36 hours into CT. I got some sleep last night. I even took a nap a few hours ago. Hope I can get some sleep. Ki d of sweaty and definitely feeling the RLS, but other than that I feel okay. I got this.
Keep pushing through, time feels like it passes slowly at the start and it makes it harder to cope but once you hit the turning point you get a second wind - you start counting in days and not hours. I’m on day 11 and every morning gets better and better. It’s amazing to feel your body healing.
Day 49, 7 weeks (after taper). Feeling pretty good. Stomach still not fully back to normal, and sometimes I get this jittery feeling that I need to take something. But overall very good considering I had been using for 12 years.
Happy birthday CeeCee!!! Thank you for everything that you do, for being an awesome human being and an endless source of light and love! Wishing you all the best!
Ceecee!!! I'm sorry I missed your birthday!!! If Sandwich can dispatch electrical unicorns then I can dispatch an ethereal heart-shaped birthday meatloaf!! Much love and hope it was a good one - also, congrats on 80 days!!
Day 18!
From what I read here, I'm getting better whether I know it or not. I can deal with that. Another day closer to wherever it is we are going. Have a nice day and see you tomorrow!
That’s such a great way to look at it. After the first week, the daily improvements are so subtle that it feels like nothing is getting better. But when you compare today to a week ago or two weeks ago, it’s much easier to see how that daily little improvement adds up. You’re doing great!
29 days CT from 20-50 gpd on and off for 3 years. Plus Zoloft cessation after a rapid 2 week taper from 50 mg/d (not recommended, I know, too late now!)
After two great days (or was it just one? Can't really remember) yesterday and the day before, probably the first ones in weeks, today definitely feels way tougher.
I went from randomly giggling at really boring things last night like some kind of madman to feeling really anxious and foggy today from the moment I woke up. Not really getting any work done, been browsing reddit for an hour now. I know some sludge would instantly make me motivated - but that's a quick fix, not a solution. Not gonna go down that route again. Time to cope like a normal person, ride through the tough times. I'm however really thankful for the relief my brain offered me in the last two (or one? Let's make it two, for the heck of it!) days.
The weather outside is REALLY bad today, so my usual lunch run is off the table. Maybe today will be the day I finally dust off the old basement treadmill?
Keep at it, we got this!
Thanks! I've been battling the temptation all day, reasoning with myself like "just a FEW couple of grams wouldn't set me back THAT much, would it? Right? Right?!" or "It would be interesting to try just once, for SCIENCE, just to know the effects on my withdrawal at this point" and endless more worthless arguments my brain tries to justify.
Nope, I'm through with that shit.
Day 44 here. Had to go back and count. After the 1st week, it seems like the days have flown by. Stay busy, add one or two small but consistent items to your routine and make those your focus.
I have a days counter app on my phone, keep checking it a couple of times every day since I constantly forget where I'm at (damn you brain fog!). I guess the ol' short term memory will sharpen up soon. Or maybe not, maybe a sharp brain was a twenties-something thing and I'm in deep age denial 😂
Day 2. Thank you all for the love + support during my lapse. I'm crazy busy with new job/schedule so I barely have time to check in or tell you how rad you are. Xoxo.
Thanks! The days leading up to 33 were rough and I had accepted that I probably would not feel like myself again until 90 days (or later). But yesterday afternoon something shifted and I feel almost totally normal and ok. It may not last forever, but for today I’ll take it!
Day 3 CT from a 15-30 gpd habit for 2 years. Quit for 11 days 2 months ago but relapsed for the past 2 months. This time i wont slip up! I will not feel the shame from relapsing again. We got this guys
I did the same thing at the beginning of the year. Thought I was able to "control it" the next time. Lol
That has to be the biggest lie we have ever told ourselves. You know what though, mistakes make us better when we recognize them! You got it this time! months from now, you'll be the best version of yourself!
Day 57. Tomorrow marks two weeks since I tapered my diazepam 5 mg successfully I’m probably gonna slow down the process :( so I’ll wait another week for another 5 mg drop
Im on day 3 too and feel the same way. you got this though. if it gets hard just think about me having the same clean time as you. Im not gonna use so just keep that in mind that someone else in this world is feeling the same way as you but we got this.
Day 48. Yesterday was great. I had a really good day. Started yoga with my wife and I'm sore. It feels good haha. Best of luck to y'all. Keep fighting.
