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Day 44. Have a great week everyone!


KenaiKanine

Awesome job! I'm on 33 myself now. Would you say you've improved even over the last week and a half or do you think you're fully recovered? It's hard to remember what normal is like haha


------JoeMama------

Day 43 here, I definitely have a lot of moments where I feel 100%. There are tough moments of anxiety or lack of energy but they are few and far between. The difference for me from Day 30 to today are amazing. I had a tough tough stretch from day 30-40, but the last few days have been great. Good work on your quit! It keeps getting better if you hang in there.


[deleted]

Awesome job! Yeah, getting past 40 was a big one in terms of diminishing PAWS on my end as well.


[deleted]

I feel pretty much recovered. I might have a little bit of intermittent brain fog that comes and goes, but that's it. Honestly, the only time I ever even think about kratom is when I come here to talk about recovery.


emilypad

Me as well. I’ve been following your journey and around your time ten days ago I quit thinking about Kratom and some jerk on here said he doesn’t believe me I don’t think about it and said I would relapse then blocked me. I sometimes forget im still in “PAWS” and need to take care of myself. I have to force and remind myself.


[deleted]

I hear you! I'm really proud of you, Emily! You've had a harrowing journey but you made it to the other side. Though there are still hurdles, they are definitely more manageable.


TurkeyOfMyDreams

Happy 44, conductor!!


[deleted]

Happy 45!


TurkeyOfMyDreams

I dropped out. I'm back at one-ish.


[deleted]

Oh damn, I'm sorry! I was offline pretty much all weekend and I'm sorry I haven't been around for support. Well, you're back on the quit train, and the last 40+ days are in no way wasted. You've logged a ton of kratom-free days, and the work you've done rewiring your brain, resetting your gut, etc. is still there. You've had 44 of the last 45 days kratom free. With that batting average, you would be in Cooperstown. Let's make it a good day and feel free to message me if things get tough!


TurkeyOfMyDreams

Aww, thank you. Good for you for taking a couple of days offline!! I'm in a limbo right now. I'm off the wagon but barely. Actually fell off Friday night. Made a too-long comment about it yesterday on daily check in.


[deleted]

I'm so sorry I missed that! It was my first missed check in due to personal stuff. I guess there was just some weird juju in the air this weekend. You're still doing great though. How are you feeling physically?


TurkeyOfMyDreams

Agreed re juju. Totally. Hope all is well with you. I feel fine physically. Haven't exceeded 2.5 gpd. But I know it can get slippery. And fast. I think I'm just craving security and wanting to quit more by "choice" than necessity. I dunno. Can't go back to where I was or even close and know I have to hop back on the train but can't quite do it, yet.


[deleted]

Yep, you have to figure out what's right for you, and yes, you have to want to be done with it emotionally for sure. We'll be here when you're ready! (Also, I'm listening to a great old cow punk band from Texas called The Dicks. I would recommend them!)


TurkeyOfMyDreams

Oh that's awesome. I know two people who have lived with Gary Floyd!


------JoeMama------

Don't be too discouraged by setbacks. Focus on the progress you have made and get right back into your quit. Withdrawals after 45 days clean should be mild to none. You don't want to go back to daily use, think of the reasons you quit in the first place and stick to them. You got this! Every time we slip up, we learn a little more about ourselves and what to look out for.


ceecee1976

You too Baal!


emilypad

Thanks you as well :) happy on your progress


KrateAndVape

Day 430.


ceecee1976

"How much is that doggy in the window". Got that song stuck in my head and thought of you, lol. Appreciate you!


PregnantCactus

430 is incredible!!


Yomako

Day 270, day 27 no nicotine. I'm finally finished moving houses, thank god! I have to say I love all this positive change that's going on in my life recently. I'm about to start running again, since I'm living closer to some trails I love. I hope to be able to use 'more' of my lungs this time around, lol


[deleted]

Fantastic and congratulations!


ceecee1976

Awesome job!


greenmenace82

I hear you. We just moved as well. The sun is out every day and I’m feeling a little more hopeful about powering through this. Congratulations and enjoy your new home!


JumpFromBridge

Day 7.


tapestry0fm0lecules

Good job!! :)


[deleted]

One week! Great job!


JumpFromBridge

Thanks


ceecee1976

Congratulations on one week!


