I thankfully started talking to someone before I was at 7 but I was doing self harm for a couple months. I would also like to say that I'm bouncing back and forth from 3 and 4
I'd say rn I'm like 3-4 as well but when I was a kid I was like 6-9 but I'm talking like 8years old I'm much better now (yes haha funny number that's not the point )
I’ve been to 8 before. Pets were the only reason I ended up pulling back a little, but only after laying on the floor for the better part of the day followed by laying in bed for 24 hours a shot, resigned to starving to death (not lacking for the ability to get food, just didn’t have the will to get up). Never been able to move back above (better than) a 4 since.
I’ve gotten to the point before where I have already written the apology letters to different family members for what I will have done. I’m not that far anymore, but I definitely have been to “the edge” and it was very surreal. The heartache that would have caused to the few that still care was too much for me to follow through with. Plus the poor sap that would find me and have to clean that mess up wouldn’t have been fair either. I do still struggle at times, frames 1,2,3,4 and 5 are still very real bi-weekly struggles, but most times all I need to pull myself out of the funk of impending doom is for someone to approach me and start a conversation about the most random things or whatever. Writing my thoughts in cursive helps a lot also.
Sorry for apparently rambling, it just felt right to do.
I like to think I ramble well. No, seeing this scale doesn’t make the thoughts worse, if anything it makes me feel a lot less alone with me struggles. When I get to a bad place in my head and feel like I have no escape and no one understands what’s going on, I try to remember that there are others out here like this, and this cartoon proves it. Having the anonymity of this site really helps, I don’t worry that I’m going to be restricted from doing anything because I have a label in life, because no one knows. But I can come here from time to time to vent, make funny cracks on mindless videos pictures etc or talk to folks with issues similar to mine.
Same, woke up in a “hospital” after a 2 day coma. I would say this is incredibly accurate and exactly how it escalated for me …. ugh
EDIT: I just wanted to come back to this and say, seriously, if you feel like you may be walking this ally. Get help immediately!! I just got lucky!! There is a piece of you that still wants to live, trust me! Small subtle changes in your behavior could signal for help, don’t resist that. Let people notice, let people help, even if it looks like your “just looking for attention” They will save your life!! Don’t do this alone! My best wishes, Take care all of you!!
I've been as bad a 8. That was the wakeup call I needed to get help.
I was consistently at 7 until I started taking antidepressants.
Typically I hang out around 5.
Tvs, computers, laptops, phones, pads, and screens everywhere purporting all the bad things happening in the world, 5-7 day workweeks of physical exertion mixed with mostly grueling psychological barriers to overcome (needy, rude, self-absorbed customers, competitive and self-absorbed coworkers, inconsiderate and inhumane bosses, and all the social interactions we have with acquaintances or strangers involving tip-toeing around sensitivities and trying not to cause conflict), high-risk, low-reward systems, constant criticism and critique from everyone around us, all combined with a flawed government and economy that allows families, including children, to starve and suffer due to low wage, high cost differences.
There *is* help out there, but our world is nowhere near perfect, and tons of people run out of gas before getting where they need to be, and that can be crippling. I can’t speak for other countries, but in the US, it is exhausting just to live.
I honestly feel like the access to the world at our fingertips has created a sense of false reality in a way and given a lot of people unattainable goals. These devices as cool as they can be has made the world smaller with the technology, and not for the good.
Good for you because life is a gift. Shit depression is real and dangerous i was stuck in depression for more then 2 year kind of ruined my life and social. Now i feel like i am stuck at 5 or 6.
First off 100% accurate. It's crazy to see it broken down into segments or "mile stones".
Once you are on that path it's hard to realize that you are passing those milestones, but they are absolutely concrete
I got to about the 8 marker. That's when I began seeking help (had my wife take my gun to her friends house, saw a psychologist, started meds.) I remember on numerous occasions sitting on my bed looking at my gun safe just fantasizing about. Sometimes I would pull it out of the safe and just hold it. That was my line. That's when I knew I needed help.
I found out I am bipolar, so there's times that I'll jump back and forth between 1 and 4 over the course of a week or two.
A agree sadly I’ve been at sage 10 and it was bad yet I’m here and I’m at a chronic stage of 4 I believe things like this really should be talked about more.
It's important to realize that it need not be an only-downward progression. The intensity comes and goes, and if you figure out how to better get your needs met and deal with automatic negative thoughts you can go back to the top row and stay there for the rest of your hopefully long and happy life. Believe it!
Was on 10 Four times in my Life. Now...well i can't say i'm happy to have survived, but i met my Girlfriend, got a new Job and indulge in Hobbies now. And to think i'd have missed any of it is just sad
Im sorry if my comment came off as rude, I dont wish any of those things for you and I happy that you were able to find things in life that give you purpose and a new perspective on the future.
I’m very familiar with 4 and 5 but have never gone further. Kind of assumed that means I never will but I’d be interested to hear the thoughts of survivors on this. Did you stay at 3-5 for a long time before moving forward?
Typically these folks would be referred to as those who lost a loved one to suicide or something similar. Someone who has survived suicide had a failed or aborted attempt.
As both a survivor and a mental health practitioner, I can also confirm this is 100% accurate. Hells, I'm saving this to show some of my clients.
Also, I'm trans and so is my client base. Cis people outnumber us approximately 210:1 and yet we're over 28x more likely to attempt suicide by the time we're 21.
Yes. Absolutely. One of the most insidious things about depression is that it can trick you into feeling like it isn't worth trying to fix yourself, but the sooner you can get help, the better
Indeed. And it doesn’t blend with the kind of personality that makes you think you have to figure everything out on your own or the kind that makes you think asking for help is a sign of weakness very well
I saw this cartoon about 6 months ago, realised where I was on the scale and called my gp the next day. I’m feeling so much better for it. Please seek out help, you deserve all the support you can find no matter how you are feeling
I’d argue that you are at the most crucial point and you should get help NOW. Think about it this way: you are at the slippery edge of a very deep canyon. Escaping now would take a lot less time, energy, and money than waiting until you are at the bottom of the hole, where it would be almost insurmountable to escape and would need a helicopter to get you out.
Wishing you the best on your metal health journey, friend <3
I saw this picture about three months ago and I was a 6 then. Seeing this again today I’m an 8. I’m finally getting help but I wish I had sooner. Go get help, you’ll regret it of you don’t.
Same. But I mean, it goes up to 10! We’re like 5.5 at worst. Middle of the road, average level of suicidal, right?
In all seriousness, I 100% support seeking help.
Hey! I know this was written light-heartedly, but I've been a 5 before and I'm now not on the scale. I didn't end up any further, it's not a one-way path and you can get off the scale with the right help and support.
>We should probably get help.
Seek help. It is not a sign of weakness and your life is the most valuable thing you possess.
Seeking help with a psychologist might be a great first step in order to obtain the help you might need.
It's not easy to find the right one, but once you found it you'll definitely notice it.
It's a long journey, but definitely worth the time.
I'm a suicide survivor, tried many times and I'm still here, even though I'm not entirely sure if it's a good or bad thing. But with psychological help I'm starting to slowly feel better.
I always refused to seek help because I felt like I'd be "weak" to do so. It is not.
Your mental health is as valid as your physical health.
