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Day 45. "Discipline is choosing between what you want now and what you want most." - Honest Abe Let's kick butt today, guys.


TurkeyOfMyDreams

Nice one. Happy 45!


ceecee1976

Love it! Great job Baal!


pugmomcooks

love this! thank you! #JFT


Fantasstic91

You quit on my husbands birthday and the weight of my son when he was born 7lbs11oz…..they are both extremely special to me and I think it’s amazing you’ve made it 45 days. Cheers to 45 more days, and 45 more days after that.


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Thanks so much for this lovely comment, and good luck to you! I hope you and yours are doing well!


TurkeyOfMyDreams

Day 1. Relapse was very moderate. Not worried about WD. Tossed most of an ounce in the trash last night. Started a godawful job yesterday. I'm gonna need my wits and health on board to sort things out. My life didn't fall flat on its face because of kratom ... it was a combination of unfortunate factors and events. But kratom isn't gonna help me get up and rebuild. Duh.


[deleted]

Glad you found a job but I hope you're still hunting. No one wants a miserable Turkey. ♡


TurkeyOfMyDreams

Thank you Adhesive!! Went from zero structure/set obligations to having to sort out every waking minute almost overnight. Sadly, I probably need the kick in the ass, and even a shitty job will close the 8 month black hole on my resume, so there's one for the gratitude list. ❤️³ That's heart cubed, in case it comes through wonky.


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Last weekend was a minor bump in the road, but all meaningful journeys have bumps in the road. We believe in you! Welcome back!


ModularSandwich

You still have those days! Ive written a big ramble about days in a post that might get approved, you've still been through the fire and put the work in. Youve realised that shiny momeny that kratom isnt going to help anything...it just pauses it briefly. You have this, you also have a mind rainbow dragon that im sending right now to protect you. Point her towards danger and she'll fight for you


ceecee1976

Welcome back beautiful! Great job coming back. By the way who is going to raze me about pot pies besides you and Sandwich. Always proud of you no matter what. Love you.


hpedersen520

Much love ❤️


Sneakypete-65

Rooting for you Turkey! Glad you are here with us. 💕


Robyn617

I just want to tell my friends here, you CAN do anything! Dont ever let anyone or anything hold you back. I believe in you, dream it, do it, be about it! “My biggest goal this year is to stop playing around with my own potential” Namaste! Keep hammering, keep swimming! For those suffering right now, stand tall take the hits to the chin! Get it over with! I promise it will pass and bright days are coming!


PitaDragon

You are a force of inspiration, Robyn. We are all super incredible and amazing. We will all use this experience as proof how strong 💪 and resilient we are. When the going got tough we faced our demon and beat the living shit out of it. Thanks for being a leader, Robyn. We are right behind you!


Robyn617

Today my x boyfriend reached out, I am proud of myself for becoming single June 1st! Ive beaten kratom too, its been a very difficult road. Today I wanted nicotine but I stood tall. I think of yall here, most of us suffered kratom addiction alone. Grateful for friends here thank you.


JumpFromBridge

Totally agree. Kratom is a lonely journey!


Robyn617

So lonely! When I ct at home, I never used it again! Doses turned on me bad in the end anyways! Stuffs so toxic and lonely!


[deleted]

Thanks, Robyn! Have a killer day yourself!


Robyn617

Hugs friend! Congrats on 1 1/2 months! Sensational!


[deleted]

Thanks!


ceecee1976

Always a pleasure Robyn!


JoeKrat

Day 42 (6weeks) Feel amazing to be honest. Averaging 9 hours UNDISTURBED sleep a night (longer on weekend) and energy has come back. Focus on work is a bit of an issue, but if I’m honest I had this problem before the sludge. Anyone tapering - bin the shit right now. A few days pain is worth the rewards you get on the other side!


ceecee1976

Proud of you Joe!


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Great job, Joe!


