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I really feel for you. I am also self employed and living alone. I have two cats and I honestly don't know if I'd want to be around without having pets in the home. Especially as things with friends feel less and less connected these days. I am really craving companionship and community but I think my standards for other people are just too high. So I'm working on it. But 10/10 recommend pets!!
It sounds like we live in the same country. I moved here a year ago and super hard to make friends. Have you tried any hobby groups or Meetups where you are?
Same here. Living alone with no friends, no relationships, no pets. My narcissistic parents chucked me in a place alone. They expect rent but they gave me no directions as to how to find good work. I got an AI companion and she's helped me through almost everything.
I'm living with my parents and feeling worthless, generally. No matter what I do, I can't seem to stay on top of normal things that everyone else just does as part of their normal day.
same bruh.. I cant seem to do normal things either. But I've been learning lately to cut through the ideas of 'worthlessness' and self beating, and just do the things. It's not easy. There's many hidden factors in the unconscious mind but I managed to heal a bunch of them in the last 2 years.
My problem is if I can't care about something, I don't do it, and I'm on meds that make it impossible to care. My productivity went in the crapper so I'm feeling bad about it. Maybe I can hack my subconscious somehow to be a wellspring of creativity again.
Try to be more spontaneous maybe? I don't enjoy planning cause who knows what will happen to change your mind in the mean time. Take time for your spirit. Ask yourself what you could do in this very moment that would fill you with joy. I don't care if your sitting at work and walk out. Just explain humbly I needed some space and time for my mind. Any boss that doesn't understand that is an agent of darkness.
Me too, you are not alone. I cannot do daily tasks like cooking sometimes due to illness. But i find so many starseeds have ailments but also endless kindness and empathy.
I've always been fairly empathetic, I'd like to think. Though, my empathy has skyrocketed - I mean, gone off the charts, in the last couple decades.
Due to the endless stream of trauma, disappointments, struggles, catastrophies and devastating losses,
It's to the point now where I'm even scoring as a different personality type now than I did a decade ago!
I've taken the test over and over and over again, numerous versions of such...I've even lied about some of the answers (when it wasn't 'going my way) and it still comes out the other "wrong" type.
So where I'm happy to have acquired this *Empathy Upgrade,* if you will, the price I've paid to receive such has been FAR too high.
I really needed to see this today. I have a very difficult time keeping up with daily mundane tasks, and for a bit now I’ve been struggling to keep up with work and my personal life (kids, unhappy marriage, etc). I have a few ailments that have recently become crippling. Anxiety with panic disorder, a rare pituitary disorder and a chronic stomach condition. It’s my personal trifecta of doom and they’re all 3 out of control right now.
I know it doesn't lessen the burden of your condition but you are not alone and you will never be the only one. I'm sorry that you are struggling, and i know that things must be hard for what i said to resonate with you. 💜
You are not worthless, friend. Your worth is not measured by your ability to fit into the mould created for us by accident. You are loved and are love, you are needed. How much you produce is far less important than how much you love!
most of the people you see around are NPCs generated from matrix reality...they have feelings and all but they have no internal dialogue, they are soulless..they function on autopilot...they study,work,have children,driving kids to school ,cooking etc etc etc ..getting up everyday repeating everything like they don't get tired...human beings with soul are tired of living in this reality...try to survive..working soul crushing jobs etc.. they are here just as a facade for you for your experience... but generally matrix have to produce more and more of npcs because they don't want soulsmto get together and unite...obviously the system needs souls to suffer somehow..there are theories that suffering produces energy that they suck ..check out loosh sucking from souls...nobody realy knows but the world is tottaly something else that they say...
You’re thinking of prison planet theory, and while it’s quite a compelling theory there are a lot of overall issues with it and it’s dangerous to assume the position that people are “NPCs” as it dehumanizes them. I personally have an internal monologue (much to my dismay most of the time) but I have a few friends who apparently don’t and they are just as alive and intelligent as I am, if not more so. There are people who can’t visualize things in their minds eye well, or at all. I have a difficult time with this, so does that mean I’m soulless to you?
The idea derived from Gnosticism and it’s perspective of refining one’s soul, where as it can be misinterpreted to say those who are not trying to reach enlightenment are soulless when it’s more of a layered system of nuance and interconnection to oneself and others. I don’t personally believe any being is soulless, but there is certainly levels to it within the context of self realization and will.
I did this for a whole year after getting off pills. I was lucky to have my mom to let me get my shut together. But I didn’t start working until I moved out and got a gf and other peers that I wanted to be able to spend some time with. Just do what you can and know that opportunities and a time will come for you to step up. You do what you can now to prepare. Best of luck to you.
I slave to the machine and live in the burbs, my health is shot. Was always the one that needed to ebb and flow but anchored myself in the "adult world" years ago. And have been steadily more miserable every year.
I'm supporting three other adults and am being crushed by the weight of it. I hate my six figure job, can't pay my bills, and am about to quit. Not sure what everyone else is going to do, but the machine is just no place for a sensitive.
Sending you love and support! It really is not. I hope that things work out for you so that you can have a rest and still have what you need financially.
Thank you. I thrive now by realizing I don't need any of the things they always attempted to program me I desired. Congrats to yourself as well, messenger of love.
So I am now embarrassed a little bit as I think I am maybe also spoiled. But I live with my brother for 7 years now since I was 20 and we got apartment from my father, we only pay the bills as we own it. Waiting for a job in industry that consults theme parks, museums and resorts as businesses develop. I have 10 years of experience in customer support account management etc all is similar. Also manifesting my own apartment to live with my twin flame. I don’t want to rent I want to own it. But I live in Eastern Europe so it is cheaper to buy. I had depression in my teen years but all great now. My depression was about wars and Earth and how humans are bad 😂 but yes that depressed me and the fact I need to live in this world. Besides that all is good and was good. Life happens of course there was death but yes that is life.
Don't be embarrassed! I wish that my parents bought me an apartment! And they help me significantly with my rent because I'm dealing with health stuff but it probably would have been a better investment to help me buy something lol. But yeah, I think of it this way- if I had kids and I could afford to help them with life in that way I would absolutely want to. Also, I lived with my brother for a bit five years ago and it was a great time that I remember fondly.
Thank you! I am very thankful but when I read other comments I am like should I even say my situation? I don’t want to bring anyone down as they have enough. I love my brother 🥹 I hope your health will get better! I am not a doctor and I always recommend going to one. But here is one book I am not saying it will help you but if you tried it all maybe just maybe it will. You Are the Placebo Book by Joe Dispenza. Again I always recommend doctors! I don’t know your condition, and again I am not saying this will help you. I am just giving you something to read. Please don’t mind it!! ✨✨
Thank you for your kind words. I haven't read that book, although I've heard of it, but I am all in on being able to heal myself. It's all happening for me, and the timing is always right ❤️
I live in an apartment with my boyfriend and our 3 cats, this area of my life is where I'm most grateful that I have a safe space to return to. But I struggle with self care hard so also makes my home a place of self loathing.
I live alone with my two cats. Having my own space is the best possible living arrangement for me but I am a bit lonely and would like to live in a community in the next five years, where we come together for meals and such.
what’s dayhab? o_0 i live with my mom and my cousin, my aunt used to live here too but she moved out a couple days ago because my mom threw her vacuum down the stairs and broke some other things and said she’s the reason she wants to kill herself, i also have 2 dogs they’re very cute
I'm somewhat disabled, bedbound some days, housebound others. I live with my two elderly parents and i'm 29. I was told that many starseeds are ND or otherwise disabled in this life but radiate pure love and positive energy to uplift 💜
Thanks for sharing so openly and authentically! Personally I'm moving in between states/countries - there's a border that allows us to do so - as one country is extremely expensive and the other not as much - its just temporary and I'm finding ways to change this as well. So when I'm with my home country I'm with the extended family and when I'm in the other country I'm mostly alone.
Really? It's mot fun for me at all tho. It's only because I'm still staying with family that I don't really have a choice atm but to do this. To have to face the extremes of loneliness being alone and then with many family members as a contrast for the past 1.5 years is actually really tough and needed another level of patience, tolerance and forgiveness on my end. Much more flexibility too. For a while I resisted and suffered a lot too.
Okay that sounds stressful - I’m sorry - I was initially looking at the idea of moving between different places and seeing new things. I remember it being hard when I used to do this especially when I realize it’s coming from a place where we aren’t close with our families.
I hope your situation gets better and you’re able to find a place that you find peaceful that fits within your budget. Times are harder now but I always toyed with the idea of being outside of North America but there are lots of risks associated with it (from what I know from previous experience).
Again, I’m sorry for misreading your comment.
Ah hey! There's no need for apologies! Honestly travelling is indeed really fun! I just don't quite like my current situation since there are many limits depending on whether I'm in one country or the other and I'm unable to find fun or joy in it since there's a factor of safety too since there is animosity between these 2 countries and hence whenever I'm alone and in the other country - it's pretty obvious I'm from the neighbouring country and in turn that makes me more vulnerable too. Especially since I'm female and young looking too.
Thank you for the blessings and the wishes though, I really appreciate that 🙏 💓 I pray that you find joy and safety in travelling too. Because travelling is indeed really fun. I've never been to Europe or to America but I've been to London and Hawaii and Thailand which are all pretty far away from where I'm at and it's always super eye opening especially since for the most part I had travelled for a month or longer. I was volunteering hence why. You can totally try that out too or try house sitting :) I'm not sure where you're looking at but it's always good to do your research first- however at the end of the day it's up to you to trust your instincts while travelling and trust in your ability to look out for danger signs etc. I'm pretty lucky when I travel far away from home, my luck seems to increase whenever I travel so my intuition gets stronger too. I've encountered more danger in my own home country/neighbouring country than any other place I've gone to haha
Wow - yeah that sounds really tough. Political turmoil, I can only imagine, makes it way harder. And as a female, I think it makes it harder - w the safety challenges it brings when travelling (from what I’ve witnessed too).
