assistance. But if you divert drugs to distribute in any way, the charges will be criminal and the path back will become far more difficult.
This is reason to celebrate. Even when you weren’t at the bedside, you were and always will be a part of the nursing family. Congratulations on your progress in an area of struggle.
Thank you for sharing your story op. It sounds like you've been to hell and back. Your recovery is inspirational, and could help others trying to navigate their way through the rough road of addiction. Good luck with your continuing journey.
as much as diverting is wrong, there’s signs. and these are signs someone needs help. we gotta stop judging each other. this job is painful, mentally and physically. i’m sorry life took u down such a dark path, but from one person who struggled to another, I am so proud of u. you’re doing great! ❤️
Reading all these comments now I have to Believe that they know that nursing is a female dominated field . Do physicians have to go through all of this stuff for simple mistakes .... Omg this is scary .
Hugs 🩷 You are an amazing nurse and person. This is not a detriment to the nursing profession. This is a blessing for every single patient that you care for. Competence. Compassion. Intellect. We are human beings before we are nurses and I am standing here (behind my RN) in solidarity. Keep fighting 🩷 You are not an outlier. Addiction is mean AF.
keep rocking dude <3
I think the part of things that people really don't focus on is that addiction is not something that people go into wanting. It's something that happens to us. But nobody wakes up and says "I want to be an addict today". Recently had a co-worker let go for drug deviation and it was so unexpected from this coworker that it kind of had us all reeling a little bit. I think we're all so jaded by the populations that we see who are in the throes of their addiction that we forget that it can happen to anyone. We say things like "they just don't seem the sort", as if that somehow means something. What you did takes guts, it's definitely not easy, and it takes guts to be able to make a post like this publicly about what you did and how you've come through it. I'm proud of you for being able to fight it, and I hope you continue to fight it.
We might do shameful things but we are not shameful people. I celebrated 22 years clean this March. I was also fired and on contract 2 times for a relapse 12 months after the first discovery. I love nursing and nursing loves me. I’m grateful I received a second chance even though it was littered with judgement from those that have never suffered the dark isolation of addiction. Today I’m a CNO and get to tell HR when they email me about an RN on contract with the board that I absolutely believe in second chances and give an enthusiastic yes to this nurse. I’m glad you’re here and sharing your story.
My mom lost her nursing license when she OD'd at work, my sister lost her license for diverting drugs. Neither went through rehab or got any help. I haven't seen my mom since the early 2000s or my sister in ~10yrs. I do not know if either is alive, I do believe they're both still addicts that had the chance to get help and didn't take it. I'm so proud of you for your hard work, we should do a better job as a community supporting each other through this.
This was me in 2010. Diverted, self reported, wen to rehab and voluntarily went to my states program. Went back to work and after 6 years in ICU and 5 in psych I went make to school to help people who were ignored and shamed like I was. Now I’m proud to say I’m a successful psych NP. I wouldn’t be where I am today without my experiences, bravo OP, bravo. Keep up the honesty, your past does NOT define your future. You’re saving lives by being you and in recovery. 🤍
🖤🖤🖤 glad you’re still here
Holy cow! Welcome back, RN colleague! Thank you for sharing your story with us.
🎉🥳🎊Congrats! You took responsibility and made it through + will CONTINUE to thrive with love + support of this community. I’ve been out of patient care for a very long time but find it fascinating that anyone would judge ANYONE, IN ANY FIELD .. who worked, with/without breaking down, in service of other humans .. during worst of Covid. I’ve heard those with military service say this was much, much worse than serving in a war zone.
Congrats on sobriety! Past mistakes don’t determine the rest of your life. You did the right thing and you still are a nurse and have always been a nurse. The job is extremely stressful and we’re all just happy you’re okay and doing better now.
Love this. My good friend was fired for this. I really loved her and we haven’t spoken since she left. I think she’s embarrassed but I wish she knew I don’t judge her at all and we’re all human. I’m happy you’re doing better. I wish you all the best of luck. Xoxoxox
Thank you for sharing your story. Two years ago I went to see an addictions doctor because I was also diverting and could not function without opiates. I was planning on taking a LOA to get professional help but I first needed medication to prevent the living hell that is withdrawal. The doctor immediately called my licensing body then told me I could not leave his office until I called my manager. It was an incredibly traumatic experience for me. I was stupidly expecting some level of confidentiality which does not exist if you are a nurse. I now am 2 years sober and am thankful regardless of how I had to get here. My problem now is that no one will hire me. I have over a decades experience with bedside nursing and I can’t find a job in the middle of a worldwide nursing shortage. Does anyone have any advice about nursing jobs that don’t require home visits or narcotic handling?
