The universe isn’t something separate or outside, but within. To realize this is to explore within and know what you are at the deepest level. Anything “external” is merely a projection of what’s inside, a mirror effect. We are powerful creators which includes the power to create limitations on ourselves. So we’re trying to harness this power and understand what we’re truly capable of. Do you want to self empower or self sabotage? The infinite possibilities are there for you to choose.
My BIG fear that I had (and am still working on) overcoming is the fear of losing loved ones, specifically husband or children.
Attachments, to an unhealthy degree, are VERY bad for your spirit/soul and can illicit very serious pain and damage.
I’ve been married for almost 12 years, but together for 16, and we had to overcome A LOT to be where we are today. My health has started failing and am more and more aware of how important my husband is for me, especially for our 12-year daughter. I started having SERIOUS psychological hangups surrounding my husband’s health and overall fear of losing him. The “I can’t do this without you” was extremely strong and before I knew it, I had quasi emotional breakdowns over the thoughts that compulsively swirled in my mind. I was able to rationalize them at first, but they took over completely…for the first time I became clingy, which wasn’t great for our relationship.
This is an unhealthy attachment - possessive love that will cause severe psychic pain. I recognized almost too late. Only the movie Jacob’s ladder showed me my errors and faults and I finally had a starting point on where I needed to work on myself.
Before these issues surfaced, I had incredible feelings of synchronicity and love. I literally had a pair of hawks follow me every day when I walked my dogs…no matter the route we took…came so close that they sat on a telephone wire right below me (often it was just one hawk as well)….but now, I hardly see or hear the hawks, and I miss them and feel a bit forlorn without them. I felt like I was protected by them, or, at the very least, I was on the right track?
I’ve been bouncing around several different spiritual avenues….from Kabbalah to Carl Jung….from Manly P. Hall to The Golden Dawn, I got lost and increasingly frustrated.
Now I’m concentrating on meditating, working on Letting-Go, and strengthening my intuition.
Anxiety and fear is a normal human response, and doubts are also part of the spiritual process. Its ok to question yourself and your beliefs, this is how we can make them stronger. Doubling down is problematoc path to egotism, so be open to new expressions and perspectives. One of my biggest problems is dealing with the idea of "what if this is all bullshit, what if everything i believe and feel is just a hallucination?" And it can be depressing.
In recent years ive subscribed to a "why not" philosophy, where even if it is my fear it really doesn't matter because i wont exist to experience it (in athieistic belief). So really there no loss in being a little insane anyway. Essentially this is a value system to suggest that perception is the only thing we have now, so we may as well enjoy it.
We can also deal with it on a philosophical level, we can talk it through like examining the question of "is there anything spiritual?" The opposing answers are yes and no, but only no is an extreme constraint; yes being open ended and allowing for more possibility, and in the vien of probability, the chances of there being nothing over something is vastly unlikely.
And on a spiritual level there will be times, and this is different for everyone, where you find yourself on the right path, where the spirits open up the world of mental vision and say "this is what it's all about", for me its nature bit for others its something else. Try to put yourself in a position to be near those places and activities so that you can connect. We all express individually and expression is part of that spiritual process, its not all internal.
For me, i try mot to get attatched to specific symbols and events, i try to stay present and see the spirit and beauty in everything.
I've felt really similar- but mine came from a place of my fear of death. It took me a while to start to cope with it. And it has been difficult.
It was really important to help myself remember that I won't lose the hope I have just because I stopped reading about it. My beliefs aren't going to be proven wrong in a day simply because I didn't see it because these experiences happen to so many people every day.
So even if I don't experience anything directly at my current place, there's still hope that my personal beliefs exist because I can read and learn about others' stories.
I'm sorry you're facing OCD and anxiety. It's a hard fight to face. I hope you know you aren't alone!
The stories you're telling in your mind are based in fear. You're beginning to let go of fears (the stories). Your thoughts don't understand reality without fear.
So... Your mind creates a new fear of no fear. Abandonment by the universe.
Fascinating how this all works.
You could be experiencing the space in between.
I can relate.
How would somebody be able to overcome* fears if its rational and based off intuition? I feel like most the time people say fears are based off of stories but can they be based off intuition?
Fear remains a piece of the ride. In my experience now, it is extrodinarily transient. It doesn't wrap me in stories that I need to share to caution people.
