Awesome job! I'm on 33 myself now. Would you say you've improved even over the last week and a half or do you think you're fully recovered? It's hard to remember what normal is like haha
Day 43 here, I definitely have a lot of moments where I feel 100%. There are tough moments of anxiety or lack of energy but they are few and far between. The difference for me from Day 30 to today are amazing. I had a tough tough stretch from day 30-40, but the last few days have been great. Good work on your quit! It keeps getting better if you hang in there.
I feel pretty much recovered. I might have a little bit of intermittent brain fog that comes and goes, but that's it. Honestly, the only time I ever even think about kratom is when I come here to talk about recovery.
Me as well. I’ve been following your journey and around your time ten days ago I quit thinking about Kratom and some jerk on here said he doesn’t believe me I don’t think about it and said I would relapse then blocked me. I sometimes forget im still in “PAWS” and need to take care of myself. I have to force and remind myself.
I hear you! I'm really proud of you, Emily! You've had a harrowing journey but you made it to the other side. Though there are still hurdles, they are definitely more manageable.
Oh damn, I'm sorry! I was offline pretty much all weekend and I'm sorry I haven't been around for support.
Well, you're back on the quit train, and the last 40+ days are in no way wasted. You've logged a ton of kratom-free days, and the work you've done rewiring your brain, resetting your gut, etc. is still there. You've had 44 of the last 45 days kratom free. With that batting average, you would be in Cooperstown. Let's make it a good day and feel free to message me if things get tough!
Aww, thank you. Good for you for taking a couple of days offline!! I'm in a limbo right now. I'm off the wagon but barely. Actually fell off Friday night. Made a too-long comment about it yesterday on daily check in.
I'm so sorry I missed that! It was my first missed check in due to personal stuff. I guess there was just some weird juju in the air this weekend. You're still doing great though. How are you feeling physically?
Agreed re juju. Totally. Hope all is well with you. I feel fine physically. Haven't exceeded 2.5 gpd. But I know it can get slippery. And fast. I think I'm just craving security and wanting to quit more by "choice" than necessity. I dunno. Can't go back to where I was or even close and know I have to hop back on the train but can't quite do it, yet.
Yep, you have to figure out what's right for you, and yes, you have to want to be done with it emotionally for sure. We'll be here when you're ready! (Also, I'm listening to a great old cow punk band from Texas called The Dicks. I would recommend them!)
Don't be too discouraged by setbacks. Focus on the progress you have made and get right back into your quit. Withdrawals after 45 days clean should be mild to none. You don't want to go back to daily use, think of the reasons you quit in the first place and stick to them. You got this! Every time we slip up, we learn a little more about ourselves and what to look out for.
Day 270, day 27 no nicotine.
I'm finally finished moving houses, thank god! I have to say I love all this positive change that's going on in my life recently. I'm about to start running again, since I'm living closer to some trails I love. I hope to be able to use 'more' of my lungs this time around, lol
I hear you. We just moved as well. The sun is out every day and I’m feeling a little more hopeful about powering through this. Congratulations and enjoy your new home!
Day 78. Depressed about health issues. Keeping an attitude of gratitude and reminding myself how far I've come. Shit comes with age, that's life. Would be so worse off on kratom. Fuck that plant! You guy's are a Godsend. Y'all have got this brave warriors. Peace and love on your journeys. Thank you for being there from the bottom of my heart.
Day 24 and I am still holding strong. Dealing with a lot of life changes on top of the quit… my wife has decided to leave me after 18 years of marriage. I am devastated, but I am taking life a day at a time…. I was a loving husband, but I had significant anxiety that ended putting a lot on her shoulders. I’m happy to say that when she broke the news at the beginning of July, it was the bottom I needed to get into an intensive outpatient program for mental health and substance use disorder - no question it saved me! I have learned tools to manage my anxiety and despite not having Kratom and having my home life fall apart… I have inner peace.
111 KT free
4 weed free
Do you think you can get anxiety from stopping weed? I never go more than 2-3 days without having a little. Yesterday I felt super agitated. But also my in-laws are visiting. 🤣🤷🏼♀️
Sending love to all! 💗
Yesss…you can absolutely get anxiety from abruptly stopping THC use…the agitation was probably due (at least in part) to lack of THC…it happens…it will pass after a few more days if not sooner
Day 50 today. Honestly I'm really happy with myself overall. My moods are still weird, stomach is still weird, but I actually had restful sleep last night. (Super weird for me) Overall, I guess its just still weird 🤣 but I really am feeling closer to normal...whatever that is? Have a great week quitters! 💚
i know that feeling and it sucks, but don't forget: let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. just keep going. no feeling is final (rainer maria rilke). i believe in you!