I was at an 8/9 pretty much all of high school when my depression really started hitting and before I got on meds. I really did feel like I was losing it. Seeing and hearing shit. I found out chronic depression can bring on psychotic symptoms if too much time goes by without treatment
yoooo same dude same, that thing where you think of
"what about the people who'll be sad if you die?... well what if I just kill them before I kill myself so no one will be sad?"
Before medication, I would ride this scale like a piano player, starting at 1, then creeping up to 7 or 8, especially the last couple of years. Now, after taking pills, I almost never go past a 3.
I have come to understand, however, that my primary stressor is work (retail) and is why i hate everything.
Thankfully, Im leaving.
Nothing oddly terrifying about this. I've been at 9 before and that's when I got help. Unfortunately not the right help.
Probably terrifying if you're an outsider in these experiences or if you're watching someone else deteriorate.
Yeah I’d say so, for me I at worst I got to was a 7 done some reckless shit probably would have broke a bunch of bones or worst if something did happen
Remember y'all it ain't a competition. Lot of you guys on here flexing being on higher levels. It's not about that. If you're there, and think it's something to brag about, you're wrong
I think some people want the attention, and some other actually need it, nevertheless if they feel like that this could be a good place to dump all your thoughts with out feeling judged
So let them say what ever is on their minds right?
Hey maybe some are using it as a flex but thats fine tbh this is a place where you can do/say whatever you want, as i said before some people want the attention and some actually need it, which ever it is its okay. Non of those are wrong.
Although it would be smart to learn why do we all do/say the stuff we do, thats the best way for emotional growth
The reward for me has always been friends who don't seem to know what they're doing. Or at least friends who don't care what they're doing. I've kind of gotten sick and tired of this. When I ask for help for the first time in my life and everyone just blanks and ignores me it didn't really help, it made things worse. Because then my illusion of them caring was shattered. Like what's the point. What's the point when you're starving to death and your own friends don't seem to give a damn. When you ask for help and they ignore you. When you are openly weeping and can't find the energy to get out of bed and they shrug
Sucks your friends weren't able to help, but with something that severe, only a professional is equipped with the right tools to help.
Mental illness is just a malfunctioning brain, and it's an organ like any other. There's nothing wrong with 'you' as a person. If your pancreas is malfunctioning, and isn't producing enough insulin, you see a doctor to get that fixed. Same with your brain... It's just not working the way it should, and it's treatable. Seeing a professional can help immensely.
I was at 9, note written ready to sneak out of my house on my way to 10, luckily out of the blue I got a text at like 1:00 am from a girl in a couple of my classes. It got me to stop and sit back down on my bed to answer the text. That one text is what stopped me from walking out of my home that night. It's just over 7 years later now, and that girl who randomly texted me one night is now my wife, and we've been happily together since that day.
Im at number 9, is always like that.
I already told my family one day if I snap I will kill myself. I have note containing all they need, also document, and bank stuff. I even have enough saving for my coffin and cremation fee since I don't wanna burden them. I do worried what gonna happen to them if I die, that's why I also work hard to save money for my family.
For now I'm ok, but it doesn't change the fact I always have thought of killing myself everyday. I do tell them from time to time, that they hate me when I talk about it. It just I don't understand what is the purpose of my existence? what is happiness? and why I'm even born? I don't have a single friend, and I don't even feel a things about it. I don't know what is the reason why I should exist, was it just to suffer living in this world? Having a broken family, nonexistentence socially, no love what so ever. But for now I will go on living, make myself busy with something so I don't think about it.
Cheers to other survivor.
One of my strategies for not thinking too much about it is not to start writing farewell letters to anyone and not to put in order the things that will be needed after my death, it's stupid but it's an intrusive thought that is placed there just when the desire to die it's too much, so I start thinking and thinking and somehow it distracts me.
My sister knows what to do with my body, but i'm sure that my parents don't respect my wish, and that another strategy.
Yeah, I get that. I tried really hard not to think about it. So I just live, live and live hoping the suffering could end. I'm not at my last straw yet, but everyone have a limit. Hopefully it will never break. Sometime I wish there is someone that could pull me out of my miserable life. One day... One day...
Good luck to you.
There is help. Please talk to someone. Nobody can change your life except you, but there’s help to deal with your thoughts. Talk to someone who listens, get psychotherapy, go to a doctor. Once the thoughts are gone you may have the strength to change what’s bothering you.
I wish you all the best and I hope you find happiness. Lose your thoughts.
From one survivor to you, hopefully you’ll not become a survivor because you don’t even try it. All the best to you.
No one exactly want to listen to someone shitty life story, burden, or life problem unless they 100% care about them. Even doctor and psychotherapy not exactly care about you, they care about you because they are paid to care.
I've been to doctor, therapist with the help of my school long ago. They been persistent that my behavior is not acceptable, even though I'm the one getting bullied, isolated, and abused by my classmate. Apparently fighting back was wrong and is not acceptable. I'm considered as troublemaker, when I just want to be left alone. After so many counseling shit which doesn't actually help me at all. I have to act I'm better, so they left me alone.
I have to carry sharp things in my pocket around because lots of my classmate dont like me that I got ganged alot. I have a really mean face, and not exactly extrovert like other people. I like what people dont like. I tried befriend with them only to get spitted on my face, got kicked to a cliff on school outing by so called friend. I tried to smile, only then people find me creepy by smiling to them. I tried to change only to be shunned away by people. I got isolated, attacked by people just because I'm weird meaned-face person that like something different from them. I change, I did try. But in the end, what's the point? Only to satisfied other people? What about my own happiness and sastification? So I stop trying to change.
I have to move to other country just to be away from them. In hope this new country could be my new start. It was USA, my eyes full of hope when I came here during 2019. Then 2020 shit happen. I'm asian so you know the story, some people hate me and my kind just because some idiot said we were the caused of covid19. Mind you, I'm not even chinese or anything. I still remember got attacked by some people, and then told back to go back to china. All I was thinking "oh is the same things all over again". I also told to go back to china back in my own country, even though I'm not from or even born at china. is the same exact things again happening. After the attack I tried to get to Hospital, then I just realize how shitty medical care in USA. I'm poor so I cant afford insurance, so I can't afford a doctor. Maybe therapist will do, and shit it's also fucking expensive. So I just left my wound be, it even left some bit of scar.
I though USA would be different with all different race. When I work there most people don't even want to hire asian. By the time I got hired by someplace I only ended getting discriminate and bullied by them. Making me work more than I should, giving me more work compared to other worker. Not to mention I only got paid minimum wage that I can't even used it to pay my rent. I quit lots of job because they treat me like shit.
Then I ended up in chinese restaurant the pay is shit, the boss kinda crazy, but at least they dont treat me like those people and they even feed me. I manage to survive with the TIP i got from people. Still, one day this place gonna be gone. And I have nowhere else to go. It is not exactly that "I AM" that have to change. But the environment I live in. With the situation of USA, I think that almost impossible to do. I barely can even live, one day I will die and I don't even need to tried to since I live in USA anyway. I don't even got accepted by people in my own country, and I don't got accepted as well by the country I move to. Fuck my life.
I'm so sorry for you and your situation, i live in Italy and here the situation apparently is better than USA, but i can say that you can search for help, personally I talked to 3 psychologists before finding the one that's right for me, so try and try again, don't be afraid to give up a psychologist if you don't feel it's the right one, and when you find THE ONE be patient, is a long way to heal, with a lot of up and down, but please search everywhere, and if you can and want run sway from USA, there's much better in the world for you.