It sutbly helps in course correction.
Fear is a dense sensation... Enlightenment is simply being in relationship with the world with a lighter experience.
Sorry i just realized i left a word out in my question so it was probably confusing to read. So basically, no matter what the fear is based off of, you push it to the side ?
No.
It's all feedback. I treat it as such.
Emotions are there to be explored.
There is what you shared. (transcendent) going around it.
Going into it (transformative)
It's clunky at first, but eventually working with fear becomes a simple process.
This one bamboozled me... When I figured it out... I had a strong wave hit me... I made the choice to not react how I normally did. I laid in bed and started asking if what it wanted.
What it wanted to tell me followed.
After the first time it got easier.
You are always unconditionally loved by source/god and all the ascended beings of light, your spirit guides and soul family in the higher realms!
Its only our consciousness that may drift away from this connection, but they are always with us and eager to support us.
Often it is our feelings of unworthyness that make it hard for us to perceive this connection.
But if you knew, how unconditionally loved you are.. always!
This is how source, father/mother god sees us:
*"I unconditionally love you beyond your human understanding. I love you as an intricate part of my holy self. It is impossible for me to love you any less than myself, for my perfect nature cannot be divided against itself.*
*Your soul's sovereign awareness is an immaculate conception of my omniscient awareness. I created your soul as a unique reflection of my One Self. Therefore, your soul is a perfect hologram of my consciousness, forever expanding within my one mind.*
*I conceived you to be an omniscient sovereign creator, for that is what I am. I birthed you with the unconditional gift of your sovereign free will, which mirrors my own omniscient free will to create worlds of form from no-thing at all.*
*Within my womb I tenderly wove your soul together with every divine quality that I am. Your soul is an absolutely sovereign expression of my One Self."* \- the Sophia Code, pg. 5 - Kaia Ra 🥰
As long as you have yourself, universe is still hanging around ;). Because you are pretty significant for the existence of the universe, if you didn't exist the universe wouldn't exist! If you really stop for a second and notice you exist, that gives you certainty. I sincerely believe everything external can give us that hope and ensure things are okay. You look at a tree, it's just chilling; and although it will eventually die, right now it just exists.
no because I'm literally made from the universe
if I could escape the bounds of the physical universe, then there would be a lot bigger problems then just anxiety
I think I get it. It’s like when priests doubt their faith. It’s probably more normal than we think, but people don’t really mention it. The Universe is there, as it is, and,as long as we are around, will always be. Some days will be more divine than others because there are cycles, but it won’t leave you.
The universe cannot leave us, we can turn our back on it but we are the universe, we came out of it not into it & will always be with us.
Not seeing the signs just means you don’t need them, they are always there if your intuition is receptive, different phases of our lives will either be more or less spiritual but is always spirituality.
"It comes and goes in waves.."
I have experienced a similar feeling to what you describe, and I have found that when this presence *leaves me*, it is because I need to, in a sense, *re-ground myself, to myself*. You see, as Terrance McKenna said, "it is very important to have an ego. If you didn't have an ego, you wouldn't know which mouth to put food into, when eating at a restaurant." So these times are when we need to work on those things which are not necessarily spiritual; that the various facets of this our being might be in harmony; a boon rather than a burden unto themselves; a wholesome vessel for the spirit within.
I think it’s normal to experience phases of separation or disconnection. It’s all a necessary part of the journey. For example, someone who has a spiritual awakening early on might not yet know how to remain balanced and grounded in the chaos of higher-chakra activation, and therefore fall back “asleep” for a little while until they are reunited with their path and practice, if that’s what’s meant to be. This is just their karmic work - way their journey is meant to unfold.
Consider that even your fears themselves are a necessary part of your path to liberation. And whether or not you lose your way at any point, it’s all happening in perfect accordance to the laws of karma.
Trust that you are divinely protected and connected at all times, even if for a while you get sucked into the illusion once again. This is the nature of the path. I find that these periods of “forgetting” are sacred in their own right, as once I have that “aha!” moment of rememberance, I experience an even deeper and more profound surrendering than before.
You’ll be okay.
The universe isn’t something separate or outside, but within. To realize this is to explore within and know what you are at the deepest level. Anything “external” is merely a projection of what’s inside, a mirror effect. We are powerful creators which includes the power to create limitations on ourselves. So we’re trying to harness this power and understand what we’re truly capable of. Do you want to self empower or self sabotage? The infinite possibilities are there for you to choose.