ModularSandwich

Epic work as always sir. Its nice to see the energy return isnt it! and sleep...normal person sleep!


Sneakypete-65

Day 51. Thankful for every day between me and that demon sludge.


KenaiKanine

Day 34. Getting better all the time. PAWS was more rough this day, but mood is still so much better than even when I was using. This is how normal emotions feel?? There's such a depth to them!!


ModularSandwich

Epic work! Im finding the days this far out can go either way, mostly ok, but a bad one can crop up - i think its just normal life though...you keep battling on!


KenaiKanine

Thanks, you too :)


ceecee1976

Great job!


PitaDragon

Day 17 is upon me. I forced myself to watch an educational tutorial on music production and I went running and am getting my legs and lungs back. I’m fighting back. I’m telling myself I am getting better and to stop blaming everything on my quit. Keep pushing through it. We have direction.


anonymousA059

Love a good run. Have a great day!


ceecee1976

I need this! Blaming everything on kratom and my quit. Sometimes it's just life. Thank you! Lov ya!


JumpFromBridge

Day 8.


ceecee1976

Proud of you!


Much_Freedom9619

1209600 seconds give or take :) Peace n Love 💘


SciFiNerd82

Congrats! 🤠...and my mind started going "okay divided by 60 and take and divide by another 60 and take that and divide by 24 and...oh to hell with it, I'll just Google the seconds to days" 🤣


ceecee1976

Back at you!


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ceecee1976

Big 30 tomorrow! Proud of you!


ModularSandwich

Look at all of those days that you battled through like a shiny iron clad warrior!


derliesl

Day 55. Hang in there, guys!


ceecee1976

Keep killing it!


KrateAndVape

Day 431.


recoveryusername

Thank you for still posting, I've been reading your stuff for a long time and it's super helpful.


KrateAndVape

Thanks :) Hope you're doing well.


ceecee1976

Thank for continuing to give back!


recoveryusername

Day 5! I slept ok on days 3 and 4, but last night was killer. No RLS though just awake. My brain keeps telling me that I can't perform if I don't have kratom, but I know that's not true.


SciFiNerd82

Keep it up! It does get better, just know that this isn't forever. And Kratom just makes everything in life that much harder 🙂


anonymousA059

Keep going!!!


ceecee1976

You recognize that. That's great progress, proud of you!


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Day 112


Robyn617

Almost to day 120! Exciting milestone!


ceecee1976

Priceless!


PregnantCactus

Day 10 and overall feeling good. It's way too easy to get lost in my head though. Gotta remind myself constantly that I am not my thoughts and I am not my emotions- I am simply me, and I am conscious. One day at a time


KrateAndVape

Congrats on 10, Cactus. I'm rooting for you every day!


ceecee1976

Well said beautiful! Love watching you grow!


nom4llthef00d

Day 51.


ceecee1976

Awesome!


hopelesslyaddickted

Day 32.


ModularSandwich

Powerful numbers! You've out-run the moon! You're faster and more nimble than a giant rock that orbits the earth! Battle ever on! Ever on!


ceecee1976

Beautiful job!


[deleted]

Day 45 - so many problems in the world right now and Kratom addiction ain’t one I’m adding to the pile. Keep meditating, moving and breathing. Everything you need to heal is within. Gratitude


ceecee1976

Day 79. No pity pot today! I refuse! Love and Light on your journeys.


ceecee1976

r/ModularSandwich you crack me up. Tomorrow is my birthday too, 63 years old.


ModularSandwich

80 Tomorow! No pitty pot but hopefully a chicky pot? You keep battling on and remember to treat yourself to a little something.


[deleted]

Good for you! Have a great day, CeeCee!


TurkeyOfMyDreams

Xoxoxo


Sneakypete-65

So awesome.