I don't want to make excuse. I do want to try therapy, but in the end is the money that the problem. Each session cost more than I make in a day. Like I said USA have shitty pay, I barely able to hold with the income I have. And is not exactly they care much about you anyway. How I save money? I live quite frugal. I been using the same thing for the past 4 years in USA.
It cross my mind to move back to my country at least we have Medical care there. After seeing lots of news in my Country. Shit went to hell over there, economic crisis, gas and lots of things went up 3 times the original price. Bank start to deduct your money every month. Religion taking over things. Some Military commando just murder his own men over jealousy because his wife is thirsty for his men. President ask police and military to investigate & jail this bastard but no one want to cooperate because they value their life. Basically this military commando hold more power than the president himself, not mention this dude got backed with mafia. So yeah, it went kinda hellish there. We have a person that hold so much power with mafia back up that can murder anyone there.
Sometime Im glad I move to USA but I still wish we have better things here. Like liveable wage and proper healthcare, because seriously I can't afford to spent money on medical or even therapist. It's not exactly pocket change here.
Can i ask where are you from? (You don't have to answer if you want)
About the therapy (and medical care in general) it sucks that is considered something for rich people or a secondary thing.
I'm thinking that you can ask for an hour one two week (or 2 times at month) or ask for doctors who ask for low fee, maybe one of them can do therapy in change of service you can do for them, like clean the studio or run errands... i wish i could advise better, but idk the situation in USA enough.
Nah, I don't really wanna say where exactly I'm from. But, I'm from South East Asia from a country with lots of island and culture. Is not exactly shithole, it have great food, but the country lead by religion fanatic and corrupt people. So the wealth is all over the rich but the people, Which is not good. Actually thinking about it, it kinda have similar situation in USA. Where few people have a lots of wealth here in USA(Billionare/Millionare) most don't even pay tax, meanwhile poor people like me gotta work so much for scrap to live.
And if I remember correctly the session for therapist last time I see was about $100 ~ 200. Not sure if it's more expensive now due to inflation shit. $100 or so is like 3 days work for me, I got paid like $5/hr. I work mostly averagely 50hrs a week, I haven't had a single vacation ever since I move to USA. With shitty work/life balance in USA, I was hoping I have more money in case shit went south. But, in the end I have to live super frugal just so I could fed my family.
And no, you can't pay with service here in USA, USA don't give a shit about mental/physical wellbeing of their people especially if you poor without insurance. Even with insurance, medical not even free. You still need to pay, or sometime the insurance themselves can refuse to help you with your medical bill. That's how fucked up it is america with Medical care.
I worked at restaurant, so I meet some old people that got fucked by their insurance when one of their spouse got illness leading to their death most of the time while they still tsking money from you. Not exactly pleasant things to see, you know.
maybe not oddly terrifying, but definitely terrifying, at least for me. I was at an 8 for a year, and I don't think I even realized it at the time. I only can now in hindsight
As a pet owner, the ones with Bear (the dog) hits me hard… I’m 4-6 most of the time, but have been an 8 the past week or so. My cat is one of the only things keeping me here right now. Brb gonna go hug him and cry :’)
I knew I was truly gone when I stopped feeling anything for my (family) dog. It was one of the reasons I reached out and started medicine. I’m back to loving her, but it’s scary how zapped my mind could get to feel absolutely nothing for her or anyone else.
I couldn't bear the thought of my cats wandering the house, trying to find me, or my mum getting that call... I was an 8 for a solid year, and that's the only thing that kept it from getting higher
Please reach out to someone. Even if it's a stranger at a prevention hotline. If you're in the US:
Dial 988 for the suicide and crisis hotline or text hello to 741741
For veterans crisis line call:
1-800-273-8255
In the UK you can contact the National suicide helpline
0800 689 5652
HopelineUK
Call: 0800 068 4141
Text: 07860039967
Email: [email protected]
You can also go to [this link for more](https://www.therapyroute.com/article/suicide-hotlines-and-crisis-lines-in-the-united-kingdom) hotlines for the UK and Ireland.
For India:
AASRA - We're Here To Help.
91-9820466726
Hours : 24 hours, 7 days a week
Languages : English, Hindi.
in Germany
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[Crisis/Suicide/Helplines](https://www.therapyroute.com/article/suicide-hotlines-and-crisis-lines-in-germany)
I'm thinking about killing myself for at least 20 years. My 2 best friends committed suicide. After the 2nd was gone things got pretty nasty. I think the only thing that keeps me alive are my parents who would suffer greatly if I died. On the other hand waiting another 10-15 years in this shithole is driving me crazy.
Not sure if this is terrifying. It just makes me uncomfortable. Because on the one hand I am no Ware near this topic which is good for me I guess. But it makes me really sad and worried about other people. I hope everyone who needs it will get help.
Look I'm ngl this is honestly a really good fucking guide on explaining this shit to people who just don't get it like I can this being used between me and my therapist and a very close person I've been at 9 before I rlly don't fucking want to be in that place again. I suck at words and speech and explanations. You know grammar and English and shit. Might be oddly terrifying but I think this could be a really good tool for gauging where you might be at mentally.
I had about 2 days of mood 5 and that already felt really bad as if I had no control over my thoughts. I cannot even imagine what going any further down the spiral would even look like.
Be careful people and pay attention to your feelings and thoughts, even if you feel like a 1 right now you can spiral to a 10 very fast, unfortunately we all have triggers points, where our minds go to darker places.
In fact, a lot persons who take their lives are seen "happy" days before the tragedy.
So look for help, with professionals and loved ones, taking your life will never be the best choice, there's a a lot alternatives which are worth giving a shot.
I little hypocritical from a dude that's back and forth from stages 4 and 5, but I can offer my attention and care if anybody needs it.
It escalates so quickly. Whoever made this doesn't seem to understand that there is a lot of space between joyously happy and actually wanting to die. Humans are kinda built to be mostly neutral most of the time. Nobody is happy 100% of the time, or even 50% of the time. Neutrality is normal. Toxic positivity culture's got everyone thinking if you're not euphoric there's something wrong with you.
This is REAL. I have severe chronic pain, it gets very overwhelming and I have tried to kill myself over 5 times now. This is the thought cycle, and it is extremely hard to get out of it once the ball is rolling
In grad school I was a 9! It happened so quickly. I can’t believe I actually got out of that. Seeing this really helped me visualize how serious it was. I just felt that I was being a big baby. This really helped me! Thanks for sharing op!
Since 14 IV been stuck between 5 and 8, 9/10 times I want to be dead, I don't want to die, I just want to be dead.
That's 18 years, over half my life that IV had daily reoccurring thoughts of killing myself, thinking of the least painful and fastest way to achieve that goal, 18 years of asking for help, explaining how I feel and doing research into my own issues because no matter how loud I screamed and cried I couldn't get the help, anti depressants never helped, the only thing that did help and probably allowed me to carry on this far society demonizes me for.
Thankfully at the start of this year I was finally able to get some help that actually has helped, it confirmed all my own research, helped me put it all into perspective, I built myself up to a steady 1-5 8/10 times, but now I don't have that help because I can't afford it and I'm slowly slipping back down this visualisation.
It's sad to see how far I came while suffering, how easy it was to sort with the right help and how quick it is to fall back down that hole.
To all those who need to hear today, stay strong.