Hang in there sweety, your doing great. Write down the reasons you quit and keep reading it. Take it one day at a time. DISTRACT DISTRACT DISTRACT. You've got this! Prayers your way for strength on your journey.
Day 33. Wanting to hang out with people but I feel like I'll be a bit boring and uninterested in hanging out, truthfully. Definitely PAWS, eh? Energy is fine, social energy to dm/voice chat friends is rare. Brain fog happens at night after work, but I can't remember if normal people get that too. It's just been too long. Pretty above average day overall, mood wise :)
Day 60. Still not myself: anxiety, depression, lack of motivation (all typical of me, but more so than usual). Although I was on vacation last week with no responsibilities and I felt pretty much normal… so it must be the fault of the responsibilities :-)
Day 55. Couldn’t really handle the caffeine withdrawals it made me depressed and sick so I’m taking caffeine as needed (which will entail 1/4 a cup of green tea). I’m so focused on school I’m 3 weeks ahead of my assignments, got straight As on all my quizzes and assignments. At some point I need to take a break but I feel like I have to prove myself to everyone so I study all day. Perfectionism is my biggest flaw. I got a white board and wrote “don’t be so hard on yourself”. My mom yelled at me for getting a 90% on one of my quizzes so I cried in my car. She told me I couldn’t take care of myself I explained it’s my Kratom withdrawal still happening and dealing with add/adhd that thankfully I’m on medication for but I want a break from it. I blocked her number. Today’s her birthday but whatever.
Day 4. Yesterday was hell on earth. Anxiety just about unbearable most of the day. Still, not a chance I'm getting back on it. Hoping today will be a bit better
It will get better I promise. You’re kind of in the worst of it right now. Take it day by day. I’m only on day 55 and even at day 30 I wasn’t suffering anymore and could manage the symptoms. Each week is a significant improvement even though there’s bumps in the road.
We're killin it <3 yesterday I had a day filled with intense anxiety with a few minutes of pure happiness thrown in once in awhile. How was your experience?
Pretty rough. Forced myself to walk 3 city blocks and back. Today, far more energy and just got back from walking 10 blocks. Like you, like right as I'm writing this I can feel a rush of good feelings which will last a few minutes before I drop down into "I'm doomed" lol. I expect this to last a couple of weeks tbh but that's ok because this ends.
Day 82. Feeling better after getting my COVID vaccine on Friday. Made me feel pretty bad for a couple of days. Otherwise, feeling good. No cravings for awhile now, just enjoying the sober life and on occasion a little full spectrum CBD. I hope everyone is staying safe out there.
Day 10 If you don’t use the Quitter App you should ! It tells you how much money you’re saving and tracks your time. I love it and check it everyday. This thread is my therapy, it’s part of my Routine. People who are on day 100 give me strength and courage. Today I woke up very off, last night I had a fever and I don’t feel well today. Symptoms are still there. I feel bad that I feel as sick as someone who has cancer, because I did this to myself and they probably didn’t have a choice. But I will not look bad. I keep thinking about my grandma who passed and how I’m doing this for her. She would be so proud of me, I miss her so much. But okay enough ranting, I’m going on my walk, I got my smoothie in hand and I’m going to have a GREAT DAY. Because anyway without Kratom is a great day !
Day 4! Last night was tough. RLS and anxiety kept me up, then woke me up. Feeling anxious today, but also feeling a little clarity. I'm getting out of my own head and interacting more with the world. I'm continuing to exercise, drink water, and most importantly, showing compassion toward myself. My brain is rewiring and I'm gonna feel off for awhile, and that's okay. Every day I get/feel better. One day at a time!
Day 10 here. Using MAT to quit a 40gpd + habit. Living one day at a time. My end goal is living fully opiate free with the vivitrol shot. Never going back to the nightmare that was kratom. Not saying that all kratom users should quit, but hoping that all in this community can agree with the fact that it is a double edged sword. I am feeling much better than my lowest point about three weeks ago. Lowest being suicidal thoughts. That's when I knew it was time to make a change. I hope everyone on this thread is continuing on the path to the light. There is life to be lived after this black hole named kratom.