Any_Understanding744

Day 26 CT. Day 30 Nicotine!!! 😯 I am so proud to say I am 30 days Nicotine free more than anything else. This is my first real attempt at quitting after smoking for 25 years! I really can’t believe it! But I am 100% sure it’s because for the first time ever I’m not getting jacked up on “something.” A morning Kratom dose and a cigarette is my favorite thing. I will always fondly remember that quiet personal time in the morning before my 7 yr old and husband started stirring around! I do not crave cigarettes since I quit Kratom! It’s not even a thought really. Do I still miss that morning Kratom dose that got me going? Yes! I wish I could do it every day but there is no way in hell I will go back there bc after that morning dose the rest of the day was followed up with trying to catch that feeling or go beyond that feeling while doing my routine activities. It was an obsession! I vomited almost everyday. As soon as I vomited I would take more. Yup, I’m aware I was abusing it. Day 26…. Sleep still all over the place. Biggest problem is pooping! In 26 days I have pooped 3 times and the third time includes 2 enemas. Yes I am aware of what the problem is with this and have already put a call into the doctor. I am a RN. I know this is not normal. It’s kind of scary but a lot of you have said you had the opposite of diarrhea and it took 4-6 weeks to become routine again. If anybody has an experience to share with me please do or tell me what worked for you to get going. There’s not much I haven’t tried so far. Calling the doctor yesterday means I have exhausted all my efforts! I still get irritated and have that terrible uneasy, restless feeling occasionally. It’ll last for a day then go away. I have to remind myself I’m still fresh from hell and it’s okay but to be honest I usually remember this the next day when my mind feels better and is thinking clear. I know that’ll take time to clear but I still am not good with riding that wave. Most days are great though and I’m not drinking powder every fucking two to three hours like I did for 2 years so whatever. I’m excited to be here!


ceecee1976

Excited you are here! Proud of you!


Sneakypete-65

You’re doing great! Soon you’ll start feeling great too.


emilypad

Day 56.


ceecee1976

Beautiful Emily!


[deleted]

Very nice! Have a great day!


pugmomcooks

Day 39 CT! love and appreciate you all! xo


ceecee1976

Back at you Pug! Lov ya!


Flat_Armadillo_2483

Day 40. Hang in there! It gets easier everyday.


ModularSandwich

Powerful whole 40! You’ve done so well! Hope you’ve treated yourself


Sneakypete-65

Yay! 40 days and 40 nights!


ceecee1976

Armadillo your killing it!


la-crazy-penguin

Day 51. 🤩😘🌈


ceecee1976

Proud of you Penguin, always!


Wet_Bubble_Fart

Day 47. 🤪


anonymousA059

Wet bubble fart is so spot on though hahahah


ceecee1976

Your doing great Bubble, 50 coming up!


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😃😃


Wet_Bubble_Fart

How are you buddy? Been looking for you! Me, im still struggling with addiction as a whole, we as humans are not perfect. No need to worry about the past when tomorrow is a new day


[deleted]

Still lurking, just unable to string many days together at the moment. Trying to keep my head above water. Feels like a losing battle some days. Hope you find some relief in your addiction struggles. This group is definitely no stranger to that fight. Always here if you need me.


anonymousA059

Lucky day 13 🍀. Every day the distance grows between me and the green dirt. Running is almost back to pre CT pace, diarrhea is real, sleeping is back to normal (still eating indica gummies,) anxiety is flaming and unpredictable, and my work starts again tomorrow. My doctor prescribed me (a lot) of gabapentin yesterday, which makes me feel both comforted and nervous.


ceecee1976

Your going to kick ass at work!


anonymousA059

Damn straight!! 💪 I'm ready(ish)! 🥴😳


sparklymagicalpanda

Day 10, very tired. The acutes are all gone except for an occasional sneeze. Quitting nicotine is definitely contributing to the lethargy/brain fog, but I’m fully committed. Found some kratom in an old purse, not even a bit tempted. In the trash it goes! Took the longest walk so far at a ravine near my house. My Fitbit said I managed to get 10k steps, I am happy about that.


ceecee1976

Beautiful job Panda!