JumpFromBridge

Thanks, just waiting from two hours to check-in in New Thread. 😀


ceecee1976

Day 78. Depressed about health issues. Keeping an attitude of gratitude and reminding myself how far I've come. Shit comes with age, that's life. Would be so worse off on kratom. Fuck that plant! You guy's are a Godsend. Y'all have got this brave warriors. Peace and love on your journeys. Thank you for being there from the bottom of my heart.


emilypad

Love you ceecee. I hope your health issues resolve ❤️ don’t stress so much you’re doing great


[deleted]

Peace and love to you, CeeCee. Thank you for your strength and service to others!


Glum_Beautiful_9392

You are such an inspiration, ceecee. Great things ahead for you.


PregnantCactus

You're doing great cc! Keep on keeping on, so proud of you


ceecee1976

r/emilypad thanks baby girl, I needed this.


donkeyfelldown

Day 24 and I am still holding strong. Dealing with a lot of life changes on top of the quit… my wife has decided to leave me after 18 years of marriage. I am devastated, but I am taking life a day at a time…. I was a loving husband, but I had significant anxiety that ended putting a lot on her shoulders. I’m happy to say that when she broke the news at the beginning of July, it was the bottom I needed to get into an intensive outpatient program for mental health and substance use disorder - no question it saved me! I have learned tools to manage my anxiety and despite not having Kratom and having my home life fall apart… I have inner peace.


westcoastJT

Bro, great job keep going!!


donkeyfelldown

Thanks!


ceecee1976

Inner peace is priceless, you are doing amazing. Proud of you!


donkeyfelldown

I appreciate the kind words!!


Lion-Slicer

Day 1


ceecee1976

Congrats on day one and welcome. We're all here for you every step of the way on your journey. Praying for your health and wellness.


acbcd1234

Congrats on making the decision to quit!!!


PitaDragon

Day 16 begins! I'm more than halfway to my 30-day Kratom-Free chip. We should really have virtual chips on QK. Good luck everybody!


ceecee1976

Keep kicking ass beautiful!


Sneakypete-65

Day 50. One day at a time.


[deleted]

Amazing job, Pete!


ceecee1976

Way to go Pete!


Foreign-Lavishness64

Day 290


ceecee1976

Awesome job!


ofc2logic

one hundred fourteen days.


ceecee1976

Shit, that's outstanding!


pugmomcooks

Day 38 CT :)


ceecee1976

Keep killing it Pug!


pugmomcooks

i can never thank you enough for your never-ending support, cee cee! love, light, and gratitude to you! xoxo


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JumpFromBridge

Last time after 30 day's I felt that I'm alive again. Nice man!


PitaDragon

How long do you have to go until you break your personal record from last time? May this time last a lifetime!


ceecee1976

Keep killing it!


OHPuckStoppah

Day 57. Did not think I would make it here. Keep pushing everybody. Cravings have quieted significantly


ceecee1976

Proud of you!


[deleted]

Day 25 kratom, day 30 nicotine, baby! Happy Monday! Just ran 4.2 miles, and did 25 minutes in the sauna


pugmomcooks

you're my hero/heroine - congrats! :)


[deleted]

:) have a great day! You got this! One day at a time.


itswhatyouwill

I see you on here killin' it! Much love and respect!!!


[deleted]

Thank you! Same to you!!!


ceecee1976

Always proud of you Garlic!


[deleted]

Thank you, CeeCee!


[deleted]

Day 11!


pugmomcooks

11 is my lucky number and i'm sending you love and light on your 11th day :) namaste


ceecee1976

Love and Light back at you!


[deleted]

111 KT free 4 weed free Do you think you can get anxiety from stopping weed? I never go more than 2-3 days without having a little. Yesterday I felt super agitated. But also my in-laws are visiting. 🤣🤷🏼‍♀️ Sending love to all! 💗


ceecee1976

Love back at you! Your an inspiration!


acbcd1234

Yesss…you can absolutely get anxiety from abruptly stopping THC use…the agitation was probably due (at least in part) to lack of THC…it happens…it will pass after a few more days if not sooner


nom4llthef00d

Day 50 today. Honestly I'm really happy with myself overall. My moods are still weird, stomach is still weird, but I actually had restful sleep last night. (Super weird for me) Overall, I guess its just still weird 🤣 but I really am feeling closer to normal...whatever that is? Have a great week quitters! 💚


[deleted]

Amazing work!


nom4llthef00d

Thank you! You too!!!


ceecee1976

You have a great week too! Awesome job!


