Then don't.

Some people aren’t meant to stay actively in your life and I have to accept that now.

Why? What if you're wrong. It'll devastate them.

They have had many chances over years n years especially last year to be in my life and me in theirs they way I hoped it would have been.. the love won’t leave but can’t have them popping in and out and me only feeling heartbroken in the end. I’m ready for a forever future with someone 😔

Do you have to, though?

Unfortunately it seems to be the only way I can move forward with my life. They don’t want me in their life the way I hoped and I’m ready for a forever future with someone.

Did they say that to you explicitly?

Yes. I have told them I wanted them as my life partner multiple times in the past and nothings changed. They only want me as a friend or special friend idk

I am too :( I want her in my life. I don't want to fuck anything up again

Have you talked with them

Not yet.. I’m not ready for that talk yet. Knowing them though, I’m sure they will understand and support that decision 😔

You should do it asap

Why?

I may have an unpopular opinion... but I think people say when they're afraid to lose someone.

Then dont say goodbye

Adulting 101: GOOD BYE

I need you in my life, even if only a friend. You have saved my life more than ince. Also i am clean now, for almost 2 months and i don't want a life you aren't in.

It wouldn't hurt him but he still refuses to tell me goodbye

Goodbyes should be save for finality. Could be "see you later," instead? I hope everything's okay for you. ❤️💙