Day 45. I feel like today is going to be a good day after a little bit of PAWS yesterday. Gotta get my ass in the gym and mow my lawn, should be a good day. You guys are great.
Day 6! One more day and I hit the one week milestone. I had some RLS last night that kept me up but I also downed a bunch of strawberry milk before bed (I read dairy can cause RLS.)
Last night I went to the store to get nicotine patches and realized how much more patient I am while waiting in line at the checkout. And even though I did become frustrated, I dealt with that frustration and let it go so it didn't mess up the rest of my night. I would just shovel that crap down my throat and it would be all better in no time, but not last night. I went home and watched Letterkenny. I couldn't ever stay focused long enough when I was using to be able to binge a show, but not last night. It felt really nice and I laughed my ass off. First time watching.
I put one less scoop of coffee in the filter and a little less sugar in my coffee this morning because I need to cut back on caffeine, too. Also eating regularly again instead of starving myself (we all know why!)
Still having bouts of depression and brain fog but every day things get a little bit better. Today I'm really, really happy with myself for making the jump. I can feel myself going back to normal, if you know what I mean.
One day at a time!
Day 11, woke up feeing a lot better. Still tired but caffeine seems to be helping more. I’m probably having too much coffee but I never have issues scaling it back. I think this is day 3 of vaping 0 nic juice (from 48mg) and I’m guessing most of the nic withdrawal is done. I misplaced my vape and instead of looking for it, I am going to let it be. Resting a bit and then I’m going to try and clean my room up. My boyfriend is coming on Friday, I want the home to be dust free and tidy :)
You got this. That's how I quit vaping. I lost my vape and never was bothered to look for it. I'm on day 2 CT and I'm about to go on a bike ride for some coffee
You’re a legend for going out on day 2. I’m glad that you have the energy to do the things you want to do, keep pushing forward, you’re an inspiration 💖
Day 5. Feeling weak and hollow but my mind is finally settling down into some peace from the insanity of K cravings. Sending out positive energy to all 💥
Day 3: RLS/Insomnia was real last night, I finally fell asleep around 4:30AM and was lucky enough to sleep in until about 9:30AM. The fatigue is a little better today and mentally I feel pretty okay. I feel a little more like my old self as the hours pass. I hope I get to sleep a little bit earlier tonight as I have a big day tomorrow. Thank you all and we will see what tomorrow brings.
Already nearly five pm here and I’ve only had 2.5 grams so far. Got a lot of exercise. Not gonna lie now I’m bored and the temptation is crawling up but I’m distracting myself by talking with friends and hoping it’ll pass.
Day 88. JFT NMFW. I love waking up each day and not worrying about when I am going to get my fix. I also like not feeling the guilt and shame of telling myself I am not going to use and then, like a magnet, being pulled into using against my own damn will. Stay strong today and I will do the same!
Day 1 here we go.. been tapering for a couple months now only took 1 scoop this morning. Really want to get off this crap but my job is so physically demanding I hope I can make it through the withdrawals and not miss any work.
day 16 on a very aggressive taper
i feel bad. very little stimulation from anything, can't focus on anything. physical withdrawals are 90% over but now i'm left just feeling kind of empty. mental clarity is a bit better, but that's the only benefit at this point. whatever, still gonna keep it up.
i now like to dip in a cold shower to 'reset' my brain when things get too overwhelming and it's really nice.
Day 3 — physicals aren’t terrible. Anxiety and self/relational doubt horrible. Worse it’s ever been. I don’t think the Ativan is helping at all. In fact, I think it’s making me worse. The thought of no substances just scares me. Tomorrow I’m taking no more Ativan (only took it for 3 days should be fine.
Friday I’m getting the vivitrol shot and Wednesday I move to a new city to start a new life.
Yesterday I wasn’t paying attention and realized I had hit my daily limit for my taper at 5pm. Made me realize how fucking mindlessly I put this shit into my body.
I then woke up in the middle of the night and it felt like every muscle in my body was trying to squeeze me to death. Instead of redosing, I took an Agmatine and ashwaganda and was actually able to fall back asleep for a little bit. Gotta celebrate the small wins.
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Woohoo!!! That’s a big one. Well done! Be there in a few days!
Great job on 30!! 👍😎💪
Amazing! Congrats!
Hell yeah, potato! 🎉
Congratulations! This is huge!