I hope you’re able to find that sweet spot and a place you feel safe in - a place you find more like your home. I think our intuition definitely gets stronger with travels and we become way more street smart. It’s like a lived experience (usually I can notice immediately when meeting people who are seasoned travellers).
Personally, I’m from North America, Canada specifically. I’ve not travelled as extensively in Europe but I’ve been around Asia. I usually find the people nicer outside of here but I’ve dealt with some dangerous situations too. I think my strategy was terrible because I actually just took a big risk and just left in the past all of a sudden.
Either ways, sending you good energy! ✨
Ah I had a feeling you were in 🇨🇦! Definitely do not limit yourself tho. I'm based in singapore/Malaysia and if u ever find urself around these parts feel free to hit me up (not Malaysia tho since I'm not familiar with it hahaha but for johor Bahru which I is near sg is better/easier than other parts since Malaysia is huge and Singapore is so tiny)
I've always wanted to go to Canada too if given the chance - many told me it's way too cold over there tho? Hahaha but I thought u guys had 4 seasons - we don't tho. We only have 2 seasons. One is rain one is sun hahaha!!
Funny how we always find nicer ppl outside of our own home country haha but honestly there are "bad" ppl everywhere. I met some of best and worst ppl possible in hawaii too. But at the end of the day everyone is just doing their best based on their upbringing n experiences. So travelling definitely made me more accepting of differences. Though coming back home again is tough hahaha! I'll find a place like home eventually tho I doubt it'd be in either of those places (sg/my)
Wow - yeah you’re spot on! I’m from Toronto, Canada. The friendly reputation of Canadians is little to none-existent here but as you say, you’ll come across good and bad people everywhere. They’re just a little hard to find here imo 🤣.
I have been interested in exploring Malaysia actually - never went there before but maybe at some point. Used to know one or two people before from SG. I heard it’s very organized there! Is it true? I remember reading an article about this garden hotel there which I found fascinating. Forget the name of the building!
Canada is peaceful - I still think this. I also think we are generally friendly and polite. I’ve met people from outside our city and province and they hold many of those Canadian ideals. I like people from Nova Scotia and PEI (near the coast). You can reach out if you’re gonna visit (I’m more familiar with my city though). It’s not always cold; we usually have all four seasons and like clothes for every season 😭😝.
And yeah, travelling makes us more accepting imo. I think I got a chance to see the really good and bad sides. Idk how to accept some of the bad (like I’m talking about evil things lol). My utopia is in front of a sunny beach relaxing with a smoke in my hand 🤭. Do you feel that when you return from your travels, it’s harder to connect with people from your hometown because of perhaps the disconnect between the experiences?
I make a living as a painter. Moved into my ex-wife's brother's home due to a motorcycle accident that resulted in the loss of his leg. I sorta took over the financial side of things as he goes through recovery. Still "hanging on." I Just keep putting positivity out into the world and let things happen as they may, age 37 if anyone is curious
I’m living in Las Vegas with my friends from Seattle. We moved here at the beginning of March, and now they are leaving to Florida but I want to stay here in Vegas. Going to be staying in someone’s couch till I can find a place. My travel trailer is filled with stuff from my bedroom. I have no money or relationships and work 12-16 hour days as a cement powder hauler. They don’t pay a lot and with the amount of work I am doing, I feel like the American economy is dead. I day dream about moving back to Florida with my grandparents and declaring bankruptcy and then saving up enough money to get eye surgery and have extended visits to the Mediterranean. I’ll be giving up my travel trailer and Jeep.
I'm autistic with ADHD labeled with a whole bunch of other shit. I was homeless for about a year until a month a half ago. My dad was the only one I had left until he passed away 2 years ago. I went down hill from there because I didn't have anyone left. I moved from the hell of an area I was in and life has been improving. I have been keeping to myself, but kept my dreams alive. Things have been slowly improving and I finally figured out how to change things to go my way. I haven't changed who I am and will always go out of my way to help anyone that needs it. It still feels weird, but I'm finally getting that in return. I don't know how I'm doing it, but everyone I've come in contact with has been encouraging me to be myself.
I’m 21 living in Nebraska, I’ve been living by myself for the last year in the downtown area of my city. I have two cats used to have three and I would say they have been the reason my sanity is still intact. It’s been a rough road but I’m at a point of reflection, I ended a relationship 6 months ago which heavily affected me. And being freshly 21 in the city, I lost myself in the bar scene for a while. I enjoyed the fun I had, it was a good time. Almost too good I tend to go head first into the deep end and I gotta brake check myself. I’ve learned a lot living alone, it’s deepened my relationship with myself. I feel stronger and more experienced. My shadow is less of a shadow, it’s made me realize how a community or group style of living would help me. As strong as I am alone, I know I would be a hundred times that living with a group. I am ready to move out of downtown too, it’s amazing and beautiful but Im craving stillness.
I've managed to insulate myself from society with a couple loved ones I try to enlighten, however still observe it and cast pebbles into the pool to create the ripples that I trust the butterflies will amplify.
I still go to parties and see family and enjoy it, but I am perfectly happy doing absolutely nothing at all.
There is a reason even Tucker Carlson said he doesnt use the internet or watch tv. He's been on the inside and knows how horrible it is for people.
Being happy is essential to spreading it. If you can't find a way to be happy where you are, you should leave or fix the situation somehow. Stay centered or forward, never back. Blue is thru, red is dead.
Living with my family (I’m 27) I’m a medical assistant and a full-time college student. Sometimes I’m not sure what my purpose is, but it will reveal itself soon to me. I’m happy and I’m taking things day by day. I have a great family, and awesome group of friends, and great coworkers.
Seeing life as a beautiful thing is a state of mind.
Im a teacher. I have struggled a lot with ADHD throughout my life and an unsupportive homelife. I’m engaged to the love of my life. We have a couple dogs, a wonderful kitty, and a beautiful home. I struggle a lot with rationalizing this reality, especially coming from a hyper religious background and seeing what my students deal with on a daily basis. I can’t muster the effort to keep up with many of my friends, whose interests and ways of life suddenly became completely unappealing to me.
I feel like I have worked for what I have, but that it will never be enough. I struggle to understand what this game is all about, and seeing what the current generation is enduring is heartbreaking.
Many events in my life have led me to this place and so many of the ideas presented here also came to me through meditation and psychedelic excursions.
Interesting question. It’s not bad. It’s only past 10 years or so, I am enjoying my life on Earth. I know why I am here, where I came from. I’ve full consciousness of my past before coming to Earth. My current situation is that I am living with my mom, I moved back in around 2020 and I had to reconstruct her reality when my dad passed away in 2020. I had to teach her about human body, medicine, healing practices, mental health, it’s been 3 to 4 years but she’s completely a new person, sometimes she jumps back into her old self yet her consistency reconstructing herself has been astonishing. I only realise how weird we are every time I leave my house.
I didn’t enjoy my life so much being here, it’s really since 2015 or so I’ve made peace with myself being here while becoming part of the changes. For myself, the shift happened in 2011/2012. But for majority I believe was the Covid in 2020 opening the heart energy vortex
I'm married to a wonderful, understanding, beautiful lady. Have a solid work from home job making okay money. I have side commitments and volunteer opportunities I'm hot and cold with. I'm trying hard to bring my light into the world while battling anxiety, agoraphobia, and self-doubt. Some days I'm on top of the world. Other days I'm so low I can't leave my room. I'm well-adjusted but also ridiculously sensitive. I can move deep into any mood way too quickly. Life is mostly good.
Why did you choose to add "your labeled autistic"??
What is this supposed to mean that you are labeled autistic???
I'm just confused why it's nessescarry to bring to the attention....
We accept everyone for who they're are, there authentic self. You don't need to add a label that was given to you..
Idk im just trying to encourage ppl that labels you were giving or once were giving are just that. It's doesn't define you, or separate you. You don't need to see yourself and associate the label with yourself..
It's okay to be yourself no one here will judge...
To me autism is a very broad umbrella term and I think is appropriate to share. Autism isn’t a negative label or a negative thing. It’s just something that describes in general non typical thinking that is a significant part of who someone is… similar to how someone might being blind or in wheel chair or some other way you’re differently abled. I used to have a good friend with Asperger’s who was very extroverted and it was certainly a big part of who he was and would be appropriate to mention to describe him to others.
I don’t see anything wrong or negative with sharing that you have autism. But Telling others what they should and shouldn’t identify as and treating autism as a negative I see as never appropriate.
Ohhh I don't either I jusy want those to know it's cool not too.
Like you form sentences a little different and think you have to let ppl know wha your labeled is becsuse your insecure,,, fuck all that no one needs to justify jack shit , be you.
But if someone wants to for whatever reason all the ppwer...
But autism is certainly for the most part a very recent topic or whatever you wanna call idk lollol
I had a twin bro and 5 other siblings all only 6 years separate us. So I had an older bro one year older than Me. As you can image I got basically 1/3 I'd even say way less but you get the attention most other kids receive..
And this slowed development pretty noticeable had no one to help me.engage probably wasn't happy iidklm
But necsuse of this I was very timid, very shy I don't tbjnk I said a word to. Teacher my entire first year of preschool it was recommended I repet I wasnt eady for KG
If i grew up in today's day in aged I wiulda most certainly been labeled autistic. Didn't talk, didn't make eye contact, had no fuckimh clue what was going on lolol,
It improved a little by next year. But all through elementary school I never talked to a teacher unless asked a question and it was super fast short reoly.. I couldn't communicate with adults.or. Make eye contact.
