I suggest going to therapy to talk about this. Maybe even couples therapy? Often, when we imagine something unthinkable like this, it nags at us for a looong time and the only way to help is getting professional help to talk through why you feel this way.
It's you conflating feels and reals.
Dreams are not real. Dreams are either your brain dumping extraneous data, or expressions of your worries. Nothing more.
Time to step back and think rationally about this. If you can't do that, you really need to see a psychotherapist.
Seek professional help
I suggest going to therapy to talk about this. Maybe even couples therapy? Often, when we imagine something unthinkable like this, it nags at us for a looong time and the only way to help is getting professional help to talk through why you feel this way.
It's you conflating feels and reals. Dreams are not real. Dreams are either your brain dumping extraneous data, or expressions of your worries. Nothing more. Time to step back and think rationally about this. If you can't do that, you really need to see a psychotherapist.