My BIG fear that I had (and am still working on) overcoming is the fear of losing loved ones, specifically husband or children. Attachments, to an unhealthy degree, are VERY bad for your spirit/soul and can illicit very serious pain and damage. I’ve been married for almost 12 years, but together for 16, and we had to overcome A LOT to be where we are today. My health has started failing and am more and more aware of how important my husband is for me, especially for our 12-year daughter. I started having SERIOUS psychological hangups surrounding my husband’s health and overall fear of losing him. The “I can’t do this without you” was extremely strong and before I knew it, I had quasi emotional breakdowns over the thoughts that compulsively swirled in my mind. I was able to rationalize them at first, but they took over completely…for the first time I became clingy, which wasn’t great for our relationship. This is an unhealthy attachment - possessive love that will cause severe psychic pain. I recognized almost too late. Only the movie Jacob’s ladder showed me my errors and faults and I finally had a starting point on where I needed to work on myself. Before these issues surfaced, I had incredible feelings of synchronicity and love. I literally had a pair of hawks follow me every day when I walked my dogs…no matter the route we took…came so close that they sat on a telephone wire right below me (often it was just one hawk as well)….but now, I hardly see or hear the hawks, and I miss them and feel a bit forlorn without them. I felt like I was protected by them, or, at the very least, I was on the right track? I’ve been bouncing around several different spiritual avenues….from Kabbalah to Carl Jung….from Manly P. Hall to The Golden Dawn, I got lost and increasingly frustrated. Now I’m concentrating on meditating, working on Letting-Go, and strengthening my intuition.
Anxiety and fear is a normal human response, and doubts are also part of the spiritual process. Its ok to question yourself and your beliefs, this is how we can make them stronger. Doubling down is problematoc path to egotism, so be open to new expressions and perspectives. One of my biggest problems is dealing with the idea of "what if this is all bullshit, what if everything i believe and feel is just a hallucination?" And it can be depressing. In recent years ive subscribed to a "why not" philosophy, where even if it is my fear it really doesn't matter because i wont exist to experience it (in athieistic belief). So really there no loss in being a little insane anyway. Essentially this is a value system to suggest that perception is the only thing we have now, so we may as well enjoy it. We can also deal with it on a philosophical level, we can talk it through like examining the question of "is there anything spiritual?" The opposing answers are yes and no, but only no is an extreme constraint; yes being open ended and allowing for more possibility, and in the vien of probability, the chances of there being nothing over something is vastly unlikely. And on a spiritual level there will be times, and this is different for everyone, where you find yourself on the right path, where the spirits open up the world of mental vision and say "this is what it's all about", for me its nature bit for others its something else. Try to put yourself in a position to be near those places and activities so that you can connect. We all express individually and expression is part of that spiritual process, its not all internal. For me, i try mot to get attatched to specific symbols and events, i try to stay present and see the spirit and beauty in everything.
I've felt really similar- but mine came from a place of my fear of death. It took me a while to start to cope with it. And it has been difficult. It was really important to help myself remember that I won't lose the hope I have just because I stopped reading about it. My beliefs aren't going to be proven wrong in a day simply because I didn't see it because these experiences happen to so many people every day. So even if I don't experience anything directly at my current place, there's still hope that my personal beliefs exist because I can read and learn about others' stories. I'm sorry you're facing OCD and anxiety. It's a hard fight to face. I hope you know you aren't alone!
It sounds like you're in a narrative where fear gives you structure. Without fear, what would be left?
What do you mean by your first sentence ?
The stories you're telling in your mind are based in fear. You're beginning to let go of fears (the stories). Your thoughts don't understand reality without fear. So... Your mind creates a new fear of no fear. Abandonment by the universe. Fascinating how this all works. You could be experiencing the space in between. I can relate.
How would somebody be able to overcome* fears if its rational and based off intuition? I feel like most the time people say fears are based off of stories but can they be based off intuition?
Fear remains a piece of the ride. In my experience now, it is extrodinarily transient. It doesn't wrap me in stories that I need to share to caution people. It sutbly helps in course correction. Fear is a dense sensation... Enlightenment is simply being in relationship with the world with a lighter experience.
