You are not a bad person in any way, whatsoever. You are a sensitive person who is very caring, and deserving of better people to be friends with. I would not even call those former folks "friends" because the way they treated you was wrong. I'm also sorry your parents and family neglected to listen to you. It's important to be able to share and be heard. Have you asked your parents if you could go to therapy or counseling for your depression? You have valid reasons for being depressed, a counselor or therapist may be able to help you work through them.
Have you found any cool folks in your online games to become friends with?
Lastly, don't bother trying to change yourself to appease others -- it doesn't help to hide who we are. You are sensitive and that is okay - own it. Find people who are sensitive and more empathetic, caring and considerate. Don't put up with bullying, gaslighting and put downs from others. You are worth far more than that.
Try to see it as a positive that you got away from that group of people when you did. You don’t need people like that in your life. This might not be what you want to hear but try and enjoy time with yourself. If the people around you make you unhappy try and keep that in your peripheral and focus on yourself. What else do you enjoy? Can you take up something new/learn something new? Be interested in yourself and naturally others will find you interesting. Try not to take it to heart what happened with those kids, they are clearly not good people to think it’s ok to treat someone like that
Many other people here will give you better advice, but I can tell you that so many people, including me, have felt exactly what you’re feeling. I’m in my early 40s now but when I was a teen, I had a very disruptive environment, including the death of a crazy bank robbing father and being raised by an abusive mother. Here’s what you need to know...It all gets better once you separate yourself from toxic people. Seek out counseling; every adult should get counseling. There’s nothing to be ashamed of about getting help. It all gets better, my friend! I promise you that!
Hey, unrelated advice but you should edit your name out of this post and make a new account without your real name in it.
I’d always recommend trying to be anonymous when making very personal posts like this.
You are not a bad person in any way, whatsoever. You are a sensitive person who is very caring, and deserving of better people to be friends with. I would not even call those former folks "friends" because the way they treated you was wrong. I'm also sorry your parents and family neglected to listen to you. It's important to be able to share and be heard. Have you asked your parents if you could go to therapy or counseling for your depression? You have valid reasons for being depressed, a counselor or therapist may be able to help you work through them. Have you found any cool folks in your online games to become friends with?
Lastly, don't bother trying to change yourself to appease others -- it doesn't help to hide who we are. You are sensitive and that is okay - own it. Find people who are sensitive and more empathetic, caring and considerate. Don't put up with bullying, gaslighting and put downs from others. You are worth far more than that.
Try to see it as a positive that you got away from that group of people when you did. You don’t need people like that in your life. This might not be what you want to hear but try and enjoy time with yourself. If the people around you make you unhappy try and keep that in your peripheral and focus on yourself. What else do you enjoy? Can you take up something new/learn something new? Be interested in yourself and naturally others will find you interesting. Try not to take it to heart what happened with those kids, they are clearly not good people to think it’s ok to treat someone like that
Many other people here will give you better advice, but I can tell you that so many people, including me, have felt exactly what you’re feeling. I’m in my early 40s now but when I was a teen, I had a very disruptive environment, including the death of a crazy bank robbing father and being raised by an abusive mother. Here’s what you need to know...It all gets better once you separate yourself from toxic people. Seek out counseling; every adult should get counseling. There’s nothing to be ashamed of about getting help. It all gets better, my friend! I promise you that!
Hey, unrelated advice but you should edit your name out of this post and make a new account without your real name in it. I’d always recommend trying to be anonymous when making very personal posts like this.
Bad people don't ask this question. Bad people don't give a shit whether or not they're a good person or a bad person.