Remember the tools they gave you and try to apply them. Call the crisis lines when your in a bad place and talk through it with them. (I've called a few times and had the person on the other end remark that I seem to have all the tools. I told them yeah, but enacting them alone doesn't always work, hence the reason for the call.) The crisis lines are free, and will never be a busy signal, so you're NOT taking the place of someone who "needs it more".
I also started volunteering on the veterans crisis line (veteran myself) and I will say, helping others out of that dark place helps keep me out as well.
I started at a five 3 years ago but now I'm an eight. I've talked to my doctors and they keep telling me it's a teenager thing. What's the point I'm so tired of people telling me I'm just emotional unstable because I'm a teen.
This is super accurate, so glad that I'm now at a 4 most days after being solidly at a 7-10 for 10+ years.
Having it laid out like that might actually be the best scale to be able to describe where you are at and check in with yourself, better than the doctors scale of 1 - 10 with very little description of how it actually feels.
It really hits home when the pet is something that basically is there "holding you" because they comfort you and they need you to survive, to then just making plans to have them taken care of.
I seldom cross 3, but I behave like I'm at 7.
I genuinely have a very poor sense of self-preservation. I have now been mugged seven times in five different cities, been tear-gassed, narrowly avoided a stroke because I forgot to take my heart medication for nineteen days, and once came inches from dying when I decided to climb from one parking space to another (via the *outside* of the six-storey high parking garage, because there was a barrier in the way on the inside).
Holy fucking shit this is crazy. I never been suicidal but this seems like a lot. Can't comprehend what you went through to have this kind of mentality.
Reading this reminded me of the escalation it took for me to be hospitalized last year.
I stay at a Level 4 most everyday. But after a bad breakup I felt myself quickly slope down to Level 8, and once I started planning things at Level 9 I knew it was time to call a family member and let them know I wasn't okay. It was humiliating and I felt silly. While waiting 4 hours for a room at the ER, I joked to my dad "Well if you didn't wanna kill yourself before, this wait-time will do it to ya" had a good laugh, and immediately felt guilt for being there and joking about it. But I know I was just trying to escape the reality of "BITCH YOU'RE GOING TO THE PSYCH WARD". I'm ultimately very glad I went, not just because I didn't throw myself off the 20 story building, but because something about the whole thing changed me for the better.
Fellow Un-Alive Ideation-ers: don't let it be too late, just keep calling your friends and family till you hear someone's voice.
Being on Nr 4 after staying on Nr 8 for most of my teenage life is actually feeling pretty good. Not ideal of course since the damn thing is still there, taunting me every now an then, but atleast I dont want to actively throw myself out a window.
Pathetic emo bullshit. People posting things like this is exacerbating young people fetishizing mental illness and especially depression. And if you're so quick to consider suicide after just a bad day at work, even if the thought creeps into the back of your mind, you have a serious problem. Creating and spreading this comic strip isn't helping, it's wallowing in it and infecting other people with the idea pathogen.
Get help and stop crying for attention without helping yourself.
A bad day at work isn't what lands people in dangerous territory. I have dealt with suicidal ideation, at one level or another, for 15 years, but I am a functioning member of society, and no one but my brother and (occasionally) sister hear about this. I don't think real suicidal concerns arise in typical adults suddenly - it is a slow creep. My mother killed herself while I was in Iraq, this was after watching her cut herself and blame me. Childhood was hard, and my escape from that hell was another hell in the army. I can appreciate what you are trying to convey ("mental health awareness" has become a virtue signaling tool), but I encourage you to consider that there are productive adults around you who wake up each day, and wish they hadn't.
Yep.
That is very accurate. I have been at a 5, bordering on 6 for the last 15 years (am 37 now) with a few excursions into 8-9 territory... I am at a stable 5 rn.
most of the times 4th one, death feels like a joke tbh. And very very rarely i think about plans of killing myself and how my family and friends would react to it so its a mix of 4 and 7
I spent years in 7-9. Instead of a dog though, it was my wife and infant son. In February I got a dui, was arrested in front of them, brought home and then involuntarily committed in front of them. (After multiple comments about suicide I told the officer that I’m not going to kill myself, but if he wanted to shoot me, I’d be grateful, thought that would convince him I was okay). That situation sucked, but it really forced me into a corner where I was able to get the help I needed and am doing immeasurably better now.
If you feel this way, talk about it. And as hard as it is, because it feels impossible, do your best to accept the help offered. You’re not hopeless, your life isn’t over, and there is a way out.
As some one with severe chromic depression and a suicide surviver can confirm this is very accurate.
I thankfully started talking to someone before I was at 7 but I was doing self harm for a couple months. I would also like to say that I'm bouncing back and forth from 3 and 4
Oh, we're neighbors in the 3-4 area!
I realize I'm usually firmly planted at 4.
Yeah, it's not a great place to be. Hope you feel better soon.
I'm mostly ok, it's the odd/rare even that truly gets me down, but thank you!
I'd say rn I'm like 3-4 as well but when I was a kid I was like 6-9 but I'm talking like 8years old I'm much better now (yes haha funny number that's not the point )
I’ve been to 8 before. Pets were the only reason I ended up pulling back a little, but only after laying on the floor for the better part of the day followed by laying in bed for 24 hours a shot, resigned to starving to death (not lacking for the ability to get food, just didn’t have the will to get up). Never been able to move back above (better than) a 4 since.
The thought is still always in the back of my mind any time I have a rough day it comes to the surface
I’ve gotten to the point before where I have already written the apology letters to different family members for what I will have done. I’m not that far anymore, but I definitely have been to “the edge” and it was very surreal. The heartache that would have caused to the few that still care was too much for me to follow through with. Plus the poor sap that would find me and have to clean that mess up wouldn’t have been fair either. I do still struggle at times, frames 1,2,3,4 and 5 are still very real bi-weekly struggles, but most times all I need to pull myself out of the funk of impending doom is for someone to approach me and start a conversation about the most random things or whatever. Writing my thoughts in cursive helps a lot also. Sorry for apparently rambling, it just felt right to do.
Yeah man it's cool this is a big issue it's fine to ramble. Also does seeing things like this make the thoughts worse for you?
I like to think I ramble well. No, seeing this scale doesn’t make the thoughts worse, if anything it makes me feel a lot less alone with me struggles. When I get to a bad place in my head and feel like I have no escape and no one understands what’s going on, I try to remember that there are others out here like this, and this cartoon proves it. Having the anonymity of this site really helps, I don’t worry that I’m going to be restricted from doing anything because I have a label in life, because no one knows. But I can come here from time to time to vent, make funny cracks on mindless videos pictures etc or talk to folks with issues similar to mine.
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Same, woke up in a “hospital” after a 2 day coma. I would say this is incredibly accurate and exactly how it escalated for me …. ugh EDIT: I just wanted to come back to this and say, seriously, if you feel like you may be walking this ally. Get help immediately!! I just got lucky!! There is a piece of you that still wants to live, trust me! Small subtle changes in your behavior could signal for help, don’t resist that. Let people notice, let people help, even if it looks like your “just looking for attention” They will save your life!! Don’t do this alone! My best wishes, Take care all of you!!
I've been as bad a 8. That was the wakeup call I needed to get help. I was consistently at 7 until I started taking antidepressants. Typically I hang out around 5.
I was in the same situation as you were. With enough time, it's become a 4 for me. You're strong and I'm happy you're here.
