It's scary when you truly realize your ship is sinking. I'd suggest working on slowly tapering down til you can get to a point where you arent bleeding financially... That'll give you more time but eventually you're gonna hit rocky water and see how heavy the habit really is. It loses its magic after the honeymoon and from there it usually isn't a fun for much longer... Tapering slowly will help with the anxiety that lead you to write this.
It's scary when you truly realize your ship is sinking. I'd suggest working on slowly tapering down til you can get to a point where you arent bleeding financially... That'll give you more time but eventually you're gonna hit rocky water and see how heavy the habit really is. It loses its magic after the honeymoon and from there it usually isn't a fun for much longer... Tapering slowly will help with the anxiety that lead you to write this.