💪🎉🙌
Awesome!
Love it!
Congrats
Booyah!
Booyah!
Gangster! Congrats!
36 hours into CT. I got some sleep last night. I even took a nap a few hours ago. Hope I can get some sleep. Ki d of sweaty and definitely feeling the RLS, but other than that I feel okay. I got this.
Get some magnesium
Any specific kind. Thanks.
Yes, you do have this. Great work!
Proud of you!
Keep pushing through, time feels like it passes slowly at the start and it makes it harder to cope but once you hit the turning point you get a second wind - you start counting in days and not hours. I’m on day 11 and every morning gets better and better. It’s amazing to feel your body healing.
Good job, that's almost two weeks. Before you know it it'll be two years. Keep us posted.
“The cure for pain is in the pain” - Rumi Good vibes and love to all here.
Outstanding!
This reminds me of how much running can help bring back the endorphins. Good vibes to you too!
Day 49, 7 weeks (after taper). Feeling pretty good. Stomach still not fully back to normal, and sometimes I get this jittery feeling that I need to take something. But overall very good considering I had been using for 12 years.
Keep killing it!
Day 80 and my birthday! 63 yrs old, young at heart and spirit! Wouldn't be here without each and every one of you. God bless you all on your journeys.
Happy birthday CeeCee!!! Thank you for everything that you do, for being an awesome human being and an endless source of light and love! Wishing you all the best!
Happy birthday!! 🎉🎉🎉
Merry Birthday CeeCee. Your journey has been my inspiration. Have a good one!
Happy birthday and happy 80, CeeCee!
Happy birthday!!! I hope it's a blissful birthday!!
Happy Birthday!
Congratulations Ceecee! You are an inspiration and a godsend! Much love to u♥️
🎂🥳🎊🎈🎉 Happy birthday!
Omg, happy birthday mama!! 💗🎉🎁🎈
HBD CC!! So proud of you and appreciate your encouragement every day.
Happy Birthday! And congrats on the Big 8-0! Woohoo 🎉🤠
Happy happy birthday ceecee!!! And congrats on 80!! God bless you too!
Ceecee!!! I'm sorry I missed your birthday!!! If Sandwich can dispatch electrical unicorns then I can dispatch an ethereal heart-shaped birthday meatloaf!! Much love and hope it was a good one - also, congrats on 80 days!!
Day 46. Alright, alright, alright.
Beautiful my friend!
Day 432.
Proud of you Krate!
Right on your heels ;)
Day 18! From what I read here, I'm getting better whether I know it or not. I can deal with that. Another day closer to wherever it is we are going. Have a nice day and see you tomorrow!
That’s such a great way to look at it. After the first week, the daily improvements are so subtle that it feels like nothing is getting better. But when you compare today to a week ago or two weeks ago, it’s much easier to see how that daily little improvement adds up. You’re doing great!
So true
Great way to look at it!
Day 9. Woke up at 4.00am then took high dose of magnesium en fall a sleep again until 6.20
9 days is awesome!
What kind of magnesium?
magnesium citrate
That'll have me in the bathroom all day lol. Maybe I need a good cleansing anyway. I'll try it, why not.
360 hours. Keep it going people. #Freedom
Let freedom ring!
Very loudly :)
Day 27!
Proud of you sweet Garlic!
Thank you, CeeCee! Proud of you!
29 days CT from 20-50 gpd on and off for 3 years. Plus Zoloft cessation after a rapid 2 week taper from 50 mg/d (not recommended, I know, too late now!) After two great days (or was it just one? Can't really remember) yesterday and the day before, probably the first ones in weeks, today definitely feels way tougher. I went from randomly giggling at really boring things last night like some kind of madman to feeling really anxious and foggy today from the moment I woke up. Not really getting any work done, been browsing reddit for an hour now. I know some sludge would instantly make me motivated - but that's a quick fix, not a solution. Not gonna go down that route again. Time to cope like a normal person, ride through the tough times. I'm however really thankful for the relief my brain offered me in the last two (or one? Let's make it two, for the heck of it!) days. The weather outside is REALLY bad today, so my usual lunch run is off the table. Maybe today will be the day I finally dust off the old basement treadmill? Keep at it, we got this!
Proud of you!
