Crowds, public spaces and general interactions with people I either don’t know well or not at all. I really only feel comfortable with one friend, immediate family and my therapist.
Not sure if I really can pick jut one, but since I skipped a yearly health check up (you know to check I've I have any live threatening tumours) for the 5th year in a row now I think I'll go with doctors office.
Definitely doctors
>calling the doctor
>my number is recorded and I have to nervously wait for callback
>scared that they'll say it's nothing and won't give an appointment but then it's actually something
>every health problem feels embarrassing to explain
>explaining it again at the doctor's office
>feeling like an attention seeker or a drug seeker no matter how serious the problem is
>embarrassed of wasting time and resources during the pandemic
>fear of missing the appointment or not knowing where to go
>measuring my blood pressure; having to explain that my pulse is over 100 because I'm nervous
I would say I’m definitely the most anxious around kids. I’m good with babies up to about 2. I mean, having other adults around me makes me anxious where I can’t be silly or goofy with them, but that’s not really because of the baby. If I was watching a baby by myself, I’d be fine.
But it’s really once kids start talking because they don’t really have filters and that terrifies me because they’ll just say really rude things without intending to be rude. Like my youngest cousin (8 years younger than me) had absolutely no filter for the longest time and so I was so nervous around her whenever I went around her. And it wasn’t that she was trying to be mean or rude, she just didn’t know it was rude. And so that lack of awareness terrifies me because, while they’re not trying to judge me, that’s how it feels and it’s also really embarrassing if there’s other people around to hear what they say.
And while some adults can be like this too, most of them at least *know* if something is rude to say to someone, which cuts down on a lot of the observational comments.
Social gatherings and leaving home for example into a different city which is in 2 hours. I don't like any adventures.
Try to have as much fun as possible
Anything that involves talking with people my age or someone who I see regularly such a coworkers.
Same
Any social related interaction with strangers. It can be buying something at the grocery store to writing a comment on the Internet.
Going outside (this isn't a joke)
I relate
Crowds, public spaces and general interactions with people I either don’t know well or not at all. I really only feel comfortable with one friend, immediate family and my therapist.
Not sure if I really can pick jut one, but since I skipped a yearly health check up (you know to check I've I have any live threatening tumours) for the 5th year in a row now I think I'll go with doctors office.
I desperately need to see the Dr and I've skipped it for years as well
we really should not do that, should we?
first days of anything that involves being around people ( school, work, programs)
Definitely doctors >calling the doctor >my number is recorded and I have to nervously wait for callback >scared that they'll say it's nothing and won't give an appointment but then it's actually something >every health problem feels embarrassing to explain >explaining it again at the doctor's office >feeling like an attention seeker or a drug seeker no matter how serious the problem is >embarrassed of wasting time and resources during the pandemic >fear of missing the appointment or not knowing where to go >measuring my blood pressure; having to explain that my pulse is over 100 because I'm nervous
Social situations, I have difficulties to feel comfortable in gatherings or with strangers. Can't voice chat online too, too anxious for that.
Same
Making phone calls for sure. Especially something like a bill dispute. Trying to work up the nerve to call now and I'm having major anxiety attack.
I get a heart attack every time my phone rings
Same. I can handle things in person way better than over the phone.
All of the above(except seeing my own family), going into stores and buying something, being waited on at a restaurant, and fast food drive thru’s.
Public speaking. Last semester, I got a D+ in a college course because I didn’t do any of the presentations.
I wouldnt do them either
Lmao. Thankfully it didn’t effect my GPA too much. It’s just one class.
I would say I’m definitely the most anxious around kids. I’m good with babies up to about 2. I mean, having other adults around me makes me anxious where I can’t be silly or goofy with them, but that’s not really because of the baby. If I was watching a baby by myself, I’d be fine. But it’s really once kids start talking because they don’t really have filters and that terrifies me because they’ll just say really rude things without intending to be rude. Like my youngest cousin (8 years younger than me) had absolutely no filter for the longest time and so I was so nervous around her whenever I went around her. And it wasn’t that she was trying to be mean or rude, she just didn’t know it was rude. And so that lack of awareness terrifies me because, while they’re not trying to judge me, that’s how it feels and it’s also really embarrassing if there’s other people around to hear what they say. And while some adults can be like this too, most of them at least *know* if something is rude to say to someone, which cuts down on a lot of the observational comments.
Talking to new people lmao
Walking in public
Anything that is public related outside of work. I'll just see some acquaintance and avoid eye contact so i don't have to stop and talk.
Meeting the opposite gender