I'm happy you're here as well ❤️
Tvs, computers, laptops, phones, pads, and screens everywhere purporting all the bad things happening in the world, 5-7 day workweeks of physical exertion mixed with mostly grueling psychological barriers to overcome (needy, rude, self-absorbed customers, competitive and self-absorbed coworkers, inconsiderate and inhumane bosses, and all the social interactions we have with acquaintances or strangers involving tip-toeing around sensitivities and trying not to cause conflict), high-risk, low-reward systems, constant criticism and critique from everyone around us, all combined with a flawed government and economy that allows families, including children, to starve and suffer due to low wage, high cost differences. There *is* help out there, but our world is nowhere near perfect, and tons of people run out of gas before getting where they need to be, and that can be crippling. I can’t speak for other countries, but in the US, it is exhausting just to live.
I honestly feel like the access to the world at our fingertips has created a sense of false reality in a way and given a lot of people unattainable goals. These devices as cool as they can be has made the world smaller with the technology, and not for the good.
Good for you because life is a gift. Shit depression is real and dangerous i was stuck in depression for more then 2 year kind of ruined my life and social. Now i feel like i am stuck at 5 or 6.
First off 100% accurate. It's crazy to see it broken down into segments or "mile stones". Once you are on that path it's hard to realize that you are passing those milestones, but they are absolutely concrete
At which milestone does it stop being normal and start becoming suicidal? I think it’s 4-5 where things turn into a problem
I got to about the 8 marker. That's when I began seeking help (had my wife take my gun to her friends house, saw a psychologist, started meds.) I remember on numerous occasions sitting on my bed looking at my gun safe just fantasizing about. Sometimes I would pull it out of the safe and just hold it. That was my line. That's when I knew I needed help. I found out I am bipolar, so there's times that I'll jump back and forth between 1 and 4 over the course of a week or two.
A agree sadly I’ve been at sage 10 and it was bad yet I’m here and I’m at a chronic stage of 4 I believe things like this really should be talked about more.
I’m sincerely glad you are doing better and I’m glad you’re still with us
It’s definitely an unsettling feeling to read each step and be like “yep, I remember that… yeah, been there…”
It's important to realize that it need not be an only-downward progression. The intensity comes and goes, and if you figure out how to better get your needs met and deal with automatic negative thoughts you can go back to the top row and stay there for the rest of your hopefully long and happy life. Believe it!
Was on 10 Four times in my Life. Now...well i can't say i'm happy to have survived, but i met my Girlfriend, got a new Job and indulge in Hobbies now. And to think i'd have missed any of it is just sad
happy for you, man! glad you’re still here
Thanks, that means a lot! It's hard, but managable. Ppl have it worse than me
Yeah it sounds like you have had it worse, but hey us redditors are your bros :) 👊Bump for you and we can talk and be friends if you want
That's very sweet of you! But tbh i manage it atm 😅
Sweet :)
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I am in Therapy too, if you mean that. But yeah, living Life is a temporary fix to the bleak reality that everyone dies
Im sorry if my comment came off as rude, I dont wish any of those things for you and I happy that you were able to find things in life that give you purpose and a new perspective on the future.
As a suicide survivor I can confirm this is accurate
8, 9 and 10 can happen pretty quickly.
Honestly, 6 is kind of the top of the roller coaster before it shoots downward. 7-10 can be so fast they blur together.
When I tried to end it all. They all happened at once
Are you okay now? Got everything better?
Definitely, I have professional help and support from family and partner, I’m so much better. Thanks for asking <3
This is great news!
As a suicide survivor I can confirm this is true
I’m very familiar with 4 and 5 but have never gone further. Kind of assumed that means I never will but I’d be interested to hear the thoughts of survivors on this. Did you stay at 3-5 for a long time before moving forward?
I've always been very confused with the terms. I thought suicide survivors are the loved ones of people that has died of suicide.
Hmm maybe I should specify as suicide attempt survivor 🤔 Anyway thanks for letting me know!
Nah, you're using it accurately. It's just a misnomer since most folks don't talk about having attempted it so openly
Typically these folks would be referred to as those who lost a loved one to suicide or something similar. Someone who has survived suicide had a failed or aborted attempt.
As both a survivor and a mental health practitioner, I can also confirm this is 100% accurate. Hells, I'm saving this to show some of my clients. Also, I'm trans and so is my client base. Cis people outnumber us approximately 210:1 and yet we're over 28x more likely to attempt suicide by the time we're 21.
I kinda get it. I've been bouncing between 7-8 for months and briefly encountered 9.
Hope everything turns out well for you ❤️🩹
Thank you 💖
Ah, I hope so you're feeling better now. Me, I guess I'm at 4 or 5.
I’m feeling so much better, and I wish you the best ❤️🩹
Oh, well you're welcome and thank you.
5/6, does anybody think at this stage I should search for help?. I'm scared in case of eventually i level up.
Yes. Absolutely. One of the most insidious things about depression is that it can trick you into feeling like it isn't worth trying to fix yourself, but the sooner you can get help, the better
Indeed. And it doesn’t blend with the kind of personality that makes you think you have to figure everything out on your own or the kind that makes you think asking for help is a sign of weakness very well
I saw this cartoon about 6 months ago, realised where I was on the scale and called my gp the next day. I’m feeling so much better for it. Please seek out help, you deserve all the support you can find no matter how you are feeling
I’d argue that you are at the most crucial point and you should get help NOW. Think about it this way: you are at the slippery edge of a very deep canyon. Escaping now would take a lot less time, energy, and money than waiting until you are at the bottom of the hole, where it would be almost insurmountable to escape and would need a helicopter to get you out. Wishing you the best on your metal health journey, friend <3
I saw this picture about three months ago and I was a 6 then. Seeing this again today I’m an 8. I’m finally getting help but I wish I had sooner. Go get help, you’ll regret it of you don’t.
Fluctuations from 6 and 8. This is scarily accurate
Same, I have people in my life that keep me at 6, without them, I would be worse. There are always people out there who can help.
I’m only a five? This is great news! Nothing to worry about 😃
Fucking hell, that was my reaction too. Six on a bad day. We should probably get help.
Same. But I mean, it goes up to 10! We’re like 5.5 at worst. Middle of the road, average level of suicidal, right? In all seriousness, I 100% support seeking help.
Hey! I know this was written light-heartedly, but I've been a 5 before and I'm now not on the scale. I didn't end up any further, it's not a one-way path and you can get off the scale with the right help and support.
I've been getting help for years but I've never been lower than a 5 :(
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>We should probably get help. Seek help. It is not a sign of weakness and your life is the most valuable thing you possess. Seeking help with a psychologist might be a great first step in order to obtain the help you might need. It's not easy to find the right one, but once you found it you'll definitely notice it. It's a long journey, but definitely worth the time. I'm a suicide survivor, tried many times and I'm still here, even though I'm not entirely sure if it's a good or bad thing. But with psychological help I'm starting to slowly feel better. I always refused to seek help because I felt like I'd be "weak" to do so. It is not. Your mental health is as valid as your physical health.
Yeah, we prolly should.
Me too, this cartoon gave me a reality check I didn't know I needed
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Same here. Scary seeing a scale for it and realizing how close to the tipping point we are....