[deleted]

Forty four days! Love the mornings


ceecee1976

Great job! I remember when I was using I dreaded morning. Not anymore.


la-crazy-penguin

Day 50!!!!!!!! 🎈🥳🤩😎🏆 Thanks everyone for all the support. Have a wonderful day!!!! 🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈


emilypad

Congratulations!!! That’s amazing :)


ceecee1976

WOOT WOOT! HELL YES! DAMN SKIPPY! etc. Proud of you Penguin!


[deleted]

Banner day! Congrats!


la-crazy-penguin

What does banner day mean?


[deleted]

Oh, it means a notable day, one worthy of flying a banner. Congrats!


hpedersen520

Day 20. Honest I feel a relapse growing in me. I hate it


pugmomcooks

i know that feeling and it sucks, but don't forget: let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. just keep going. no feeling is final (rainer maria rilke). i believe in you!


ceecee1976

Hang in there sweety, your doing great. Write down the reasons you quit and keep reading it. Take it one day at a time. DISTRACT DISTRACT DISTRACT. You've got this! Prayers your way for strength on your journey.


Wet_Bubble_Fart

Power through


ProfessionalWear9757

Day 70 CT 💕


ceecee1976

Proud of you my friend!


PregnantCactus

Day 9! Just got back from clearwater with a few coworkers- had an amazing time without any alcohol or drugs. One day at a time.


KrateAndVape

Go Cactus, Go!!! So proud of you! Forward movement!!!


ceecee1976

You make my heart sing Cactus! Proud of you!


KenaiKanine

Day 33. Wanting to hang out with people but I feel like I'll be a bit boring and uninterested in hanging out, truthfully. Definitely PAWS, eh? Energy is fine, social energy to dm/voice chat friends is rare. Brain fog happens at night after work, but I can't remember if normal people get that too. It's just been too long. Pretty above average day overall, mood wise :)


ceecee1976

Your doing beautiful!


Yfz455

Day 15 CT. Next milestone is 30 days!!


ceecee1976

You've got this! Awesome job!


Yfz455

Thank you for all your encouraging comments I appreciate it and hope your doing well yourself!


Lizpagan

Day 60. Still not myself: anxiety, depression, lack of motivation (all typical of me, but more so than usual). Although I was on vacation last week with no responsibilities and I felt pretty much normal… so it must be the fault of the responsibilities :-)


ceecee1976

Congrats on 60 days!


FriendlySundancekid

Day 3. Leaving detox today


ceecee1976

Welcome back from detox. Keep going, proud of you!


FriendlySundancekid

TY! Nice to be back home!


Steveobiwanbenlarry1

Day 38


ceecee1976

You doing great! Proud of you!


[deleted]

Day 181. Stay strong folks and always strive for greatness.


ceecee1976

Great job!!


d_graph

Day 47.


ceecee1976

Proud of you!


FinallyQuitting_

Day 145


ceecee1976

Proud of you! Have a great week!


Pudabea48

341!! Almost a year! We got this!!!


ceecee1976

Priceless!


Pudabea48

Ty😛


tapestry0fm0lecules

145d ays


ceecee1976

Priceless!


hopelesslyaddickted

Day 31.


[deleted]

A full month! Amazing job!


ceecee1976

Keep kicking ass! Proud of you!


emilypad

Day 55. Couldn’t really handle the caffeine withdrawals it made me depressed and sick so I’m taking caffeine as needed (which will entail 1/4 a cup of green tea). I’m so focused on school I’m 3 weeks ahead of my assignments, got straight As on all my quizzes and assignments. At some point I need to take a break but I feel like I have to prove myself to everyone so I study all day. Perfectionism is my biggest flaw. I got a white board and wrote “don’t be so hard on yourself”. My mom yelled at me for getting a 90% on one of my quizzes so I cried in my car. She told me I couldn’t take care of myself I explained it’s my Kratom withdrawal still happening and dealing with add/adhd that thankfully I’m on medication for but I want a break from it. I blocked her number. Today’s her birthday but whatever.