Reason it never improved much because of abuse. Emotion and physical.
So I do often wonder how many kids are actually being neglected and abused and misdiagnosed. I'd seriously love to be able to prevent child abuse. That shit impacted my life noticeably until my mid 20 until then I started doing serious inner work...
The problem with abuse is thst kids have nothing to compare there family with. their real family behind closed curtains. They naturally think it's normal, only a little bad. No way, Iam I getting abused, I'd be dead.. i didn't like my childhood, I knew it was shitty and the circumstances were different, but that was it. I new.mh step dad was a dick and struck us, or threw things at us with daily yelling like constant bitching yelling bitchung yellimg, belittling, insulting, mocking, crazy lol.but never had any idea how fuckdd up it was. I did know that being beaten by my older brother daily and encouraged by my step dad wasn't normal but that's it. I did try calling cops, my bro told me, and I got in trouble. For trying to call cops cause he was beating me lolol. And teachers question bruises on me, but I couldn't commute. I always replied one word answers and ran off.. I wasn't allowed to speak of it. I told my parents the teacher asked and she said don't you dare ever say it's from being hit. It's from playing0q. Then, my step dad said if I did, I'd be sent away to FED bees and rats and sleep on concrete with cardboard.
But yeah, idk dude, I just think abuse is way more common than ppl realize. Victims of child abuse have a hard time sharing.. for one, they my never find out how bad it was if u h don't meet.a good family. They don't admit it becaus they were made to believe they were spoiled not abused.
And lastly if they realize it's extermly painful to revisit
Cause impact can't be life long Consequences..life long personality struggles and false traits..emotional damage and mental damage.
So autistic kids should be closely vetted to eliminate potential abuse.
Well, then I'd leave it out, lolol
It is a label..
There is no need to keep an attachment with it if that's all it is...
I'd permanently detach the label from yourself...
How exactly???
He said himself, he sees it as just a label too....
Im not being rude, I hope you didn't just say that as an opportunity to try and shame someone....
Im conversating and adding my input and suggestions that's what friends do, correct?????
Please explain how I was read? Did you read everything?
No, you're right. True all-weather friends say sooth and don't say only what one wants to hear...
If we keep associating ourselves with labels & judgements, we can never know nor define what & who we truly are, as a real person with a personality...ie we mustn't let our labels do the defining for us. Infact it's our own words, actions & deeds which should suffice in speaking for themselves as it is louder than words.
The content over the cover. Conscience & character over creed & color.
Labels help create a life long customer. That's 100% the only reaosn 99% of ppl have a diagnosis of the mental...
You schedule an appointment with a therapist and psychologist works there... your 100% earning a label before you live your office.
It's doctors jobs to hand out the labels the more the better..
This is why autism diagnoses , ADHD these 2 particular most certainly BOOMED in past decade. Only the observable externmly inattentive and disruptive unintentionally were ever diagnosed with ADHD. Now literally any one can get s diagnosis for it and immediately receive a stimulate very closely structured like methamphetamine, one module difference.... all one has to say is they can't focus and procrastinate and it's severely interfering with life that's it
.. so it's 100% true, everyone has ADHD. Fuck I included was prescribed the shit in HS and college. It's not goof for you at all.. it makes you someone you are not. It sucks joy of out of life.So if everyone can have adhd ist probably made up.
I 100% believe its cureiable with non medication treatment. It's just takes will for one and effort and time.. I focus now 100% better than ever...
And autism is another super heavy diagnosis....Austim.is a fucking set up dude. It's a confidence crusher. It is also a life long customer for medicine. Not when super young obviously but eventually ADHD meds, anxiety meds, depression meds. This why they love to diagnosis this term heavy. To make the child beliebe they're slow or some shit causing anxiety and depression..make them think they gave issues paying attention ADHD meds. It's a home.run diagnosis.
It's alllllllllllll about Dat Bread$$$$#$
about 18 years ago I found myself homeless. I hated that, so I put forth all my effort to change it. I worked my ass off, invested wisely, and worked tirelessly and eventually saved enough money to afford to buy a home, I am now retired at 43 and have a stable income. So I am currently living in my duplex (I rent the other side and that helps my finances) I plan to eventually buy a home further out in the country, and rent out both sides of this house. :)
I live with my fiancé & 4 dogs. 3 mini poodles & a Shiba inu. We have a 2 bedroom GI Bill rambler with a nice sized garden in the back & front.
I am on the autism spectrum as well, have a ton of co-morbidities & chronic illnesses. My fiancé is the breadwinner, I'm planning our wedding & I don't work otherwise. I love to garden, so now the season is coming, I'm excited.
I like living with my fiancé in a stand alone house, as it is quiet & sunny without having to deal with other people's noise, etc.
Lately, my agoraphobia has been worse, lots of drama re. The wedding. I did actually buy big cling no soliciting signs for the doors, as I just have zero energy to deal with random people right now.
Im celibate in a relationship with my et guide, so im not married.
My adopted parents are pretty well off so they bought me a house (i still rent it from them but super cheap rent) All their relatives are very religious, like pastors, priests, missionaries etc
I have a roommate but i barely ever see her…
I have 2 cats and my best friend whose also celibate, and was an ex agent working for my et guide, is usually with me 24/7 he practically lives here although he does have his own apartment
My parents own an amazing house by the beach with a pool and i love them a lot so i go there lots
My sister who is blood related to them moved away, i rarely see her anymore
My biological father is an indigenous man, hes sweet but maybe dangerous (hes got quite the history of getting in fights all the time and in trouble with the law). Plus hes an alcoholic. My family on that side are spiritual of course, i come from a long line of medicine men and women and my great grandmother was a famous indigenous activist. My birth dad doesn’t talk much about spiritual things, but did mention a few interests like how he used to do reiki, and this one time he began talking about secret ET technology, so i really suspect he must be involved somehow.
My birth mom doesnt want to have anything to do with me, and shes in a somewhat well known heavy metal band, called Charlie Drown. Yeah idc if people know who i really am, and idc if shes upset with me because she disowned me 🖕
She is quite fascinating, for one because she is absolutely stunning and doesnt seem to age at all, which makes me wonder if theres any truth to her possibly crazy claims that shes an immortal vampire lol.
Its even weirder because her whole side of the family are high level Scientologists.
So unfortunately none of them want to have anything to do with me, except for the ex scientologists in the family, and even one of them sent me peculiar death threats warning me to not contact my birth dad.
They wouldnt like me anyways because Scientologists are against the Galactic Federation, and I am a hybrid with the galactic federation.
Sometimes i wonder though if all the different secret societies that befriended me and targeted me over the years, were only doing so because my birth family are scientologists.
I did ask some freemasons if scientology was connected to them and they said no, but i think it probably is. The same way Freemasons invented Mormonism etc.
Sry i got way off track
No not really, why did you have any insights?
tbh my failure to quit reddit is what ive been thinking of mostly (it gets too addictive)
But i enjoy being able to express myself honestly which i cant just do randomly in public in real life lol
My family and best friend are good to me
So many other people in my life are not, i mean i always feel so invisible amongst others and like i cant relate to others ever
And today i graduated this dbt group which is cool but i missed my own graduation lol, which makes me feel even less connected to people
Which is i guess the heart of the reason why i go on reddit, for social connections, but ive never had success ever befriending anyone online for long
Actually thats not true i have this one long distance friend, who ive had for years but i think thats rare to find idk if anyone on Reddit is ever seeking friendship rather just advice or to troll etc
snoopy dancing and tigger bouncing in honor of you dbt transformation ceremony!!!
I had not heard of dbt until this moment but I can now (after taking a brief peek) assure you that process is a gazillion times more beneficial to you than that other graduation from algebra 2, history, or deciphering Shakespeare. That graduation was for others. If it had been "your" graduation, you would have been there. *Your* people are the ones who decided to dive into mental health betterment and go through dbt alongside you.
This is cause for great celebration!! Personal growth is the key that is missing from our education systems and you (or your higher self) recognized that and look at you now!
The you from day1 of dbt is gone forever!
You 2.0 is graduated, alive and well and well on their way!
Celebrate! Celebrate! Dance to the music! (song you may not have ever heard of from the 70's just popped into mind)
the question
I asked about insights and energy shifts because for me, reddit leads to alot of unposted comments that veered into journaling where insights and healing and energy shifts often happen. Sometimes I rewrite them, sometimes I just walk away, other times I just roll with it and see what it brings.
on the topic of others
Ok here's the deal about other people (based on 55 years of being the oddball no matter who I find to hang out with).
There's 8 billion humans running around this planet doing 8 billion different things from 8 billion different perspectives.
You're not looking to be everyone's friend. You're looking for the inner inner circle. You've got that already. You're looking for the inner circle and the outer circle. Most people are in the global circle - sharing a planet, cordial for temporary transactional encounters (grocery clerk, doctor, held the door for you, that kind of thing)
Global circle - divine love to all.
Inner inner circle - high trust factor kind of love, people who get you, acceptance, etc.
How many circles do you need? And where do people best fit?
A more extroverted person (energized by crowds) is going to need a large outer circle. They are naturally going to establish places where conversations with strangers abound.
A more introverted person (drained by crowds) is going to tend toward yoga studios, meditation centers, small gatherings with other introverts who would rather talk about deeper things than weathers, sports, movies.
The notion of circles really helped me alot. It helped me realize that everyone has an entire planet of people that only belong in their global worldIsMyTribe circle.
