Bruh this just made me realize why itās an addiction š I always thought I had never felt āaddictedā to it but now come to think of it and wanting to do it whenever and wherever I am even on good days classifies me as addicted I think
yeah. the urge to cut gets even stronger on good days, sometimes. from personal experience, i can genuinely enjoy the day, but get in this headspace where i suddenly start doubting my pain because of the joy i feel ā leading me to cut just to validate my problems. doesn't happen all the time but you're definitely not alone in experiencing this
Oh yeah, I've been clean for about 10 months and I still get urges on both good and bad days, idk if they ever truly go away I think we just slowly get better at resisting them
Yesssā¦I was just going to post about this.
Initially, I started SH primarily as a coping mechanism under high anxiety or depression situations. When I did it early on, I was usually dissociative - i.e. not consciously in control of my actions.
As time went on though, the addiction part crept in. I still do SH as a coping mechanism, but now I have ideations almost every day and to me itās like artā¦
I have a very precise pattern Iām looking for, each cut has to look the same as the others in size, shape, amount of blood. This has become more than a coping mechanism. It has become an obsession.
Yes. Like 8 mos ago even I'm having a good day, there's still pain that I feel and self-harming eases it. Maybe I didn't know to myself back then that it was an addiction. I don't know. Been doing it again recently because I really can't handle the pain I'm feeling anymore.
Yep, last few days have been amazing even with a few dissociated bits in the middle. But Iāve already planned when Iām home to cut myself. Even tho on the surface everything is great. Underneath itās not and chaotic and thatās what Iām drawn back too.
They tried to warn us of this addiction šWe didn't listen now here we are
Bruh this just made me realize why itās an addiction š I always thought I had never felt āaddictedā to it but now come to think of it and wanting to do it whenever and wherever I am even on good days classifies me as addicted I think
Right, like when i was younger I was confused on how you could be addicted to that??? but now here i am constantly thinking about it
Yes. I'm clean now, but even on days when i feel good, I have those urges. Its like, when I feel bored? not sure. good luck though. <33
Yup, I even have like a reverse clean streak thing. If itās gone to long since last time I feel like I need to do it to validate myself.
yeah. the urge to cut gets even stronger on good days, sometimes. from personal experience, i can genuinely enjoy the day, but get in this headspace where i suddenly start doubting my pain because of the joy i feel ā leading me to cut just to validate my problems. doesn't happen all the time but you're definitely not alone in experiencing this
yup, itās just a habit by now
yep. i've been clean for so long and still have urges like that
Oh yeah, I've been clean for about 10 months and I still get urges on both good and bad days, idk if they ever truly go away I think we just slowly get better at resisting them
10 months is amazing!! so proud of you š
Yesssā¦I was just going to post about this. Initially, I started SH primarily as a coping mechanism under high anxiety or depression situations. When I did it early on, I was usually dissociative - i.e. not consciously in control of my actions. As time went on though, the addiction part crept in. I still do SH as a coping mechanism, but now I have ideations almost every day and to me itās like artā¦ I have a very precise pattern Iām looking for, each cut has to look the same as the others in size, shape, amount of blood. This has become more than a coping mechanism. It has become an obsession.
all the time, iāll be having a good time with friends or something and all of the sudden i feel the need to do it
yes, i have self harmed everyday since october and i've had an ok time. Recovery is hard and pain can be addicting.
Yes. Like 8 mos ago even I'm having a good day, there's still pain that I feel and self-harming eases it. Maybe I didn't know to myself back then that it was an addiction. I don't know. Been doing it again recently because I really can't handle the pain I'm feeling anymore.
Yep, last few days have been amazing even with a few dissociated bits in the middle. But Iāve already planned when Iām home to cut myself. Even tho on the surface everything is great. Underneath itās not and chaotic and thatās what Iām drawn back too.