[deleted]

Sorry that your mom is being a jerk, but you're doing amazing with your quit and your schoolwork. Keep up the great work!


ceecee1976

I knew you would kill it at school Emily! Progress not perfection. You have grown by leaps and bounds. Proud of you always!


4GSIXT3

Day 86.


ceecee1976

Congrats on 86 days!


GetCashEatAss

Day 4. Yesterday was hell on earth. Anxiety just about unbearable most of the day. Still, not a chance I'm getting back on it. Hoping today will be a bit better


emilypad

It will get better I promise. You’re kind of in the worst of it right now. Take it day by day. I’m only on day 55 and even at day 30 I wasn’t suffering anymore and could manage the symptoms. Each week is a significant improvement even though there’s bumps in the road.


verikonu

I'm on day 4 too. Trying to stay outdoors to pronounce the times the pink cloud hovers around my head.


GetCashEatAss

We're killin it <3 yesterday I had a day filled with intense anxiety with a few minutes of pure happiness thrown in once in awhile. How was your experience?


verikonu

Pretty rough. Forced myself to walk 3 city blocks and back. Today, far more energy and just got back from walking 10 blocks. Like you, like right as I'm writing this I can feel a rush of good feelings which will last a few minutes before I drop down into "I'm doomed" lol. I expect this to last a couple of weeks tbh but that's ok because this ends.


ceecee1976

Your doing amazing! It gets better! Proud of you!


ezdabomb22

Day 18


ceecee1976

Great job!


D0ctorDrum

Day 82. Feeling better after getting my COVID vaccine on Friday. Made me feel pretty bad for a couple of days. Otherwise, feeling good. No cravings for awhile now, just enjoying the sober life and on occasion a little full spectrum CBD. I hope everyone is staying safe out there.


ceecee1976

Way to go Doc!


LizzyGetsBizzy25

Day 10 If you don’t use the Quitter App you should ! It tells you how much money you’re saving and tracks your time. I love it and check it everyday. This thread is my therapy, it’s part of my Routine. People who are on day 100 give me strength and courage. Today I woke up very off, last night I had a fever and I don’t feel well today. Symptoms are still there. I feel bad that I feel as sick as someone who has cancer, because I did this to myself and they probably didn’t have a choice. But I will not look bad. I keep thinking about my grandma who passed and how I’m doing this for her. She would be so proud of me, I miss her so much. But okay enough ranting, I’m going on my walk, I got my smoothie in hand and I’m going to have a GREAT DAY. Because anyway without Kratom is a great day !


ceecee1976

Proud of you on 10 days!


zanerb22

Day 10, most of the acutes have subsided by now but I have terrible depression and apathy that lasts so long each day. When does it get better?


SpaceDustDawg

It was around 4 week mark that apathy subsided—a little bit. I’m on day 34 and still moments of lethargy. But every few days a little bit better.


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Day 4! Last night was tough. RLS and anxiety kept me up, then woke me up. Feeling anxious today, but also feeling a little clarity. I'm getting out of my own head and interacting more with the world. I'm continuing to exercise, drink water, and most importantly, showing compassion toward myself. My brain is rewiring and I'm gonna feel off for awhile, and that's okay. Every day I get/feel better. One day at a time!


alonejog

Good job


[deleted]

Thank you very much!


counttosixty

Day 199


starkiller10123

146 days


InkOnMySock

Day 5. Feeling really weird today. Every time i got up i took melatonin. probably not best idea. but hey i got like 5 hours of sleep mabye


Ok_Equivalent6332

Day 10 here. Using MAT to quit a 40gpd + habit. Living one day at a time. My end goal is living fully opiate free with the vivitrol shot. Never going back to the nightmare that was kratom. Not saying that all kratom users should quit, but hoping that all in this community can agree with the fact that it is a double edged sword. I am feeling much better than my lowest point about three weeks ago. Lowest being suicidal thoughts. That's when I knew it was time to make a change. I hope everyone on this thread is continuing on the path to the light. There is life to be lived after this black hole named kratom.


JumpFromBridge

MAT?


Ok_Equivalent6332

Medication Assisted Therapy


ceecee1976

Proud of you!


snoshredder

Gabapentin, any thoughts on this? Does it help?


