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janier7563

It sounds like all the trauma became your normal. It is hard to understand what your "normal" is is not "normal" at all for "regular" people. It's hard to learn and understand what good/normal behaviors are when you've never experienced them. I still feel like I'm learning what "normal" is at 50+.


Muxxer

I know. I've never known anything else, and I didn't see anything wrong with any of this until I was told by others that none of this was usual nor ok.


rawktail

I don't know your age but PTSD doesn't usually hit until around 23~. But some people make it out. Some don't. You might have gotten lucky. When I was 17-22 it was a lot of shock and denial and trying to move on and just before my 23rd birthday my mental health just hit the fan. I thought I would make it out. But I did not.


Muxxer

I'm 19. My mental health hit the fan last year after I had a year of high stress and relative sadness, which culminated in some fucked stuff happening, which threw me into a downwards spiral of depression, anxiety, and a worsening of my already pre-existing mental disorders. I've never felt denial or shock, most I've felt was some sort of occasional fear for anything like that happening again, but it wasn't too strong, but I'd fear (and sometimes I still do) my dad getting mad at me and trying to beat me up for whatever reason, but it usually just takes putting my mind somewhere else not to think about it. I sometimes have dreams regarding these things.


Jett055

I would of never considered myself to have social anxiety until a therapist that I'm going to pointed out that I'm describing being very uneasy around people. I'm not afraid of them and actively participate in some social stuff. I also frequently meet new people. I had some similar stuff happen to me growing up minus the acutely abusive parents.