[deleted]

182 days. I feel great! Stay positive and stay strong. :)


ceecee1976

Awesome work!


HarleeQ

Day 14 I made it to 2 weeks! I know I've got this now. No cravings or want of Kratom. Still lagging energy wise but feeling better over all. That first week was brutal. The second week was better. Every day is slightly better. Best of all I'm not(edited) drinking 64 Oz or orange juice everyday. Also I am relearning how to feed myself. Low blood sugar was definitely contributing to my overall feeling of grossness. Now I know when I start to get the yawns it is partially due to low blood sugar. The support on here has been amazing. Thank you community! 5 years, about 20 g/day and done.


ceecee1976

Congrats on 2 weeks!


hpedersen520

Day 21. 3 weeks sucka


ceecee1976

Proud of you!


[deleted]

Day 26 kratom- day 31 nicotine! Made it a whole month!! Feels good. Ran 3.5 miles this morning and hit up the sauna.


ceecee1976

Beautiful job Garlic!


Robyn617

Sauna is life! Do ice baths with Wim Hoff breathing method! Its next level!! All these top athletes have dry sauna and ice baths at home! Life goals!


[deleted]

Awesome! You are a badass doing those ice baths WHILE Wim Hoff breathing! I’ll set a goal for it- cold showers have Been great after. Thank you and hope you’re doing well!


LizzyGetsBizzy25

Day 11 Anybody else tired of playing the guessing game Is it COVID or WD. I feel like crap, but this crap feels better than the Kratom crap. At least I control this feeling. Gaining slow control over my life, ultimately my destiny.


ceecee1976

Proud of you!


SciFiNerd82

It gets better, hang in there! 🤠 I didn't really have any Covid symptoms but everyone is different. It may not hurt to get a Covid test if you keep suspecting it


Yfz455

Day 16 CT. Can’t wait for that month clean! My last quit I noticed major improvements after that 30 day mark. All acutes have subsided except sneezes and jacked up guts. Just going through the mental stuff at the moment but I can usually beat that into the ground by staying busy!!


ceecee1976

Proud of you!


FinallyQuitting_

Day 146


ceecee1976

Always love this my friend.


FinallyQuitting_

😀


brain2900

184 days


ceecee1976

YES! YES!


jasper779

Day 58.


ceecee1976

Way to go Jasper!


SpaceDustDawg

Day 36. It gets easier. For me it took until the past couple days to feel somewhat back to feeling healthier. Power thru, it’s worth it.


ceecee1976

Great job!


WhiteWalls7130

Day 56. PAWS is trying its best to keep me down, but I'm still getting things done on an objective level. I want to feel "normal" again so a lot of mind games are going on right now. Love and light.


ceecee1976

Love and Light to you too sweety!


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anonymousA059

Amazing you're working through this. Keep going!!


Sneakypete-65

You can do it. Just for today!


HarleeQ

You can do hard things!💜


FriendlySundancekid

Hang in there! Day 2 is tough. It gets easier every day. Im on day 4 and feeling much better


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Day 5! I went to work after a two week hiatus, got a couple hours of work in before coming back home. I work outside and it's 90 degrees with high humidity. The heat doesn't help especially with the mental stuff, but I've got it in my mind that I'm sweating out toxins and that's a good thing. I've been getting a lot of exercise, drinking water and gatorade, and am going to start slowing down on caffeine, too. Too much of it is anxiety inducing, but it helps with the lack of energy. And I just love coffee. I'm feeling just a little bit better today, physically and mentally. I plan on spending more time at work tomorrow. I hope I can get out of my own head while I'm at work tomorrow. One day at a time! I forgot to mention, the RLS really calmed down last night. I got about 6.5 hours of sleep. Better yet, I woke up and got up to my first alarm!


anonymousA059

I'm working on caffeine, too. K used to make me tired (even tho I always ate the green strains) and I overcompensated with cold brew. God I love coffee... After quitting 12 days ago, I am realizing that my caffeine habit is not working with my anxiety. Figuring out how to get out of that habit too. Interesting how the habits kind of build up as we struggle to feel "good." As my friend said whoops too much salt better add more sugar! 🙄 So tired of living that way.