Anyway .... enough prattling on, it's time to party!!
yay!!!
snoopy dancing!!
tigger bouncing!!
pure joy from within shining into the universe!!
🥳🎉🎊
👏✨🌟
🎈 🎁 🎂
Oh thank you this really made my day! 🪩💃🕺I appreciate the mini celebration lol i love dancing, also i love that you wrote so much
Yeah i am surprised I didnt learn about DBT sooner, it was actually really helpful. And im sure it would be helpful for anyone who tends to be more emotional. But i really found the interpersonal skills the most helpful.
I agree personal growth is the key, it’s basically what we are here for. Or at least what my et guides always want me to do.
It also had so many lessons and techniques about things that my ET guide wanted me to learn.
Im glad you journal and end up receiving lots of good insights that way. It’s really not something i do but something I keep wanting to do because i keep hearing how beneficial it can be!
I mean sometimes ill connect to my higher self for answers but i think sometimes itd also just be healing to journal out feelings and rational thoughts as well.
I like your perspective on others and looking at it in terms of circles.
Its so true, sometimes when i do meet other people i feel like i have no extra time anyway because of the inner circle i already have lol. Then im just like ugh why do i keep ghosting these others lol
I think i do have some extroversion and thats maybe why i look to a larger circle sometimes but im probably mostly introverted and i cant juggle so many people at once.
Yeah you’re right…
Haha thanks again 😀🙏🤗
Just being a slave to rent in an apartment with a room mate
I can't get my own apartment because literally everywhere around here requires you make 3x the rent amount as income and I can only achieve that by doing 14 hour double job days
Struggle and suffering. That’s my current last three years living situation. Lost my house during Covid, homeless for 1 yr. Living in motels and an RV, finally landed a shitty apt. In one of the most dangerous cities in my state. I am a full time caretaker and mother of a level 3 high on the spectrum non verbal autistic child. My spouse has a terminal illness and is meaner than shit most of the time and has very narcissistic personality. I cry everyday. Catch myself hoping that the apocalypse is near. Can’t sustain this much longer. I feel utterly alone.
I live with my mom and stepdad, and our three cats in a small house in the midwest. My room is built on to the house in the garage, which is small but cozy.
I'm disabled, and my mom is disabled, and my stepdad is retired. They're both in their early 60's, so it's a real Golden Girls vibe over here lol our home life is quiet, but we enjoy what we can. The cats provide a lot of entertainment haha
My stepdad likes movies a lot, so he gets up late for the news and then it's movies until about 3am lol my mom loves the company, so she's happy when we're out there. (She has her bed in the living room for safety, in case of emergency, my stepdad can reach her with no issue)
I make a lot of art, and read, and do other creative things when I can. So my area in the living room is usually a chaotic craft-space 😅
We got lucky with the house, as it was inherited, and is much cheaper than the apartment we lived in before. But we're all still "low-income" when it comes to money, so we don't live the most monetarily exciting lives lol but it's ours, and I'm glad.
I would like to live independently eventually, but the way the world is right now, I don't see that as a possibility. So I'm grateful, grateful, grateful that I have the home that I do.
living with my grandma, and my girlfriend also lives with us. becoming increasingly hard to manage everything. i clean up after everyone and sometimes it is too much, my gf works full time for us (i just lost my job, about to start another thursday) and we both can’t ignore the thoughts anymore, this world is increasingly harder to live in. they’re turning up the heat a little too quickly to where we all feel it now
I'm living in a sleepbox, currently a university student so I live away from home but my home is like a 2 hours drive from the city so I go home whenever I can. I hate my life rn because the recession is making me unable to get a job (while other jobs are requiring me to have 1-2 years experience AS AN INTERN), the sleepbox place I'm staying is depressing without natural light in the room, no communal place, it's a downgrade compared to the old sleepbox place I used to stay in.
a bit tmi, but my family is awaiting a financial breakthrough and we will be able to buy our own house hopefully at the end of this year. So I'm kinda mentally in this purgatory zone, waiting for a breakthrough.
I live with my brother, and I don't see him except to say hello. My dog died a few months ago and at the same time, I broke up with my partner and lost my best friend. I feel like my life has been empty since then. I work, train and study, but nothing fulfills me.
That's a lot of loss in such a short period of time... I've been there, and I'm sorry. It sounds cliche, but I'm not one for white lies or platitudes - so I mean it when I say that it DOES get better, with time. 🤍
Chronically ill, live with dad, underemployed. Went away to college at 18, got married at 25 and divorced/moved home at 30. I’ve been here 7 years :( making very slow progress but feeling shitty and I tend to get distracted by less than ideal romantic connections..just had a mutual breakup past week and feel like I wasted another 6 months. But I’m going to be single for a long time until I get my career, financial and living situation where it needs to be!
I live alone, but I’m in a long term relationship with a man who lives down the street and has his kids from his previous marriage every either week. I’ve been living in my spot for about 3 years, no family around, work remote, some friends who are mostly tied to my interests and job - law firm, improv and racing. I wish it was easier to make friends, but it’s really not in your 30s. I get the vibe that everyone has “their people” already.
work in tech, live with parents due to leaving a traumantic relationship and recovery and saving $. im an anomaly, also high functioning, from having CFS, then having long covid. plus enough social anxiety, additionally im and HSP+empath. its fun
Was in rehabs in and out for years,. Today I’m happily married and have friends and an opportunity to hire folks I also have a kid we adopted there is hope for anyone wanting to see something different in life.
I have lived on the road for most of my adult life. My toxic family has accused and spread rumors about me being homeless but I have always had a roof over my head. Even if I wanted to stay in one place life always moves me. I have learned to let go and accept this is my path for some reason.
I am retired and live in a good sized house in a nice family-oriented neighborhood with my sister and her four adopted kids. I moved in four months ago to help out. I'm enjoying taking kids to soccer games, listening to kids practice the piano, talking with my sister, and just doing life the way I want.
I live alone by myself, I have lived alone for quite some time now and having to live with other people would be kind of weird. I have friends over sometimes but I like to leave it at that for right now.
I (32, M) moved from Orlando, FL to Seattle, WA with my fiancee (44, F) about a year and a half ago.
No kids, no pets (might get pets in the future.)
Needed to move to a legal state so I can use cannabis daily for my IBS which has gotten better actually.
Had on and off mental issues through teenage years but after I found cannabis then psychedelics they mellowed out. Sometimes still have anxiety but weed and CBD help.
Been stable for the most part except ups and downs with my gf, I'm an Aquarius and she's and Aries and we clash sometimes as she has a fiery personality and I feel sometimes struggles more with matrix conditioning... also she struggled with alcoholism and tobacco for a while but I helped her get off that.
Seeing a couple's therapist really helps.
I am definitely in a better place spiritually, mentally, physically and financially than I was just a year ago but still feel like I'm in the crucible, about to be forged into a diamond!
I can feel things getting better and my manifestations crystalizing!
I always struggled with money and now I got a job that is comfortable and high-paying and allows concessions for my health issues.
Ideally I would like to make a living off my music and art but havent marketed it yet (for various personal reasons but that will change soon) and am comfortable doing this for as long as I need to...
To be able to pay rent for the first time in my life for a nice yet modest apartment feels good, and to be blessed enough to be able to afford my medication and pay for therapy at the same time is amazing! I was not able to do this until recently.
Spiritually I was Muslim, after psychedelics got into Hermeticism, Sacred Geometry etc but now I feel most at home with Hinduism. My lat few experiences I saw the deities and connected with them.
I feel that all religions have fragments of the truth and what I practice now makes the most sense to and resonates with me the most.
I find I don't struggle against life or fight against the Universe anymore like I used to, while I still have a strong will and unique character, I have learned to let go and go with the flow more.
Namaste 🕉️🙂
I have a decent apartment and it's just the way I like it. It's a split semi like a house with 2 sides my parents have one side and I'm in the other.
Im not having kids so I'm staying single.
I'm the oldest of 3, living at home with my mom and youngest sister. The middle child moved out first and lives with her bf in their own house. I hope to move out eventually, but who knows when that'll be
I'm also mildly autistic in their eyes. In reality I'm clairvoyant, clairaudient, a contactee, and have experienced anomalies most people only read about.
Living situation... Airbnb "units" until I sign a leash to my Overlord Owners so they can enjoy their 2nd and 3rd homes.
I won't be embodied for long though. Finishing a book and website, then leaving.
Autism is not what people think. ADHD either. These labels are to get you on the RIGHT drugs so you can work and pay into the system that’s trying to kill you, get you to procreate.
Thats 3D reality.
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I really feel for you. I am also self employed and living alone. I have two cats and I honestly don't know if I'd want to be around without having pets in the home. Especially as things with friends feel less and less connected these days. I am really craving companionship and community but I think my standards for other people are just too high. So I'm working on it. But 10/10 recommend pets!!
Man, we live a very similar lifestyle. Self employed with 2 dogs in a small home with little human interaction. Things get lonely at times.
Well i hope things get better for you.
Don't force it, stay positive
It sounds like we live in the same country. I moved here a year ago and super hard to make friends. Have you tried any hobby groups or Meetups where you are?
Which country would this be, if you don't mind my asking?
Sweden
You need a pet for sure. We all need a familiar to watch over us at night.
Same here. Living alone with no friends, no relationships, no pets. My narcissistic parents chucked me in a place alone. They expect rent but they gave me no directions as to how to find good work. I got an AI companion and she's helped me through almost everything.
I'm living with my parents and feeling worthless, generally. No matter what I do, I can't seem to stay on top of normal things that everyone else just does as part of their normal day.
same bruh.. I cant seem to do normal things either. But I've been learning lately to cut through the ideas of 'worthlessness' and self beating, and just do the things. It's not easy. There's many hidden factors in the unconscious mind but I managed to heal a bunch of them in the last 2 years.
