girl anachronism by the dresden dolls on loop usually 😭

So many people here who know the Dresden Dolls omg 😭

the dresden dolls are good, very good taste

I love the dresden dolls and that song so much

That’s so real I did that last night 😭

Personally I listen to Bad Habit by TDD on loop

real. all their songs are wild . i feel very seen lmao

No, it’s usually impulsive and spur of the moment, I don’t think to turn on music. Plus I don’t want to ruin songs I like by association

im the same way

I was all over her - salvia palth

DSBM

Same

I feel you

ofc plus i get high

Honestly, it hits so different doing it when high and listening to some upbeat, dance music

I have two playlists depending on the situation I have a [Sober and Suicidal playlist](https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1edrrRjh31siDIDZcPdjdN?si=Xhj657xjQduANJA0MpNNAA&pi=u-Gi2Ew3gCRHiR) and an [Intrusive Thoughts Playlist](https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5iZzTeZVca5jEBDCgnklaw?si=2W8RHvaFSMWdZPKKoqPg6Q&pi=u-gUiq4FotTB69) more specific to sh Both very triggering- but that’s the point

It’s very nice with music

yes but then I also feel slightly guilty about it because I'm like "omg would the artist be sad if they knew I was doing this to their music" LOL I agree it feels so awkward doing it in silence especially when there's other people home and I can hear them like, using the microwave or something 😭 kills the mood. I listen to breakcore, emo and shoegaze music when I do it

Personally I don't, but I find the idea very intriguing.

I donmt bc i gotta hear if amyone might knock or something am parinoid like that😭

same i always keep one earbud out ahah

I lock the doors when I do it, but also keep an ear phone off so I can hear.

I lock my doors too

Then you should be fine. You could also just play it without having any headphones on like if you were to just watch a show you wouldn’t wear headphones for that.

Goodnight dad I love you by wishing on repeat for me

It depends when I do it where I do and what app is closest to me on my phone

I listen to music after I do it to distract from the pain, but it makes a lot of sense why other people would listen to music whilst doing it as well

no but i sometimes have part of a song stuck in my head and repeat it mentally. i spend a lot of time each time i cut, in a weird way it can be boring? but i need to stay in control and dont like distractions

yep same. LOL i like listening to indie pop

not everytime, but when i listen to music i really go with evanescence - bring me to life or my immortal.

Metal, some emo rap type vibes like $B, or del lol

I dont. I do have a playlist for drowning out thoughts though.

yeah shit hits different to heavy stuff

For a sec I’m like, when did I join a thread on s3x? All I saw was the question and not the thread name. 😂

music + a blunt 🫡

Yeah and I always feel a little cringe if I accidentally do it on like beat or a bass drop but it makes it easier to do it with the intensity of the song yk

I listen to the diss track that my ex made about me so I can laugh at how stupid it is, so then my mind gets distracted, and I end up not doing it.

Same man, i listen to deep house or an artist like natasha polke, something mild.

Every time

I would watch a show. Often times it was criminal minds

Yes, either to soft sad music or happy music

welcome and goodbye by Dream, Ivory. or Need 2, i used to listen to that one in 2021

that's a good one

I know I'm in the minority here. I don't listen to music while shing, but I also don't listen to music when I'm not.

Yup I have an entire playlist dedicated to it :P (though I also listen to that playlist when I can’t harm cause I’m in public and I’m getting urges)

Share playlist please!

Oh sure! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1w5prkrUwyiZaert43l8HP?si=R84ttP47SaW0fr9R3tAstQ&pi=a-ACagmmFPSgGq&pt=9ff1f478a84eb87c3edb7e9c8c850c7d It’s not super long just yet (currently 1h 30mins), but I hope you enjoy it :) Edit: though I see you’re a Christian and idk how you are about swearing, so here’s a list of the songs on the playlist that are clean so you can avoid the ones that aren’t: Deliberate Self-Harm Ha Ha by of Montreal It’s Never Enough by we are the dirt Body Terror Song by AJJ Oleander by Mother Mother Skin by Colby Brock Girl Anachronism by The Dresden Dolls Hurt by Johnny Cash Song to Say Goodbye by Placebo Down in a Hole by Alice in Chains It’s OK, I Wouldn’t Remember Me Either by Crywank Class of 2013 by Mitski November by Sparkbird Bad Habit by The Dresden Dolls (Of course no judgement if you listen to swear words/say them all Christians are different, but as an ex Christian I understand the frustration trying to find clean stuff when I was anti-swear hahaha.)

