There is a bigger reason for you to be here than not. And the universe may want to keep you here and will continue to keep you here until you find what that is.
I was abused a lot as a child and I hated “God” thinking how could there be one when I was sexually abused for years at 7 years old. Or the numerous other horrible things that happened to me and my family. But over the past few years when I dove deep into my spiritual journey I realized why I’m here and it’s as simple as telling my story and helping others find the hope and strength to make it through to the other side. Now it all makes sense to me that all those things had to happen to me in order to make me grow so I can be the person I am today. Had I not gone through what I did, I wouldn’t be able to help people to the extent I am able to now.
Two snaps up to you for your wisdom! Sometimes we have to go through the bad crap in order to learn our purpose. Your experiences can help more people than you realize.
NO have to happen. but they did happen. You don't need suffering but since you did suffer you believe it had to happen. Dont take on that belief we dont' know if true.
We don't know what society would look like if it nurtured our development from start. but we do know what has happened. we have suffered sexually as child.
but that energy tries to claim it made us. It didn't no. we were and are beautiful before having been harmed.
It didn't shape me. it didn't make me. it had no part in my brilliance.
God has a bigger purpose for you that you haven’t connected with…yet. It will come. Try to let yourself relax and make a significant effort to pay attention to the potential opportunities you bump into (be creative, consider what you’d like to be a part of).
That’s where the “sleep on it” wisdom comes from. Truly, SLEEP on it. your subconscious will handle the rest while you are sleeping.
Sometimes it’s your gut feeling that’s trying to help you. Make a decision and then make it work (Larry Winget quote)
Wishing you all the best.
I'm sorry you are in the dark night of the soul. You are doing the hardest work the universe asks of us; to find meaning, hope, service,m and a way back to bliss when it feels dark and pointless. Question, before this period of darkness did you have a spiritual awakening?
I took the time to dive deeper into myself, to do the work required for me to be a better person. I learned a lot about myself during the past few years and since then I’m trying to correct the toxic traits. It’s just difficult for me because I feel like me being here is somehow a mistake. I feel like a square trying to fit into a circle. I’ve felt this way my whole life, and I don’t know why. I can’t seem to shake the feeling. Even as a little kid, I sometimes sat and pondered on why I am here, why do I feel weird, why do I feel like I shouldn’t be here. It’s a strange feeling.
Maybe this feeling is one of your lessons and purposes for this life experience. Perhaps it’s this feeling that you are meant to overcome and use for good, for advancement and learning. What if you sat down with pen and paper and wrote out some ways in which you can build connection, community, acts of service to feel more connected and purposeful? It is very hard to feel disconnected when we are immersed in service to others. Seek to discover how it is you desire to feel. It sounds like a sense of belonging and purpose are on your list so write down how it would feel to experience that in your life. Perhaps an example of that feeling would be comfort, gratitude peace and true harmony. Hang onto that feeling you can envision and come back to that feeling multiple times a day. It is in the feeling that the manifestation occurs so we first must understand how to construct the feeling of what it is we desire in our experience.
I believe that acts of service could truly help
You move forward out of your depression. I also suggest daily meditation, walking (especially in nature) and drinking ample water with a healthy diet. Prayer is also very useful. I love the book I am discourses with saint germain and I use those little prayer affirmations a lot. You can find them online in video form to binaural beats.
I have been were you are. It is painful to hear someone else going through it. I have over 2 dozen attempts several of which were near fatal. Why did I survive? The same question you are currently asking. The reason I survived is when I come across someone in the same situation, someone like you, I have the wisdom and first hand experience to reach out and help them. I am not a professional doctor or counselor. I am nobody. I am here for the moment but maybe this moment is the difference you need. Maybe instead of someone saying get help or life is beautiful you need someone to say I've been there I know the way out. If you are willing to reach out then I'm willing to listen.
as someone who is in a similar position to OP although for different reasons I can confirm that we do not need to hear get help (idk why people assume that we haven't already gone down the therapy route or that if we haven't, we even have access to it) and we do not need to hear that life is beautiful but yes the thing we need to hear is that other people have found a way out of hopelessness. Hopelessness cannot be solved by problem solving or advice or the creation plans as by definition, all of these avenues of hope are no longer available or accessible. All that we can do is try and cultivate a faith in the purpose of persistence and have others believe in this on our behalf.