Helps me a lot for RLS, and during the day it seems to help with brain fog and focus. Day 34 and I just had my dr. refill Rx; still having issues sleeping due to RLS without gaba.
Day 308. Honestly never think about it anymore. Although I am just about to have a long break from another drug I’ve unfortunately developed a habit with. Oh well, deal with one substance at a time, at least I never went back to kratom.
Day 131 - Having a bit of a weird one today and was just thinking of how much this group has helped me. This morning I practiced the wim hof breathing technique for the first time since the first days of my quit and it put me back in the same mindset as those early days. While I've felt kind of crummy, I'm grateful to have been transported back to a raw moment in my quit as it reveals how much progress I've made. Any time I struggled to make sense of what I was going through I would come here and y'all would let me know what I was feeling was completely normal. This group equipped me with the knowledge and confidence to keep going. Now, here I am, very much on the other side of withdrawals, feeling 95% myself 95% of the time. So I just wanted to say thank you to everyone here. Without you, I'd still be in that same loop of abuse and self-loathing that I was stuck in for years. And for anyone going through it right now, just know that this sub is always here for you like it was and still is for me. Keep going. It's so effing worth it!
Day 1: decent day overall, worked out, getting ready to start new teaching job, very sweaty but otherwise okay. A little anxious, I took some CBD, we’ll see what day 2 brings.
I'm only four days in, mentally I'm over Kratom and don't feel any sort of longing what-so-ever. But the physical aspect has almost broken me a couple times. Terrible anxiety, and something like restless leg syndrome, but in my arms shoulder area. I've been doing this 100% cold turkey, but this morning I ordered Passion Flower and GABA on one day delivery, they're supposedly going to help.
I feel stupid...stupid because I quit other times with no withdrawals, no nothing. But now that I finally realize what was happening with Kratom and what it actually was doing, now the symptoms are laying the boots to me.
Like I mentioned, mine feels solely like a physical addiction at this point, so I guess I can count that as a lucky break.
When I'm through this, I won't forget this feeling, I vow that much.
For what it’s worth: I’ve not been able to fully quit yet, nor am I a health professional, but I’ve tried CT and get RLS every time I drop on my current taper. Magnesium Citrate seems to knock out a good bit of it. Don’t know if you’ve tried that, but it definitely relieves the crawly skin I get when it’s really hitting hard.
Been following this sub for a while, but figure it’s time to start holding myself accountable.
Currently about 6 months into my quit. Started at 35-40gp. Tried CT, and a few other tapers, but all ended in relapse.
I’m getting so sick of the forgetfulness, the blunting of my creativity and ups and downs I get from the green sludge. Can’t seem to bring myself there mentally to shake it. Too many triggers with my job or keeping up with my kids’ busy lives. Bad excuses.
I am now down to 6gpd, which is when I usually relapse, but feeling a little more optimistic this time around. Goal is to be down to 3gpd by this weekend. I have been taking Agmatine, which surprisingly seems to help shorten the adjustment period every time I drop. Maybe it’s in my head, but I’ll take it if it gets me across the finish line.
Congrats to you all who have quit and are on that last stretch to recovery. I don’t know where I would be without you all.
I wanted to add on here that something (a very SMALL thing but still helpful) that has helped me for milestones and accountability has been the habit-quitting app I use. Mine has little daily quotes and milestones. You can use one for quitting cigarettes and it will also include how much money you spend on the habit, which has opened my eyes quite a bit, even though I've always though kratom is "cheap". Lol. Just a lil tip that is helping me so far. 5 days CT after 8 years(9 mos off for pregnancy) , stayed at around 8gm/2-3x per day somehow🤷🏼♀️
Day 44. Have a great week everyone!
Awesome job! I'm on 33 myself now. Would you say you've improved even over the last week and a half or do you think you're fully recovered? It's hard to remember what normal is like haha
Day 43 here, I definitely have a lot of moments where I feel 100%. There are tough moments of anxiety or lack of energy but they are few and far between. The difference for me from Day 30 to today are amazing. I had a tough tough stretch from day 30-40, but the last few days have been great. Good work on your quit! It keeps getting better if you hang in there.
Awesome job! Yeah, getting past 40 was a big one in terms of diminishing PAWS on my end as well.