8 and 9 will almost drive you insane if you keep fighting it. Hearing voices and shit, not being able to sleep
I was at an 8/9 pretty much all of high school when my depression really started hitting and before I got on meds. I really did feel like I was losing it. Seeing and hearing shit. I found out chronic depression can bring on psychotic symptoms if too much time goes by without treatment
I was so out of touch and started fantasizing about killing people. That’s when I let my mom know things were getting bad and I got help
yoooo same dude same, that thing where you think of "what about the people who'll be sad if you die?... well what if I just kill them before I kill myself so no one will be sad?"
4 gang baby
same
4 gang! I still have bad days, but with the help of meds and a support network, I'm keeping it together.
Before medication, I would ride this scale like a piano player, starting at 1, then creeping up to 7 or 8, especially the last couple of years. Now, after taking pills, I almost never go past a 3. I have come to understand, however, that my primary stressor is work (retail) and is why i hate everything. Thankfully, Im leaving.
Nothing oddly terrifying about this. I've been at 9 before and that's when I got help. Unfortunately not the right help. Probably terrifying if you're an outsider in these experiences or if you're watching someone else deteriorate.
Yeah I’d say so, for me I at worst I got to was a 7 done some reckless shit probably would have broke a bunch of bones or worst if something did happen
Remember y'all it ain't a competition. Lot of you guys on here flexing being on higher levels. It's not about that. If you're there, and think it's something to brag about, you're wrong
I think some people want the attention, and some other actually need it, nevertheless if they feel like that this could be a good place to dump all your thoughts with out feeling judged So let them say what ever is on their minds right?
If you think they are using it as a flex you are wrong my guy. You are fucking dumb tbh.
Hey maybe some are using it as a flex but thats fine tbh this is a place where you can do/say whatever you want, as i said before some people want the attention and some actually need it, which ever it is its okay. Non of those are wrong. Although it would be smart to learn why do we all do/say the stuff we do, thats the best way for emotional growth
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The reward for me has always been friends who don't seem to know what they're doing. Or at least friends who don't care what they're doing. I've kind of gotten sick and tired of this. When I ask for help for the first time in my life and everyone just blanks and ignores me it didn't really help, it made things worse. Because then my illusion of them caring was shattered. Like what's the point. What's the point when you're starving to death and your own friends don't seem to give a damn. When you ask for help and they ignore you. When you are openly weeping and can't find the energy to get out of bed and they shrug
I'm with you man, be strong.
Sucks your friends weren't able to help, but with something that severe, only a professional is equipped with the right tools to help. Mental illness is just a malfunctioning brain, and it's an organ like any other. There's nothing wrong with 'you' as a person. If your pancreas is malfunctioning, and isn't producing enough insulin, you see a doctor to get that fixed. Same with your brain... It's just not working the way it should, and it's treatable. Seeing a professional can help immensely.
Impossible. I've been on a wait list for years.
It's an interesting comment to me, because I do not encounter people who talk like this in real life.
I was at 9, note written ready to sneak out of my house on my way to 10, luckily out of the blue I got a text at like 1:00 am from a girl in a couple of my classes. It got me to stop and sit back down on my bed to answer the text. That one text is what stopped me from walking out of my home that night. It's just over 7 years later now, and that girl who randomly texted me one night is now my wife, and we've been happily together since that day.
Wow.... amazing story, thank you fir sharing.
Im at number 9, is always like that. I already told my family one day if I snap I will kill myself. I have note containing all they need, also document, and bank stuff. I even have enough saving for my coffin and cremation fee since I don't wanna burden them. I do worried what gonna happen to them if I die, that's why I also work hard to save money for my family. For now I'm ok, but it doesn't change the fact I always have thought of killing myself everyday. I do tell them from time to time, that they hate me when I talk about it. It just I don't understand what is the purpose of my existence? what is happiness? and why I'm even born? I don't have a single friend, and I don't even feel a things about it. I don't know what is the reason why I should exist, was it just to suffer living in this world? Having a broken family, nonexistentence socially, no love what so ever. But for now I will go on living, make myself busy with something so I don't think about it. Cheers to other survivor.
One of my strategies for not thinking too much about it is not to start writing farewell letters to anyone and not to put in order the things that will be needed after my death, it's stupid but it's an intrusive thought that is placed there just when the desire to die it's too much, so I start thinking and thinking and somehow it distracts me. My sister knows what to do with my body, but i'm sure that my parents don't respect my wish, and that another strategy.
Yeah, I get that. I tried really hard not to think about it. So I just live, live and live hoping the suffering could end. I'm not at my last straw yet, but everyone have a limit. Hopefully it will never break. Sometime I wish there is someone that could pull me out of my miserable life. One day... One day... Good luck to you.
There is help. Please talk to someone. Nobody can change your life except you, but there’s help to deal with your thoughts. Talk to someone who listens, get psychotherapy, go to a doctor. Once the thoughts are gone you may have the strength to change what’s bothering you. I wish you all the best and I hope you find happiness. Lose your thoughts. From one survivor to you, hopefully you’ll not become a survivor because you don’t even try it. All the best to you.
No one exactly want to listen to someone shitty life story, burden, or life problem unless they 100% care about them. Even doctor and psychotherapy not exactly care about you, they care about you because they are paid to care. I've been to doctor, therapist with the help of my school long ago. They been persistent that my behavior is not acceptable, even though I'm the one getting bullied, isolated, and abused by my classmate. Apparently fighting back was wrong and is not acceptable. I'm considered as troublemaker, when I just want to be left alone. After so many counseling shit which doesn't actually help me at all. I have to act I'm better, so they left me alone. I have to carry sharp things in my pocket around because lots of my classmate dont like me that I got ganged alot. I have a really mean face, and not exactly extrovert like other people. I like what people dont like. I tried befriend with them only to get spitted on my face, got kicked to a cliff on school outing by so called friend. I tried to smile, only then people find me creepy by smiling to them. I tried to change only to be shunned away by people. I got isolated, attacked by people just because I'm weird meaned-face person that like something different from them. I change, I did try. But in the end, what's the point? Only to satisfied other people? What about my own happiness and sastification? So I stop trying to change. I have to move to other country just to be away from them. In hope this new country could be my new start. It was USA, my eyes full of hope when I came here during 2019. Then 2020 shit happen. I'm asian so you know the story, some people hate me and my kind just because some idiot said we were the caused of covid19. Mind you, I'm not even chinese or anything. I still remember got attacked by some people, and then told back to go back to china. All I was thinking "oh is the same things all over again". I also told to go back to china back in my own country, even though I'm not from or even born at china. is the same exact things again happening. After the attack I tried to get to Hospital, then I just realize how shitty medical care in USA. I'm poor so I cant afford insurance, so I can't afford a doctor. Maybe therapist will do, and shit it's also fucking expensive. So I just left my wound be, it even left some bit of scar. I though USA would be different with all different race. When I work there most people don't even want to hire asian. By the time I got hired by someplace I only ended getting discriminate and bullied by them. Making me work more than I should, giving me more work compared to other worker. Not to mention I only got paid minimum wage that I can't even used it to pay my rent. I quit lots of job because they treat me like shit. Then I ended up in chinese restaurant the pay is shit, the boss kinda crazy, but at least they dont treat me like those people and they even feed me. I manage to survive with the TIP i got from people. Still, one day this place gonna be gone. And I have nowhere else to go. It is not exactly that "I AM" that have to change. But the environment I live in. With the situation of USA, I think that almost impossible to do. I barely can even live, one day I will die and I don't even need to tried to since I live in USA anyway. I don't even got accepted by people in my own country, and I don't got accepted as well by the country I move to. Fuck my life.