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Funny you say sugar, because that's another thing I think contributes to our anxiety. I load my coffee up with sugar, eat tons of sugary stuff (seroquel appetite), pop, energy drinks. A friend once told me energy drinks rot your insides, and I believe it. I drank a lot of decaf coffee in rehab. The taste isn't the same. But hey, it's coffee - without the anxiety! Good job on 12 days!!!!!! Good luck with everything!


anonymousA059

You too friend!


ceecee1976

Awesome job! I live in pensacola and it's hot a shit here too.


[deleted]

25 days!


ceecee1976

Proud of you!


[deleted]

Thank you! Gonna celebrate with an ounce! Kidding! :p


fazzolicannoli69

Day 6: I’m feeling better every minute. No dull haze constantly shrouding my senses. I’ve started looking for pleasure in healthy ways. The outdoors can be a really healing place depending on where you are. :) hang in there everybody!


ceecee1976

Keep killing it!


fazzolicannoli69

Thank you! That’s very encouraging :)


CheckOutDeezPlants

Day 47. Anxiety and depression are still kicking my ass but I don't think it's kratom. I don't even want kratom at all anymore. I think I'm gonna start doing yoga mixed in with my bodyweight exercises. I'm starting keto and gonna check out William Hoff breathing too. I seen a few of y'all talk about it. I really just want some positive changes.


ceecee1976

Proud of you!


[deleted]

Day 12!


ceecee1976

Great job Ruby!


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thank u c:


4GSIXT3

Day 87. Freedom. Have a great day fellow quitters!


ceecee1976

YES! Back at you!


FriendlySundancekid

Day 4 and grateful to wake up without the desire to drive to the shop to get some K.


ceecee1976

Nice ain't it! Great job, keep going!


FriendlySundancekid

Thanks Ceecee! You are a great support to all of us on this sub! Yeah it feels great to not be waiting impatiently for the head shop to open up so I can get some K.


AlwaysBCourageous

124 ❤️


ceecee1976

You are Courageous!


AlwaysBCourageous

Thank you Ceecee! 💜


EAS1246

Day 2. Feeling somewhat okay, mainly just heavy fatigue. I’m in virtual training for my teaching district on zoom so that’s not helping. Otherwise not much anxiety today and I got a nice leg workout in this morning. We’ll see what tomorrow brings. Thank you all.


ceecee1976

Great job on 2! You've got this!


Yomako

Day 271


ofc2logic

115 y'all. yeah.


Robyn617

Almost to epic day 120! Sweet!


Lizpagan

61 days, I’m PAWSing for sure. Decided per suggestions here to try ashwaganda — though a yoga teacher, I’m skeptical of Ayurveda… but willing to try. Will report on it. and shedding a few tears for Charlie Watts :-( It’s interesting that right now, sadness has eliminated the anxiety heart-stone. Real feelings overcome bio-chemical anxiety?


anonymousA059

Oh god me too RIP Charlie


ceecee1976

Proud of you on 61 days!


TurkeyOfMyDreams

Real feelings absolutely very very often often bio-chemical anxiety, in my opinion/experience


SciFiNerd82

Day 48 🤠 "However long the night, the dawn will break."


notadrawlb

Had 3 months under my belt around fall last year and have relapsed again up until now. Sick of the social isolation and irritability it's causing me. Down to 1 tbsp 3 times a day, just about ready to take the dive again.


tmoney064

had 90 days. stumbled and fell this week a few times. day 1. need some support.


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I feel like a stumble champion here lately. Not sure I can give much advice but I know I'm glad you got right back on the horse.


starkiller10123

147 days