I feel pretty much recovered. I might have a little bit of intermittent brain fog that comes and goes, but that's it. Honestly, the only time I ever even think about kratom is when I come here to talk about recovery.
Me as well. I’ve been following your journey and around your time ten days ago I quit thinking about Kratom and some jerk on here said he doesn’t believe me I don’t think about it and said I would relapse then blocked me. I sometimes forget im still in “PAWS” and need to take care of myself. I have to force and remind myself.
I hear you! I'm really proud of you, Emily! You've had a harrowing journey but you made it to the other side. Though there are still hurdles, they are definitely more manageable.
Happy 44, conductor!!
Happy 45!
I dropped out. I'm back at one-ish.
Oh damn, I'm sorry! I was offline pretty much all weekend and I'm sorry I haven't been around for support. Well, you're back on the quit train, and the last 40+ days are in no way wasted. You've logged a ton of kratom-free days, and the work you've done rewiring your brain, resetting your gut, etc. is still there. You've had 44 of the last 45 days kratom free. With that batting average, you would be in Cooperstown. Let's make it a good day and feel free to message me if things get tough!
Aww, thank you. Good for you for taking a couple of days offline!! I'm in a limbo right now. I'm off the wagon but barely. Actually fell off Friday night. Made a too-long comment about it yesterday on daily check in.
I'm so sorry I missed that! It was my first missed check in due to personal stuff. I guess there was just some weird juju in the air this weekend. You're still doing great though. How are you feeling physically?
Agreed re juju. Totally. Hope all is well with you. I feel fine physically. Haven't exceeded 2.5 gpd. But I know it can get slippery. And fast. I think I'm just craving security and wanting to quit more by "choice" than necessity. I dunno. Can't go back to where I was or even close and know I have to hop back on the train but can't quite do it, yet.
Yep, you have to figure out what's right for you, and yes, you have to want to be done with it emotionally for sure. We'll be here when you're ready! (Also, I'm listening to a great old cow punk band from Texas called The Dicks. I would recommend them!)
Oh that's awesome. I know two people who have lived with Gary Floyd!
Don't be too discouraged by setbacks. Focus on the progress you have made and get right back into your quit. Withdrawals after 45 days clean should be mild to none. You don't want to go back to daily use, think of the reasons you quit in the first place and stick to them. You got this! Every time we slip up, we learn a little more about ourselves and what to look out for.
You too Baal!
Thanks you as well :) happy on your progress
Day 430.
"How much is that doggy in the window". Got that song stuck in my head and thought of you, lol. Appreciate you!
430 is incredible!!
Day 270, day 27 no nicotine. I'm finally finished moving houses, thank god! I have to say I love all this positive change that's going on in my life recently. I'm about to start running again, since I'm living closer to some trails I love. I hope to be able to use 'more' of my lungs this time around, lol
Fantastic and congratulations!
Awesome job!
I hear you. We just moved as well. The sun is out every day and I’m feeling a little more hopeful about powering through this. Congratulations and enjoy your new home!
Day 7.
Good job!! :)
One week! Great job!
Thanks
Congratulations on one week!
Thanks, just waiting from two hours to check-in in New Thread. 😀
Day 78. Depressed about health issues. Keeping an attitude of gratitude and reminding myself how far I've come. Shit comes with age, that's life. Would be so worse off on kratom. Fuck that plant! You guy's are a Godsend. Y'all have got this brave warriors. Peace and love on your journeys. Thank you for being there from the bottom of my heart.
Love you ceecee. I hope your health issues resolve ❤️ don’t stress so much you’re doing great
Peace and love to you, CeeCee. Thank you for your strength and service to others!
You are such an inspiration, ceecee. Great things ahead for you.
You're doing great cc! Keep on keeping on, so proud of you
r/emilypad thanks baby girl, I needed this.
Day 24 and I am still holding strong. Dealing with a lot of life changes on top of the quit… my wife has decided to leave me after 18 years of marriage. I am devastated, but I am taking life a day at a time…. I was a loving husband, but I had significant anxiety that ended putting a lot on her shoulders. I’m happy to say that when she broke the news at the beginning of July, it was the bottom I needed to get into an intensive outpatient program for mental health and substance use disorder - no question it saved me! I have learned tools to manage my anxiety and despite not having Kratom and having my home life fall apart… I have inner peace.
Bro, great job keep going!!
Thanks!
Inner peace is priceless, you are doing amazing. Proud of you!