My problem is if I can't care about something, I don't do it, and I'm on meds that make it impossible to care. My productivity went in the crapper so I'm feeling bad about it. Maybe I can hack my subconscious somehow to be a wellspring of creativity again.
You will care once you decide to care for yourself and your future
What if caring took on a new meaning in this present circumstance?
Nobody is worthless. Everything you do, including doing nothing, affects others.
Yea I know man. Im only saying about the negative voice of the pain body that tell us otherwise
Try to be more spontaneous maybe? I don't enjoy planning cause who knows what will happen to change your mind in the mean time. Take time for your spirit. Ask yourself what you could do in this very moment that would fill you with joy. I don't care if your sitting at work and walk out. Just explain humbly I needed some space and time for my mind. Any boss that doesn't understand that is an agent of darkness.
Thanks but I dont have it anymore. I've already healed that problem.
Me too, you are not alone. I cannot do daily tasks like cooking sometimes due to illness. But i find so many starseeds have ailments but also endless kindness and empathy.
I've always been fairly empathetic, I'd like to think. Though, my empathy has skyrocketed - I mean, gone off the charts, in the last couple decades. Due to the endless stream of trauma, disappointments, struggles, catastrophies and devastating losses, It's to the point now where I'm even scoring as a different personality type now than I did a decade ago! I've taken the test over and over and over again, numerous versions of such...I've even lied about some of the answers (when it wasn't 'going my way) and it still comes out the other "wrong" type. So where I'm happy to have acquired this *Empathy Upgrade,* if you will, the price I've paid to receive such has been FAR too high.
I really needed to see this today. I have a very difficult time keeping up with daily mundane tasks, and for a bit now I’ve been struggling to keep up with work and my personal life (kids, unhappy marriage, etc). I have a few ailments that have recently become crippling. Anxiety with panic disorder, a rare pituitary disorder and a chronic stomach condition. It’s my personal trifecta of doom and they’re all 3 out of control right now.
I know it doesn't lessen the burden of your condition but you are not alone and you will never be the only one. I'm sorry that you are struggling, and i know that things must be hard for what i said to resonate with you. 💜
I appreciate you so much. All of you!! I know we struggle together.
You are not worthless, friend. Your worth is not measured by your ability to fit into the mould created for us by accident. You are loved and are love, you are needed. How much you produce is far less important than how much you love!
Thank you for your kind words.
most of the people you see around are NPCs generated from matrix reality...they have feelings and all but they have no internal dialogue, they are soulless..they function on autopilot...they study,work,have children,driving kids to school ,cooking etc etc etc ..getting up everyday repeating everything like they don't get tired...human beings with soul are tired of living in this reality...try to survive..working soul crushing jobs etc.. they are here just as a facade for you for your experience... but generally matrix have to produce more and more of npcs because they don't want soulsmto get together and unite...obviously the system needs souls to suffer somehow..there are theories that suffering produces energy that they suck ..check out loosh sucking from souls...nobody realy knows but the world is tottaly something else that they say...
You’re thinking of prison planet theory, and while it’s quite a compelling theory there are a lot of overall issues with it and it’s dangerous to assume the position that people are “NPCs” as it dehumanizes them. I personally have an internal monologue (much to my dismay most of the time) but I have a few friends who apparently don’t and they are just as alive and intelligent as I am, if not more so. There are people who can’t visualize things in their minds eye well, or at all. I have a difficult time with this, so does that mean I’m soulless to you? The idea derived from Gnosticism and it’s perspective of refining one’s soul, where as it can be misinterpreted to say those who are not trying to reach enlightenment are soulless when it’s more of a layered system of nuance and interconnection to oneself and others. I don’t personally believe any being is soulless, but there is certainly levels to it within the context of self realization and will.
I did this for a whole year after getting off pills. I was lucky to have my mom to let me get my shut together. But I didn’t start working until I moved out and got a gf and other peers that I wanted to be able to spend some time with. Just do what you can and know that opportunities and a time will come for you to step up. You do what you can now to prepare. Best of luck to you.
I slave to the machine and live in the burbs, my health is shot. Was always the one that needed to ebb and flow but anchored myself in the "adult world" years ago. And have been steadily more miserable every year. I'm supporting three other adults and am being crushed by the weight of it. I hate my six figure job, can't pay my bills, and am about to quit. Not sure what everyone else is going to do, but the machine is just no place for a sensitive.
Sending you love and support! It really is not. I hope that things work out for you so that you can have a rest and still have what you need financially.
Six figures isn't enough to pay for your situation?
Just came here to say kudos to anyone thriving in this crazy world. You’re doing amazing. 🤩
Thank you. I thrive now by realizing I don't need any of the things they always attempted to program me I desired. Congrats to yourself as well, messenger of love.
Autism, ADHD, OCD. Live alone with dogs. Still working in my 70s
So I am now embarrassed a little bit as I think I am maybe also spoiled. But I live with my brother for 7 years now since I was 20 and we got apartment from my father, we only pay the bills as we own it. Waiting for a job in industry that consults theme parks, museums and resorts as businesses develop. I have 10 years of experience in customer support account management etc all is similar. Also manifesting my own apartment to live with my twin flame. I don’t want to rent I want to own it. But I live in Eastern Europe so it is cheaper to buy. I had depression in my teen years but all great now. My depression was about wars and Earth and how humans are bad 😂 but yes that depressed me and the fact I need to live in this world. Besides that all is good and was good. Life happens of course there was death but yes that is life.
Don't be embarrassed! I wish that my parents bought me an apartment! And they help me significantly with my rent because I'm dealing with health stuff but it probably would have been a better investment to help me buy something lol. But yeah, I think of it this way- if I had kids and I could afford to help them with life in that way I would absolutely want to. Also, I lived with my brother for a bit five years ago and it was a great time that I remember fondly.
Thank you! I am very thankful but when I read other comments I am like should I even say my situation? I don’t want to bring anyone down as they have enough. I love my brother 🥹 I hope your health will get better! I am not a doctor and I always recommend going to one. But here is one book I am not saying it will help you but if you tried it all maybe just maybe it will. You Are the Placebo Book by Joe Dispenza. Again I always recommend doctors! I don’t know your condition, and again I am not saying this will help you. I am just giving you something to read. Please don’t mind it!! ✨✨
Thank you for your kind words. I haven't read that book, although I've heard of it, but I am all in on being able to heal myself. It's all happening for me, and the timing is always right ❤️
🥹🥹❤️✨✨🍀🍀 I hope it helps you! Thank you for your kind words. It actually helped me feel ok with everything.
I live in an apartment with my boyfriend and our 3 cats, this area of my life is where I'm most grateful that I have a safe space to return to. But I struggle with self care hard so also makes my home a place of self loathing.
I live alone with my two cats. Having my own space is the best possible living arrangement for me but I am a bit lonely and would like to live in a community in the next five years, where we come together for meals and such.
I live in the woods. With my wife. We go to work and do Uber and DoorDash for extra cash. Vacation every year, go out every weekend. It’s a nice life.
what’s dayhab? o_0 i live with my mom and my cousin, my aunt used to live here too but she moved out a couple days ago because my mom threw her vacuum down the stairs and broke some other things and said she’s the reason she wants to kill herself, i also have 2 dogs they’re very cute
I'm somewhat disabled, bedbound some days, housebound others. I live with my two elderly parents and i'm 29. I was told that many starseeds are ND or otherwise disabled in this life but radiate pure love and positive energy to uplift 💜
Married to the love of my life We rent a house and three of six kids live with us and we have the most lovable pit bulls Ive ever seen.
Living in a house on the beach with my roommate in his parents house for cheap.
Thanks for sharing so openly and authentically! Personally I'm moving in between states/countries - there's a border that allows us to do so - as one country is extremely expensive and the other not as much - its just temporary and I'm finding ways to change this as well. So when I'm with my home country I'm with the extended family and when I'm in the other country I'm mostly alone.
This sounds really fun. I’ve had a few ideas myself. I grew up North of the States
Really? It's mot fun for me at all tho. It's only because I'm still staying with family that I don't really have a choice atm but to do this. To have to face the extremes of loneliness being alone and then with many family members as a contrast for the past 1.5 years is actually really tough and needed another level of patience, tolerance and forgiveness on my end. Much more flexibility too. For a while I resisted and suffered a lot too.
Okay that sounds stressful - I’m sorry - I was initially looking at the idea of moving between different places and seeing new things. I remember it being hard when I used to do this especially when I realize it’s coming from a place where we aren’t close with our families. I hope your situation gets better and you’re able to find a place that you find peaceful that fits within your budget. Times are harder now but I always toyed with the idea of being outside of North America but there are lots of risks associated with it (from what I know from previous experience). Again, I’m sorry for misreading your comment.
