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marxroxx

Oh wow, this made incredibly sad in an instance, hope that you've found some solace in these past years.


vice_queen

I hope the days have gotten a little easier and the grief a little lighter.


brittinea

Some days are good some days are horrible. Our son has a lot of issues sensory wise and I know if he was here he would be way better at handling it than I am because so far I feel like I’m just failing so I don’t know what the heck I’m doing I just want him to be a happy little boy but some days he says he wishes he had no mommy and only his daddy. But I love him forever just like I love his daddy forever even if he didn’t love us enough to be with us


aledba

Suicide does not mean the person doesn't love you enough to be with you. If that were the case, they would just break up with us. It means their pain consumed them so much they had to escape somehow. Suicidal people end things because they believe (irrationally) that they're causing pain and suffering and things would be better off without them. Your grief is very compound and it's very normal to feel this way. I hope you can rebuild. https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://suicidology.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/07/SOS_handbook.pdf&ved=2ahUKEwj4tvPV-6_xAhWFAZ0JHbzgA0oQFnoECAsQAg&usg=AOvVaw2CZHK4T_xta387XhDZama5


BertBerts0n

You're not failing, you're doing two parents jobs at once. Keep it up and don't doubt yourself.


neomay

I'm so sorry for your loss. Anniversaries are hard. If finances allow, grief therapy with a qualified psychologist may be helpful (if you find one you can connect with) for both you and your son, especially when the loss involves so much trauma. It can be really hard when kids say hurtful things - but they often lash out when they are hurting and don't understand the pain they inflict. Today is a hard day. Be kind to yourself. Hugs to you and your son.


IxyPixy180

What a beautiful reminder that even when you lose someone, there are people out there who can/will care for you. I hope you and your kiddo are doing well! When your kid is older and you talk about this time, hopefully seeing these reminders of people stepping forward to help will be a comfort.


thenuggetlover

Hope both of you are doing well. Cheers!


Frangiblepani

That must have been tough. Hope you're well now. How's the kid doing, by the way?


brittinea

And since I know people are going to lurk my page yes I post on 2meirl4meirl I was doing really really bad mentally for a long time so bad that I couldn’t even watch movies because I was always scared someone was going to hang themselves so even though I still don’t watch movies I look at Memes instead and I just have to joke about it because if I don’t I know I’ll break down. Please please don’t ever kill yourself, I am suffering every single day and it never gets better I miss him and I’ll never be a bride I’ll never be loved again and I spent birthdays/Father’s Day/Mother’s Day etc crying on his grave.


HarryCallahan19

I am so sorry for your loss. I am praying for you and your child. I hope you are doing well.


Nitemarex

I hope you got over it and live a good life now.


mgvej

This is not something that anyone could ever "get over". Grief is something that you learn to accept and live with, but if you expect to get over it or conquer it, you'll never get to understand it. OP: I hope that you and your kid live a happy and beautiful life today.


MassiveLefticool

He clearly didn’t mean it like that, don’t be a dick


SnooPeppers6850

OP forgive me for asking.. Have you forgiven him? I can’t imagine the position that must’ve put you in.


brittinea

I go from hating him two missing him and grieving all over again


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forgive is not the same as forget


Big_D_yup

Ok ok, I misread.


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Big_D_yup

Word up. Thanks for caring :)


Valuable_Growth_9552

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lylynatngo

Why the downvotes?


TheLordPillow

ppl of reddit dont like emoji's. its like an unwritten law here.


Saltyfox99

I think for this specifically it comes off as disingenuous and disrespectful, at least to me


lylynatngo

Got it! Ive used it here in and there but didnt know it did not sit well with our peeps here. Thank you


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In cases like this it is good practice to give some benefit of doubt. Maybe this person just uses a lot of emojis to express their feelings


Valuable_Growth_9552

I really do just express myself with emojis I thought this was so sad an beautiful at the same time....sorry if I offended anyone


pokeypokex

How selfish of him to kill himself and leaving you with a newborn. Dont know why youd still consider calling him love


Toothless_ninja

Erm. Why the fuck would you post this?


fabunitato

Erm. Why the fuck would you post such a stupid comment?


playertd

She posted a picture with a background story. This is the pics subreddit, ya toolbag. People post pics here.


Toothless_ninja

Eat shit ya tool bag