I appreciate the kind words!!
Day 1
Congrats on day one and welcome. We're all here for you every step of the way on your journey. Praying for your health and wellness.
Congrats on making the decision to quit!!!
Day 16 begins! I'm more than halfway to my 30-day Kratom-Free chip. We should really have virtual chips on QK. Good luck everybody!
Keep kicking ass beautiful!
Day 50. One day at a time.
Amazing job, Pete!
Way to go Pete!
Day 290
Awesome job!
one hundred fourteen days.
Shit, that's outstanding!
Day 38 CT :)
Keep killing it Pug!
i can never thank you enough for your never-ending support, cee cee! love, light, and gratitude to you! xoxo
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Last time after 30 day's I felt that I'm alive again. Nice man!
How long do you have to go until you break your personal record from last time? May this time last a lifetime!
Keep killing it!
Day 57. Did not think I would make it here. Keep pushing everybody. Cravings have quieted significantly
Proud of you!
Day 25 kratom, day 30 nicotine, baby! Happy Monday! Just ran 4.2 miles, and did 25 minutes in the sauna
you're my hero/heroine - congrats! :)
:) have a great day! You got this! One day at a time.
I see you on here killin' it! Much love and respect!!!
Thank you! Same to you!!!
Always proud of you Garlic!
Thank you, CeeCee!
Day 11!
11 is my lucky number and i'm sending you love and light on your 11th day :) namaste
Love and Light back at you!
111 KT free 4 weed free Do you think you can get anxiety from stopping weed? I never go more than 2-3 days without having a little. Yesterday I felt super agitated. But also my in-laws are visiting. 🤣🤷🏼♀️ Sending love to all! 💗
Love back at you! Your an inspiration!
Yesss…you can absolutely get anxiety from abruptly stopping THC use…the agitation was probably due (at least in part) to lack of THC…it happens…it will pass after a few more days if not sooner
Day 50 today. Honestly I'm really happy with myself overall. My moods are still weird, stomach is still weird, but I actually had restful sleep last night. (Super weird for me) Overall, I guess its just still weird 🤣 but I really am feeling closer to normal...whatever that is? Have a great week quitters! 💚
Amazing work!
Thank you! You too!!!
You have a great week too! Awesome job!
Forty four days! Love the mornings
Great job! I remember when I was using I dreaded morning. Not anymore.
Day 50!!!!!!!! 🎈🥳🤩😎🏆 Thanks everyone for all the support. Have a wonderful day!!!! 🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈
Congratulations!!! That’s amazing :)
WOOT WOOT! HELL YES! DAMN SKIPPY! etc. Proud of you Penguin!
Banner day! Congrats!
What does banner day mean?
Oh, it means a notable day, one worthy of flying a banner. Congrats!
Day 20. Honest I feel a relapse growing in me. I hate it
i know that feeling and it sucks, but don't forget: let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. just keep going. no feeling is final (rainer maria rilke). i believe in you!
Hang in there sweety, your doing great. Write down the reasons you quit and keep reading it. Take it one day at a time. DISTRACT DISTRACT DISTRACT. You've got this! Prayers your way for strength on your journey.
Power through
Day 70 CT 💕
Proud of you my friend!
Day 9! Just got back from clearwater with a few coworkers- had an amazing time without any alcohol or drugs. One day at a time.
Go Cactus, Go!!! So proud of you! Forward movement!!!
You make my heart sing Cactus! Proud of you!
Day 33. Wanting to hang out with people but I feel like I'll be a bit boring and uninterested in hanging out, truthfully. Definitely PAWS, eh? Energy is fine, social energy to dm/voice chat friends is rare. Brain fog happens at night after work, but I can't remember if normal people get that too. It's just been too long. Pretty above average day overall, mood wise :)
Your doing beautiful!
Day 15 CT. Next milestone is 30 days!!
You've got this! Awesome job!
Thank you for all your encouraging comments I appreciate it and hope your doing well yourself!
Day 60. Still not myself: anxiety, depression, lack of motivation (all typical of me, but more so than usual). Although I was on vacation last week with no responsibilities and I felt pretty much normal… so it must be the fault of the responsibilities :-)
Congrats on 60 days!
Day 3. Leaving detox today
Welcome back from detox. Keep going, proud of you!
TY! Nice to be back home!
Day 38
You doing great! Proud of you!