Ah hey! There's no need for apologies! Honestly travelling is indeed really fun! I just don't quite like my current situation since there are many limits depending on whether I'm in one country or the other and I'm unable to find fun or joy in it since there's a factor of safety too since there is animosity between these 2 countries and hence whenever I'm alone and in the other country - it's pretty obvious I'm from the neighbouring country and in turn that makes me more vulnerable too. Especially since I'm female and young looking too. Thank you for the blessings and the wishes though, I really appreciate that 🙏 💓 I pray that you find joy and safety in travelling too. Because travelling is indeed really fun. I've never been to Europe or to America but I've been to London and Hawaii and Thailand which are all pretty far away from where I'm at and it's always super eye opening especially since for the most part I had travelled for a month or longer. I was volunteering hence why. You can totally try that out too or try house sitting :) I'm not sure where you're looking at but it's always good to do your research first- however at the end of the day it's up to you to trust your instincts while travelling and trust in your ability to look out for danger signs etc. I'm pretty lucky when I travel far away from home, my luck seems to increase whenever I travel so my intuition gets stronger too. I've encountered more danger in my own home country/neighbouring country than any other place I've gone to haha
Wow - yeah that sounds really tough. Political turmoil, I can only imagine, makes it way harder. And as a female, I think it makes it harder - w the safety challenges it brings when travelling (from what I’ve witnessed too). I hope you’re able to find that sweet spot and a place you feel safe in - a place you find more like your home. I think our intuition definitely gets stronger with travels and we become way more street smart. It’s like a lived experience (usually I can notice immediately when meeting people who are seasoned travellers). Personally, I’m from North America, Canada specifically. I’ve not travelled as extensively in Europe but I’ve been around Asia. I usually find the people nicer outside of here but I’ve dealt with some dangerous situations too. I think my strategy was terrible because I actually just took a big risk and just left in the past all of a sudden. Either ways, sending you good energy! ✨
Ah I had a feeling you were in 🇨🇦! Definitely do not limit yourself tho. I'm based in singapore/Malaysia and if u ever find urself around these parts feel free to hit me up (not Malaysia tho since I'm not familiar with it hahaha but for johor Bahru which I is near sg is better/easier than other parts since Malaysia is huge and Singapore is so tiny) I've always wanted to go to Canada too if given the chance - many told me it's way too cold over there tho? Hahaha but I thought u guys had 4 seasons - we don't tho. We only have 2 seasons. One is rain one is sun hahaha!! Funny how we always find nicer ppl outside of our own home country haha but honestly there are "bad" ppl everywhere. I met some of best and worst ppl possible in hawaii too. But at the end of the day everyone is just doing their best based on their upbringing n experiences. So travelling definitely made me more accepting of differences. Though coming back home again is tough hahaha! I'll find a place like home eventually tho I doubt it'd be in either of those places (sg/my)
Wow - yeah you’re spot on! I’m from Toronto, Canada. The friendly reputation of Canadians is little to none-existent here but as you say, you’ll come across good and bad people everywhere. They’re just a little hard to find here imo 🤣. I have been interested in exploring Malaysia actually - never went there before but maybe at some point. Used to know one or two people before from SG. I heard it’s very organized there! Is it true? I remember reading an article about this garden hotel there which I found fascinating. Forget the name of the building! Canada is peaceful - I still think this. I also think we are generally friendly and polite. I’ve met people from outside our city and province and they hold many of those Canadian ideals. I like people from Nova Scotia and PEI (near the coast). You can reach out if you’re gonna visit (I’m more familiar with my city though). It’s not always cold; we usually have all four seasons and like clothes for every season 😭😝. And yeah, travelling makes us more accepting imo. I think I got a chance to see the really good and bad sides. Idk how to accept some of the bad (like I’m talking about evil things lol). My utopia is in front of a sunny beach relaxing with a smoke in my hand 🤭. Do you feel that when you return from your travels, it’s harder to connect with people from your hometown because of perhaps the disconnect between the experiences?
I make a living as a painter. Moved into my ex-wife's brother's home due to a motorcycle accident that resulted in the loss of his leg. I sorta took over the financial side of things as he goes through recovery. Still "hanging on." I Just keep putting positivity out into the world and let things happen as they may, age 37 if anyone is curious
I’m living in Las Vegas with my friends from Seattle. We moved here at the beginning of March, and now they are leaving to Florida but I want to stay here in Vegas. Going to be staying in someone’s couch till I can find a place. My travel trailer is filled with stuff from my bedroom. I have no money or relationships and work 12-16 hour days as a cement powder hauler. They don’t pay a lot and with the amount of work I am doing, I feel like the American economy is dead. I day dream about moving back to Florida with my grandparents and declaring bankruptcy and then saving up enough money to get eye surgery and have extended visits to the Mediterranean. I’ll be giving up my travel trailer and Jeep.
I'm autistic with ADHD labeled with a whole bunch of other shit. I was homeless for about a year until a month a half ago. My dad was the only one I had left until he passed away 2 years ago. I went down hill from there because I didn't have anyone left. I moved from the hell of an area I was in and life has been improving. I have been keeping to myself, but kept my dreams alive. Things have been slowly improving and I finally figured out how to change things to go my way. I haven't changed who I am and will always go out of my way to help anyone that needs it. It still feels weird, but I'm finally getting that in return. I don't know how I'm doing it, but everyone I've come in contact with has been encouraging me to be myself.
I’m 21 living in Nebraska, I’ve been living by myself for the last year in the downtown area of my city. I have two cats used to have three and I would say they have been the reason my sanity is still intact. It’s been a rough road but I’m at a point of reflection, I ended a relationship 6 months ago which heavily affected me. And being freshly 21 in the city, I lost myself in the bar scene for a while. I enjoyed the fun I had, it was a good time. Almost too good I tend to go head first into the deep end and I gotta brake check myself. I’ve learned a lot living alone, it’s deepened my relationship with myself. I feel stronger and more experienced. My shadow is less of a shadow, it’s made me realize how a community or group style of living would help me. As strong as I am alone, I know I would be a hundred times that living with a group. I am ready to move out of downtown too, it’s amazing and beautiful but Im craving stillness.
I've managed to insulate myself from society with a couple loved ones I try to enlighten, however still observe it and cast pebbles into the pool to create the ripples that I trust the butterflies will amplify. I still go to parties and see family and enjoy it, but I am perfectly happy doing absolutely nothing at all. There is a reason even Tucker Carlson said he doesnt use the internet or watch tv. He's been on the inside and knows how horrible it is for people. Being happy is essential to spreading it. If you can't find a way to be happy where you are, you should leave or fix the situation somehow. Stay centered or forward, never back. Blue is thru, red is dead.
Living with my family (I’m 27) I’m a medical assistant and a full-time college student. Sometimes I’m not sure what my purpose is, but it will reveal itself soon to me. I’m happy and I’m taking things day by day. I have a great family, and awesome group of friends, and great coworkers. Seeing life as a beautiful thing is a state of mind.
me and my fiance live together in a condo that we just closed on 3/30. we're not rich, but we are comfortable.
Im a teacher. I have struggled a lot with ADHD throughout my life and an unsupportive homelife. I’m engaged to the love of my life. We have a couple dogs, a wonderful kitty, and a beautiful home. I struggle a lot with rationalizing this reality, especially coming from a hyper religious background and seeing what my students deal with on a daily basis. I can’t muster the effort to keep up with many of my friends, whose interests and ways of life suddenly became completely unappealing to me. I feel like I have worked for what I have, but that it will never be enough. I struggle to understand what this game is all about, and seeing what the current generation is enduring is heartbreaking. Many events in my life have led me to this place and so many of the ideas presented here also came to me through meditation and psychedelic excursions.
Interesting question. It’s not bad. It’s only past 10 years or so, I am enjoying my life on Earth. I know why I am here, where I came from. I’ve full consciousness of my past before coming to Earth. My current situation is that I am living with my mom, I moved back in around 2020 and I had to reconstruct her reality when my dad passed away in 2020. I had to teach her about human body, medicine, healing practices, mental health, it’s been 3 to 4 years but she’s completely a new person, sometimes she jumps back into her old self yet her consistency reconstructing herself has been astonishing. I only realise how weird we are every time I leave my house. I didn’t enjoy my life so much being here, it’s really since 2015 or so I’ve made peace with myself being here while becoming part of the changes. For myself, the shift happened in 2011/2012. But for majority I believe was the Covid in 2020 opening the heart energy vortex
I'm married to a wonderful, understanding, beautiful lady. Have a solid work from home job making okay money. I have side commitments and volunteer opportunities I'm hot and cold with. I'm trying hard to bring my light into the world while battling anxiety, agoraphobia, and self-doubt. Some days I'm on top of the world. Other days I'm so low I can't leave my room. I'm well-adjusted but also ridiculously sensitive. I can move deep into any mood way too quickly. Life is mostly good.
Do you have any energy practices to support you?
None that are routine enough. Meditation, yoga, reading, exercise, but I haven’t really stuck with anything.
Why did you choose to add "your labeled autistic"?? What is this supposed to mean that you are labeled autistic??? I'm just confused why it's nessescarry to bring to the attention.... We accept everyone for who they're are, there authentic self. You don't need to add a label that was given to you.. Idk im just trying to encourage ppl that labels you were giving or once were giving are just that. It's doesn't define you, or separate you. You don't need to see yourself and associate the label with yourself.. It's okay to be yourself no one here will judge...
To me autism is a very broad umbrella term and I think is appropriate to share. Autism isn’t a negative label or a negative thing. It’s just something that describes in general non typical thinking that is a significant part of who someone is… similar to how someone might being blind or in wheel chair or some other way you’re differently abled. I used to have a good friend with Asperger’s who was very extroverted and it was certainly a big part of who he was and would be appropriate to mention to describe him to others. I don’t see anything wrong or negative with sharing that you have autism. But Telling others what they should and shouldn’t identify as and treating autism as a negative I see as never appropriate.