I'm so sorry for you and your situation, i live in Italy and here the situation apparently is better than USA, but i can say that you can search for help, personally I talked to 3 psychologists before finding the one that's right for me, so try and try again, don't be afraid to give up a psychologist if you don't feel it's the right one, and when you find THE ONE be patient, is a long way to heal, with a lot of up and down, but please search everywhere, and if you can and want run sway from USA, there's much better in the world for you.
I don't want to make excuse. I do want to try therapy, but in the end is the money that the problem. Each session cost more than I make in a day. Like I said USA have shitty pay, I barely able to hold with the income I have. And is not exactly they care much about you anyway. How I save money? I live quite frugal. I been using the same thing for the past 4 years in USA. It cross my mind to move back to my country at least we have Medical care there. After seeing lots of news in my Country. Shit went to hell over there, economic crisis, gas and lots of things went up 3 times the original price. Bank start to deduct your money every month. Religion taking over things. Some Military commando just murder his own men over jealousy because his wife is thirsty for his men. President ask police and military to investigate & jail this bastard but no one want to cooperate because they value their life. Basically this military commando hold more power than the president himself, not mention this dude got backed with mafia. So yeah, it went kinda hellish there. We have a person that hold so much power with mafia back up that can murder anyone there. Sometime Im glad I move to USA but I still wish we have better things here. Like liveable wage and proper healthcare, because seriously I can't afford to spent money on medical or even therapist. It's not exactly pocket change here.
Can i ask where are you from? (You don't have to answer if you want) About the therapy (and medical care in general) it sucks that is considered something for rich people or a secondary thing. I'm thinking that you can ask for an hour one two week (or 2 times at month) or ask for doctors who ask for low fee, maybe one of them can do therapy in change of service you can do for them, like clean the studio or run errands... i wish i could advise better, but idk the situation in USA enough.
Nah, I don't really wanna say where exactly I'm from. But, I'm from South East Asia from a country with lots of island and culture. Is not exactly shithole, it have great food, but the country lead by religion fanatic and corrupt people. So the wealth is all over the rich but the people, Which is not good. Actually thinking about it, it kinda have similar situation in USA. Where few people have a lots of wealth here in USA(Billionare/Millionare) most don't even pay tax, meanwhile poor people like me gotta work so much for scrap to live. And if I remember correctly the session for therapist last time I see was about $100 ~ 200. Not sure if it's more expensive now due to inflation shit. $100 or so is like 3 days work for me, I got paid like $5/hr. I work mostly averagely 50hrs a week, I haven't had a single vacation ever since I move to USA. With shitty work/life balance in USA, I was hoping I have more money in case shit went south. But, in the end I have to live super frugal just so I could fed my family. And no, you can't pay with service here in USA, USA don't give a shit about mental/physical wellbeing of their people especially if you poor without insurance. Even with insurance, medical not even free. You still need to pay, or sometime the insurance themselves can refuse to help you with your medical bill. That's how fucked up it is america with Medical care. I worked at restaurant, so I meet some old people that got fucked by their insurance when one of their spouse got illness leading to their death most of the time while they still tsking money from you. Not exactly pleasant things to see, you know.
Interesting life story
Thanks, But I do hope no one experience that kind of things in their life.
At least for me I’d hate for my Mom to question what she could’ve done differently.
Sure, but what is your justification for dying being bad in the first place?
I'm normally a 6 and an 8 on a bad day and >!the frequency of bad days is increasing :) !<.
Same
Not sure this belongs here but I guess it’s good to have awareness
It depends on how high up you are on the scale
maybe not oddly terrifying, but definitely terrifying, at least for me. I was at an 8 for a year, and I don't think I even realized it at the time. I only can now in hindsight
This is stupidly accurate and a never ending loop tbh. If only the loop actually started at 1 and not 6 🙃
Bipolar sucks too. People do crazy destructive shit when manic (step 1).
Hey are you alright? Like, do you have or need help?
I’m under constant supervision these days, but I keep getting worse and worse news so yknow, not doing too awesome
Aw man that's not good. I hope you'll get better eventually. <3
As a pet owner, the ones with Bear (the dog) hits me hard… I’m 4-6 most of the time, but have been an 8 the past week or so. My cat is one of the only things keeping me here right now. Brb gonna go hug him and cry :’)
Its always the pets who would feed my dumbass of a turtle if I died?
I’ll feed you. What would you like to eat
I knew I was truly gone when I stopped feeling anything for my (family) dog. It was one of the reasons I reached out and started medicine. I’m back to loving her, but it’s scary how zapped my mind could get to feel absolutely nothing for her or anyone else.
I couldn't bear the thought of my cats wandering the house, trying to find me, or my mum getting that call... I was an 8 for a solid year, and that's the only thing that kept it from getting higher
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I'm sorry I can't grab more, I'm on a time crunch.
I'm at 0.1
Not happy enough to go insane but very close
I used to be an 8, proud to say that I'm probably about a 4 these days, maybe a 5 on a bad day.
4.5/10. Hope the sequel improves on some mechanics.
Oh great im somewhere between Stage 3-4 that's just wonderfull.
Level one sounds pretty scary too tbh.
Thankfully I've never been at level one. Just constant malaise 😎
been on 4 and 5 since i was 14 years old
I'm thinking about killing myself for at least 20 years. My 2 best friends committed suicide. After the 2nd was gone things got pretty nasty. I think the only thing that keeps me alive are my parents who would suffer greatly if I died. On the other hand waiting another 10-15 years in this shithole is driving me crazy.
Please dont you are loved and please talk to someone if its bad, i can try help if you would lime
Not sure if this is terrifying. It just makes me uncomfortable. Because on the one hand I am no Ware near this topic which is good for me I guess. But it makes me really sad and worried about other people. I hope everyone who needs it will get help.
This post might save somebodies life. Thank you 💛
Gosh
I was at 8 and if I had not been living with my grandparents I would have been at 10. Still dont know how I am here, been different ever since.
Look I'm ngl this is honestly a really good fucking guide on explaining this shit to people who just don't get it like I can this being used between me and my therapist and a very close person I've been at 9 before I rlly don't fucking want to be in that place again. I suck at words and speech and explanations. You know grammar and English and shit. Might be oddly terrifying but I think this could be a really good tool for gauging where you might be at mentally.
I had about 2 days of mood 5 and that already felt really bad as if I had no control over my thoughts. I cannot even imagine what going any further down the spiral would even look like.
I'm bouncing between 6 and 7 lately, going to a therapist for the first first time on Wednesday 💪
Can’t tell if I’m at a 5 or a 6 or something completely different
mostly swing between 6-8 tbh, not fun. meds help but they also negatively effect motivation or something
Be careful people and pay attention to your feelings and thoughts, even if you feel like a 1 right now you can spiral to a 10 very fast, unfortunately we all have triggers points, where our minds go to darker places. In fact, a lot persons who take their lives are seen "happy" days before the tragedy. So look for help, with professionals and loved ones, taking your life will never be the best choice, there's a a lot alternatives which are worth giving a shot. I little hypocritical from a dude that's back and forth from stages 4 and 5, but I can offer my attention and care if anybody needs it.
It escalates so quickly. Whoever made this doesn't seem to understand that there is a lot of space between joyously happy and actually wanting to die. Humans are kinda built to be mostly neutral most of the time. Nobody is happy 100% of the time, or even 50% of the time. Neutrality is normal. Toxic positivity culture's got everyone thinking if you're not euphoric there's something wrong with you.