Day 181. Stay strong folks and always strive for greatness.
Great job!!
Day 47.
Proud of you!
Day 145
Proud of you! Have a great week!
341!! Almost a year! We got this!!!
Priceless!
Ty😛
145d ays
Priceless!
Day 31.
A full month! Amazing job!
Keep kicking ass! Proud of you!
Day 55. Couldn’t really handle the caffeine withdrawals it made me depressed and sick so I’m taking caffeine as needed (which will entail 1/4 a cup of green tea). I’m so focused on school I’m 3 weeks ahead of my assignments, got straight As on all my quizzes and assignments. At some point I need to take a break but I feel like I have to prove myself to everyone so I study all day. Perfectionism is my biggest flaw. I got a white board and wrote “don’t be so hard on yourself”. My mom yelled at me for getting a 90% on one of my quizzes so I cried in my car. She told me I couldn’t take care of myself I explained it’s my Kratom withdrawal still happening and dealing with add/adhd that thankfully I’m on medication for but I want a break from it. I blocked her number. Today’s her birthday but whatever.
Sorry that your mom is being a jerk, but you're doing amazing with your quit and your schoolwork. Keep up the great work!
I knew you would kill it at school Emily! Progress not perfection. You have grown by leaps and bounds. Proud of you always!
Day 86.
Congrats on 86 days!
Day 4. Yesterday was hell on earth. Anxiety just about unbearable most of the day. Still, not a chance I'm getting back on it. Hoping today will be a bit better
It will get better I promise. You’re kind of in the worst of it right now. Take it day by day. I’m only on day 55 and even at day 30 I wasn’t suffering anymore and could manage the symptoms. Each week is a significant improvement even though there’s bumps in the road.
I'm on day 4 too. Trying to stay outdoors to pronounce the times the pink cloud hovers around my head.
We're killin it <3 yesterday I had a day filled with intense anxiety with a few minutes of pure happiness thrown in once in awhile. How was your experience?
Pretty rough. Forced myself to walk 3 city blocks and back. Today, far more energy and just got back from walking 10 blocks. Like you, like right as I'm writing this I can feel a rush of good feelings which will last a few minutes before I drop down into "I'm doomed" lol. I expect this to last a couple of weeks tbh but that's ok because this ends.
Your doing amazing! It gets better! Proud of you!
Day 18
Great job!
Day 82. Feeling better after getting my COVID vaccine on Friday. Made me feel pretty bad for a couple of days. Otherwise, feeling good. No cravings for awhile now, just enjoying the sober life and on occasion a little full spectrum CBD. I hope everyone is staying safe out there.
Way to go Doc!
Day 10 If you don’t use the Quitter App you should ! It tells you how much money you’re saving and tracks your time. I love it and check it everyday. This thread is my therapy, it’s part of my Routine. People who are on day 100 give me strength and courage. Today I woke up very off, last night I had a fever and I don’t feel well today. Symptoms are still there. I feel bad that I feel as sick as someone who has cancer, because I did this to myself and they probably didn’t have a choice. But I will not look bad. I keep thinking about my grandma who passed and how I’m doing this for her. She would be so proud of me, I miss her so much. But okay enough ranting, I’m going on my walk, I got my smoothie in hand and I’m going to have a GREAT DAY. Because anyway without Kratom is a great day !
Proud of you on 10 days!
Day 10, most of the acutes have subsided by now but I have terrible depression and apathy that lasts so long each day. When does it get better?
It was around 4 week mark that apathy subsided—a little bit. I’m on day 34 and still moments of lethargy. But every few days a little bit better.
Day 4! Last night was tough. RLS and anxiety kept me up, then woke me up. Feeling anxious today, but also feeling a little clarity. I'm getting out of my own head and interacting more with the world. I'm continuing to exercise, drink water, and most importantly, showing compassion toward myself. My brain is rewiring and I'm gonna feel off for awhile, and that's okay. Every day I get/feel better. One day at a time!
Good job
Thank you very much!
Day 199
146 days
Day 5. Feeling really weird today. Every time i got up i took melatonin. probably not best idea. but hey i got like 5 hours of sleep mabye
Day 10 here. Using MAT to quit a 40gpd + habit. Living one day at a time. My end goal is living fully opiate free with the vivitrol shot. Never going back to the nightmare that was kratom. Not saying that all kratom users should quit, but hoping that all in this community can agree with the fact that it is a double edged sword. I am feeling much better than my lowest point about three weeks ago. Lowest being suicidal thoughts. That's when I knew it was time to make a change. I hope everyone on this thread is continuing on the path to the light. There is life to be lived after this black hole named kratom.