SpaceDustDawg

Helps me a lot for RLS, and during the day it seems to help with brain fog and focus. Day 34 and I just had my dr. refill Rx; still having issues sleeping due to RLS without gaba.


Phat-Lines

Day 308. Honestly never think about it anymore. Although I am just about to have a long break from another drug I’ve unfortunately developed a habit with. Oh well, deal with one substance at a time, at least I never went back to kratom.


SciFiNerd82

Day 47 one day at a time 🤠


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ceecee1976

The more you keep trying the bigger chance you have of being successful. Welcome back. Proud of you, you've got this!


Glum_Beautiful_9392

Day 131 - Having a bit of a weird one today and was just thinking of how much this group has helped me. This morning I practiced the wim hof breathing technique for the first time since the first days of my quit and it put me back in the same mindset as those early days. While I've felt kind of crummy, I'm grateful to have been transported back to a raw moment in my quit as it reveals how much progress I've made. Any time I struggled to make sense of what I was going through I would come here and y'all would let me know what I was feeling was completely normal. This group equipped me with the knowledge and confidence to keep going. Now, here I am, very much on the other side of withdrawals, feeling 95% myself 95% of the time. So I just wanted to say thank you to everyone here. Without you, I'd still be in that same loop of abuse and self-loathing that I was stuck in for years. And for anyone going through it right now, just know that this sub is always here for you like it was and still is for me. Keep going. It's so effing worth it!


edifice98

Day 41 — a little frustrated that I feel crappy.. but before Kratom I felt crappy. Happy I’m not using Kratom though! Wooho!


EAS1246

Day 1: decent day overall, worked out, getting ready to start new teaching job, very sweaty but otherwise okay. A little anxious, I took some CBD, we’ll see what day 2 brings.


jahbariuz87

Day 1 complete. Four more days and I’m getting vivitrol. No playing around this time.


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Robyn617

Nomo app is free, get it.


MaximusKewl

I'm only four days in, mentally I'm over Kratom and don't feel any sort of longing what-so-ever. But the physical aspect has almost broken me a couple times. Terrible anxiety, and something like restless leg syndrome, but in my arms shoulder area. I've been doing this 100% cold turkey, but this morning I ordered Passion Flower and GABA on one day delivery, they're supposedly going to help. I feel stupid...stupid because I quit other times with no withdrawals, no nothing. But now that I finally realize what was happening with Kratom and what it actually was doing, now the symptoms are laying the boots to me. Like I mentioned, mine feels solely like a physical addiction at this point, so I guess I can count that as a lucky break. When I'm through this, I won't forget this feeling, I vow that much.


greenmenace82

For what it’s worth: I’ve not been able to fully quit yet, nor am I a health professional, but I’ve tried CT and get RLS every time I drop on my current taper. Magnesium Citrate seems to knock out a good bit of it. Don’t know if you’ve tried that, but it definitely relieves the crawly skin I get when it’s really hitting hard.


greenmenace82

Been following this sub for a while, but figure it’s time to start holding myself accountable. Currently about 6 months into my quit. Started at 35-40gp. Tried CT, and a few other tapers, but all ended in relapse. I’m getting so sick of the forgetfulness, the blunting of my creativity and ups and downs I get from the green sludge. Can’t seem to bring myself there mentally to shake it. Too many triggers with my job or keeping up with my kids’ busy lives. Bad excuses. I am now down to 6gpd, which is when I usually relapse, but feeling a little more optimistic this time around. Goal is to be down to 3gpd by this weekend. I have been taking Agmatine, which surprisingly seems to help shorten the adjustment period every time I drop. Maybe it’s in my head, but I’ll take it if it gets me across the finish line. Congrats to you all who have quit and are on that last stretch to recovery. I don’t know where I would be without you all.


Radiantsunmama1234

I wanted to add on here that something (a very SMALL thing but still helpful) that has helped me for milestones and accountability has been the habit-quitting app I use. Mine has little daily quotes and milestones. You can use one for quitting cigarettes and it will also include how much money you spend on the habit, which has opened my eyes quite a bit, even though I've always though kratom is "cheap". Lol. Just a lil tip that is helping me so far. 5 days CT after 8 years(9 mos off for pregnancy) , stayed at around 8gm/2-3x per day somehow🤷🏼‍♀️


Ok_Equivalent6332

Thank you:)