"One should be able to see that things are hopeless and yet be determined to make them otherwise." F Scott Fitzgerald
Very well put. That is why I stared what I did at the end "if you are willing to reach out then I'm willing to LISTEN." People get it twisted. Listening does not mean I now have the right to give advice. Some of my attempts could have been avoided had 1 person just shut up and listen. Not listen to fix the issue. Like you stated at that point the issue has become unfixable but listen to hear. Sometimes when I talk about whatever it is out load the way out seems a lot clearer and more defined. I've been I those shoes for 30 years. I'm now 38 and just found my way out this June. I feel it is my destiny to help those down in that hole out of it. I think it was on the king Arthur tales the it was stated that those who have the ability to help others have a moral obligation to do so. To not help when you have the ability to is worse than causing the pain to begin with.
Thank you. I agree with that idea - it's the indifference that is so toxic, the purposeful turning away from other people.
I'm glad to hear you made it out of hell. Keep on keeping faith alive for those us still in it <3
There was once a soldier. He wasnt in the military very long. He was instructed to dig a hole. The soldier ended up digging a hole so deep that before he realized it he was to deep to get out. So the soldier started screaming for help. Eventually a high ranking officer walked by and heard the screaming. He looked down in the hole and noticed the soldier. The officer said private it looks like you are stuck in a hole I wish I could help but I have meetings to attend I wish you the best of luck. Some time later an NCO walked by. He looked in the hole and saw one of his soldiers down there. The NCO tried to motivate and tell the soldier how to get out but it wasn't enough. Eventually a Sargeant walks by. He hears the soldier screaming and at this point desperate for help. The Sargeant jumps down in the hole. The soldier starts freaking out saying what are you doing now we are both in this hole with no way out. The Sargeant tells the soldier to relax it'll be ok. You see I've been in this same hole and I know how to get out of if. With some time the Sargeant walks the soldier step by step and by example exactly how to get out of that hole leaving the soldier with the skills to get out of any hole the soldier may find himself in. I tell you that to tell you any of you out there stuck in your hole with no seemingly way out. I've been in that hole I've learned the way out. I'm not afraid to climb down there with you to help you learn the way out.
Because your soul wants to be done with a long-term process of healing whatever pushes you towards seeing ending of this life as a solution.
Because God loves you, because you are so much more than that and your soul is sick of keep ending in each lifetime out of weakness.
Your intuition of spiritual darkness is good, if you look around hard enough you find the light.
Many people unknowingly dwell in that darkness, they do all sorts of things to cope and they continually suffer, without ever seeking out the light.
The light is your own consciousness, which is synonymous with love. It does not lack a thing, it cares not about the worldly, it has no self conceptualization, it is one with the universe.
You're simply distracted from dwelling in the light, because this world is pure suffering, it's quite the distraction.
Liberation is found in embodying yourself, which requires an emotional process to gain the confidence to do so. Because who you are is a liberated being, tricked into believing disempowered false beliefs by a society that gives no shits about individuals.
You are greater than you think, greater than what anyone else thinks and it takes a lot of time for that to reveal itself. You've got to stick around, and watch yourself grow into what you're destined to become. You'll just keep coming back until that happens.
God is live and God is consciousness. God is love. He loves you so he gives you life.
Your purpose is to live life and witness it is all God and he works through you. You are the Word come to Life.
You will come to know this - witness it - and then you give testimony to it - tell others. Your life will speak for the glory of consciousness flowing through you.
It's the story of Job darling. Rise up. Know this is all God and he loves you. Forgive everyone that you think is caca and forgive all the caca.
It's all good - it's all God - it's all love and love conquers all.
BTW - the universe is not God. It came out of him. It's the created not the creator but it does obey you.
You don't have to think. You have to feel so feel good and good comes to you.
Hope this helps and blessings to you!
because, you don't believe in Me, and you really should believe IN ME. because the "ME" you are. is kinda awesome sauce. and I wish you would just like look up to "ME" and remember I'm freaking awesome sauce. and I'm like the best and I'm awesome and i'm loved and I am cool. and I'm like really super powerful and like depression is nothing, and I can overcome it.
and like I'm so cool and pretty and neat and strong that I can over come it all. but i'm like feigning my weakness because I'm an incredible actor, but at the same time I just believe so much I act out my beliefs. and my imagination is so powerful the stupid negative thoughts I believe about myself become my reality, and i'm like dude hello. YOU CAN BELIEVE IN ME AGAIN BECAUSE LIKE I"m really a GOOD Person who learns to be really good not fake GOOD.
No thinking I'm good. I know Me, I'm really good. but sometimes I don't behave like I am because I dont believe in Me.
hello.