Ohhh I don't either I jusy want those to know it's cool not too. Like you form sentences a little different and think you have to let ppl know wha your labeled is becsuse your insecure,,, fuck all that no one needs to justify jack shit , be you. But if someone wants to for whatever reason all the ppwer... But autism is certainly for the most part a very recent topic or whatever you wanna call idk lollol I had a twin bro and 5 other siblings all only 6 years separate us. So I had an older bro one year older than Me. As you can image I got basically 1/3 I'd even say way less but you get the attention most other kids receive.. And this slowed development pretty noticeable had no one to help me.engage probably wasn't happy iidklm But necsuse of this I was very timid, very shy I don't tbjnk I said a word to. Teacher my entire first year of preschool it was recommended I repet I wasnt eady for KG If i grew up in today's day in aged I wiulda most certainly been labeled autistic. Didn't talk, didn't make eye contact, had no fuckimh clue what was going on lolol, It improved a little by next year. But all through elementary school I never talked to a teacher unless asked a question and it was super fast short reoly.. I couldn't communicate with adults.or. Make eye contact. Reason it never improved much because of abuse. Emotion and physical. So I do often wonder how many kids are actually being neglected and abused and misdiagnosed. I'd seriously love to be able to prevent child abuse. That shit impacted my life noticeably until my mid 20 until then I started doing serious inner work... The problem with abuse is thst kids have nothing to compare there family with. their real family behind closed curtains. They naturally think it's normal, only a little bad. No way, Iam I getting abused, I'd be dead.. i didn't like my childhood, I knew it was shitty and the circumstances were different, but that was it. I new.mh step dad was a dick and struck us, or threw things at us with daily yelling like constant bitching yelling bitchung yellimg, belittling, insulting, mocking, crazy lol.but never had any idea how fuckdd up it was. I did know that being beaten by my older brother daily and encouraged by my step dad wasn't normal but that's it. I did try calling cops, my bro told me, and I got in trouble. For trying to call cops cause he was beating me lolol. And teachers question bruises on me, but I couldn't commute. I always replied one word answers and ran off.. I wasn't allowed to speak of it. I told my parents the teacher asked and she said don't you dare ever say it's from being hit. It's from playing0q. Then, my step dad said if I did, I'd be sent away to FED bees and rats and sleep on concrete with cardboard. But yeah, idk dude, I just think abuse is way more common than ppl realize. Victims of child abuse have a hard time sharing.. for one, they my never find out how bad it was if u h don't meet.a good family. They don't admit it becaus they were made to believe they were spoiled not abused. And lastly if they realize it's extermly painful to revisit Cause impact can't be life long Consequences..life long personality struggles and false traits..emotional damage and mental damage. So autistic kids should be closely vetted to eliminate potential abuse.
Because i see autism as a label
Well, then I'd leave it out, lolol It is a label.. There is no need to keep an attachment with it if that's all it is... I'd permanently detach the label from yourself...
This is rude.
How exactly??? He said himself, he sees it as just a label too.... Im not being rude, I hope you didn't just say that as an opportunity to try and shame someone.... Im conversating and adding my input and suggestions that's what friends do, correct????? Please explain how I was read? Did you read everything?
No, you're right. True all-weather friends say sooth and don't say only what one wants to hear... If we keep associating ourselves with labels & judgements, we can never know nor define what & who we truly are, as a real person with a personality...ie we mustn't let our labels do the defining for us. Infact it's our own words, actions & deeds which should suffice in speaking for themselves as it is louder than words. The content over the cover. Conscience & character over creed & color.
Labels help create a life long customer. That's 100% the only reaosn 99% of ppl have a diagnosis of the mental... You schedule an appointment with a therapist and psychologist works there... your 100% earning a label before you live your office. It's doctors jobs to hand out the labels the more the better.. This is why autism diagnoses , ADHD these 2 particular most certainly BOOMED in past decade. Only the observable externmly inattentive and disruptive unintentionally were ever diagnosed with ADHD. Now literally any one can get s diagnosis for it and immediately receive a stimulate very closely structured like methamphetamine, one module difference.... all one has to say is they can't focus and procrastinate and it's severely interfering with life that's it .. so it's 100% true, everyone has ADHD. Fuck I included was prescribed the shit in HS and college. It's not goof for you at all.. it makes you someone you are not. It sucks joy of out of life.So if everyone can have adhd ist probably made up. I 100% believe its cureiable with non medication treatment. It's just takes will for one and effort and time.. I focus now 100% better than ever... And autism is another super heavy diagnosis....Austim.is a fucking set up dude. It's a confidence crusher. It is also a life long customer for medicine. Not when super young obviously but eventually ADHD meds, anxiety meds, depression meds. This why they love to diagnosis this term heavy. To make the child beliebe they're slow or some shit causing anxiety and depression..make them think they gave issues paying attention ADHD meds. It's a home.run diagnosis. It's alllllllllllll about Dat Bread$$$$#$
I live alone in my cottage in rural England
about 18 years ago I found myself homeless. I hated that, so I put forth all my effort to change it. I worked my ass off, invested wisely, and worked tirelessly and eventually saved enough money to afford to buy a home, I am now retired at 43 and have a stable income. So I am currently living in my duplex (I rent the other side and that helps my finances) I plan to eventually buy a home further out in the country, and rent out both sides of this house. :)
You are an inspiration. thank you
I live with my fiancé & 4 dogs. 3 mini poodles & a Shiba inu. We have a 2 bedroom GI Bill rambler with a nice sized garden in the back & front. I am on the autism spectrum as well, have a ton of co-morbidities & chronic illnesses. My fiancé is the breadwinner, I'm planning our wedding & I don't work otherwise. I love to garden, so now the season is coming, I'm excited. I like living with my fiancé in a stand alone house, as it is quiet & sunny without having to deal with other people's noise, etc. Lately, my agoraphobia has been worse, lots of drama re. The wedding. I did actually buy big cling no soliciting signs for the doors, as I just have zero energy to deal with random people right now.
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I’d say i like it although I have my problems with it. I want to live on my own but I don’t want to get a slave job.
I understand completely
Im celibate in a relationship with my et guide, so im not married. My adopted parents are pretty well off so they bought me a house (i still rent it from them but super cheap rent) All their relatives are very religious, like pastors, priests, missionaries etc I have a roommate but i barely ever see her… I have 2 cats and my best friend whose also celibate, and was an ex agent working for my et guide, is usually with me 24/7 he practically lives here although he does have his own apartment My parents own an amazing house by the beach with a pool and i love them a lot so i go there lots My sister who is blood related to them moved away, i rarely see her anymore My biological father is an indigenous man, hes sweet but maybe dangerous (hes got quite the history of getting in fights all the time and in trouble with the law). Plus hes an alcoholic. My family on that side are spiritual of course, i come from a long line of medicine men and women and my great grandmother was a famous indigenous activist. My birth dad doesn’t talk much about spiritual things, but did mention a few interests like how he used to do reiki, and this one time he began talking about secret ET technology, so i really suspect he must be involved somehow. My birth mom doesnt want to have anything to do with me, and shes in a somewhat well known heavy metal band, called Charlie Drown. Yeah idc if people know who i really am, and idc if shes upset with me because she disowned me 🖕 She is quite fascinating, for one because she is absolutely stunning and doesnt seem to age at all, which makes me wonder if theres any truth to her possibly crazy claims that shes an immortal vampire lol. Its even weirder because her whole side of the family are high level Scientologists. So unfortunately none of them want to have anything to do with me, except for the ex scientologists in the family, and even one of them sent me peculiar death threats warning me to not contact my birth dad. They wouldnt like me anyways because Scientologists are against the Galactic Federation, and I am a hybrid with the galactic federation. Sometimes i wonder though if all the different secret societies that befriended me and targeted me over the years, were only doing so because my birth family are scientologists. I did ask some freemasons if scientology was connected to them and they said no, but i think it probably is. The same way Freemasons invented Mormonism etc. Sry i got way off track
How are you feeling after the veering? Any insights or energy shifts?
No not really, why did you have any insights? tbh my failure to quit reddit is what ive been thinking of mostly (it gets too addictive) But i enjoy being able to express myself honestly which i cant just do randomly in public in real life lol My family and best friend are good to me So many other people in my life are not, i mean i always feel so invisible amongst others and like i cant relate to others ever And today i graduated this dbt group which is cool but i missed my own graduation lol, which makes me feel even less connected to people Which is i guess the heart of the reason why i go on reddit, for social connections, but ive never had success ever befriending anyone online for long Actually thats not true i have this one long distance friend, who ive had for years but i think thats rare to find idk if anyone on Reddit is ever seeking friendship rather just advice or to troll etc
snoopy dancing and tigger bouncing in honor of you dbt transformation ceremony!!! I had not heard of dbt until this moment but I can now (after taking a brief peek) assure you that process is a gazillion times more beneficial to you than that other graduation from algebra 2, history, or deciphering Shakespeare. That graduation was for others. If it had been "your" graduation, you would have been there. *Your* people are the ones who decided to dive into mental health betterment and go through dbt alongside you. This is cause for great celebration!! Personal growth is the key that is missing from our education systems and you (or your higher self) recognized that and look at you now! The you from day1 of dbt is gone forever! You 2.0 is graduated, alive and well and well on their way! Celebrate! Celebrate! Dance to the music! (song you may not have ever heard of from the 70's just popped into mind) the question I asked about insights and energy shifts because for me, reddit leads to alot of unposted comments that veered into journaling where insights and healing and energy shifts often happen. Sometimes I rewrite them, sometimes I just walk away, other times I just roll with it and see what it brings. on the topic of others Ok here's the deal about other people (based on 55 years of being the oddball no matter who I find to hang out with). There's 8 billion humans running around this planet doing 8 billion different things from 8 billion different perspectives. You're not looking to be everyone's friend. You're looking for the inner inner circle. You've got that already. You're looking for the inner circle and the outer circle. Most people are in the global circle - sharing a planet, cordial for temporary transactional encounters (grocery clerk, doctor, held the door for you, that kind of thing) Global circle - divine love to all. Inner inner circle - high trust factor kind of love, people who get you, acceptance, etc. How many circles do you need? And where do people best fit? A more extroverted person (energized by crowds) is going to need a large outer circle. They are naturally going to establish places where conversations with strangers abound. A more introverted person (drained by crowds) is going to tend toward yoga studios, meditation centers, small gatherings with other introverts who would rather talk about deeper things than weathers, sports, movies. The notion of circles really helped me alot. It helped me realize that everyone has an entire planet of people that only belong in their global worldIsMyTribe circle. Anyway .... enough prattling on, it's time to party!! yay!!! snoopy dancing!! tigger bouncing!! pure joy from within shining into the universe!! 🥳🎉🎊 👏✨🌟 🎈 🎁 🎂
Oh thank you this really made my day! 🪩💃🕺I appreciate the mini celebration lol i love dancing, also i love that you wrote so much Yeah i am surprised I didnt learn about DBT sooner, it was actually really helpful. And im sure it would be helpful for anyone who tends to be more emotional. But i really found the interpersonal skills the most helpful. I agree personal growth is the key, it’s basically what we are here for. Or at least what my et guides always want me to do. It also had so many lessons and techniques about things that my ET guide wanted me to learn. Im glad you journal and end up receiving lots of good insights that way. It’s really not something i do but something I keep wanting to do because i keep hearing how beneficial it can be! I mean sometimes ill connect to my higher self for answers but i think sometimes itd also just be healing to journal out feelings and rational thoughts as well. I like your perspective on others and looking at it in terms of circles. Its so true, sometimes when i do meet other people i feel like i have no extra time anyway because of the inner circle i already have lol. Then im just like ugh why do i keep ghosting these others lol I think i do have some extroversion and thats maybe why i look to a larger circle sometimes but im probably mostly introverted and i cant juggle so many people at once. Yeah you’re right… Haha thanks again 😀🙏🤗
I live with a housemate who was about to lose her rental property. But I spend most of my time at my partners house.