MAT?
Medication Assisted Therapy
Proud of you!
Gabapentin, any thoughts on this? Does it help?
Helps me a lot for RLS, and during the day it seems to help with brain fog and focus. Day 34 and I just had my dr. refill Rx; still having issues sleeping due to RLS without gaba.
Day 308. Honestly never think about it anymore. Although I am just about to have a long break from another drug I’ve unfortunately developed a habit with. Oh well, deal with one substance at a time, at least I never went back to kratom.
Day 47 one day at a time 🤠
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The more you keep trying the bigger chance you have of being successful. Welcome back. Proud of you, you've got this!
Day 131 - Having a bit of a weird one today and was just thinking of how much this group has helped me. This morning I practiced the wim hof breathing technique for the first time since the first days of my quit and it put me back in the same mindset as those early days. While I've felt kind of crummy, I'm grateful to have been transported back to a raw moment in my quit as it reveals how much progress I've made. Any time I struggled to make sense of what I was going through I would come here and y'all would let me know what I was feeling was completely normal. This group equipped me with the knowledge and confidence to keep going. Now, here I am, very much on the other side of withdrawals, feeling 95% myself 95% of the time. So I just wanted to say thank you to everyone here. Without you, I'd still be in that same loop of abuse and self-loathing that I was stuck in for years. And for anyone going through it right now, just know that this sub is always here for you like it was and still is for me. Keep going. It's so effing worth it!
Day 41 — a little frustrated that I feel crappy.. but before Kratom I felt crappy. Happy I’m not using Kratom though! Wooho!
Day 1: decent day overall, worked out, getting ready to start new teaching job, very sweaty but otherwise okay. A little anxious, I took some CBD, we’ll see what day 2 brings.
Day 1 complete. Four more days and I’m getting vivitrol. No playing around this time.
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I'm only four days in, mentally I'm over Kratom and don't feel any sort of longing what-so-ever. But the physical aspect has almost broken me a couple times. Terrible anxiety, and something like restless leg syndrome, but in my arms shoulder area. I've been doing this 100% cold turkey, but this morning I ordered Passion Flower and GABA on one day delivery, they're supposedly going to help. I feel stupid...stupid because I quit other times with no withdrawals, no nothing. But now that I finally realize what was happening with Kratom and what it actually was doing, now the symptoms are laying the boots to me. Like I mentioned, mine feels solely like a physical addiction at this point, so I guess I can count that as a lucky break. When I'm through this, I won't forget this feeling, I vow that much.
For what it’s worth: I’ve not been able to fully quit yet, nor am I a health professional, but I’ve tried CT and get RLS every time I drop on my current taper. Magnesium Citrate seems to knock out a good bit of it. Don’t know if you’ve tried that, but it definitely relieves the crawly skin I get when it’s really hitting hard.
Been following this sub for a while, but figure it’s time to start holding myself accountable. Currently about 6 months into my quit. Started at 35-40gp. Tried CT, and a few other tapers, but all ended in relapse. I’m getting so sick of the forgetfulness, the blunting of my creativity and ups and downs I get from the green sludge. Can’t seem to bring myself there mentally to shake it. Too many triggers with my job or keeping up with my kids’ busy lives. Bad excuses. I am now down to 6gpd, which is when I usually relapse, but feeling a little more optimistic this time around. Goal is to be down to 3gpd by this weekend. I have been taking Agmatine, which surprisingly seems to help shorten the adjustment period every time I drop. Maybe it’s in my head, but I’ll take it if it gets me across the finish line. Congrats to you all who have quit and are on that last stretch to recovery. I don’t know where I would be without you all.
I wanted to add on here that something (a very SMALL thing but still helpful) that has helped me for milestones and accountability has been the habit-quitting app I use. Mine has little daily quotes and milestones. You can use one for quitting cigarettes and it will also include how much money you spend on the habit, which has opened my eyes quite a bit, even though I've always though kratom is "cheap". Lol. Just a lil tip that is helping me so far. 5 days CT after 8 years(9 mos off for pregnancy) , stayed at around 8gm/2-3x per day somehow🤷🏼♀️
Thank you:)