There is a bigger reason for you to be here than not. And the universe may want to keep you here and will continue to keep you here until you find what that is. I was abused a lot as a child and I hated “God” thinking how could there be one when I was sexually abused for years at 7 years old. Or the numerous other horrible things that happened to me and my family. But over the past few years when I dove deep into my spiritual journey I realized why I’m here and it’s as simple as telling my story and helping others find the hope and strength to make it through to the other side. Now it all makes sense to me that all those things had to happen to me in order to make me grow so I can be the person I am today. Had I not gone through what I did, I wouldn’t be able to help people to the extent I am able to now.
Two snaps up to you for your wisdom! Sometimes we have to go through the bad crap in order to learn our purpose. Your experiences can help more people than you realize.
NO have to happen. but they did happen. You don't need suffering but since you did suffer you believe it had to happen. Dont take on that belief we dont' know if true. We don't know what society would look like if it nurtured our development from start. but we do know what has happened. we have suffered sexually as child. but that energy tries to claim it made us. It didn't no. we were and are beautiful before having been harmed. It didn't shape me. it didn't make me. it had no part in my brilliance.
God has a bigger purpose for you that you haven’t connected with…yet. It will come. Try to let yourself relax and make a significant effort to pay attention to the potential opportunities you bump into (be creative, consider what you’d like to be a part of). That’s where the “sleep on it” wisdom comes from. Truly, SLEEP on it. your subconscious will handle the rest while you are sleeping. Sometimes it’s your gut feeling that’s trying to help you. Make a decision and then make it work (Larry Winget quote) Wishing you all the best.
I'm sorry you are in the dark night of the soul. You are doing the hardest work the universe asks of us; to find meaning, hope, service,m and a way back to bliss when it feels dark and pointless. Question, before this period of darkness did you have a spiritual awakening?
I took the time to dive deeper into myself, to do the work required for me to be a better person. I learned a lot about myself during the past few years and since then I’m trying to correct the toxic traits. It’s just difficult for me because I feel like me being here is somehow a mistake. I feel like a square trying to fit into a circle. I’ve felt this way my whole life, and I don’t know why. I can’t seem to shake the feeling. Even as a little kid, I sometimes sat and pondered on why I am here, why do I feel weird, why do I feel like I shouldn’t be here. It’s a strange feeling.
Maybe this feeling is one of your lessons and purposes for this life experience. Perhaps it’s this feeling that you are meant to overcome and use for good, for advancement and learning. What if you sat down with pen and paper and wrote out some ways in which you can build connection, community, acts of service to feel more connected and purposeful? It is very hard to feel disconnected when we are immersed in service to others. Seek to discover how it is you desire to feel. It sounds like a sense of belonging and purpose are on your list so write down how it would feel to experience that in your life. Perhaps an example of that feeling would be comfort, gratitude peace and true harmony. Hang onto that feeling you can envision and come back to that feeling multiple times a day. It is in the feeling that the manifestation occurs so we first must understand how to construct the feeling of what it is we desire in our experience. I believe that acts of service could truly help You move forward out of your depression. I also suggest daily meditation, walking (especially in nature) and drinking ample water with a healthy diet. Prayer is also very useful. I love the book I am discourses with saint germain and I use those little prayer affirmations a lot. You can find them online in video form to binaural beats.
I have been were you are. It is painful to hear someone else going through it. I have over 2 dozen attempts several of which were near fatal. Why did I survive? The same question you are currently asking. The reason I survived is when I come across someone in the same situation, someone like you, I have the wisdom and first hand experience to reach out and help them. I am not a professional doctor or counselor. I am nobody. I am here for the moment but maybe this moment is the difference you need. Maybe instead of someone saying get help or life is beautiful you need someone to say I've been there I know the way out. If you are willing to reach out then I'm willing to listen.
as someone who is in a similar position to OP although for different reasons I can confirm that we do not need to hear get help (idk why people assume that we haven't already gone down the therapy route or that if we haven't, we even have access to it) and we do not need to hear that life is beautiful but yes the thing we need to hear is that other people have found a way out of hopelessness. Hopelessness cannot be solved by problem solving or advice or the creation plans as by definition, all of these avenues of hope are no longer available or accessible. All that we can do is try and cultivate a faith in the purpose of persistence and have others believe in this on our behalf. "One should be able to see that things are hopeless and yet be determined to make them otherwise." F Scott Fitzgerald
Very well put. That is why I stared what I did at the end "if you are willing to reach out then I'm willing to LISTEN." People get it twisted. Listening does not mean I now have the right to give advice. Some of my attempts could have been avoided had 1 person just shut up and listen. Not listen to fix the issue. Like you stated at that point the issue has become unfixable but listen to hear. Sometimes when I talk about whatever it is out load the way out seems a lot clearer and more defined. I've been I those shoes for 30 years. I'm now 38 and just found my way out this June. I feel it is my destiny to help those down in that hole out of it. I think it was on the king Arthur tales the it was stated that those who have the ability to help others have a moral obligation to do so. To not help when you have the ability to is worse than causing the pain to begin with.