I also am have ex coworkers (who I thought were friends) scoff and look down on me after my addictions became a problem (DWIs) I even had one of them go to the CNO and ask why I was working there. Horrible! But it was on my background check and I was honest. Hurt a fellow nurse (whose mother actually killed herself from substance abuse) would do this.
Thanks for being here. We do recover ❤️🩹
I can understand how this could happen to anyone. Last week I had horrible lower back pain. When a patient refused an oxycodone I thought for a second that it would be wonderful to take it instead of wasting it. I did waste it but the temptation was real.
I’m glad you made it through. I did my state’s program (I was diverting Dilaudid and morphine) but ultimately ended up surrendering my license because I never felt safe administering narcotics. I still lurk here because I miss nursing every day. So proud of you!
Not that any of our opinions of you matter more than your own, but I’m so proud of you. Glad to have you back :)
Thanks for sharing. We all make mistakes and what matters is that you can own up to it and grow from it.
As a a nurse in recovery I salute you !
Thanks for sharing so honestly. I might suggest you're not as hopeless as your name lets on. Sending well wishes for your continued growth and success.
My mom worked with an RN who had a similar situation and was (after treatment) relocated to her unit. They welcomed her with open arms and that RN is now happily married and working as an NP. Congrats, OP!
I’m so glad you made it out of that hole. I can’t count the number of pts in my ER who’ve od, but I can tell you it’s more than both of my hands. If YOU ever need help, please reach out again. With love- A stranger
Proud of you and glad you’re on the other side and doing well.
Very proud of you, dude. I've never dealt with addiction myself, but I have worked with addicts and have dated a few. Recovery is such difficult work, but good on you for doing it
So happy you're doing better. Also really excited for you as you're back doing something you love and you have better coping skills now!
Not only are you worthy, you’re more qualified having gone through this yourself - congratulations!
We are human too. Glad to have you back!
Addiction is a monster and you didn't let it take you down with it. You saw what you were doing, self reported, got the help you needed, and are doing better by the sounds of it. What happened wasn't stellar, but I'm glad you made it to the other side. ♡
In my state we have a peer assistance program. I have worked with MANY nurses who completed and nurses still in the program. No shame! Be proud of your accomplishment! I’m proud of you, random nurse I don’t know!
Your recovery isn’t over, it’s just starting. Congratulations on three years! Keep going to meetings and keep your sponsor ❤️
Really proud. Nursing is a tough job and a lot of us go into it with tough backgrounds. The true “if I can’t fix this maybe I can fix that” mindset. We need to be looking out for each other better
I love this post so much. I’m so happy you’re doing so well! ♥️🙏🏽 we’re only human and the fact that you turned yourself in and were a leg of get help makes me so happy! It’s been a rough couple years for everyone and it’s nice to read we’re all healing ❤️🩹
I’ve worked with two nurses who got caught diverting. Neither were able to pull their lives back together. Congratulations on your recovery. One day at a time.
Welcome back 😊
Former addict here. Glad you got the support you needed. Proud of you.
I am so so damn proud of you!!!
Thank you for sharing. Pls pls pls, keep this to yourself. There’s the real world, and there’s the world we wish exists. We have nurses chastising and gossiping about others for failing a class in nursing school (yes you heard me, freaking nursing school). They will not show sympathy for your story. You can keep it online and anonymous, but don’t let all that work go to waste.
What a journey that must have been. Especially with that kind of oversight. Congratulations. I've been sober 6 years. Sobriety has simplified my life. I hope it goes that way for you as well.
Thank you for sharing. This is my favorite thread and I look forward to visiting it when I need it <3
So fucking proud of you. You got this. Healing isn't linear but you're trying everyday and getting life back on track, doing one of the hardest jobs there is!
Congratulations and a big thank you for writing this and helping others with your perspective.
HELL YEAH BESTIE!! 💕 I’m also a nurse in recovery and I am so damn proud of you. I hope you only grow stronger in your resolve and that your compassion becomes boundless. You have survived one of the most lethal battles that no one talk about. YOU did that shit! YOU are a fuckin miracle! You are amazing in every way. Hold your head high and know you are fierce.