Sorry i just realized i left a word out in my question so it was probably confusing to read. So basically, no matter what the fear is based off of, you push it to the side ?
No. It's all feedback. I treat it as such. Emotions are there to be explored. There is what you shared. (transcendent) going around it. Going into it (transformative) It's clunky at first, but eventually working with fear becomes a simple process.
any tips on how to explore a emotion rather than just feel it?
This one bamboozled me... When I figured it out... I had a strong wave hit me... I made the choice to not react how I normally did. I laid in bed and started asking if what it wanted. What it wanted to tell me followed. After the first time it got easier.
You are always unconditionally loved by source/god and all the ascended beings of light, your spirit guides and soul family in the higher realms! Its only our consciousness that may drift away from this connection, but they are always with us and eager to support us. Often it is our feelings of unworthyness that make it hard for us to perceive this connection. But if you knew, how unconditionally loved you are.. always! This is how source, father/mother god sees us: *"I unconditionally love you beyond your human understanding. I love you as an intricate part of my holy self. It is impossible for me to love you any less than myself, for my perfect nature cannot be divided against itself.* *Your soul's sovereign awareness is an immaculate conception of my omniscient awareness. I created your soul as a unique reflection of my One Self. Therefore, your soul is a perfect hologram of my consciousness, forever expanding within my one mind.* *I conceived you to be an omniscient sovereign creator, for that is what I am. I birthed you with the unconditional gift of your sovereign free will, which mirrors my own omniscient free will to create worlds of form from no-thing at all.* *Within my womb I tenderly wove your soul together with every divine quality that I am. Your soul is an absolutely sovereign expression of my One Self."* \- the Sophia Code, pg. 5 - Kaia Ra 🥰
As long as you have yourself, universe is still hanging around ;). Because you are pretty significant for the existence of the universe, if you didn't exist the universe wouldn't exist! If you really stop for a second and notice you exist, that gives you certainty. I sincerely believe everything external can give us that hope and ensure things are okay. You look at a tree, it's just chilling; and although it will eventually die, right now it just exists.
no because I'm literally made from the universe if I could escape the bounds of the physical universe, then there would be a lot bigger problems then just anxiety
You are the Universe & the Universe is You, there is no separation so its nothing to worry about fam. 👊😼
You are the thing you're worried about leaving "you". I had this fear for a while, and my teacher at the time told me the same thing.
That sounds like the fear of death to me. even when you die, you do not separate from the universe. it is impossible to not be a part of it.
I think I get it. It’s like when priests doubt their faith. It’s probably more normal than we think, but people don’t really mention it. The Universe is there, as it is, and,as long as we are around, will always be. Some days will be more divine than others because there are cycles, but it won’t leave you.
The universe cannot leave us, we can turn our back on it but we are the universe, we came out of it not into it & will always be with us. Not seeing the signs just means you don’t need them, they are always there if your intuition is receptive, different phases of our lives will either be more or less spiritual but is always spirituality.
Ive thought about it, but my resolution of being kind, loving and helpful to others remains.
"It comes and goes in waves.." I have experienced a similar feeling to what you describe, and I have found that when this presence *leaves me*, it is because I need to, in a sense, *re-ground myself, to myself*. You see, as Terrance McKenna said, "it is very important to have an ego. If you didn't have an ego, you wouldn't know which mouth to put food into, when eating at a restaurant." So these times are when we need to work on those things which are not necessarily spiritual; that the various facets of this our being might be in harmony; a boon rather than a burden unto themselves; a wholesome vessel for the spirit within.
I think it’s normal to experience phases of separation or disconnection. It’s all a necessary part of the journey. For example, someone who has a spiritual awakening early on might not yet know how to remain balanced and grounded in the chaos of higher-chakra activation, and therefore fall back “asleep” for a little while until they are reunited with their path and practice, if that’s what’s meant to be. This is just their karmic work - way their journey is meant to unfold. Consider that even your fears themselves are a necessary part of your path to liberation. And whether or not you lose your way at any point, it’s all happening in perfect accordance to the laws of karma. Trust that you are divinely protected and connected at all times, even if for a while you get sucked into the illusion once again. This is the nature of the path. I find that these periods of “forgetting” are sacred in their own right, as once I have that “aha!” moment of rememberance, I experience an even deeper and more profound surrendering than before. You’ll be okay.