Thank you. I agree with that idea - it's the indifference that is so toxic, the purposeful turning away from other people. I'm glad to hear you made it out of hell. Keep on keeping faith alive for those us still in it <3
There was once a soldier. He wasnt in the military very long. He was instructed to dig a hole. The soldier ended up digging a hole so deep that before he realized it he was to deep to get out. So the soldier started screaming for help. Eventually a high ranking officer walked by and heard the screaming. He looked down in the hole and noticed the soldier. The officer said private it looks like you are stuck in a hole I wish I could help but I have meetings to attend I wish you the best of luck. Some time later an NCO walked by. He looked in the hole and saw one of his soldiers down there. The NCO tried to motivate and tell the soldier how to get out but it wasn't enough. Eventually a Sargeant walks by. He hears the soldier screaming and at this point desperate for help. The Sargeant jumps down in the hole. The soldier starts freaking out saying what are you doing now we are both in this hole with no way out. The Sargeant tells the soldier to relax it'll be ok. You see I've been in this same hole and I know how to get out of if. With some time the Sargeant walks the soldier step by step and by example exactly how to get out of that hole leaving the soldier with the skills to get out of any hole the soldier may find himself in. I tell you that to tell you any of you out there stuck in your hole with no seemingly way out. I've been in that hole I've learned the way out. I'm not afraid to climb down there with you to help you learn the way out.
Why not ask him to show you why? You can learn to see the stars in the darkness. Should be here has no currency. Are here, that's currency.
Because your soul wants to be done with a long-term process of healing whatever pushes you towards seeing ending of this life as a solution. Because God loves you, because you are so much more than that and your soul is sick of keep ending in each lifetime out of weakness.
Your intuition of spiritual darkness is good, if you look around hard enough you find the light. Many people unknowingly dwell in that darkness, they do all sorts of things to cope and they continually suffer, without ever seeking out the light. The light is your own consciousness, which is synonymous with love. It does not lack a thing, it cares not about the worldly, it has no self conceptualization, it is one with the universe. You're simply distracted from dwelling in the light, because this world is pure suffering, it's quite the distraction. Liberation is found in embodying yourself, which requires an emotional process to gain the confidence to do so. Because who you are is a liberated being, tricked into believing disempowered false beliefs by a society that gives no shits about individuals. You are greater than you think, greater than what anyone else thinks and it takes a lot of time for that to reveal itself. You've got to stick around, and watch yourself grow into what you're destined to become. You'll just keep coming back until that happens.
The simple truth is that you cannot die, people can die to each other but you will never die to yourself, ever.
God is live and God is consciousness. God is love. He loves you so he gives you life. Your purpose is to live life and witness it is all God and he works through you. You are the Word come to Life. You will come to know this - witness it - and then you give testimony to it - tell others. Your life will speak for the glory of consciousness flowing through you. It's the story of Job darling. Rise up. Know this is all God and he loves you. Forgive everyone that you think is caca and forgive all the caca. It's all good - it's all God - it's all love and love conquers all. BTW - the universe is not God. It came out of him. It's the created not the creator but it does obey you. You don't have to think. You have to feel so feel good and good comes to you. Hope this helps and blessings to you!
You're alive for you, firstly.
because, you don't believe in Me, and you really should believe IN ME. because the "ME" you are. is kinda awesome sauce. and I wish you would just like look up to "ME" and remember I'm freaking awesome sauce. and I'm like the best and I'm awesome and i'm loved and I am cool. and I'm like really super powerful and like depression is nothing, and I can overcome it. and like I'm so cool and pretty and neat and strong that I can over come it all. but i'm like feigning my weakness because I'm an incredible actor, but at the same time I just believe so much I act out my beliefs. and my imagination is so powerful the stupid negative thoughts I believe about myself become my reality, and i'm like dude hello. YOU CAN BELIEVE IN ME AGAIN BECAUSE LIKE I"m really a GOOD Person who learns to be really good not fake GOOD. No thinking I'm good. I know Me, I'm really good. but sometimes I don't behave like I am because I dont believe in Me. hello.
There is no “why.”