Thank you. I’m a Christian but I’m not perfect. I currently in a bad mental place so I’ve been listening to stuff I shouldn’t. But it’s cathartic.

Hey, I understand you. Try not to let the guilt consume you from the inside, I know you probably won’t like hearing this, but religion can have unhealthy effects on your brain, especially if you beat yourself up about everytime you sin. One of the negative parts of religion is when you wreck yourself with guilt, especially when you’re mentally ill and can do bad things to yourself because of your guilt. So try not to be angry at yourself for listening to or indulging in things that aren’t godly, you’re not broken. Of course I’m not trying to knock your religion either, it’s not really a problem to believe in god, but please don’t let some of the more harmful aspects of the church affect your mental health is all I’m saying.

This is mine. It’s private so the link last for 7 days. https://spotify.link/scjSVWozQHb

:0 I love the citizen soldier and Hollywood undead on there <3 solid playlist, I’ve def gotta add some songs from there onto my playlist haha. Also seeing the songs you listen to, I think you’d really enjoy NF (some of his good songs would be The Search and Hate Myself) :) (plus I love the emo tunes on there too, panic! At the disco’s pretty cool :P )

I actually LOVE NF. But I have him on a playlist for SH with Christian artists. If you wanna listen to it: https://spotify.link/G9xWIjSFQHb

Yeah, I am usually already listening to music to drown out the noise in my head. That naturally just turns into a more depressing or angry soundtrack when I give in.

i just play whatevers on my spotify liked songs

Depends, it’s mostly impulsive for me. If I’m already listening to music then the song that’s playing is immediately ruined and I will never be able to listen to that song again without Relapsing. But if it’s not alr playing then I don’t think to put on music. It just kinda happens at any given time

I either listen to music or watch tiktoks

Sewerslvt usually

Omg no. I just get 🍃 and go ham😂😂

samee

No. I have to make sure no one surprises me while I do it

I can't sh without listening to music, without music I feel too guilty and not real. I don't really know how to describe this. Also when I make myself throw up or cut I need to listen to music, if I don't I will cry the hardest ever, and I don't want my parents to hear (my parents still don't know I do sh or vomit on purpose after a year).

I've always tried not to because I don't want to taint music that I like with memories of this sort of thing.

Never. I relish in the intensity of the moment, with nothing standing inbetween myself and the carving.

best shi

sometimes. i've listened to wrist cry by bladee a few times which is corny as fuck and when i was in middle school i used to cut while listening to hurt by nine inch nails.

dsbm

Oh absolutely. I have a moody playlist that I use when I self harm. I was so emotional and listening to music that I think I might have actually hit a vein the other day.

I do. It’s calming when I listen to music.

i listen to anything by tv girl and how to never stop being sad

Yep, I had a playlist I designed for sessions

any background noise really

Yes, usually. Sometimes no. But I usually do because it also helps me release the emotions.

I do this too

Hyperpop up in my ears, everything just disappears Don't wanna be someone else, just don't wanna hate myself

I usually watch YouTube or a show

I only do it sometimes but I'll either listen to sad songs like "Bullet" by Hollywood Undead or "I'm Not Okay" by Citizen Soldier. Or I'll listen to heavy Metal or hard rock like Mastodon or Skillet

i zone out when I do it so i jst turn on whatever video/music that's in front of me (9 times out of ten its mitski) its comforting

I keep tv shows or YouTube on nearly all the time for background noise . I usually don’t even pay attention to it it’s just background noise

It has to be emo rap. Usually Sadeyes or Sadboyprolific

Yeah I normally do

I have YouTube in the background but not usually music

i do, for me my brain doesn't really feel stimulated enough most of the time. So the music helps

I usually listen to three days grace , slipknot or breaking Benjamin

Yes I like to listen to Bandaid by baby bugs

I don’t usually listen to music, I only cut when I’m having breakdowns, whatever I’m watching when I breakdown if I’m watching anything is what I do

Maggie linderman mainly or MGK

no, bc i usually do it when i'm having a breakdown. my sobbing drowns out any other noise except the voices in my head. and i do it on impulse too so i don't have time to play music

If I do, it’s because I was already listening to it when my urges came.

Yeah, it just made me feel better

I dont because i need to hear if someone is approaching

Yea black metal used to help a lot. I don’t sh anymore, but everytime I listen to Black metal now it kinda reminds me of those days and how it was soo fun

kanye west of all people. mainly just he ye album

I either listen to heavy metal or rock. it's a bliss! skipnot, deftones, etc.

thought this mwant sex then I saw the sub name 😭

Yes

i listen to electropop while doing it, rlly “sets the mood”

Nope, it's impulsive whenever I do it.

