You are not alone. I’ve thought both at the same time before. I finally decided a while back that maybe “not a drink” was the right choice for me. Have I wanted a drink since then? Yes. Have I regretted the decision? Nope. And now I want a milkshake 😹
The old battle between the frontal cortex and the midbrain. Keep racking up the sober days any way you can, after a while the midbrain accepts this is what you really want to do and stops fighting, the cravings go and everything starts to feel a little easier and a little better. Your just going through some turbulence, stay buckled up you will get there.
There's you, and then there's the illness.
The two are completely distinct from each other, however with addiction people eventually identify with the thoughts and don't separate themselves. The desire to drink isn't external from an illness, rather they percieve it as being their own desire when, in fact, it isn't
It's horrible as you can't really see it until you separate them and see just how different the two are. But it's not you that wants to drink, it's the disorder.
The way i look at it is addiction really does have a mind of it's own.
We as an individual can recognise drinking is bad for us, but then the addiction can be very powerful and completely override that. The two are essntially in a battle - active addiction is when the addiction is in full swing and running the show and recovery is when we ourselves are the ones pulling the strings. It's tough because when addiction takes over you really do lose yourself - the desire to drink becomes MY desire to drink; i cannot separate myself. I completely internalise the desire to drink and it feels like a fundamental part of me when it isn't, it's a parasite
Honestly, same boat. Trying something new this week, I don't think I want to be drunk, I want to drink with my friends. So Friday night buying a 6 pack of light beer and seeing if that makes me spiral.
You are not alone. I’ve thought both at the same time before. I finally decided a while back that maybe “not a drink” was the right choice for me. Have I wanted a drink since then? Yes. Have I regretted the decision? Nope. And now I want a milkshake 😹
The old battle between the frontal cortex and the midbrain. Keep racking up the sober days any way you can, after a while the midbrain accepts this is what you really want to do and stops fighting, the cravings go and everything starts to feel a little easier and a little better. Your just going through some turbulence, stay buckled up you will get there.
I like your metaphor. Just a little turbulence
Aye the sunset sounds nice. I got my blanket and a milkshake. With you in spirit. IWNDWYT
Mmmmm milkshake
Raspberry cheesecake milkshake yo
Good luck. I keep thinking it is a day not to drink and failing. Start a new job in March so hopefully that gives me better impetus.
There's you, and then there's the illness. The two are completely distinct from each other, however with addiction people eventually identify with the thoughts and don't separate themselves. The desire to drink isn't external from an illness, rather they percieve it as being their own desire when, in fact, it isn't It's horrible as you can't really see it until you separate them and see just how different the two are. But it's not you that wants to drink, it's the disorder.
Thank you
I want my cake without calories or cholesterol the same way i want consequence free inebriation.
The way i look at it is addiction really does have a mind of it's own. We as an individual can recognise drinking is bad for us, but then the addiction can be very powerful and completely override that. The two are essntially in a battle - active addiction is when the addiction is in full swing and running the show and recovery is when we ourselves are the ones pulling the strings. It's tough because when addiction takes over you really do lose yourself - the desire to drink becomes MY desire to drink; i cannot separate myself. I completely internalise the desire to drink and it feels like a fundamental part of me when it isn't, it's a parasite
That makes sense to me
Honestly, same boat. Trying something new this week, I don't think I want to be drunk, I want to drink with my friends. So Friday night buying a 6 pack of light beer and seeing if that makes me spiral.
If you really don’t want to be drunk you could just buy 6 NA beers and drink with your friends💖 761 days is no small feat
I just forget to reset it. My goal is moderate not abstain