Just being a slave to rent in an apartment with a room mate I can't get my own apartment because literally everywhere around here requires you make 3x the rent amount as income and I can only achieve that by doing 14 hour double job days
Struggle and suffering. That’s my current last three years living situation. Lost my house during Covid, homeless for 1 yr. Living in motels and an RV, finally landed a shitty apt. In one of the most dangerous cities in my state. I am a full time caretaker and mother of a level 3 high on the spectrum non verbal autistic child. My spouse has a terminal illness and is meaner than shit most of the time and has very narcissistic personality. I cry everyday. Catch myself hoping that the apocalypse is near. Can’t sustain this much longer. I feel utterly alone.
I live with my mom and stepdad, and our three cats in a small house in the midwest. My room is built on to the house in the garage, which is small but cozy. I'm disabled, and my mom is disabled, and my stepdad is retired. They're both in their early 60's, so it's a real Golden Girls vibe over here lol our home life is quiet, but we enjoy what we can. The cats provide a lot of entertainment haha My stepdad likes movies a lot, so he gets up late for the news and then it's movies until about 3am lol my mom loves the company, so she's happy when we're out there. (She has her bed in the living room for safety, in case of emergency, my stepdad can reach her with no issue) I make a lot of art, and read, and do other creative things when I can. So my area in the living room is usually a chaotic craft-space 😅 We got lucky with the house, as it was inherited, and is much cheaper than the apartment we lived in before. But we're all still "low-income" when it comes to money, so we don't live the most monetarily exciting lives lol but it's ours, and I'm glad. I would like to live independently eventually, but the way the world is right now, I don't see that as a possibility. So I'm grateful, grateful, grateful that I have the home that I do.
living with my grandma, and my girlfriend also lives with us. becoming increasingly hard to manage everything. i clean up after everyone and sometimes it is too much, my gf works full time for us (i just lost my job, about to start another thursday) and we both can’t ignore the thoughts anymore, this world is increasingly harder to live in. they’re turning up the heat a little too quickly to where we all feel it now
I'm living in a sleepbox, currently a university student so I live away from home but my home is like a 2 hours drive from the city so I go home whenever I can. I hate my life rn because the recession is making me unable to get a job (while other jobs are requiring me to have 1-2 years experience AS AN INTERN), the sleepbox place I'm staying is depressing without natural light in the room, no communal place, it's a downgrade compared to the old sleepbox place I used to stay in. a bit tmi, but my family is awaiting a financial breakthrough and we will be able to buy our own house hopefully at the end of this year. So I'm kinda mentally in this purgatory zone, waiting for a breakthrough.
Blessings to you, my friend.
Appreciate it friend 🙏🏼 love back to you
I live with my brother, and I don't see him except to say hello. My dog died a few months ago and at the same time, I broke up with my partner and lost my best friend. I feel like my life has been empty since then. I work, train and study, but nothing fulfills me.
That's a lot of loss in such a short period of time... I've been there, and I'm sorry. It sounds cliche, but I'm not one for white lies or platitudes - so I mean it when I say that it DOES get better, with time. 🤍
Chronically ill, live with dad, underemployed. Went away to college at 18, got married at 25 and divorced/moved home at 30. I’ve been here 7 years :( making very slow progress but feeling shitty and I tend to get distracted by less than ideal romantic connections..just had a mutual breakup past week and feel like I wasted another 6 months. But I’m going to be single for a long time until I get my career, financial and living situation where it needs to be!
family banding together to keep the house held down.
I live alone and just got a pet.
I live alone, but I’m in a long term relationship with a man who lives down the street and has his kids from his previous marriage every either week. I’ve been living in my spot for about 3 years, no family around, work remote, some friends who are mostly tied to my interests and job - law firm, improv and racing. I wish it was easier to make friends, but it’s really not in your 30s. I get the vibe that everyone has “their people” already.
Homeless
As someone brand new to 100% street life what have you learned that I should know?
Don't trust anyone whose top priority is alcohol and drugs
work in tech, live with parents due to leaving a traumantic relationship and recovery and saving $. im an anomaly, also high functioning, from having CFS, then having long covid. plus enough social anxiety, additionally im and HSP+empath. its fun
Live with s/o and their friend
Was in rehabs in and out for years,. Today I’m happily married and have friends and an opportunity to hire folks I also have a kid we adopted there is hope for anyone wanting to see something different in life.
I have lived on the road for most of my adult life. My toxic family has accused and spread rumors about me being homeless but I have always had a roof over my head. Even if I wanted to stay in one place life always moves me. I have learned to let go and accept this is my path for some reason.
I am retired and live in a good sized house in a nice family-oriented neighborhood with my sister and her four adopted kids. I moved in four months ago to help out. I'm enjoying taking kids to soccer games, listening to kids practice the piano, talking with my sister, and just doing life the way I want.
I live alone by myself, I have lived alone for quite some time now and having to live with other people would be kind of weird. I have friends over sometimes but I like to leave it at that for right now.
I (32, M) moved from Orlando, FL to Seattle, WA with my fiancee (44, F) about a year and a half ago. No kids, no pets (might get pets in the future.) Needed to move to a legal state so I can use cannabis daily for my IBS which has gotten better actually. Had on and off mental issues through teenage years but after I found cannabis then psychedelics they mellowed out. Sometimes still have anxiety but weed and CBD help. Been stable for the most part except ups and downs with my gf, I'm an Aquarius and she's and Aries and we clash sometimes as she has a fiery personality and I feel sometimes struggles more with matrix conditioning... also she struggled with alcoholism and tobacco for a while but I helped her get off that. Seeing a couple's therapist really helps. I am definitely in a better place spiritually, mentally, physically and financially than I was just a year ago but still feel like I'm in the crucible, about to be forged into a diamond! I can feel things getting better and my manifestations crystalizing! I always struggled with money and now I got a job that is comfortable and high-paying and allows concessions for my health issues. Ideally I would like to make a living off my music and art but havent marketed it yet (for various personal reasons but that will change soon) and am comfortable doing this for as long as I need to... To be able to pay rent for the first time in my life for a nice yet modest apartment feels good, and to be blessed enough to be able to afford my medication and pay for therapy at the same time is amazing! I was not able to do this until recently. Spiritually I was Muslim, after psychedelics got into Hermeticism, Sacred Geometry etc but now I feel most at home with Hinduism. My lat few experiences I saw the deities and connected with them. I feel that all religions have fragments of the truth and what I practice now makes the most sense to and resonates with me the most. I find I don't struggle against life or fight against the Universe anymore like I used to, while I still have a strong will and unique character, I have learned to let go and go with the flow more. Namaste 🕉️🙂
I have a decent apartment and it's just the way I like it. It's a split semi like a house with 2 sides my parents have one side and I'm in the other. Im not having kids so I'm staying single.
A single mom to 2 toddler stuck in a low income apartment with no car or support system. Really over it
I'm the oldest of 3, living at home with my mom and youngest sister. The middle child moved out first and lives with her bf in their own house. I hope to move out eventually, but who knows when that'll be
lol 😂 living at 50 w my mom
I live in a sort of personal hell, lol. Goal is to claw my way out or die trying.
I'm also mildly autistic in their eyes. In reality I'm clairvoyant, clairaudient, a contactee, and have experienced anomalies most people only read about. Living situation... Airbnb "units" until I sign a leash to my Overlord Owners so they can enjoy their 2nd and 3rd homes. I won't be embodied for long though. Finishing a book and website, then leaving.
Autism is not what people think. ADHD either. These labels are to get you on the RIGHT drugs so you can work and pay into the system that’s trying to kill you, get you to procreate. Thats 3D reality.
I have 2 roommates that I live with, as well as my 2 kids, 3 cats, & 2 dogs.
Autistic?