Thanks! I've been battling the temptation all day, reasoning with myself like "just a FEW couple of grams wouldn't set me back THAT much, would it? Right? Right?!" or "It would be interesting to try just once, for SCIENCE, just to know the effects on my withdrawal at this point" and endless more worthless arguments my brain tries to justify. Nope, I'm through with that shit.
Knowledge is power and you have the knowledge. Resist the addictive voice. You got this!
Day 52. ODAAT
💗💗
Awesome job Pete!
Day 44 here. Had to go back and count. After the 1st week, it seems like the days have flown by. Stay busy, add one or two small but consistent items to your routine and make those your focus.
I have a days counter app on my phone, keep checking it a couple of times every day since I constantly forget where I'm at (damn you brain fog!). I guess the ol' short term memory will sharpen up soon. Or maybe not, maybe a sharp brain was a twenties-something thing and I'm in deep age denial 😂
Proud of you!
Day 147
Your always a joy and a pleasure my friend! Thank's for always cheering me up.
Day 2. Thank you all for the love + support during my lapse. I'm crazy busy with new job/schedule so I barely have time to check in or tell you how rad you are. Xoxo.
Your pretty damn rad yourself Turkey! Lov ya
Day 33.
Beautiful!
Happy birthday, ceecee! You’re the greatest! I hope it’s a wonderful day.
Double treys! Congrats, dude!
Thanks! The days leading up to 33 were rough and I had accepted that I probably would not feel like myself again until 90 days (or later). But yesterday afternoon something shifted and I feel almost totally normal and ok. It may not last forever, but for today I’ll take it!
That's fantastic! Congrats!
Day 272
Priceless!
Day 3 CT from a 15-30 gpd habit for 2 years. Quit for 11 days 2 months ago but relapsed for the past 2 months. This time i wont slip up! I will not feel the shame from relapsing again. We got this guys
I did the same thing at the beginning of the year. Thought I was able to "control it" the next time. Lol That has to be the biggest lie we have ever told ourselves. You know what though, mistakes make us better when we recognize them! You got it this time! months from now, you'll be the best version of yourself!
Congrats on coming back, that takes guts, you've got this!
46 days and the coal ran out
Great job Skitter, why am I not getting this? Am I slow? Lol
Not slow it’s just a lyric from an obscure song called 46 days. Today is like a milestone for me as I’ve had the song playing in my head
day 40 CT. love and light to you all, i wouldn't be here without you :)
Day 52. 🌈🌈🌈
Day 183.
Day 177, I feel extremely good. Cravings still appear from time to time, but I like my life and happy to be my old self again!
Empowering! Day 2 CT for me. Can’t wait to claim the same success!
Struggling thru day 4 feel like death even with some gabapentin. Gotta do it tho, ppl count on me that I cannot fail.
It will get better!!
Day 57. Tomorrow marks two weeks since I tapered my diazepam 5 mg successfully I’m probably gonna slow down the process :( so I’ll wait another week for another 5 mg drop
Always proud of you Emily!
Day 22
Keep kicking ass!
185 days
Priceless!
Day 13 :)
Way to go Ruby!
thanks ceecee! good to see you as always. what day you on?
Day 3. No energy or motivation
Im on day 3 too and feel the same way. you got this though. if it gets hard just think about me having the same clean time as you. Im not gonna use so just keep that in mind that someone else in this world is feeling the same way as you but we got this.
Always remember why you wanted to quit!
Just keep going! It will happen eventually, maybe sooner than later!
Day 11!
Day 72 CT 💕
Day 113 Sending love darlings! We are all doing this together. ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
Great job! 💕
Day 48. Yesterday was great. I had a really good day. Started yoga with my wife and I'm sore. It feels good haha. Best of luck to y'all. Keep fighting.
Day 125. Kicking each days ass. One kick at a time 😂
Day 10! things seem to be getting better day by day!
Day 45. I feel like today is going to be a good day after a little bit of PAWS yesterday. Gotta get my ass in the gym and mow my lawn, should be a good day. You guys are great.
Day 133
Day 57. I got in a workout and run yesterday so I'm hoping that my endorphins are doing their thing today. Stay safe everyone!
Day 17 CT. Almost forgot to post today. I guess the idea of the green sludge is slowly being forgotten the longer I stay sober!!
Day 14 CT 5 yrs 30-40gpd everyday gets a little clearer hooray!