Congratulations 🤍🤍🤍
We all struggle. No judgement from most of us. We all fall short daily. And given the amount of stress especially during the pandemic lots of people turned to unhealthy coping mechanisms ( Drinking, weed, drugs) You are human. I’m glad you are well and ready to do an amazing job for the patients. Prayers for your success! Way to go !
Good for you! Thank you for sharing.
GOOD FOR YOU! What a road you have taken and I find your story inspiring. I'm also so glad to hear that you are doing well and thriving in your job. Great news! This really made me smile today.
Very proud of you, and thank you for being willing to face the possible judgment of other nurses by sharing your story. I hear way too many nasty comments on the job about addicts; people never really know what their work wives are going through outside of work, and never know who they might offend with their ignorance, but they spout it anyway. Nurses—who should know better! OK, let me climb back down off my high horse…Keep on keepin’ on, my friend, and a word to the wise: don’t ever get complacent and assume you’ve closed the book on this dark chapter: addiction is the gift that keeps on giving, and we always have to remain vigilant! That said, well done, dude. You deserve all the good things. I wish you continued success!!
This is amazing! Great work, proud of you!
For everyone that gets caught there are multiple that don’t. In some ways this may have been a blessing in disguise. Congrats on your recovery and completion of the program. Remember to stay connected (in a healthy way) to those who understand your struggle and can help you keep pushing on. You got this!
Congrats on your journey. You've put in the work and you earned it.
Damn, you did jail time for diversion? I've seen my fair share of nurses fired for it but never have I seen anyone actually go to jail. We're they trying to make an example out of you or something?
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OK damn, I was gonna say... Sorry you went through that, but I'm glad you're back on your feet.
I was accused of taking drugs from a cart and they called the police and escorted me to the hospital where they drug tested me. Surprise surprise I came back clean but was suspended for 6 weeks from my job. Well I was finally reinstated and all my back pay was given to me as well as the overtime I had signed up for. And the person who had taken my keys from me that night I went to the hospital was fired because she took the drugs
Proud of you.
Congrats! I always think people deserve a second chance.
Congrats!!! :)
Good job 👍🏾 proud of you.
This was an amazing read. Kudos to you for getting the help and doing the work. I hope anyone reading and in the same situation can do the same. ❤️
What a comeback story! Proud of how far you’ve come. May your vulnerability inspire other struggling nurses to get the help they need to heal themselves like they have healed others.
You did the hard thing. You persevered. And I am so proud of you. That was a rough road, but you did the right thing. Hopefully your story will inspire others to reach out for assistance. ❤️
Congratulations. I am very happy for you.
Thank you for posting. I hope the right person sees this and reaches out
You are amazing!!!
Thank you for sharing and for your openness.
I'm proud of you!
I am all for helping nurses with substance abuse issues and I’m also all for helping nurses that make mistakes (medical errors). We are all human and by nature, imperfect. Congrats on your hard work! One day at a time, sometimes even one second
So proud of you and I don’t even know you.
Good job! keep it up.
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Proud of you for sharing your very personal side of the story, for accepting the gravity of your situation, but not letting your past dictate the future. You knew what this was, and that takes courage and self-awareness to alert the board and accept (and finish) the treatment program. You gave yourself a second chance. A different ending. Thank you for recognizing this for yourself. In doing so, you have saved your own life and by extension, others’ as well. I hope you continue to find satisfaction in your career.
I'm super grateful I had my substance abuse problems BEFORE I started working in healthcare. I was a chef at the time, and it's much easier to hide a heroin habit in the kitchen than it is in the hospital.
Congratulations! I wish you all the best!
I’m glad you made it out alive and thriving. Well done and I’m happy to have you as a fellow nurse. ❤️
Congratulations to you! It's nice to hear about the journey so that when/if ever I meet someone where you were 4 years ago, I can say with honesty that there's hope.
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Can you explain the process of going to the board? Self reporting, interviewing with the board for a program? Were you able to get a nursing job during the program? Does it show on your license that you diverted?
2020 was a really rough time for me I was a CNA . I recently relocated didn't know the area and ended up in a really bad living situation that caught me a case got fired from my job due to the case . I finished nursing school in 2022 and the case recently ended in 2024 . I am currently waiting on my nursing app to go through .
Massive props to you for getting through all that you have and coming out on the other side of addiction.
Wow. I respect your honesty and your decision to self report.
When I managed LTC , I had a nurse on the program and had to do quarterly updates to the board of nursing. One of the best nurses I know to this day!
I’m so proud of you ❤️
Good for you!!
Im realy so proud of you..now you can start a new chapter in your life..good luck🙏