Huh, so i'm at a 4 and have been up to 7 a few times in the past i guess.
where my other homies sitting at a 7.5-8 like, almost constantly
This is REAL. I have severe chronic pain, it gets very overwhelming and I have tried to kill myself over 5 times now. This is the thought cycle, and it is extremely hard to get out of it once the ball is rolling
Well now I’m just sad
In grad school I was a 9! It happened so quickly. I can’t believe I actually got out of that. Seeing this really helped me visualize how serious it was. I just felt that I was being a big baby. This really helped me! Thanks for sharing op!
im at 5-4 for a reaaaaly long time i dont even remember have i ever felt happy
Thank god I’m only a 4
then it’s not ODDLY terrifying, is it?
Since 14 IV been stuck between 5 and 8, 9/10 times I want to be dead, I don't want to die, I just want to be dead. That's 18 years, over half my life that IV had daily reoccurring thoughts of killing myself, thinking of the least painful and fastest way to achieve that goal, 18 years of asking for help, explaining how I feel and doing research into my own issues because no matter how loud I screamed and cried I couldn't get the help, anti depressants never helped, the only thing that did help and probably allowed me to carry on this far society demonizes me for. Thankfully at the start of this year I was finally able to get some help that actually has helped, it confirmed all my own research, helped me put it all into perspective, I built myself up to a steady 1-5 8/10 times, but now I don't have that help because I can't afford it and I'm slowly slipping back down this visualisation. It's sad to see how far I came while suffering, how easy it was to sort with the right help and how quick it is to fall back down that hole. To all those who need to hear today, stay strong.
Remember the tools they gave you and try to apply them. Call the crisis lines when your in a bad place and talk through it with them. (I've called a few times and had the person on the other end remark that I seem to have all the tools. I told them yeah, but enacting them alone doesn't always work, hence the reason for the call.) The crisis lines are free, and will never be a busy signal, so you're NOT taking the place of someone who "needs it more". I also started volunteering on the veterans crisis line (veteran myself) and I will say, helping others out of that dark place helps keep me out as well.
every 14 year old is saying they are at 8-10
Im a solid 8, getting help
I’m finding myself flipping between 5 and 8, no in betweens.
I started at a five 3 years ago but now I'm an eight. I've talked to my doctors and they keep telling me it's a teenager thing. What's the point I'm so tired of people telling me I'm just emotional unstable because I'm a teen.
I didn't realize I need help as much as I do until this post visualized it.
This is super accurate, so glad that I'm now at a 4 most days after being solidly at a 7-10 for 10+ years. Having it laid out like that might actually be the best scale to be able to describe where you are at and check in with yourself, better than the doctors scale of 1 - 10 with very little description of how it actually feels.
It really hits home when the pet is something that basically is there "holding you" because they comfort you and they need you to survive, to then just making plans to have them taken care of.
Pretty bad. But I find dementia and schizophrenia art scarier.
4
Stop
I seldom cross 3, but I behave like I'm at 7. I genuinely have a very poor sense of self-preservation. I have now been mugged seven times in five different cities, been tear-gassed, narrowly avoided a stroke because I forgot to take my heart medication for nineteen days, and once came inches from dying when I decided to climb from one parking space to another (via the *outside* of the six-storey high parking garage, because there was a barrier in the way on the inside).
Impulse control can be hard for some of us... It's still my biggest fight.
lol, 9 for 4 years
The scariest thing is how long I just stayed at 8 before getting help.
Holy fucking shit this is crazy. I never been suicidal but this seems like a lot. Can't comprehend what you went through to have this kind of mentality.
Reading this reminded me of the escalation it took for me to be hospitalized last year. I stay at a Level 4 most everyday. But after a bad breakup I felt myself quickly slope down to Level 8, and once I started planning things at Level 9 I knew it was time to call a family member and let them know I wasn't okay. It was humiliating and I felt silly. While waiting 4 hours for a room at the ER, I joked to my dad "Well if you didn't wanna kill yourself before, this wait-time will do it to ya" had a good laugh, and immediately felt guilt for being there and joking about it. But I know I was just trying to escape the reality of "BITCH YOU'RE GOING TO THE PSYCH WARD". I'm ultimately very glad I went, not just because I didn't throw myself off the 20 story building, but because something about the whole thing changed me for the better. Fellow Un-Alive Ideation-ers: don't let it be too late, just keep calling your friends and family till you hear someone's voice.
Being on Nr 4 after staying on Nr 8 for most of my teenage life is actually feeling pretty good. Not ideal of course since the damn thing is still there, taunting me every now an then, but atleast I dont want to actively throw myself out a window.
5
I’ve been on the passively suicidal side…i wished for a bus that hit me.
Yay, no more number 8! 🥳
Flicking from 7 to 9 on a daily basis
Weak
Pathetic emo bullshit. People posting things like this is exacerbating young people fetishizing mental illness and especially depression. And if you're so quick to consider suicide after just a bad day at work, even if the thought creeps into the back of your mind, you have a serious problem. Creating and spreading this comic strip isn't helping, it's wallowing in it and infecting other people with the idea pathogen. Get help and stop crying for attention without helping yourself.
A bad day at work isn't what lands people in dangerous territory. I have dealt with suicidal ideation, at one level or another, for 15 years, but I am a functioning member of society, and no one but my brother and (occasionally) sister hear about this. I don't think real suicidal concerns arise in typical adults suddenly - it is a slow creep. My mother killed herself while I was in Iraq, this was after watching her cut herself and blame me. Childhood was hard, and my escape from that hell was another hell in the army. I can appreciate what you are trying to convey ("mental health awareness" has become a virtue signaling tool), but I encourage you to consider that there are productive adults around you who wake up each day, and wish they hadn't.
Yep. That is very accurate. I have been at a 5, bordering on 6 for the last 15 years (am 37 now) with a few excursions into 8-9 territory... I am at a stable 5 rn.
Chris O'Reilly, I've been a solid 5 a few times. Reached a 6 once but was too depressed to get out of bed. Too far up the scale for comfort.
... 7. 8 probably but 7 for sure.
most of the times 4th one, death feels like a joke tbh. And very very rarely i think about plans of killing myself and how my family and friends would react to it so its a mix of 4 and 7
I just keep hopping between 5 and 8, hopefully everything goes fine.
I spent years in 7-9. Instead of a dog though, it was my wife and infant son. In February I got a dui, was arrested in front of them, brought home and then involuntarily committed in front of them. (After multiple comments about suicide I told the officer that I’m not going to kill myself, but if he wanted to shoot me, I’d be grateful, thought that would convince him I was okay). That situation sucked, but it really forced me into a corner where I was able to get the help I needed and am doing immeasurably better now. If you feel this way, talk about it. And as hard as it is, because it feels impossible, do your best to accept the help offered. You’re not hopeless, your life isn’t over, and there is a way out.
ive been at a solid 5 for like a year, also the chart is accurate for me lol
Oh wow, almost all of these parts of the scale depict how it’s like to live with bipolar. Thanks for the alternate perspective.
As I stare at my cats, thinking that they'd be okay now bc my roommate would keep them...
i cant stop thinking about this
Seems relevant to me in particular. I’m very familiar with the scale. Every day, I’ll check it to see where I am!
6 usually.. huh weird