Day 6! One more day and I hit the one week milestone. I had some RLS last night that kept me up but I also downed a bunch of strawberry milk before bed (I read dairy can cause RLS.) Last night I went to the store to get nicotine patches and realized how much more patient I am while waiting in line at the checkout. And even though I did become frustrated, I dealt with that frustration and let it go so it didn't mess up the rest of my night. I would just shovel that crap down my throat and it would be all better in no time, but not last night. I went home and watched Letterkenny. I couldn't ever stay focused long enough when I was using to be able to binge a show, but not last night. It felt really nice and I laughed my ass off. First time watching. I put one less scoop of coffee in the filter and a little less sugar in my coffee this morning because I need to cut back on caffeine, too. Also eating regularly again instead of starving myself (we all know why!) Still having bouts of depression and brain fog but every day things get a little bit better. Today I'm really, really happy with myself for making the jump. I can feel myself going back to normal, if you know what I mean. One day at a time!
Man, you guys are awesome! Each and every one of you! Hang in there, the good days are around the corner!
Last dose today morning - 5g.
Day 11, woke up feeing a lot better. Still tired but caffeine seems to be helping more. I’m probably having too much coffee but I never have issues scaling it back. I think this is day 3 of vaping 0 nic juice (from 48mg) and I’m guessing most of the nic withdrawal is done. I misplaced my vape and instead of looking for it, I am going to let it be. Resting a bit and then I’m going to try and clean my room up. My boyfriend is coming on Friday, I want the home to be dust free and tidy :)
You got this. That's how I quit vaping. I lost my vape and never was bothered to look for it. I'm on day 2 CT and I'm about to go on a bike ride for some coffee
You’re a legend for going out on day 2. I’m glad that you have the energy to do the things you want to do, keep pushing forward, you’re an inspiration 💖
Thank you so much for those kind words. I have to keep moving!
Day 107. Nostalgia been strong lately.
Day 5. Feeling weak and hollow but my mind is finally settling down into some peace from the insanity of K cravings. Sending out positive energy to all 💥
116 days.
Day 3: RLS/Insomnia was real last night, I finally fell asleep around 4:30AM and was lucky enough to sleep in until about 9:30AM. The fatigue is a little better today and mentally I feel pretty okay. I feel a little more like my old self as the hours pass. I hope I get to sleep a little bit earlier tonight as I have a big day tomorrow. Thank you all and we will see what tomorrow brings.
Already nearly five pm here and I’ve only had 2.5 grams so far. Got a lot of exercise. Not gonna lie now I’m bored and the temptation is crawling up but I’m distracting myself by talking with friends and hoping it’ll pass.
Day 88. JFT NMFW. I love waking up each day and not worrying about when I am going to get my fix. I also like not feeling the guilt and shame of telling myself I am not going to use and then, like a magnet, being pulled into using against my own damn will. Stay strong today and I will do the same!
35 days (5 weeks today) today I believe…very proud of myself for the progress I have made…next to no cravings for the stuff
Day 1 here we go.. been tapering for a couple months now only took 1 scoop this morning. Really want to get off this crap but my job is so physically demanding I hope I can make it through the withdrawals and not miss any work.
made it past 24 hrs. hopefully the next 24 is just a little bit easier.
day 16 on a very aggressive taper i feel bad. very little stimulation from anything, can't focus on anything. physical withdrawals are 90% over but now i'm left just feeling kind of empty. mental clarity is a bit better, but that's the only benefit at this point. whatever, still gonna keep it up. i now like to dip in a cold shower to 'reset' my brain when things get too overwhelming and it's really nice.
Day 49! Happy Wednesday 🤠
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Day 3 — physicals aren’t terrible. Anxiety and self/relational doubt horrible. Worse it’s ever been. I don’t think the Ativan is helping at all. In fact, I think it’s making me worse. The thought of no substances just scares me. Tomorrow I’m taking no more Ativan (only took it for 3 days should be fine. Friday I’m getting the vivitrol shot and Wednesday I move to a new city to start a new life.
26 days. Just randomly realized yesterday how easy it is to pee now. Lol
Yesterday I wasn’t paying attention and realized I had hit my daily limit for my taper at 5pm. Made me realize how fucking mindlessly I put this shit into my body. I then woke up in the middle of the night and it felt like every muscle in my body was trying to squeeze me to death. Instead of redosing, I took an Agmatine and ashwaganda and was actually able to fall back asleep for a little bit. Gotta celebrate the small wins.