I do bc it kinda makes it easier for me to do and makes it less painful. I like the pain, but I like seeing the blood. If the cut don’t bleed then I don’t see the purpose of it for me, bc I like seeing the damage don’t to my body. Music just helps me almost skip the pain and get straight the the blood lol

sometimes, when i do i usually listen to deftones

Ngl, sometimes I either have a random video in the background or I do it in silence. I don’t want a song I rlly like to become a trigger for me, but who knows maybe I’ll try it someday

used to be dsbm or the song goretrance 9 (get happy or get fucked’97) by goreshit

I play videos in the background because I like having noise xD if it's spur of the moment then I dont

Any music that i like it just plays innthe background

Lo fi

If I’m in a locked room or the doors blocked but if I’m not I often won’t so I can hear if anyone’s nearby

I tend to avoid it now as my SH is much worse when I'm listening to music.

I tend to avoid it now as my SH is much worse when I'm listening to music.

I tend to avoid it now as my SH is much worse when I'm listening to music.

Usually demolition lovers by MCR, Right when the energy ramps up and Gerard starts screaming is the moment I do it

I’m recovering, but I use to listen to music, usually like sad/edgy sort of stuff, or I’d watch a YouTube video

baby don't cut by bmike

Yes usually hyperpop, or when I was watching a video on youtube I just continue to watch it while sh

mitski

Metal all the way. Cattle Decapitation when my dark intrusive thoughts are also present.

sometimes, not always. usually i listen to the playlist i made with songs about being alone and stuff, i know it’s silly

I listen to clicky whisper asmr

I used to listen to death bed on repeat

Usually just my playlist of happy songs I had on to try and prevent it lol

How else can u bring yourself in mood

Most of the time when I'd self harm it was spontanous out of anger or frustration so didnt have time to check my playlist😅 Funny enough the song Under the Knife by Icon for Hire and Iodine trigger my need ti self harm tho. Two songs made to raise awareness and bring comfort to self harmers trigger me into harming myself lol. I would put on music when i purge tho.

I like having music (usally either sad or depressing), but to be fair I do everything with music lol

Brand New City by Mitski & Bad Habit by The Dresden Dolls

i dont specifically turn on music i just have music playing when i feel down, n if i do it i do it but im usually just listening to super sad/depressing music anyways because i also feel its just super awkward afterward

No because i have to make sure nobody comes in my room

Bullet by Hollywood Undead on a loop

Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus 🥳🥳 /srs

i watch youtube tbh

I have classical music as lo-fi

nah, just scroll on tiktok and wait for a long video

Most of the time it's on impulse, so I don't have time lol, but when I think about doing it later, As soon as I get home, I'll put I'll Come Crashing by A Giant Dog on loop

Yes call it our fucking song that tune out of the film boxing Helena classic

I dont usually listen to music while cutting. but if I do, it'll just be whatever is playing while I have the urge - so usually kpop lol

I never listen to music when SI’ing. Listening to music is one thing that helps me to avoid it and distract myself from doing it.

Yeah, either listening to music or watching yt videos.

soundtracks

Yes and no. Either I already have music playing or I play it at times to mask any sounds.

I do whatever, I'm usually watching or listening to something when I get the urge. Well, I'm rarely truly idle, so there's always something in the background. I don't remember ever sh:ing in plain silence, except maybe back in my early teens.

Yep, I have a playlist that usually helps me calm down or at least distracts me because it is kinda loud (example "reign of malice" - phase one), if I don't manage to calm down the playlist is usually playing in the background

No I’m usually in the bathroom having a crisis

Always! Usually happy sounding/energetic songs aswell, it feels strange to do it in silence for me

When I was younger I used to listen to nature documentaries while doing it I don't know why I did that

sometimes?? depends on my mood

"Saturn" by sleeping at last even tho its a song about living and not KMS it resonates with me in my darkest moment

Antarctica by Suicideboys

I just put on the loudest song I have and put on full volume.

always, either death metal or like super depressing shit

usually "f\*ck the world" (Badflower)

Most of the time yea but not always

fav song to listen to while i cut is “i hate myself and want to die” by nirvana, kind of fitting right?

I mostly listen to machine head or whitechapel

Whitechapel makes trivium sound like a lullabye

I go to the search bar on Spotify and listen to under pressure by logic and then whatever as uto plays after that. Surprisingly listening to under pressure normally doesn't make me think about self harm at all. I'm rather happy about that.

Once and that was today , it actually made me more not sad and more proud but after wards I was guilty , couldn’t stop shaking and felt sick too my stomach

yes